S.S

A constant battle between remembering and forgetting.

[inneroptics]

Alina Negoita

[lilycostner]

MUSIC TO INFLUENCE YOU TO WRITE

Feel like you need a song to influence you to write a scene or character? Here are a list of Playlists and Songs you can listen to to get you going!

HAPPY BASED

When Everything is Wrong and you need a pick-me-up

a bunch of songs that make me Legit Happy!!

Carried Away

Stutter

 Some Days they Taste Like Lemonade

Picking Up the Pieces

Keep Your Head Up

It’s Time to Begin, isn’t it?

Endless Cheesin

Free Yourself

Undertone

SEX SCENES

lets do it (lets fall in love); a playlist for an old-fashioned love affair

Songs to fuck to

Between Two Points

Erotic Moments

 Nice and Slow

Breathe My Name

We Had a Promise Made

The Only Sex Playlist

Skin & Bones

A Forever Love

SAD SCENES/ HEARTBREAK

Hello My Old Heart

Shelter

See all my dreams die

We All Feel Lost Sometimes

Whispers Wasted in the Sand

Time to Study

One of those Sad Days

Sad Sad Songs

Goodnight Moon

When I Run Through the Deep Dark Forrest

PSYCHOPATHIC CHARACTER/SUSPENSE SCENE

[MADNESS;] | a playlist to get in the insane muse for your character

The Devil Within Digital Daggers

Villains and Demons

 Lose Your Soul

Savage Desires

I’ll Be Dead Before the Day is Done

A Killer’s Symphony

Murder He Says

A Boy’s Best Friend

In a Stranger’s Dream

BADASS CHARACTERS/ACTION-FIGHT SCENE

Not Your Regular Damsel in Distress

Biting Down

Light it Up

This is it, the Apocalypse

I Pretend I’m a Bad Ass

There is No Reconciliation

Shit to Fuck Shit Up to

Run

Let’s Go Hunting

Cancel the Apocalypse

Red Lipstick and a Black Jacket

INSTRUMENTAL/ CALM 

Breathe

The Light Shines Through

Dreamland

Floating

When in France

Sing Me to Sleep

Violin at the Movies

À la dérive

Home is where your heart it is

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»»>FANMIXES

HANNIBAL

My Game my Rules

Wicked

The Devil is in the Details

The Pale Horse

Excellent Taste

Kill Run

Where is My Mind?

Psychosoma

Nothing Here is Vegetarian

Help

BBC SHERLOCK

An Absence of You

I Misbehave

Something Lonely in the Bone

I’m not a Psychopath… 

Thank You, Johann Sebastian Bach

Dying From These Exist Wounds

You Put the Devil in Me

Study and Investigate

Fist Kisses and Love Bites

Sorrow Waited Sorrow Won

SUPERNATURAL

Lost Boy

You the Moon

Taller Than God

A Very Supernatural Roadtrip

I Call This One “the Blue Steel”

Driver Picks the Music, Shotgun Shuts his Cakehole!

Bad Blood

An Angry Blade

Wow Just Smash Your Mouths Together

Fury is Coming

The Sacrifice

I’d love to add more (music and fandoms) but let’s just give you this for now! Happy Listening! 

ALSO: These (obviously) are not my fanmixes/playlists so give some props to the people who made it! They would love it! Also, if you see your playlist on here and would like it removed, tell me! Thank you!

[katie-the-hobbit]

so heres a list compiling what i have in my likes, my bookmarks and my reference tag

it took me four hours so you guys better reblog it

hair tutorials:

messy bun tutorial

different ways to braid

elsa-ish braid

how to fishtail

romantic curls

waterfall braid

three-braid updo

another elsa-ish braid

braided bun

braided headband

hecka cute messy bun

ways to wear scarves/bandanas

lovely bun with braids

dutch braid crown

pin curls!

braided ponytail

braid + bun updo

how to do pastel hair

8 ways to wear a bow

4-strand braid

double wrap braid

makeup tips:

how to apply eyeliner

how to apply blush

6 makeup tips

winged eyeliner tutorial

how to do your makeup with a spoon

how to apply eyeshadow

natural beauty remedies

a guide to eyeliner

ombre eyeliner

sparkly party makeup

silver eye makeup tutorial

what makeup complements my complexion?

what makeup suits you?

lipstick tricks

writing tips:

character development sheet

body language

the 12 archetypes 

name generator 1

dialogue tips

how to write female characters

characterization tips

info about the 50s/60s/70s

fictional languages

get past writers block

surname master post

name generator 2

234 synonyms for ‘said’

writing tips masterpost

emotions!!!

make blueprints for houses

names for fictional worlds

seven steps to the perfect story

helpful descriptive words

how to write smut

fantastic clothes and where to find them:

rad leggins

hecka adorable tights

cloaks

old fashioned clothes

sherlock-inspired outfits

more badass tights

more rad tights

knit fairy tale hoods

leather fairy tale footwear

guide to shoes

find clothes that your favorite characters have worn

green day-inspired outfits (1)(2)(3)

beatles-themed outfits

probably the most fancy punk rock dress ever

hella rad ear cuffs

motherfucking medieval circlet crown things

hella sexy 50s halter dress

“persephone” dress

panda onesie

pop art dress

hella sexy corset

beatle girls fashion

fashion inspiration

exceptionally punk rock leather vest

fandom things:

geek engagement rings

star trek engagement rings

avengers-inspired outfits

homestuck makeup

loki-inspired eye makeup

make pokeball cookies

teen castiel boots

themed key neclaces

night vale bingo

beatles movie masterpost

lord of the rings-themed nails

how to make butterbeer

do your hair like the ladies in game of thrones

disney villains makeup

various fandom dresses

captain america leather jacket

dean winchester leather jacket

TARDIS mug

food/recipes:

shelf life of food

lavender lemonade

motherfucking pie

how to make nutella fudge

ultimate guide to chocolate chip cookies

easy snacks

muffin in a mug

cheeseburger cupcakes

how to make huge food

starbucks secret menu

oreo cookie butter

panera mac n’ cheese

starbucks holiday drinks

nutella hot chocolate

pastry folding 101

mini lemon and blueberry cheesecakes

david bowie-inspired cocktails

french bread pizza

15 pound homemade snickers bar

make candy crystal meth

reeses peanut butter cheesecake

extra fancy garlic bread

smoothie recipes for everything

chocolate chip cookie dough brownie pie

4 different smoothies

bread crusts with herbs

cookies n’ cream cupcakes

mini tortilla crust pizzas

mini mac n’ cheese pies

deep dish cookie for one

roasted tomato pasta

best grilled cheese

best chocolate cake

potato rissole 

french toast rollups

peanut butter crownies

pumpkin spice smoothie

s’mores stuffed pizza cookie

the best cookie recipes

chocolate chip cookie dough brownie bombs

how to make chocolate lasagna

mini apple pies

art tutorials/tips:

hundreds of pose references wowie

how to draw profiles 

a guide to figure drawing (this helped me a hecka lot)

drawing eyes

lip tutorial

how to draw jeans

amaze color blender

hands hands hands

more hands

torso reference

wings

painting blood

how to draw shoes/feet

psychology of color

simple expression guide

sitting poses

more color psychology

drawing hair and fur

hecka lot of clothing refs

pose reference blog

another hand tutorial

how to draw arms

expression tutorial

skin color palatte

how to draw booties

drawing ears

hands at sides tutorial

drawing heads

guide to foreshortening

drawing cats

how to be healthy:

meditation tips

how to take the perfect nap

how much exercise do you need? 

site that will help you focus/get work done

10 hours of calming heavy rainfall

dozens of healthy recipes for every occasion

when you’re feeling suicidal

create your own safe haven

healthy, soothing, calming drinks 

how to burn stomach fat

how to love yourself

recovery resources

health tips for students

happy jar

how to make your tea perfect

amazing smoothies

bunnies telling you how good you are

how to make a glitter jar

bored?:

night vale monopoly

learn how to survive a zombie apocalypse

how to play ‘sherlock’

supernatural workout

learn a new language!

learn london slang

take personality tests

watch this video

make gifs

see what its like to live on minimum wage

watch great vines

give people free rice by answering trivia!

make a flower crown

turn your handwriting into a font

take a dialect test

learn how to write elvish

take this amazingly accurate color quiz

live kitty cam

[aliferemembered]

It was nice to have someone look at me that way, to think of me that way. Now that we’re no longer together, you deserve to find someone great. Someone who would look at you even when you’re not looking. Someone who would think about you endlessly even when you’re not thinking about them. Because that’s all i’ve ever been doing since you left. Can anybody ever love you more than me?

if love is all you need, I’m all you’ll ever need (via aliferemembered)

[aliferemembered]

”Maybe someday we’ll meet again under better circumstances.” Anomalisa (2015)

[aliferemembered]

Snap judgement, 1226. Reclusive typographer, invisible to the naked eye, communication skills are in infant, excels in the art of self pity. Stutterer (2015)

[aliferemembered]

Today I realised how unimportant I am to the people around me. How my happiness no longer meant to people. It's not even about being a priority. People just don't... care anymore. This is why I hate birthdays. It's just a day full of slaps on the face

[aliferemembered]

On the bus ride home today I mistook a passing aeroplane for a shooting star and thought of calling you.

I found out recently that the longer you look at the sky, the more stars you’d find - I never got to tell you that. Maybe you would’ve been more patient with me. I’m sorry if you thought I had to look up to see the stars. You should know that each time I looked at you I saw galaxies in your eyes. That when our skin touched for the first time I felt like I had experienced the entire universe. That laying with you in silence felt like I was floating in space. You should also know that when you left you formed a black hole in my chest that I still get sucked into every now and then. I’m sorry that I still miss you sometimes.

[aliferemembered]

Today my mother gave me yellow pillow sheets and I freeze at the thought of falling asleep to your favourite colour. I wonder if she knows my pillows are the only company I keep. They are the ears for all the things I could never tell her. They recognise the weight of your head, the touch of your skin and subtle kisses. They know when you’re not around and when I’m wide awake and play the lullaby of your heartbeat and giggles. I wonder if she knows that I still think of you till the Sun rises. And if she’s saying “It’s okay if you find it hard to let go, but here’s a list of all the different colours you can paint over the dirty yellow.” My walls are now of an endless storm. They are the clouded memories that will keep me warm. So no- I don’t want to fall asleep to your favourite colour, I don’t have to. All the grey still makes me think of you.

S.S (I never liked yellow until you came along)

[aliferemembered]

I wish I was good at something. I hate saying that, even the thought of it is enough to keep me awake. Is there a chance that I'm good at something but I just haven't realised it yet? And would that mean I'm living a life with lesser meaning? What if I've tried everything and found out that there is nothing I'm good at? Would that mean I'm living a life with no meaning then? I don't want to live a life being average, ordinary, and forgettable.

[aliferemembered]

I’ve been seeing ghosts lately the kind that keeps me up at night Father wonders what’s wrong with me Mother asks if i’ll be alright I think I saw grandma, Pa Her hair whiter than I remember She was sitting on her favourite sofa And playing with her pearls I felt your presence around me Your hands around my throat With my heart on my sleeve I begged and pleaded - ‘Please don’t go’ The ghosts have come back to haunt me, Mother I can feel them in my bones This time they taunt me and scream louder But it’s better than being alone

S.S (I want to see you but you’re not mine)

[aliferemembered]

I can’t find you in songs or poetry or in dreams or fantasies I’ve lost count of the hair that falls on your face and how you looked at me with the steadiest gaze See with you i could’ve been anything like the prettiest flower or boldest painting But all you wanted was a steady hand to hold and I’m sorry my hands shook whenever you got close It’s bullshit - time doesn’t heal all wounds Hell, time didn’t exist with you and now without you I don’t

S.S (I never told anyone about you)

[aliferemembered]

To be young again

My mum used to call me a hoarder for keeping old pictures, letters and empty perfume bottles that reminded me of my teenage years. Today she showed me a drawer full of sentimental value and memories and it made me feel so much love for her. Here’s a list of what I found: - Love letters between my mum and dad - Birthday letters/cards from friends and family - A little travel notebook. She wrote about all her days in Amsterdam here. - Pieces of her poetry All this while I thought that I was the only one and it was only until I opened her drawer that I realised I must’ve gotten it from someone - and that person is my mother. I felt like I knew at my mum in a different way in that moment, like an old friend or someone who grew up with her. 

[aliferemembered]

Green

Before my eyes met yours, I never knew green was a colour i’d adore. A diamond in the rough, your emerald eyes. Now I wish green was the colour of the skies. Before my eyes knew yours, I wanted to drown in the eyes of ocean blue. But in your deep forest eyes, consider me lost - all I can see is you. They shine like the northern lights, I managed to sneak a few glances. They can light up the darkest nights, even the Sun would be jealous. Your eyes are the prettiest shade of green, the kind that makes me wonder if I’ve ever really looked at the trees.

[aliferemembered]

What’s next?

I celebrated my brother’s 14th birthday today and I know as we get older that time seems to pass by faster but I can’t help but think what if it didn’t? What if I stayed 16 and my brother was still 10 and all we had to worry about was telling mum our grades? Being 20 now is just a constant reminder of what’s to come, or what’s not to come. Where I am now may now be where I am in a few months or even a few weeks. I’m stuck without a routine and planless. Lost, scared and unprepared.

[aliferemembered]

You remind me of someone I knew a long time ago - You have her eyes, you have her heart.

Twisted

[aliferemembered]

3 years

So i’m sorry if i can’t stop thinking about that day. When I finally saw you again after three years. Was it really that long? I almost forgot what you look like. I almost forgot how it feels to have you near me. How did i survive that long? Seeing you again felt like waves crashing around my chest, like something was brought back to life. The first encounter was an awkward double-take, we both wanted more than a wave. But there were too many people around us. Just like that you were lost in the crowd again. Another round and you appeared right in front me, with your arms stretched and head tilt. How strange, I’ve seen that so many times. But never like this. This is different. You wanted us to meet again.

I went in for a hug and felt your squeeze. I squeezed back. I never would’ve done that 3 years ago. You laughed surprisingly after i did that and asked for another hug. That hug felt like home. Like there was no one else but us. Back at our school, back where we first met, back where we fell in love.