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nadiaxocastillo:

“i’m sure she won’t be. but sometimes i wonder where her spunky attitude will bring her,” nadia let out a chuckle as she thought about how many nights she worried about where her daughters free spirit would lead her. “i’m sorry, aly. that sounds like you’re in a very difficult situation, and i really hope you figure out what’s best for you..the past isn’t always easy to get over, and there’s no problem with that.”

    “somewhere really great probably,” the brunette reassured softly a real smile falling on her features. shoulders lifted and the woman wanted to brush it off, she had to. she hadn’t done all of this by herself by feeling. if she’d wasted time feeling, she probably wouldn’t have made it. “it’s just stupid, i didn’t need that man for years and now all of a sudden.. i’m going to need him. plus, i’m terrified i’ll feel something i shouldn’t feel.”

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rrcna.

rena nodded her head slightly. only looking up once the older female spoke to her. “ i just …. like, i’m not even sure yet. how do i tell something like this to my family, ” she literally had no idea what would be the next step. “ i don’t … even know how my boyfriend is going to react to this. what if …. what if he just .. walks out of my life. what if he’s not going to believe me ? ” overthinking was one of rena’s things she was good at but wish she wasn’t. “ what if i won’t be able to figure it out ? what if i just …. end up all alone ? ”

     aly wasn’t going to lie, look how everything had turned out for her. she’d been alone but even though it was difficult she’d made a life for herself until now. “you just have to rip the bandaid off for both those things, and i mean.. you can start waiting until you show a little more but you’re tiny, it happens a lot faster than you’d think. as for your boyfriend, take a test in front of him if you have to..” an inhale of breath, and the brunette tried to genuinely smile reassuringly. “if you end up alone.. look at me, i did it all by myself. it’s really hard. i’m not going to lie to you, some nights you just cry or you want to scream, and take everything you did back that got you here,  but you learn a lot about yourself, what you’re capable of. plus i might just be friends with your mom, but if you ever need anything even if people stick around, i’ve got you.”

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rrcna:

rena was relieved as the older female mentioned that she wouldn’t tell anyone. it was like as if she could breath again. “ thank you … so much, ” she thanked the older woman as a small tear rolled down her cheek. she was quick to wipe it off with her hand. “ i don’t know … like — i’m not even sure, ” she said softly, only hoping that the older female would understand what she was talking about.

her shoulders calmly lifted and she gave the girl a reassuring smile. it was nothing, and she was sure that unlike half the women in this town she wasn’t a gossip. “no big deal kid, i know what it’s like for something like that to get around. head cocked to the side at her words, and the brunette managed a nod. “you’ll figure it out, you will.”

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💬 + you'd get back with your baby daddy?

   “um, if i was about to be killed and that was the only way to hop out of the situation i’d do my best probably ‘cause he’d play the leaving game again anyway. I’d only have to stick a false positive test in front of him and he’d be outta there faster than the road runner. Also, poor dude is married and I’m not a home-wrecker.”

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Send 💬 + a rumor and my muse will react to it.

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are you the fun parent or the cool parent?

i’m... the only parent. also, that’s basically the same thing.

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do you have any regrets ?

not really, if i had regrets i wouldn’t be where i am today, and the last thing i can do is complain about the life i’ve built for myself.

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sbstians:

it only took that one comment for him to know that alyson wasn’t about to hold any punches, and why should he? that was exactly what he had done, and none of the many excuses he had used to make himself feel better about it through the years would work with the woman. “i guess,” he nodded lamely. sebastian was used not only to talk to large groups but to be heard, his word always treated as something important, but now they failed him. he was nervous, unsure on exactly what the woman would demand, and suddenly all too aware of the effect alyson still had on him. “you shouldn’t be the one apologizing, aly,” he sighed, though he still couldn’t say the words. “just tell me what you need.”

carefully alyson found herself nipping at the inside of her cheek because god damn she was nervous. sure, she’d heard of him in the last 23 years because they did have mutual friends but seeing him was a completely different story, in fact she couldn’t remember the last time they’d been in a room together. hands wrung and the brunette inhaled a soft breath, she hated needing someone especially because she’d done so good on her own for so long. the shortening of her name caused her breath to hitch and she almost hated herself for the effect he still had on her. as quickly as it came, the soft smile that she had formed disappeared and she straightened. “ ‘s alyson. my friends call me aly.” and then it came, the dreaded question and back she was to fidgeting, thumbnail making it’s way into her mouth,  just as she’d done in high-school when they were about to get in deep shit. “money,” its quiet, and quite clear that she’s ashamed of this. “i really screwed up, seb.. and i.. lost my job, and.. ou -- my son is an adult but.. i still have to take care of him. if it was just me, i wouldn’t be asking.”

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rrcna:

she quickly held her hand under the cold water as she looked behind her, watching the woman walking around to the other side of the counter. she really didn’t know what else to say anymore, she was just scared that anyone else would find out or – assume things. she had been more sensitive than she actually was. she couldn’t even tell herself she was pregnant, how would she be able to tell others ? she looked up at the woman with tears in her eyes. “ c-can this stay between us, please ? ” she begged.

   the tears in the teenagers eyes caused an instant frown of worry to appear. she couldn’t help it the caring nature that she had for those around her, especially those who were in a situation that she’d once been in. “sweetheart, of course. it isn’t my business to tell.” hoping her words seemed reassuring the brunette allowed a sigh to escape, an apologetic smile crossing her features. “i’m sorry i even brought it up in the first place but really... if you ever need to talk or have any weird questions, you can always ask. no matter what time. ”

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rrcna.

maybe – next time she should just think before she asks something about pregnancy. it was pretty obvious now that the older female was getting suspicious. “ y..yeah we have some of that, ” rena smiled warmly as she quickly turned around to get her order ready. as she tried to push the thoughts to the back of her head, she completely zoned out .. not noticing that she was filling the cup a little too much, causing it to spill all over the counter. her eyes widened as her hand made contact with the hot water. tears filling her eyes as she realized she totally messed up. not wanting to turn around and face the other as she felt ashamed of herself. today was not her day.

eyes trailed to her phone, and she easily picked it up to grow engrossed in her social media. clearly even if she knew what she did, she should’ve kept her mouth shut, it wasn’t her place to say anything even if her assumptions were correct. she didn’t bother to look up, not until the obvious sound of overflowing water was heard. quiet gasp escaped as she didn’t want to embarrass the girl even more than she had, but when she didn’t turn around alyson grew worried. maybe it was the mother in her, she wasn’t sure. “put your hand under cool water,” soft suggestion escaped and the woman bit her cheek no other words escaping as she considered moving around to the other side of the counter.

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nadiaxocastillo:

“i don’t even want to think about when my kids are in their fifties. I’m already worried when megan is old she’s going to be one of the old ladies you hear about who’s scammed everyone else at the nursing home out of their liquor, and money,” though she was almost certain that her sweet sass master daughter would never actually do that. “have you thought about getting a loan instead?” 

    soft laughter was followed by a shake of her head and the other woman couldn’t help the giggle that tumbled after. maybe she really was sleep deprived. “i doubt she’ll be that terrible.” a hopeful smile followed and alyson bit her lip at the suggestion before tossing her head into her hands for a second. “i wish it were that simple, it’s stupid of me though... i don’t know. if i could just get over the past this would be a lot easier but, you never want to ask someone who burned you for help.”

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rrcna.

oh she knew exactly what the older female meant, she just rather wanted to pretend she didn’t knew what she talked about .. not wanting anyone to find out just yet. “ i …. i was just …. i’m curious .. i really … ask weird questions to everyone. i just … - tea. yes, coming right up. is there like .. any flavor you want ? ” she questioned quickly, trying to change the whole subject. 

clearly the teenager was uncomfortable and the last thing the older brunette wanted was to press the issue even more so she simply nodded her head. Face softening just slightly, she lifted a shoulder before sighing, “maybe some chamomile, if you’ve got it. thanks, honey.” though she knew what she was sure was true, aly didn’t want to put any pressure on the girl to say anything but she wasn’t quite sure how to tell her if she needed to talk, she’d be around.

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alisingh:

Ali laughed at her friend before passing over a coffee mug. “Yeah I’m with you on that, sleep is a godsend.”

Soft smile falling on features, the brunette took the mug gratefully. “You’re telling me, I wish I could get a little more of it.”

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Thanks for stopping by, Mom.

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rrcna:

she listened carefully as the older woman told her about how uncomfortable it got after a while with a big belly. kinda assuming that the same thing would happen to her in a few months, yet she always tried her hardest best to push these thoughts aside. yet sometimes she just didn’t succeed at all. only looking up once again as she heard the older female’s voice. “ ….. no - what — what do you mean ? ” she slightly panicked. 

how the hell there was no line up behind her was beyond aly but either was she chewed at her cheek for a quick moment before completely realizing that maybe the girl hadn’t told people. “nothing -- i just thought.. i used to ask my friends moms weird questions when i was.. nothing. you know what? forget it. i’m sure you aren’t.” flashing the teenager a soft smile, she shook her head. “so,  how about that tea?”