Little Freak (Harry’s House) - My analysis
Hi, it’s me again with another song analysis. This one was extremely hard for me to write because it’s a delicate subject and I was really worried I could offend Harry with someday I’d say. Before you go into this analysis, know that I do support the theory that Harry has an internal She, therefore this analysis talks into this, so please, read with open mind. Also, this is a raw analysis of the song. With that in mind, bear with me. This is long.
Little Freak - The way society sees a trans person, maybe the way he used to see himself.
“Little freak, Jezebel, you sit high atop the kitchen counter” - This is the part that sort of confused me as to which way to take when interpreting the song. The biblical meaning of the name Jezebel means an impudent, shameless, or morally unrestrained woman. In general, calling someone Jezebel it means they’re a gold digger. And on Urban Dictionary it also means someone who gets pregnant at a younger age. At first I thought this song could be a Kiwi 2.0, but the rest of the song is sweet, so I will follow the thought that it’s a woman who is judged by society.
“Stayed green a little while” - Being green means that you’re immature, you’re young and lack experience. That could relate to a younger Harry who was aware of his internal She and didn’t want to look into it because maybe he was scared. It could mean that when he was younger he didn’t explore it, but as he got older, he started looking into it and exploring his feminine side.
“You bring blue lights to dreams” - A blue light strengthens and stimulates connections between areas of your brain that process emotion and language. This means that blue light may, in turn, help people to better handle emotional challenges and regulate mood over time. What I think it means is that his internal She is the one who keeps him true to himself, to who he really is.
“Starry haze and crystal balls” - “Starry haze” could be related to “written in the stars” which means it’s meant to happen, which goes along with the utility of crystal balls, which is seeing the future. So he wonders if in the future he might feel more comfortable with himself.
“Somehow you’ve become some paranoia” - At first, Harry decided to explore his feminine side and didn’t look too much into it, but when he realised that his internal She had a way deeper and more important meaning to him and that he really identified himself with her, he couldn’t escape it, and therefore it became a paranoia. It could also mean that he was scared to publically explore his feminine side, afraid people would judge it, and so he started being paranoid “but if I do this they will see it, but if I paint my nails they will think I’m this or that” and so it goes. (It really hurts to write this).
“Wet dreams just dangling” - Well, I don’t need to say what this term means, but remember Harry’s lyrics in She when he says “she’s the first one that I see” that relates to his internal She being the first thing he sees when he wakes up and “she sleeps in his bed”? It could mean that during the night he dreams about things that truly make him… you know, and then he wakes up to… well, the meaning of the term wet dreams.
“But your gift is wasted on me” - In my point of view this part means that Harry’s internal She is the one who writes the lyrics, composes songs, but Harry’s outside (he) is the one who takes credit for it.
“I was thinking about who you are” - Same meaning of Harry’s lyrics in She when he says “I don’t know who she is”, that basically means he doesn’t know who this side of him is, but he’s trying to figure out.
“Your delicate point of view” - This one just made me emotional. It could be read as his internal She being sweet, timid and delicate.
“I’m not worried about where you are and who you go home to” - I can’t really think of something, just maybe he doesn’t have to worry because she’s safe with him?
“I’m just thinking about you, just thinking about you” - Again, thinking.
“Did you dress up for a halloween” - This is so loud because Halloween is the day you can dress as anything and no one will judge you because theoretically is a costume. And the loudest thing: Harry did dress up for Halloween, he dressed up as Dorothy and Miley and Elton (thank you to those who pointed out I should add it here!) and that’s the thing - Harry didn’t dress up for Halloween, his internal She did because, on that day, she could be out, even if it was just on the way she dressed.
“I spilled beer on your friend, I’m not sorry” - In this part, remember what I said about his internal She getting dressed up for Halloween? Yes, she can get dressed up, but she can’t be the one out in the open. The one interacting with people, drinking with friends, is Harry. So, she didn’t spill the drink, Harry did, and maybe because he made a joke about his costume?
“A golf swing and a trampoline, maybe we’ll do this again” - I have no clue what it means, but maybe it could mean things he did while being in the open, letting his internal She out.
“Tracksuit and a ponytail” - I would add pictures of Harry in a ponytail and hair accessories, but this post would never end. Also, tracksuit and ponytail are exactly the sort of Harry we see when he’s out for runs.
“You hide the body, all that yoga gave you” - I think this could be talking about the clothes he wears, since he’s always wearing pants. This reminded me of Louis’ “I haven’t seen you in a dress before” and it’s exactly what I think he means. Perhaps the internal She wants to wear a dress and show off because she’s beautiful and does yoga, ha!
“Red wine and ginger ale, but you would make fun of me for sure” - Could mean that Harry would drink to try to forget her, but then he’d loosen himself and either let her show or his internal She (him himself) would judge him for trying to act manly.
“I disrespected you, jumped in feet first and landed too hard, broke a ankle, karma rules” - Basically means that at first, he disrespected his internal She, treated her roughly, ignored her, maybe even joked about her (people who make jokes to deal with trauma), but she wouldn’t leave and she kept coming back and turned into a paranoia, and so “karma rules”.
“You never saw my birthmark“ - A birthmark is something that you a born with, it’s something that remains with you. And so, the birthmark could mean his internal She, he was born with it and it’s a part of him he can’t change because it’s who he is. (Credits for my friend Newt for thinking of it).
In conclusion, I strongly believe it’s a continuation to She. In She, Harry doesn’t know who she is, just knows she’s there, he says “I don’t know who she is” and he’s not looking into it, doesn’t want to know, maybe is trying to ignore her. However in Little Freak, he says “I was thinking about who you are, your delicate point of view” which means he knows who she is, he knows what she’s like and he accepts it, he likes her.
For me, this was an extremely emotional analysis to write because this is a delicate subject and I was constantly worried I’d write something that would offend him and her, but I think this is okay.
Also, he disrespected her at first, this song is him describing the road of acceptance. I think he now accepts who he is, and I feel nothing but proud of him.
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