02.21.2024, 12:14AM
It’s been a little over two years since I last updated.
It’s weird reading the last post. All that hopelessness, felt.
Can’t believe this tumblr still exists along with my other ones too.
After my last post, I spent 2022 healing and rehabilitating myself. I started therapy again, and have been going bi-weekly ever since. I cut down my hours at work to give myself time to just breathe. I’m thankful for being able to do that. Then, I started going to the gym regularly. I took a liking to lifting and mobility drills. It was a much needed refocus.
M and I both got along better as well. I think seeing me take a break allowed M to breathe easier too.
Towards the end of 2022, I was afraid to put any faith in this feeling I had, but I was sensing a change coming.
M and I both decided we’d try again for a baby. For me, this meant my last try. I made a promise to myself.
It happened a lot faster than I anticipated. We were expecting again by January 2023. I took it day by day. It was a physically and emotionally challenging pregnancy.
I ended up quitting my job during the 2nd trimester. Partly due to awful dizzy spells I was having (with no end in sight), and partly because I was just ready to move on from that place. Again, I am thankful to have been able to do that with M’s help and encouragement.
There were a few scares, many tears, lots of discomfort. But all in all, I handled the challenges well. Honestly, I surprised myself.
On September 24th,2023, I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. She is almost 5 months old now.
So much in such a short amount of time has happened. Even in just these past 5 months, our baby girl has changed so much from when I first held her in my arms.
All I can say is… I am grateful.
