My mouth’s health is getting serious. I’m trying to face a huge depression since I’ve been told that my teeth has to get like eight root canal treatments done, another treatment for my gums, a dental disease called bruxism and my upper molar has come apart in two pieces.
THE DENTIST WANTS ME TO PAY A BUDGET OF 1000$ (crazy), desperately I’m trying my best to get a job cause my family is now broke but my mouth is getting worse and worse…
I’m so distressed that I just don’t know who can I turn to for help, that’s why I’m taking advantage of my amount of followers asking for a little help by means of small donations just to see if I can get at least a bit of hope.
I’m sorry for doing this but I must admit I’m too scared. I’d never thought I would reach this point but… I’ll be eternally pleased, so thanks in advance.
I’m sure you already know something about this petition, but I totally forgot to post it here. Please, if you haven’t signed it yet, do it now. Maybe if we get tons of people, EA will finally hear us
So please, spread this link like the fire that burned Alice’s house! LOL
I’m trying to decide on the types of suits to use for the deck. Here are my options right now.
1. Playing card suits. Hearts, diamonds, spades, clubs. Each of these already correlates with one of the regular tarot suits, and much of the Alice imagery already contains chess and card suits, so this wouldn’t be much of a stretch.
2. Just elements. Cups = water, wands = fire, pentacles = earth, and swords = air (probably “wind.”)
3. Suits related to game imagery. Pentacles = gears, swords = (Vorpal) blades, cups = teacups, and wands = teeth or bones.
4. Suits correlated with Alice’s weapons. Swords = (vorpal) blades, cups = teapot (canon)s, wands = hobby horses, pentacles = pepper (grinder). In this case, the aces of each suit would be the weapon posters.
Or, something else entirely. Are there any of these you don’t like, or any you do?
Well why not do the suits based of Alice’s pickups or stuff that you see in the game that revolves around Alice. Rose represents her hearts/cups, the vorpal blade is her spade/swords, maybe if you do the teeth for clubs/wands you should do butterflies for diamonds/pentacles.
I’m trying to decide on the types of suits to use for the deck. Here are my options right now.
1. Playing card suits. Hearts, diamonds, spades, clubs. Each of these already correlates with one of the regular tarot suits, and much of the Alice imagery already contains chess and card suits, so this wouldn’t be much of a stretch.
2. Just elements. Cups = water, wands = fire, pentacles = earth, and swords = air (probably “wind.”)
3. Suits related to game imagery. Pentacles = gears, swords = (Vorpal) blades, cups = teacups, and wands = teeth or bones.
4. Suits correlated with Alice’s weapons. Swords = (vorpal) blades, cups = teapot (canon)s, wands = hobby horses, pentacles = pepper (grinder). In this case, the aces of each suit would be the weapon posters.
Or, something else entirely. Are there any of these you don’t like, or any you do?
So... I haven’t posted on this blog in basically nine months. Here’s a very wordy update for those who are interested. First the technical blog stuff, then a bit of a personal explanation.
The cards: yes, I will be continuing this deck. I’m sort of doing a refresher, though, and redoing some of the cards and possibly the size/format. I may change the suits up, that sort of thing. The reasons are that a) I know a lot more about tarot than when I started, and I’d rather re-think the basics of the deck while there are only a few cards done than keep going for the sake of progress and secretly regret it. b) One way or another, I’m going to distribute this deck. I’ll post details about that later. When I started, I had absolutely no idea anyone would actually be interested in the deck, so I wasn’t being terribly disciplined about whose screenshots etc. I was using, since it was just for fun (and I also had a pretty weak concept of how credit on the internet works, unfortunately... so my apologies to anyone whose screenshots I failed to credit). At this point, it would be terribly wrong of me not to make absolutely sure that I’m not stealing someone’s screenshot that they very well might have spent hours trying to get. So I’ll need to go through the Alice folder that’s been sitting on a USB stick for months and make sure I know where and who all the images come from.
TL;DR - I’m semi-starting over the deck with a lot more knowledge and preparedness, I will be distributing it once it’s done, and (yeah, I know, this is like the 6th time I’ve said this and all the other times it turned out to be a dirty, dirty lie) I’m actually going to stick with it this time.
I’m so sorry to everyone who showed such amazing support and enthusiasm about the deck, only to have me be lazy and neglect it. I hope I can make it up to you by doing a good job this time around.
Personal update below, including some very negative stuff:
A lot has happened since I’ve last posted here, mostly having to do with mental health. There’s a lot of mutiny going on in my brain - anxiety, ocd - but the big killer has been depression. Depression severely affected my experience as a student during last year’s fall semester, and it completely ruined this past spring semester. I went from a straight-A (more or less...) student to failing two classes and barely scraping by in my other ones. I missed most of my finals because I ended up in the hospital. Things were not good. A piece of advice: if you ever end up needing to stay in a psych ward, try to bring a book.
I took it easy all summer, and I’m back in school again, taking a lot less classes and a lot more meds. The good news is that I’m doing a lot better, and being a lot more realistic about how “bad” I really am, rather than trying to take on a lot more than I’m capable of handling right now.
The most important thing I’ve learned from all this - other than exactly how much a hospital charges for a week’s vacation in a locked ward (hint: a lot) - is that if you’re struggling with a mental illness, it’s okay to lower your everyday expectations for yourself. If it takes twice as much effort for you as it does for a non-mentally-ill person to shower more than once a week... then expect half as much from yourself. Or whatever fraction fits you best, for whatever you struggle with. Forgive yourself, and focus on yourself. You can’t get better by pointing at everyone around you and saying “look, they can all do this without a problem, you should be able to do it too!” and trying to guilt yourself into getting better. Instead, try to be proud of yourself for what you can do, and kind to yourself for what you can’t.
I’ve also recently started a semi-personal blog (no personally identifying information, since there are several people on tumblr who I would prefer to keep separate from this blog), which will be dedicated to my healing, mental health, and learning witchy practices and tarot. I’ll probably link that blog here sometime in the near future. One of the reasons I’m feeling confident about actually creating this deck this time around is because tarot has become a much bigger part of my life. When I started this blog, I was a newbie to tarot, and over the past year it went on the back burner because I was not only distracted by everything else that was going on, but tarot ended up on the list of “things I used to enjoy, but which now only succeed in making me feel the way lukewarm porridge tastes because my emotions have decided to go on indefinite holiday.”
I’m also working on another tarot deck, which I’m actually making using my own artistic skills - hence, the quality in art will be much lower, but at least I’m having fun ??
Since I’m semi-starting over the deck, it might be a little while before I put any cards out. I’ll need to rethink all the technical aspects and make sure I’m happy with them - but I’ll be in touch. What I do know is that Alice is still 0 and the Cheshire Cat is still 2. And there’s a possibility that, after having explored my options of actually printing the deck, I might change the size ratio of the cards, but otherwise those cards will look basically the same.
Anyways, if you made it this far, thanks for reading. I hope you’re doing well, and if not, then know that I’m sending good thoughts your way.
Will you possibly be selling copies of the Alice calander you're making?
As much as I'd like to, I don't really have the resources (or the time) to produce calendars right now. In the upcoming explanatory post for the calendar materials, I'll list some sites that create custom calendars, and I'll also see if I can find some DIY resources (in addition to the way I made mine).
Here are 10 more calendar-sized images. I have a purple recolor of the fish picture, and a few more images to post, and then I'll wrap this whole calendar thing up with some final info.
Hello everyone! I realize I've been absent for quite some time. During that time, however, I've made myself a calendar - from AMR art, of course! And I thought maybe some other people would enjoy it too. Over the next few days, I'll be posting the remaining images, as well as some supplementary stuff - what I did to label the images by month, and some of the actual calendar grid pages.
Basically, with a little bit of assembly, a photo editing program, a printer, and some paper, you're all set to make a calendar.
To be clear: the way I created my calendar was very DIY. I'll list the kinds of paper I used and how I put it together (because I think it looks gorgeous, despite being held together by an old 3-ring binder), but this is by no means a definitive guide.
So, to the images!
All of these pictures are sized to fit 8.5 x 11" paper (including the black stripe on the bottom). I did quite a bit of stretching and cropping to get these images to this size, so if you have paper with slightly different dimensions, I guarantee you can re-size the images on your computer without making them look warped. You may notice that some pictures look sharper than others, and you would be right. The top right picture with the cat, for instance, was simply low res to begin with. I tried to find the best quality versions of each image, but in some cases that still wasn't very impressive. I did my best to sharpen them. Someone with better photoshop skills than I might be able to tweak them some more.
The black bar at the bottom of each image is for the binding rings. Like I said, my method wasn't exactly high-tech; I used a 3-hole puncher at the bottom of each page. Again, if this bothers you, you can stretch the picture without making it look too different.
I put the name of each month in the bottom center of the image, in the Supernatural font, on top of an image from the AMR art book. An example:
I'll post this image in a blank .png form in a following post.
Other fonts I can recommend are here ("The Last Font I'm Wasting on You" and "Anywhere" are the ones I use for the tarot cards).
Obviously, I do not own any of these images. I just put them in photoshop, edited them, and re-sized them. The edited images are usually much more vibrant than the originals, and more balanced, so they stand on their own. My favorite image is the ship in the bottle - my printer and paper went above and beyond my expectations, and the final product looks just like the image - for once.
More images to follow soon, as well as supplemental stuff and things!
This card is about bonding, in either a friendship or a romance. Not dramatic or revelationary in nature, this card tells of a quiet, simple intimacy shared between two (or more) people; complete understanding without need of an explanation. So to speak, it is a sign that you've found your soul mate.
Two friends may be able to spend an hour in total silence, and still share more than some people do in a lifetime. The two of sanity tells of a person with whom you can truly be yourself, with no worries of self-presentation or secrets kept from each other. There is no anxiety that this person is judging you, or misinterpreting you. You understand each other's thoughts and emotions completely, and taking a moment to recognize that understanding is an opportunity that should not be lost. Sharing simple moments in such relationships can create the most rewarding memories of a lifetime. Don't waste the moment; friends like these are few and far between.
It will be! I have a few of the cards decided already, although I'm having trouble finding an image to represent Wonderland that will fit on a vertical card...
(Thank you for the other suggestions as well, which were the key to Lizzie's room as the Hanged Man, and Alice's various dresses as the queens. I really appreciate the input!)
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