Coupe des Mots

#MusicMonday, daily conversations, and gloomy thoughts

[wetheurban]

I can't stress enough how important it is for you to recognize and honor your worth right now. Make sure your cup is full first.

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[wetheurban]

It's okay to admit that it hurt you.

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050723; Ngomongin Scaling

Saya: Kenapa ndak? TD: Takut menipis emailnya TD: Nanti nyeri kalau jadi sensitif TD: Cukup hatiku aja yang sensitif Saya: ...... TD: Liver noh TD: Ha hati Saya: Scaling kan bersihin karang gigi ya, bg TD: Lha iya TD: Nek karang kajen rumah e AA ni Saya: YA ALLAH

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For everything said and everything done There's really nothing left that we should recall 'Cuz all of that don't matter And regretting's a bother And I'm just here trying to live in the moment

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170423; Long One

MG: Eh aku mau cerita. MG: Kemarin aku sempat road trip bersama coworkers yang sudah menikah dan karena aku mau menikah jadi diberi wejangan-wejangan lah. MG: To start: I didn't expect much. These are mas-mas yang aku yakin punya view yang berbeda sekali onlife jadi aku juga mendengarkan dan menerima dengan dalih mengisi waktu perjalanan aja. MG: But it got me thinking karena banyak banget, nggak cuma mas-mas ini--tapi orang lain juga, yang bilang kalo menikah tuh meskipun diawali cinta, akan berubah jadi komitmen, ya rasa sayangnya akan kaya sayang ke siblings or ortu aja. MG: Nah, aku tidak setuju. MG: I don't think I'm naive. I think I'm just a romantic. MG: I want love. Even sampe our hair turns grey, sampe keriput, sampe mau bangun tidur aja sulit. I want love. MG: Even sampe nanti di akhirat, dihisab, bertemu lagi di alam kekal. I want love. MG: I feel like I have experienced at least a handful evolution of romantic love and it will just be that--more veolutions--as we grow older. MG: But i will still be love. MG: I call people that call cinta after nikah bullshit--bullshit. MG: I want my kids to cringe with the amount of love I shower my husband with. WW: Ada part yang reminded me of what your describing (in my wedding invitation). WW: I think most of society has a narrow definition of romantic love, when like you said, it can go through evolutions and ended up nothing like it ever was in the beginning. WW: "But it will still be love." Indeed, it's shaping and growing just like us. WW: Also for what its worth, berhubung aku sudah lama tidak (pernah) merasakan ikatan dengan ortu dan saudara kandung, all I know of love is with you guys, friends, and extended family. WW: Dan ya untuk komitmen ini lasting tetep harus ada cinta lah. That immense care for the other person's well being, wanting to hear and know about them, helping and being each other's arms and ears, I don't think that will last if not for genuine love and care.

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This song is definitely a nice opener of the EP

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180223; A Very Mature Convo

AA dan WW: Berdiskusi mengenai rundown hari pernikahan WW MG pada saya: Kenyang ya. Saya: He eh MG: Dari kemaren makan ayam banyak. Kaya Upin Ipin... Saya: *sambil tetep makan* Iya juga. Saya: Berubah jadi ayam nggak sih kita... MG: Pokpokpokpok... Saya: Pokpokpokpok... MG: *ketawa* Saya: Dewasa banget ya kita nih. MG: *makin ketawa*

Pada sebuah meja makan di restoran.

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210223; Maav

Saya: HM KASIH SELENTINGAN APA YA Saya: MG, kamu jago kan Saya: Bikin Saya: Apatuh namanya Saya: Mbribik things MG: MBRIBIK THINGS TUH PICKUP LINE??? Saya: OH IYA Saya: DAS IT

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Keep me up with your silence Take me down with your quiet Of all the weapons you fight with Your silence is the most violent

Tell me how to feel about you now Tell me how to feel about you now Oh, let me know Do I suffocate or let go?

[alteregosblabs]

No meaningful relationship can be consistently easy. Even the closest friends will neglect or misinterpret each other, say the wrong thing, feel rejected by change when different life stages pull them apart. The question, then, is not how to avoid these painful missteps, but how to keep trying to tell the truth to each other, regardless.

Natasha Lunn on Conversations on Love

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130123; Nggak Gini

MG: Ayo kamu ada double wedding tahun ini butuh date kan Saya: Hwmwmwmwmwwmwmwm MG: Kalo dateng sendiri sih kurang drama. Saya: Lah ada AA. Kurang drama apa????? Saya: Perlu kami pake baju ala dancer Guruh Soekarnoputra??? MG: Aduh straight drama WW: Kan dia kerjaaa. Saya: NGAKAK. CAPEEEEE Saya: Double job gapapa kak MG: Gay bff drama setiap hari, wedding is just another tuesday nggak sihhhh MG: WKWK ADUH INGIN NAMPOL DIRI SENDIRI Saya: NGUAKAK NGGAK BERENTI WW: UASTAGA MULUTNYA

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130123; Ya Benar Sih

Saya: LUCU BANGET W WW: Udah ndang diminta kontaknya dulu Saya: INIKAH SAATNYA AKU TIDAK SAMA MAS-MAS SENI-SENIAN WW: 2023 MARI YUK MARI. MG: Saatnya sih udah dua tahun lalu, but better late than never I guess. WW: WAHAHAHAH MG Saya: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

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@ toastedbyeli

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Everyday's Feeling

On the day which I am occupied with errands and things, I am functioning fine.

Once I hit my room, the pains and anger from feeling betrayed will come. It still does affect me and to be honest, I don't like it. I am trying to make peace with all of these emotional roller coasters no one knows about and trying feels not enough. Like, I should do more than make peace and feel the feel.

I sometimes have these shadiness and pettiness in me that I can throw anytime anywhere if I meet [redacted] and [redacted].