I was on the floor, my arms crossed over my stomach and
My wrists falling on bloody spots.
I reached for your hand and I was in your arms and I felt
Like I could collapse there, against you.
It didn't matter that my hair was frizzy and greasy
Or that you came straight from sport without showering but
It mattered that you ran to me and I knew that from the heaving
Of your chest against mine
It's like a glow, sometimes,
A physical link that dims and brightens so when you
Brush my skin with your fingertips we are intrinsically linked by the same blurred outline
Or you beam at me across the room and it registers somewhere
In the centre of my chest.
I am paper in your hands, wafer thin, tremoring at your breath
I am the knot in the wires you absently pull apart
I am the girl in the music box, I spin and I spin and I spin until you should shut the lid
And the music stops, and I become one with the rosewood.
I am the words written carelessly, loosely, weaving themselves out of the ink
And a big blue line goes through the mistakes, of which I am one.
I am the keys you caress The same keys you slam your fists on
I am the plane of glass between the little red hammer and the alarm.