In 1972, Neil Young held his firstborn son, Zeke, as "Heart of Gold" played on every radio in America. But within months, doctors delivered a difficult truth: Zeke had cerebral palsy. A milder form, they said. He would adapt. And over time, he did.
Neil had married Pegi Morton the year before. Together they welcomed their second son, Ben. For a brief moment, everything felt right again.
Ben wasn't developing the way babies should. The doctors' verdict was devastating: severe cerebral palsy. Quadriplegic. Non-verbal. He would never walk. He would never speak a single word.
Two sons. The same diagnosis. A condition not supposed to strike the same family twice.
In his memoir Waging Heavy Peace, Neil didn't hide behind metaphor. He admitted he was shattered — consumed by rage, lying awake drowning in questions with no answers, feeling like the universe had singled him out for punishment.
But he didn't retreat. He walked into his studio at Broken Arrow Ranch and began tearing everything apart.
He layered synthesizers over guitars. He ran his voice through vocoders until it sounded robotic and alien. He wasn't chasing a trend. He was trying to communicate what it felt like to love someone who couldn't communicate back.
The result was Trans, released in 1982. Critics were baffled. Fans were angry. Geffen Records sued him for delivering music that was "uncharacteristic" and "uncommercial."
Years later, Neil explained the truth behind every distorted note. When you listen to Trans, he said, you can hear him saying something — but you can't quite make it out. Words filtered through so much processing they become unintelligible. Someone is clearly trying to reach you, but the message won't come through.
That, he said, was exactly how it felt to sit with Ben every single day.
Trans was not a musical experiment. It was a father screaming across a silence that could not be broken.
Neil also built something more tangible. Because Ben couldn't use standard train controls, Neil designed a large adapted button Ben could activate with his head — enough to blow the horn, switch the tracks, control the trains. In those moments, Neil said, Ben wasn't disabled. He was just a boy having fun. This work eventually grew into a partnership with Lionel, revolutionizing model train technology for enthusiasts everywhere.
In 1986, Neil and Pegi co-founded The Bridge School in Hillsborough, California — built for children with severe speech and physical impairments the education system had written off. To fund it, they launched the Bridge School Benefit Concert at the Shoreline Amphitheatre. That first night, Bruce Springsteen, Tom Petty, Don Henley, Crosby Stills & Nash, and Robin Williams all showed up. The concert ran annually for thirty years, raising millions and giving hundreds of children a voice.
Ben attended the school, learned to use assistive communication technology, and later founded Coastside Farms — a certified organic egg farm he runs using customized communication devices. The boy the world assumed would never do anything built a business, travels on tour with his father, and, in Neil's words, serves as the spiritual leader of their group on the road.
Pegi Young passed away on January 1, 2019, after a battle with cancer. She was 66 years old. The school she built still stands, still teaches, still transforms lives. jambase
Neil once said Ben taught him you never give up. It cannot be too hard.
Every strange, misunderstood note on that 1982 album was a father refusing to let silence have the last word. And every egg sold at a California farmers' market is proof he was right to keep trying.
Love is not a feeling you have. It is what you build when feelings are not enough.
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