◤ ✕ ° › allison.

❝ Who am I? Who am I trying to be? Not myself.  A n y o n e  but myself. Living in a fantasy to blur reality. A strong facade disguising the misery. E m p t y. But ( beyond ) the point of emptiness. Full to the brim with fake confidence. A guard will never be b r o k e n. Because I broke a long time ago. No one needs to know. Don't show or you've failed. Always okay. Always fine. Always on show. The show must go on. It will never stop. But I KNOW it will. I give up. I give up on giving up. I am lost. I don't need to be saved. I need to be found. ❞

[allisonkouri-blog]

          “aye, fucker. bet you’re surprised to see my face. long time no see, yeah?”

[darcy-lane]

I’m so sorry, I didn’t pick up on any of that. My ears are pretty slow picking up that this hour, lack of sleep m’’fraid. But, you look like that Allison girl from The Valleys, god - she’s so gorgeous! 

[allisonkouri-blog]

          “is that so ?? i’ve never been told i looked like her before. but, for where it matters, she thinks you’re quite beautiful yourself.”

[alenaroospeeters]

People are such assholes, but seriously though. I actually had to get used to the fact that I was alone in a house without yelling or moans at 3 in the morning, It’s been very nice I must admit.

[allisonkouri-blog]

          “but that was all part of the experiance.”

[fckkstyles]

         “maybe so, but they say if you ever need an honest opinion about something, you should ask a kid. twenty years from now, we’ll all be featured on a ‘where are they now’ show. maybe we should sign you up for a new one. something on tlc. you’ve got cake boss, sister wives, say yes to the dress – what do stalkers usually enjoy doing in their spare time?”

[allisonkouri-blog]

             “when i say kid, i mean someone who was seventeen. hell, i would call you a child had it been a story about you. and i'm thinking i should apply to be an associate for say yes to the dress, you might fit that show too. OR i could fit you for a dress, that’d be fun. and i’m not sure, you tell me what stalkers do.”

[chlorcilly]

“one thing you learn in life is everyone is asshole, there is not much else you can say its a general thing really. even though there is occassional exceptions to the rule.” 

[allisonkouri-blog]

          “but they were literally holding a magazine that i’m IN. so like, obviously they just wanted to be an asshole.”

[lynchwyd-blog]

          “well, are you ?? that washout reality star, i mean ?? but good on ya’ with getting noticed and all. if one kid recognizes you, that must mean you’ve made it. i’m guessing whatever show you were on stopped airing episodes a month ago ??”

[allisonkouri-blog]

          “well seeing as i am a model and was even before the valleys, i’d say NO. i’m not a washed out reality star.”

[allisonkouri-blog]

          “it’s been a months and it feels like ages. i mean, i’ve actually had sleep and can function a normal schedule again and then i met some kid on the street a few days ago and they go, and i quote, ‘yo, aren’t you that washout reality star ?? it’s been ages since you were anywhere.’ it’s been a month, asshole. a month.”

[hepburnaudrey]

Cara Delevingne, 2013 photoshoots.

[allisonkouri-blog]

@allisonk0uri: and so a new adventure begins...

[varietyblr]

“But that’s also in general, people should be able to do what they want and not be stereotyped.” +

[allisonkouri-blog]

[hepburnaudrey]

Cara Delevingne for Yves Saint Laurent S/S 2016 phographed by Craig McDean

[derekcox]

“So… are you pissed at me or are you not?”

[allisonkouri-blog]

“aside from the blatant disgust that you think every girl wants your dick pics, i don’t really care.”

[fentyjenner-deactivated20160516]

[allisonkouri-blog]

text @ open

brae: do you want to go out with me?

brae: aka i'm stranded on the other side of the city so if you come over here, i'll buy you dinner or whatever you want

alli: you really know how to win a girls heart

alli: im omw

[derekcox]

“Oh shit… did you not want me to post that photo of you skinny dipping. Sorry. Here have a drink.” 

[allisonkouri-blog]

“i mean, i sort of lean towards girls so... not particularly.”

[fckkstyles]

I have to say, I’ve been reminiscing quite a bit in the past few days with the show coming to an end and all. Any last words? Life changing confessions? Anything left unsaid? You might as well speak up now.

[allisonkouri-blog]

You know what, I do have something to say to you. I’ve been meaning to say it for -- a long time and... I’ve never had the courage. Harry... I really, really think you need a haircut.