[alternativeversion]

Of course I get my period two days before my wedding......

[alternativeversion]

So I’m doing my best to avoid  tour spoilers but today my fiance said, “I saw the set list” and I said “i dont wanna know anything” 

he said “I know....but i feel like you may want heads up about one of the songs” 

and I said “if its an emotionally charged song, I dont wanna know” 

and he gave me this look and I just knew. So I asked, “is it marjorie?” and he said yes. 

so i basically shouldnt even wear any make up to the concert because between listening to the sappy love songs that will remind me of my upcoming wedding (20 days after the concert!), i may also be emotionally destroyed by the song that perfectly encapsulates the grief of a grandparent, while I mourn the still fresh loss of the grandfather 

[shouldntbeaskingmyselfwhy]

also on my walk i gave myself goosebumps thinking about baby taylor writing a happy ending for romeo and juliet and 'tried to change the ending peter losing wendy' and the you belong with me video having them get together in the end and 'just to learn that he never cared' and just the ways she has tried so hard to rewrite her story and the ways the aggressive optimism has fallen away over the past few years

[shouldntbeaskingmyselfwhy]

also on my walk i gave myself goosebumps thinking about baby taylor writing a happy ending for romeo and juliet and 'tried to change the ending peter losing wendy' and the you belong with me video having them get together in the end and 'just to learn that he never cared' and just the ways she has tried so hard to rewrite her story and the ways the aggressive optimism has fallen away over the past few years

[likeadevils]

“there’s something bout the way the street looks when it just rained” most opening line of all time

[likeadevils]

no cause like. the first verse of fearless a) is a banger of a line like an absolute flawless observation b) perfectly sets the tone for the rest of the album c) sets up THREE different motifs (rain -> glow/shine -> cars) and d) kicks off her character arc of romanticizing mundane or outright negative experiences (which she will come to regret and cherish)

[ilostyou]

swifttok is so wrong for being genuinely upset at rumors that taylor is soundchecking me! as if it's not one of her biggest mainstream-est well-known singles AND as if it's not a whole bop

[ilostyou]

like. she didn't even get a tour to perform me! (not just a bop but a super popular lead single) at properly and i'd bet a good 70% of the setlist is gonna be lover/midnights with some folklore/evermore sprinkled in. you think the song is cringe? don't come 🤷🏻‍♀️ boo fucking hoo

[alternativeversion]

the Taylor Swift merch is just so awful omfg

I am 25 years old. I don’t want merch with her face on it, I’m sorry I don’t. her face is beautiful but I am an adult woman. I don’t want to wear faces on my clothing. 

[taylorswiftpropaganda]

I keep coming back to what @likeadevils said about how Taylor kept coming back to her fear of getting older in writing Red but kept cutting it from the album.

The Taylor who wrote Red was coming off back to back relationships with older men where her age was a reason they pursued her AND a reason they ended things. She was also trying to continue a career where her accolades were made to seem more significant because they often came attached to a “youngest ever” label.

This era saw Taylor publicly embrace a more mature persona - abandoning the fairytales and whimsy that were once staples of her brand. And yet privately she wrote about how terrifying getting older was. She was desperate to grow up and stay young at the same time because of the way the men in her life, and the industry feel about age.

Imagine the mindfuck of knowing your naivety and youth are hot commodities to older men but your perceived childishness is the reason they’ll abandon you. Growing up would be a way to simultaneously protect yourself from and prove yourself to these men.

Imagine seeing how hard the women in the industry work to cling to the appearance of youth. How women she grew up admiring fell off the charts as soon as either their 20s or their beauty left them. Conversely starting her career as a teenager and writing about high school and first loves was where her detractors drew from for critique. She wasn’t a real musician to them, she was a child star.

Ultimately the desire to grow up, to be perceived as a woman and a serious music heavyweight won out. Red was her transition out of girlhood made clear and at the time it seemed like she bridged this gap effortlessly, but in the vault and on the cutting room floor she left behind traces of the battle it took to get there and the fear of what she was leaving behind.

[alternativeversion]

A fellow alumni from my college won a fucking grammy this year????? 

how fucking awesome 

[alternativeversion]

save the date/invites that say “Its seems that you’ve all been invited by the lovely bride to be” lol

Definitely an option, thank you!

[heystephen]

ppl can call noitsashley antis dramatic all they want but that woman is for real giving yolanda saldivar levels of obsessed and it’s freaking me out

and it’s like, yeah there’s celebrity impersonators out there, but those people admit to being impersonators. like that’s their title. taylor even casted a drag queen who does impersonations of her in the yntcd video, she’s aware of professional impersonations. that being said, ashley doesn’t call herself an impersonator, she’s an obsessed fan who tries to emulate everything taylor does right down to getting her face done to look like taylor’s and getting the same breed of cat in the same color and naming it oliver. she even started emulating taylor’s voice and how she speaks and how she holds things like makeup brushes and writing tools. and again, ashley does not admit to or call herself an impersonator. it has to be deeply uncomfortable to have somebody adopting your likeness and habits and calling them theirs- especially for a woman who has dealt with her likeness being used negatively in the past (famous music video) as well as stalkers, i think the idea of this stranger trying to adopt her exact likeness for who knows what purposes in the future would be terrifying. while i am aware that taylor commented on one of ashley’s videos a while back, i do believe that she (or her team) has since become aware of the lengths ashley has taken to try to be literally BE her and that its not a cute, coincidental lookalike, and i hope ashley is kept far away from taylor lmaooo

[heystephen]

and YEAH ive heard the argument that “well lots of fans dress up like taylor!” like. theres a fucking difference between the girls who remake taylor’s tour costumes for fun and stuff and all the random blonde girls with ponytails and red lipstick like red era taylor. those girls arent literally trying to emulate every single detail about taylor from her voice to her facial expressions to her actual real life pets and her literal actual teeth. and then saying its just coincidental and they hate the comparisons 

[alternativeversion]

anyone out there who actually sees my posts, lol, 

im getting married and am trying to fit a taylor swift reference into my invitations 

happy to accept ideas 

thinking along the lines of “you are cordially invited to an enchanted wedding” 

but less “fairytale party” vibes lol 

also accepting ideas for RSVP cards such as:

ready to shake it off

or 

ready to party in style 

thanks in advance

[stylesnews]

Harry’s acceptance speech for winning Album Of The Year at the 65th Grammys.

[alternativeversion]

okay but like in Sweet Nothing the lines 

“I wrote a poem

You say ‘what a mind’”

Really takes the whole “watch out she’ll write a song about you” and flips it and turns it into to 

“Watch out, she’ll write a song about you” 

and he’s like “yeah, it’ll be a fucking BANGER too, can’t wait”

[alternativeversion]

I had a dream that I was a contestant on America’s Next Top Model and I was the clear favorite to win that the other girls tried to cheat and got caught lol 

[alternativeversion]

I really hate how performative human lives have become. 

A celebrity dies or is injured and suddenly everyone in the world is blasting “rip” or “Get well soon” all over their social medias, when they didn’t even know who the person was before it was trending on twitter. 

dont get me wrong, i dont wish ill will on people, i feel sad for people how have lost a loved one, but its a bit much when its all the time. 

yes this is specifically about the football player. I have prayed for him privately and will continue to do so. I am NOT going to be posting things all over social media for him. He doesn’t know me, it helps nothing, I had no idea he existed until he was injured, so that last thing I’m going to do is turn his injury into being all about me and “look at me sharing this post! I’m such a nice person”

[alternativeversion]

So, because of a contract I signed with my job,  I have to work all day 12/24 and 12/25, and as someone that celebrates Christmas, this is going to fucking suck. 

I live in a different state than my family, I see them MAYBE once a year. The only family I’m around are my future in-laws, and they don’t even care that I’m missing Christmas. 

They are still having their normal Christmas celebration on the 25th, and I will be missing it. And no one cares. No one thought to say “um hey Mikayla is across the country from her family, which already sucks during the holidays, will be working on the actual day of Christmas, which sucks, why don’t we move our holiday celebration to a day where she is free so it doesn’t suck 3 times over?”

Nope. And I know the world doesn’t revolve around me. But it still sucks. I’m not even excited about Christmas this year. I have an ugly ass, expensive tree, gift under the tree, wrapped and ready to go!, and I’m not even excited to give them out. I bought eggnog, which I love, and I don’t even want to drink it. It doesn’t snow where I live anymore that’s been depressing for the past two years. 

I’m just...... sad. And need a free space to vent.