a chaotic existence

✨hi i'm Winnie! (she/they)✨i'm 21, agnostic, and an eclectic practitioner of chaos magic 🗝 making my personal & spiritual journey through this life.🖤this blog is dedicated to all that I don't yet understand.🖤

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soul colors

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“They say the devil that you know is better than the devil that you don’t!”

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We are the universe experiencing itself.

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𝑀𝑜𝓋𝑒𝓂𝑒𝓃𝓉𝓈 & 𝒮𝒸𝒽𝑜𝑜𝓁𝓈 𝑜𝒻 𝒯𝒽𝑜𝓊𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝑀𝑜𝓋𝑒 𝑀𝑒 & 𝑀𝒶𝓀𝑒 𝑀𝑒 𝒯𝒽𝒾𝓃𝓀

Postmodernism

Existentialism

Absurdism

Epistemological individualism

Surrealism

Art nouveau

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🌀art nouveau makes my soul dance🌀

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Some Miscellaneous Magical Thoughts (for my own personal practice)

Intention: A focused, conscious direction of energy and effort.

Make a workspace altar, integrate it into your life (as opposed to having it gather dust like an interior decoration display, interact with it and use it).

Incorporate your everyday life into your practice, don’t bind yourself down to what your practice “should look like”. What does your life already look like? What already works for you that you want to work magic into?

June 28, 2021

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Inner-child work is particularly difficult for me, especially because thinking about my childhood makes me feel cynical, strange, and uncomfortable. Working through it all, bit by bit, has proven to be no simple task. Most days, as of mid-March 2021, I don’t even have the energy to make art, let alone do anything spiritually/energetically significant for myself. I will find the energy somewhere. I will make the energy somehow. I will heal.

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Support Black witches

Support Black healers

Support Black tarot readers

Support Black occultists

Support Black astrologers

Support Black magicians

Support Black pagans

Support Black spiritualists

Support Black spirit workers

End racism in spiritual and occult communities.

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February 14, 2020 :) Gotta move on!

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👁𝕋𝕚𝕡𝕤&𝕋𝕣𝕚𝕔𝕜𝕤 𝕗𝕠𝕣 ℕ𝕖𝕨 ℙ𝕣𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕖𝕣𝕤👁

1. Research! Ask questions! Chances are if you’re reading this post, you’ve already started this step. Is witchcraft right for you? I am a firm believer that anyone can be a witch, as witchcraft is simply a scaffolding on which to explore spirituality. Everyone has their spirit to explore! I will write a post about creators and sources I suggest to get started on your research in the future. 

2. Do what feels right for you! Pick and choose your traditions. Start a journal (also called a “Book of Shadows” or “grimoire”) to record those rituals and traditions that work for you. Please DO NOT listen to sources that claim that you cannot practice witchcraft unless you follow a specific path or set of traditions. You build your own craft! Spirituality is entirely personal and nobody but you has the right to define your practice.

3. If you like, you can pick a path! Many MANY witchcraft paths exist (including green, hedge, hearth, healing, kitchen, chaos, sea, and storm witchcraft, among others). Also, if you are particularly drawn to a certain religious practice such as Wicca, Satanism, or Paganism (of Norse gods, Celtic gods, Greek gods, etc.) read up on those religions. Remember, you can be any religion and practice witchcraft! You can even be an agnostic or atheist witch. The craft of being a witch and one’s religious beliefs can exist together or separately! I will write a post about creators and sources I suggest to research witchcraft paths and religious paths in the future. 

4. Adjust your craft to emphasize your talents. If you find that you are especially good at finding spiritual wealth through cooking, incorporate your kitchen skills into your craft (for example, baking a spell of abundance into a cake). If you are gifted at finding spiritual wealth through communication with your ancestors, you can incorporate your hedge skills into your craft (for example, calling upon your ancestors during a spell of strength or of healing). These are just two examples, but there are infinite possibilities! Combine your real-life hobbies, talents, skills, and interests with your craft. This will make your life overflow spiritually!

5. Acknowledge that it is natural for your spirituality and perception to shift. If one day you no longer identify with witchcraft, that is absolutely acceptable. If it was a fulfilling and educational part of your path through life, that is all that matters. There are no contracts here, you don’t sign your soul away. It is my belief that witchcraft is a devotion to yourself, your soul, and your own personal spiritual journey. There are no rules set in place for you, you define your own boundaries. Always do what enriches your spirit, and if one day witchcraft no longer enriches your spirit, new and beautiful things will find their way into your life. Don’t fret!

Thank you for reading, I hope this was helpful! Leave an ask if you’d like to hear about my takes on anything specific, I’m taking suggestions! 

Fortune favors the brave!

(𝐄𝐃𝐈𝐓 𝟏: There has been some discourse surrounding "witch types" or "paths". I'm now of the opinion that, if not thoroughly researched, these "paths" can limit your practice and make it revolve around what you own, rather than what you do. You can focus your attention on specific tools that enhance your craft, like the cultivation of plants or working with crystals, but to call yourself a green witch or crystal witch can be reductive and oversimplify your spirituality. For these reasons, combining points 3 & 4 of this post is a more productive way to view the "witch type" phenomenon.

𝐄𝐃𝐈𝐓 𝟐: Research traditions and esotericism as well as the mysticism and religion of the occult [as well as folk-magick versus high-magick and their significance throughout history]. Have a broad view of the occult and magickal communities that exist, and avoid spiritual tunnel-vision. Be open to the influence and knowledge of others, and acknowledge that unverified personal gnosis [UPG] dictates most spiritual experiences.)

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My Altar Space

Here is a little altar tour of sorts! I set it up last week. 

Much of my spirituality revolves around science and astronomy. Mankind’s next adventure into the Final Frontier of outer space will be to the Moon (the first step on our journey to a manned mission to Mars) and I have been passionate about space since I was very young. I have wanted to be a fighter-jet pilot or astronaut since I was about 9 or 10 years old. I am now 20 years old and that dream hasn’t died. I’ve put up posters of the Moon, the Apollo Lunar Module, and deep space to be visual aids to my manifestations. With these gorgeous images I will always remember my dreams and what I am always working towards. 

The top shelf of my altar (from left to right) contains the small white notebook where I am designing my personal tarot deck (the cards that I am painting are in front of the white book), the checkerboard notebook where I tape or glue materials/tags that I want to remember the names of, my Book of Shadows (the blue notebook with the gold constellations), my black folder of drawings/writings that need to go into my grimoire. On the right side there is a small devotion to the elements: an essential oil diffuser for air, (hidden behind the diffuser) a jar of rain water, a red candle for fire, and a plant for earth. I also have my guardian animal statues (the crow statue with the spindly legs and the ceramic paper crane), a clock to remind me to reflect on the passing of time, a red bowl that I made filled with salt and lemon crystals to cleanse the energy in my space (and to remind me to reflect on construction), my black knife (to whittle and to remind me to reflect on destruction), and my wand which I am carving (it is still a work-in-progress). My altar cloth is one of the pillowcases that goes to my nebula bed-sheets.

On the second shelf of my altar (from left to right) is the jar of my four extracted wisdom teeth, my small white box of crystals, my pendulum, my long wooden box of wand decorations, four spell pouches of varying colors (divination/scrying in red, protection in yellow, miscellaneous magical items in green, and my lucky jade elephant in blue), my hand carved white queen (the first piece in a chess set I am creating), my red No Face doll (used as a sort of guardian/voodoo doll of sorts), my red tin whistle, my collection of jars and bottles, my white spell candle, my essential oils and lavender sleep spray, and a lighter for my candles. 

On the third shelf are my books and my prosperity jar where I collect all loose change (to be saved up for my future tattoos). On the floor beneath the third shelf are boxes that I will paint and use for storage. 

Fortune favors the brave!

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Counting Crows!

One Crow — Bad Luck, Death (Should be noted that a corvid alone is unusual as they are gregarious species)

Two Crows — Good Luck, Joy

Three Crows — Wedding, Female Birth

Four Crows — An Event, Male Birth

Five Crows — Money, Positive Business

Six Crows — Wealth Change, Loss/Gain

Seven Crows — Secret, Curse

Eight Crows — Life-Altering experience

Nine Crows — Love, Something Sensual

Ten Crows — Turnaround In Luck, Overwhelming

Eleven Crows — Surprise, Secrets (Hidden/Revealed)

Twelve Crows — Good Luck, Fulfillment

Thirteen Crows — Completion, The End

It’s been said that if the number of covids you see tallies up to something negative, then it can be countered with saying “Greetings Mr. Crow, I salute you!” as well as offering it a lil’ treat!

There are many different rhymes to help you remember! One of the longer ones goes as follows:

“One for sadness, two for mirth;

Three for marriage, four for birth;

Five for laughing, six for crying:

Seven for sickness, eight for dying;

Nine for silver, ten for gold;

Eleven a secret that will never be told.”

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Art Projects, Crafts, and Things To Do

- Designing & sewing my own gown and slip

- Designing a vegetable, fruit, and herb garden

- Painting a rock for the town rock garden

- Carving and staining a chess set and board

- Carving, painting, staining, and decorating a wand

- Cleaning, repairing, and restoring a typewriter

- Updating my grimoire, typing up & pasting in my essays and reflections

- Black and white self portrait

- Varnishing my 2018 nebula painting

- Drawing my favorite content creators (YouTube, TikTok, etc.)

- Draw myself exactly how I want to look and dress

- Designing and sewing a pair of clip in creature ears

- Designing and sewing a goat kid hood hat

- Designing the bookstore-cafe-nightclub place I’ve been imagining

- Designing and sewing face-masks for my friends and family

- Design, write, and film a TikTok about viruses, biological weapons, and nerve agents (including Hanahaki Disease, Andromeda Strain, Gray Brittle Death, Cooties, Dryditch Fever, Inferno Virus, Life-Eater Virus, The Pulse, The Red Death, Scarlet Plague, Venus Particle Disease, White Blindness, The White Plague, The Black Plague, Brain Cloud, Rage, Reaper, Thing Cell Infections, etc.)

- Film TikTok about my wardrobe favorites/favorite outfits and a reflection on my personal style

- Paint the top of my rain water jar

- Repot my altar spider plant into a brick colored plastic pot

- Paint red and white tin box to hold dead plant material & move the dead plant matter from the plastic pot into that box

- Patch grey high waist-ed ripped jeans with patches made of old grey corduroy pants

- Design a Chapel of Dreams. Design stained glass windows, interior, make it a place that people want to come to do their spiritual practices, so they are eager to explore, not grudging (like I see many Christians are grudging to attend weekly mass). 

- Design and sew a pinafore dress with galaxy flat sheet fabric.

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Witch tip

Say thank you to the universe when something good happens to you

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Thank you universe for the internship at the Bauer Core Lab at Harvard!

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