I looooveee Xander and Zubin!! Any chance you can write a fic that goes along with the drawings u were sent? Zubin is all burpy and nauseous so Xander holds him to his chest rubbing and patting his back to help him burp and feel better but he gradually gets sick?? Pleasssee 😊I love your writing btw ur my favourite writer I get so excited when u post!!
A/N: Okay, so this fic has been bubbling at the back of my head for an absolute age…I’ve been wanting to try something with a more stuffing tone (even if accidental), so I’ve given it a go. This fic is linked to the wonderful drawings I got of Xander and Zubin, and has a big reveal in it! 😏 I’d love to know what you think of it! 💙
The first time was an accident.
Friday nights were either the big night out of the week, or the cosy snuggling night in for Zubin and Xander. If Zubin was performing, Xander would go to cheer him on, looking on with a heart bursting with pride and barely able to contain his attraction to this guy - he still couldn’t quite believe his luck. And although Zubin loved performing, he utterly enjoyed the times when him and Xander could just spend the evening with one another, tucking into a takeaway and watching whatever they wanted on one of their laptops. Xander especially loved when he got to pick what they were watching, cause he could choose a horror film, which nearly always meant Zubin would be cuddling into him for comfort rather than watching the screen.
Zubin had somehow gotten his wires crossed this Friday - he was convinced that it was his turn to get food for their night in. He’d gone all out at Tescos, wandering up and down the aisles and picking out lots of little snack foods that they could create a kind of late night picnic with. He had carrot sticks and hummus, falafel, samosas, tortilla chips, twisted cheese breadsticks, cocktail sausages, mini portions of cheese and pineapple, marshmallows and chocolate. He was pretty chuffed with himself, normally they just ended up phoning for a pizza or a kebab, but this would be something a little different and special. He liked making things special for Xander.
Zubin still got that swooping, fluttery feeling when he thought of Xander, and how lucky he’d been that they’d crossed paths so early on during university. This was the first relationship he’d had where he hadn’t needed to skulk around, hiding in bushes and other secluded areas so he could even hold hands with another boy. Now he was far enough away that he felt safe walking down the street with Xander, though the first few times he’d been wide eyed and wary of those around them - but there was no one here who’d report back to his parents. And Xander had been patient - understanding that the ingrained fears couldn’t be ironed out like a crease from a shirt. It took time, and that’s what they both had.
Zubin’s face fell as Xander opened his door and the tantalising scent of pizza curled around him. Xander stepped back to let him in, and he took a few steps in and stopped abruptly. There were two pizza boxes stacked on his desk.
“But…” Zubin began, turning to frown at Xander, who was smiling. “I thought it was my turn to get food this week?” He indicated to the bag in his hand.
“No, you’re next week - cause we went out last week,” Xander told him as he flipped open the lids of the pizza boxes. Zubin remembered; he’d spent all of last Friday trying to convince Xander to go out to a fancy dress karaoke night, and Xander had relented, despite it being his turn to choose what they watched on their night in. It came back to him now that it had been part of their bargain to swap nights.
“Oh…” Zubin pouted slightly, feeling a little disgruntled with himself.
“What’s that face for?” Xander asked, chuckling as he took Zubin’s free hand.
“I thought it was my turn…” Zubin mumbled, though he gripped onto Xander’s hand all the same. “So I bought stuff for us to have a picnic.” He felt stupid as he said it, but Xander’s eyebrows went so high on his forehead they almost disappeared.
“Oh Zu!” A pink flush appeared across Xander’s cheeks and he looked genuinely touched. “You’re so sweet!” He wrapped his arms around Zubin and hugged tight; somehow Zubin always felt small in Xander’s arms, even though he was the taller of the pair.
“I’d totally forgot,” Zubin muttered, breathing in Xander’s fresh, crisp scent.
“That doesn’t matter!” Xander insisted, reaching down to see inside the bag that Zubin had brought. “Let’s see what you’ve got!”
“It’s just lots of silly stuff…” Zubin protested, biting his lip as Xander laid the bag on the bed and rummaged around inside it.
“Oh Zu! You bought hummus!” Xander exclaimed, pulling out the tub; he leant in to peck Zubin’s cheek. “You know what?”
“What?” Zubin asked, watching as Xander emptied the bag.
“How about we do half pizza, half picnic?” Xander suggested, his eyes were sparkling.
“No, I mean-” Zubin stumbled. “Wouldn’t that be a waste of pizza?” Xander simply shrugged.
“We can always reheat the pizza for breakfast tomorrow!” He suggested.
“Really?” Zubin said, watching Xander’s face for any hint of dishonesty.
“Course we can!” He nodded. “Let’s just pick and choose at what we want, we can have a veritable feast!” He wrapped his arm around Zubin’s shoulder again and gave a gentle squeeze.
The spread stretched right across Xander’s desk, with the most bizarre range of food on offer. They filled their paper plates - because Xander deemed that easier than having to wash up - and settled down onto Xander’s bed ro watch another episode of Project Runway. This was exactly what Zubin had intended; this chilled, relaxed evening, free to just pick at food and cuddle his boyfriend.
“Can you pass me a piece of pizza?” Xander asked, pointing at his box; Zubin wrinkled his nose slightly.
“I honestly don’t get how you can like pineapple on pizza…” He said, giving his head a little shake.
“It’s great!” Xander protested cheerfully. “You should try it! You’d like it!”
“Absolutely not!” Zubin made a face again. “It actually turns my stomach that does…” But he picked up a slice of pizza all the same and carried it across to Xander, settling back beside him.
“You can’t say I don’t make sacrifices for you,” Zubin teased as Xander took a bite.
“You bought cheese and pineapple pieces!” Xander pointed out.
“Yeah, but that’s different!” Zubin said firmly.
“I’m afraid you’re never going to get a full embargo of pineapple on pizza,” Xander replied, shaking his head.
“Fine…” Zubin sighed. “I’ll allow it, just cause it’s you.”
“Thank you,” Xander smiled contentedly, holding up a cocktail sausage to Zubin’s lips.
“Mmm!” Zubin nodded, covering his mouth while chewing.
“I quite like this!” Xander said, scooping up some hummus on a crisp and popping it in his mouth. “Maybe we should do a picnic more often!”
Zubin felt his cheeks darken; he was so glad that Xander liked his idea, and he rested his head onto Xander’s broad chest. This whole situation made him happier than he could’ve ever imagined; he was pleasantly full and content.
“Oh!” Xander exclaimed, jumping and causing Zubin to start with fright.
“What?” Zubin asked quickly.
“I’d totally forgotten!” Xander was detaching himself from Zubin, scampering round the bed and out of the room. Zubin was left slightly bewildered as he waited for Xander to return. When he did, he was carrying a tub of ice cream and two spoons. “I got this with the pizza! I’d put it in the freezer and forgot until now!”
“Jeez Xand…” Zubin exhaled, his eyes wide and his hand went to his stomach. “I don’t know if I can eat anymore, I’m so full!”
“Oh…” Xander drooped visibly. “I got cookie dough especially for you.” Zubin looked at Xander, his stomach pressing against the waistband of his jeans. But it was just ice cream - what harm could it do?
“Okay then,” he smiled, patting the bed to show he wanted Xander to rejoin him. Xander was ripping off the plastic from the lid, and carving a spoon into it.
“Open wide,” he said, holding the spoon up to Zubin’s lips; Zubin obliged and the sweet, creamy taste filled his mouth.
“Mm, that’s nice,” Zubin nodded, swallowing and taking a spoon from Xander.
Zubin knew from that first mouthful that this was a mistake; he was already so full and adding the sweet to it only made that feeling creep up his throat more, but he kept eating because Xander was too. The tub was almost three quarters empty when Xander laid it to the side and cuddled in close to Zubin.
Zubin couldn’t get comfortable no matter what position he was in - he was unbearably full, the sweetness still lingering in his mouth. His stomach was pushing out, and it hurt to hold it in. Moving the hand which wasn’t around Xander to his belly, he could feel the tautness of his skin and the bloat of his insides. He wriggled, trying to find a position that didn’t make him feel like a beached whale.
Out of the corner of his eye, Xander could see Zubin cupping his stomach, a tiny thrill chased through his chest as he saw a strip of Zubin’s bare belly from under his t-shirt. He tried to keep his eyes on the screen, his heart beating faster, but he could feel Zubin fidgeting and his hand resting on his stomach.
“Are you alright?” Xander asked eventually, he was pleased to hear his voice sounded entirely normal.
“No…!” Zubin whined dramatically, leaning back on the bed. “My belly really hurts - oh…” He grimaced, rubbing his hand across his stomach; Xander felt his ears burning and hoped they weren’t going red to match.
“Oh no!” Xander answered, biting his lip as Zubin let out a little moan while repositioning. “Have you eaten too much, d’you think?”
“Yeah, I think so…” Zubin leant his head on Xander’s shoulder, still cradling his stomach.
“Oh sweetpea,” Xander said sympathetically. “Can I do anything to help? Do you want me to rub your belly for you?”
“Oh, would you?” Zubin replied, his eyes big as he looked up at Xander.
“Course,” Xander said, a little too quickly, then added: “If it’ll help you.”
“Mm, yeah,” Zubin nodded, moving closer with his legs flat out, relinquishing his hand from it’s place on his stomach. Xander reached out his hand, and had to stop himself from gasping aloud as he touched Zubin’s belly - it was definitely firmer and rounder than usual. Pausing slightly, Xander looked at Zubin’s face before he started rubbing small circles; Zubin’s eyes closed, but there was still an element of discomfort on his face. Xander’s heart was beating as though he was running now, and he shifted his leg across as he felt a stirring in his groin. The t-shirt Zubin was wearing wrinkled and creased under his touch.
“How does that feel?” Xander asked softly.
“Mmm, nice,” Zubin mumbled, looking like he was relaxing slightly.
“Do you mind if I lift up your top?” Xander questioned cautiously, he couldn’t help it - he really wanted to see Zubin’s belly.
“Go for it,” Zubin replied. “Just keep going.” Xander felt another thrill, Zubin was clearly enjoying this. Very gently he moved Zubin’s t-shirt further up his abdomen, and revelled in the sight for a few seconds.
Zubin’s normally flat midriff was almost perfectly round, it looked like he’d swallowed a football whole. Xander’s eyes ranged up and down his boyfriend, whose thin frame was only altered by this swelling, and Xander had to squeeze his legs together as he put his hand back on Zubin’s stomach. His skin was warm, and as Xander ran his hand across it, he felt it burbling slightly underneath the skin. This was almost torture, it was so perfect.
“Ooh, you’re so good at this Xand,” Zubin muttered slowly, he was leaning close to Xander’s shoulder, taking long deep breaths. If Xander stopped moving, he could feel the breath and the working of Zubin’s stomach.
“As long as it makes you feel better,” Xander said, his voice a little hoarse.
“It does,” Zubin nodded slowly.
So Xander continued, rubbing circles, then back and forth across the mound of flesh. He kept going, until he could feel Zubin’s weight on him, and a soft snuffle told him Zubin had fallen asleep. He pressed a kiss to Zubin’s temple, and kept his hand on his stomach. Xander was hard now - the pressure of his erection pushing into his leg, but he couldn’t do anything. Not now - he just had to store all these moments up in his mind so he could replay them later.
The peace didn’t last very long, however, as Xander sat still with his hand on Zubin’s stomach he could feel it gurgling under his touch. Very suddenly, Zubin’s eyes snapped open and he doubled forward, clutching both hands at his stomach. Xander withdrew his own hand sharply, afraid he’d done something to hurt him.
“Ooh Xand,” Zubin moaned weakly, his fingers pressing into his uncovered belly. “Oh, it really hurts…”
“Can I do anything?” Xander offered, leaning forward.
“Mmmm…” Zubin shook his head, biting his lip and looking pained.
“Oh Zubin,” Xander reached out and stroked his hand up and down Zubin’s back; Zubin leant in to him, his eyes were still squeezed shut. “What does it feel like?”
“Like - like..” Zubin struggled, holding onto his stomach protectively. “Like there’s a boxing match in my belly…”
“Oh dear…” Xander said. “Do you feel sick or anything?” Zubin was wriggling around again, trying to assuage some of the discomfort in his stomach.
“Mmm, a little…” His face was screwed up, and Xander was slightly glad of this because it meant he didn’t see the reaction on his face. “”It’s… It’s more like I need to burp or something, but can’t?” He explained, rubbing his hand firmly across his belly.
“Shall I try to help? Xander offered, a little unsure on what he should do; Zubin looked up at him.
“What can you do?” Zubin asked, but he sounded a little desperate.
“Try and sit up really straight,” Xander suggested; Zubin did so, and Xander moved in closer to him and placed his hand at the base of Zubin’s back. Gently he began to pat and rub up Zubin’s spine, trying to dislodge any air that might be making him feel uncomfortable. Zubin grimaced and groaned slightly, struggling to sit upright with the weight of his belly.
“No… It’s not working…” He moaned, sounding like he might be about to cry.
“Okay, it’s okay,” Xander soothed gently, stroking his hand across Zubin’s forehead.
“It’s not!” He whimpered slightly, doubling forward again over his stomach. “It’s really not!”
“Okay - let’s try something else,” Xander said, getting off the bed and dragging across the stool from the corner of his room. “Come here.”
“What?” Zubin asked, watching as Xander settled himself on the stool, nudging his bedroom bucket next to it in case.
“Trust me,” Xander replied firmly, nodding slightly, and patting his thighs gently. “Come here.” Zubin slowly worked his way off the bed, his t-shirt dropping back down over the swelling of his belly, and he wrapped his arms across it. “You need to straddle your legs around mine, so sit on top of me.”
“But I’ll crush you!” Zubin protested instantly.
“Come off it Zu, you’re a waif!” He told him, frowning slightly.
“I feel more like a whale right now,” he murmured.
“You’re hardly that,” Xander shook his head, reaching out his hand towards Zubin. “Come on, trust me.” He slipped his hand into Zubin’s and pulled him in. “If it doesn’t make you feel any better, then I promise I’ll tuck you up with a hot water bottle and stroke your hair, okay?”
“Okay…” Zubin gave in, straddling him.
“Put your chin over my shoulder,” Xander advised, putting his arms around Zubin.
“What are you going to do?” Zubin sounded a little wary.
“I’m going to burp you like a baby,” Xander told him; Zubin looked a little unsure, but then he leant forwards, hooking his chin over Xander’s shoulder. “Okay, just relax.” He encouraged, running his hands up and down Zubin’s back, then across in lines. Slowly Xander felt Zubin sag into him; every so often Xander could hear a little hiss of air, but he couldn’t tell if that was just Zubin breathing deeply.
“Xand…” Zubin’s voice came rather shakily.
“Yes Zu?” Xander asked quietly.
“ ‘m not feeling too hot right now…” He mumbled, and Xander felt Zubin readjusting his arms over his belly. Xander’s heart was pounding again, but he tried to ignore it.
“There’s a bucket beside you if you need it, okay?” Xander told him, patting in between Zubin’s shoulder blades.
“Mmhm… buaARRP!” The sudden expulsion of air sounded very wet, and Xander could feel Zubin’s chest and stomach tensing against his front.
“Feel like you’re gonna be sick Zu?” Xander asked breathlessly.
“HUAAARK!” Zubin jerked sharply, then Xander felt something warm and wet dripping down his back and side.
“Zu?” Xander started, feeling his heart stand still.
“Nghh…” Zubin groaned weakly, his chin resting more heavily on Xander’s shoulder.
“Did you just puke on me?” Xander could barely believe it; his heart racing and a warmth spreading through his whole body.
“I - I don’t feel like I’m empty yet…” Zubin panted, Xander resumed rubbing his back.
“It’s fine,” he said, his throat tight.
“Sor - hmmmmbbbllluururrrkk!” Zubin heaved again, and Xander felt the gush of more puke falling down his side and landing with a splatter on the floor.
“Don’t worry about it,” Xander said placidly. “Just get it up, you’ll feel better - then you can have a nap while I clean up.”
‘And have a wank.’ Xander thought - and that knowledge made him feel really good.
“Ugh… Oh… Bllluuuuhhuuurrr!” Another stream of sick cascaded from Zubin, as apparently everything that he’d eaten decided to make a repeat appearance.
“That’s it,” Xander encouraged, patting more firmly.
“Oh… My belly feels like it’s been wrung out,” Zubin mumbled, taking slow breaths.
“I’m sorry Zu,” Xander said, “just take your time - you’re okay.”
“Thank you,” Zubin muttered, his head still resting on Xander’s shoulder.
“It’s okay,” Xander repeated. “I’ve got you.”
“Yeah,” Zubin breathed, slowly peeling himself away from Xander and looking at him. He was still a little wan looking, but his face looked more comfortable. “Just one thing?”
“Yes?” Xander asked, then saw Zubin’s eyes flicker downwards for a fraction of a second.
“I can feel your hard on…”