Shipper Rambling

Book loving, crafty, medical and crime based TV fan, hopeless romantic and passionate 'shipper. And cheese. I really like cheese. .................................................. *Berena* *Caskett* *B&B*

[berena-thasmin-anythinggay]

Oh we went from this...

To this....

Ahhhhhh! Have a lovely wedding to the future Mrs and Mrs Wolfe 🏳️‍🌈👩🏻‍❤️‍👩🏼 ♥️

[werewolfoftheyear]

Behind the scenes

Jemma looks great!

[alielpez]

OMG, there is a veritable EXPLOSION of the best Berena fic writers on AO3 today!!!

[alielpez]

A couple of days later, and the thing that still really rankles the most is the implication that Bernie cheated on Serena too. I mean, it was bad enough we had to swallow the Serena infidelity storyline. But that? That was just the lowest, cheapest bit of storytelling, ever.

[beezarre]

That’s not how Bernie works...

Bernie would live in a cave if it meant following Serena!

Bernie is just as much a family person, she’s been running all her bloody life because no one’s loved her enough to anchor her somewhere!!

Serena had managed that. Serena has made her come back, again and again, made her ready to stop running. And now she just sends her on her way?

Serena, you could buy Bernie the worst fluffiest slippers ever and Bernie would *beg* to go put the bins out in them.

[daisydoctor13]

honestly this^ no she was never ‘suburban’ with marcus because she wasn’t in the right relationship. She loved her kids but she couldn’t ‘settle’ with him because he wasn’t right. And neither was Alex, not really because yes they loved each other but that was borne from conflict and desperation and making Bernie realise who she truly was. The writers are trying to paint her as someone who is a complete lone wolf (excuse the pun) who doesn’t need anyone but she has always needed her family. It is so obvious how much she loves her kids, loves Jason, and loves Serena. She has been waiting her entire life to find people to love and she absolutely could find a job somewhere in the south east that would be a fit. Because I truly believe she would be fulfilled and happy with a job in a hospital as long as she has love in her life.

[beezarrewatchesholby]

This, all of this!!!

[wl-middleagedwomen]

Even knowing this would happen, it hurts a whole hell of a lot more than I thought it would. There are no tears, just the- pit in chest- feeling that I’ve actually lost something important to me. This was a surprising, and odd, revelation as I don’t usually get that invested in shows or characters.

What do I do?

[alielpez]

Someone said something about Greta being killed off in New Year. if anyone knows anything about this and can quote sources, please tell me now. I'm compiling my 2019 hit list...

[slightlyintimidating]

This was basically Holby saying “as much as we like Jemma because she can’t stay permanently we need to free Serena up for some other romance because drama only comes in the form of romance” and I HATE THEM FOR IT

[sententiousandbellicose]

So, here are my two cents, take them or leave them as they help. I fully believe that Bernie and Serena are soulmates. When it comes time for Serena/Catherine to leave Holby, I think Bernie/Jemma will be there to see her off. They’re not gone. They’re just on hiatus.

I hope that’s some comfort to everyone who’s feeling hurt.

[slightlyintimidating]

Jason: “I can’t imagine Bernie pushing a swing”

Serena: “me neither”

Fic writers: “and Bernie pushed little Guinevere higher on the swing, her laughter joining with the little girl’s, a scene of infectious joy which Serena felt her heart clench at watching" 

[alielpez]

Berena. I'm not about vilifying either party, and I guess the easy option would have been to have Bernie flip about Serena's infidelity. So I suppose it was good that they had Bernie ready to work through that. BUT. However 'amicably' the relationship ended, I absolutely DESPISED the implication that Bernie might have cheated in Nairobe. That was a cheap and easy way to smooth the situation out, and NOT something I imagined she would have done to Serena, however lonely. i know they say once a cheater, always a cheater, but if anyone was made to flout those rules, it was Bernie Wolfe. Also, about the end of the relationship in general. I totally get the tie that they were in, with JR not being able to commit to Holby, and the restraint that put upon them with future romantic storylines for Serena. And I think it's mildly ironic at this point that on the one hand, I was a proponent for them splitting up, for that very reason. Because now we're here, I feel so let down and cheated. I would so totally have accepted an ongoing offscreen relationship between them, even if Bernie had somehow been based in the Holby area. And this story has been so big, that even though the scope has now been opened up wide for Serena to have new romantic relationships with either sex (but most likely a woman since Holby now realise they're on to a Good Thing), I don't think I will ever really get past Bernie, which means whatever comes next for Serena on screen will be soured for me. And if I sound like a petulant teen, I assure you, I'm don't mean to. But nor do I say that lightly. Whoever Serena is with, in 6 months, a year, whenever. It's pretty certainly always going to be Wrong. 😢

[delightfullyambiguous]

this made me gay

[alielpez]

Welll, it certainly didn’t make me straight-er :D

[slightlyintimidating]

Having never experienced a long-distance relationship myself, all I can say is that, from what Holby has portrayed tonight, they took their golden opportunity to showcase how hard but rewarding long distances can be and trashed it into a cliché which is an insult to people who are in/have had long-distance relationships.

[wonkywonko]

I’ve had a long distance relationship. It’s hard. It’s lonely. It can make you fucking crazy. But you know what, it never made me want to cheat. Not ever. The distance and the absence of the person you want and time differences and the feeling of your life kind of being on hold all the time - yeah, that sucks. A lot. Making space for each other in your separate lives and talking every day, even when all you want is to veg out watching telly with them on the couch next to you. It’s a bastard. But you know what? If you love someone and you’re committed, you can make it work.

I feel like long distance relationships are so common now and perhaps especially those involving queer women…I dunno, it feels like a lot of us meet each other online these days, even through fandom (I wonder how many Berena weddings there have been…) I don’t really see how showing that a LDR is too hard and doomed to end in cheating is super novel. I mean, that was what people thought back in 2004 when @kooili158 and I met. I definitely got that sort of opinion from friends etc. back then. But honestly? We have a stronger relationship and a stronger marriage than annnnnny of those guys who thought it couldn’t last.

This has ended up as a rant. But yes, to echo what Sev said above, the end of a LDR this way seems really tired and lame to me.

[alielpez]

RIght now, I totally love you, @wonkots42.  THANK YOU for this.

[pandorabox82]

Well, seeing as how I’ve been in AU land since Roxanna was struck by a car, I think that I can further live in AU land with regards to Berena. It’s really not that hard when canon has let me down across numerous shows over numerous years.

I love drama, I really do, but there’s a huge difference between well written drama and sacrificing characters and their integrity in the name of ~views~. So, see you lovely lot on the AU side?

[foxyroxysstuff-deactivated20191]

@pandorabox82 well i don’t mind if you spend all your time writing Hexanna instead of watching canon! 😀 Thats my plan! canon sucks. Im still reeling from Rox.

[pandorabox82]

@foxyroxysstuff - seeing as I have about five multichapter Hexanna stories planned out after I finish The Callouses That Lovers Earn, I think it’s safe to say that I shan’t give up writing Hexanna (or Berena. But there may be a few weird stories that pop up as a result of the angst…)

[alielpez]

I’ve got the kettle on, and I’ve bought pastries.  See you there!

[sententiousandbellicose]

I’m the only one relieved that wasn’t worse? My capacity to imagine catastrophe is better than I thought.

[untitled70655]

I’m the same way. And I’m weirdly calm and fine, bc the worst of what we thought could never happen has happened. And it wasn’t as bad as I thought it could’ve been? Now it’s just waiting until next week to see what the aftermath is.

[alielpez]

Nope.  I’m still head-between-my-knees, braced for impact...

I thought the OKness of the ep is what made it more painful.

[writergirl23]

FUCK CANON. 

[writergirl23]

But, like, FUCK CANON. 

The general consensus is that that is not the Serena we know and love. So, FUCK CANON. 

I mean, what else are we gonna miss? They get Jemma back every six months. Leah isn’t even staying; she’s fucking off the week after next. They’re gonna kill Greta off in the New Year. 

So. Fuck. Canon. 

[alielpez]

Folks, I should probably just say now, I’m going to be existing purely in AUverse from now on.  And I think I need to start writing again, because I no longer believe in the Real World.