Harder Faster Stronger

[alyssa-lopz]

sketchingvalpez:

I mean, most likely. This is me we’re talking about. See, I don’t know why you did that. Well, no, I have a rough idea but still. It really would have. Uh, I think she might still be in Chicago? I don’t know… I mean yeah, we could, or we could just hide out in the hotel room. Ignore everyone and everything. Makes sense. Did I even tell you happy birthday???

Exactly my point, so. A rough idea?? Girl, are you on crack? Where you go, I go, and let’s not ignore the fact that we’ve been sleeping in the same bed literally every weekend, a measly hurricane wasn’t about to disrupt my shit. Hey, I’m down if you are, Netflix and chill sounds fun-fucking-tastic right about now, else I go ahead and make your roommates mysteriously disappear. I... don’t think anyone wishes anyone a happy birthday this year, ‘cause we suck.

[alyssa-lopz]

sketchingvalpez:

You and me both, babe. It might have involved tacos… At this point, I don’t entirely remember how they convinced me to do this. As for why we didn’t go elsewhere, no idea. We probably should have, though. Gone to see Tana, or something. Considering we seemed to be more than a little preoccupied on our birthday and I don’t know if you did, but I’m pretty sure I forgot to message her…

Well, it had to involve tacos and vodka, otherwise I really don’t gets how the hell you ended up agreeing. Or why I just followed without asking! That would’ve been a much better option, say... do you have any idea where she is right now? We can have the Jeep packed up in ten minutes and outta here in fifteen. I didn’t message her but I did email her, I do every year since it’s much easier to send her an online gift than it is to find her ass.

[sketchingvalpez]

Most people evacuated to like Georgia, where did we decide? Fucking New Orleans. I’m killing them for this. I don’t care if they’re my roommates, I’m killing them. I’m throwing them in the Mississippi. Why did I let them talk me into here?

[alyssa-lopz]

I would say it's not that bad, but I honestly didn't picture coming back here for a long ass time. Remind me, why the fuck did we follow them here, instead of going somewhere else?

[alyssa-lopz]

Coming home to you || Valyssa

[alyssa-lopz]

As soon as Val started talking, Alyssa was already shaking her head, holding tightly onto her sister. She knew where the argument would lead, and while in the past she had made the mistake of walking away, thinking it would be better in the long run, this time she wouldn't. She couldn't. "I'm sorry, sis, but it's about time I give you some tough love up in here, so brace yourself."

Taking a deep breath, a plan started coming together in her head before she even spoke, and with new resolve, Alyssa nodded to herself. "It's not up to you, simple as that, so you best start getting that into your thick skull. There's one thing you just don't seem to understand and now that everything is out in the open, I believe you need to hear this." It was a long shot, there was a lot at risk, but Alyssa had done it already, had managed to build a successful business, had a promising career, but there had always been something missing. "Maybe I've done well for myself so far, I own my place, a badass car, my bank account is decent, but without you there... Val, at the end of the day, it all feels so empty. I'm proud of what I've done, but it means little when it doesn't really make me happy. You make me happy, and I'll be damned if I don't find a way to help you be happy too."

[alyssa-lopz]

Coming home to you || Valyssa

[alyssa-lopz]

sketchingvalpez:

Her arms arms wrapped around Aly’s waist as her sister laid on top of her. Her hold was tight, possessive, desperate. She was scared. She was scared because she hadn’t felt panic like this in years. The way her mind betrayed her. The way everything was too much but not enough. The way she just wanted to give up because she even hold it together for something she wanted. Except, what she wanted was Aly to show how much she loved her. Was that not what her sister was doing? Showing her how much she cared? How much she loved? 

A sigh escaped Val’s lips as she felt the way her heart slowed down, the way the sound of it receded from her ears like a tide going out. Letting out a shaky breath, she opened her eyes. “I’m here Lyssa. I’m not okay, but I’m here.” The words left her mouth before she could stop them because the voice in the back of her head was still bitching but it seemed to quiet when she told the truth. “I’m sorry. I’ve been trying but not enough. I’ve been having nightmares and I didn’t know how to tell you. I didn’t know how to tell you that I need you so much because I’m tired of doing this without you. That I’m tired of doing this alone. I love you so much and I didn’t want to tear you away from everything you’ve built. I didn’t-” The tears began to fall as she cut herself off, guilt washing over her.

With the first admittance, and as painful as it was to hear it, something finally clicked in place within for Alyssa and her body unconsciously sagged. She had known somehow that her sister wasn't doing as well as she said she was, but experience had taught her that if she let Val stew on it for a bit, she would break sooner or later. She always did, at least with Alyssa.

As if a bucket of cold water had been dropped on her, the older of the two felt all traces of sexual desire leave her body, every inch of her taken over by fierce protectiviness. Adjusting her body, she gathered her sister in her arms, holding her tight as she blinked back her own tears. She would be strong for Val, as she had always been. "Shh, it's okay, V. I'm here now, I got you. I got you." She whispered softly, carefully flipping their positions so that she wa son her back, Val's body cradled against her side. "You should've talked to me, baby, you should've told me and you know I would move the entire world for you."

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Coming home to you || Valyssa

[alyssa-lopz]

To anybody else, it would look as if things were going swimmingly, but with each passing second and as she managed to take a glimpse through the lustful haze, Alyssa knew things were far from okay. It broke her heart, it sting, and not because of some nonsensical and frankly misplaced egotistical notion, but because she could read the signs written all over Valencia's face, in every controlled gesture and breath. She was losing Val, fast, and pushing away her body's needs, Aly fought to keep the girl grounded.

"Stay with me, V " She whispered, having reached to cup Val's face with her hands, her touch firm but gentle. "It's okay, no matter what happens I'm not going anywhere. We have all the time in the world, and even if we didn't, I'd be happy to just be here, with you, just like this." Kissing her sister softly, She covered Val's body with her own, using her solid weight to remind the other thay she was there, thay she wasn't going anywhere. I have already waited my whole life for you, I can wait a little longer and not have a single regret. Please, stay with me, V. I love you."

[alyssa-lopz]

Coming home to you || Valyssa

[alyssa-lopz]

The sensations that came with finally being able to touch Val the way she always wanted were indescribable, the emotions that came with it all threatening to burst out of her chest. Still in awe of how the other reacted to her touch, Alyssa ground her hips a little more insistently, the exploration of her hand and lips almost possessive. She was afraid to scare Val off, that it would be too much, but it was borderline impossible to reign herself in, especially when after years if pinning, she was finally allowed intoxicating freedom. Feeling her skin burning up, Aly leaned back, her hips still rocking back and forth lightly as she reached for the hem of her own top, pulling it over her head in a fluid motion. With steady confidence that betrayed her nervousness, Alyssa reached for Val's hands, bringing them to rest on her abs, directly on her skin. "Touch me." She almost begged.

[alyssa-lopz]

Coming home to you || Valyssa

[alyssa-lopz]

Slowly lowering her body so that their chests were pushed together and her legs were still bracketing Val's hips, Aly grinned, going to nuzzle against her neck. "Well, you certainly aren't keen on making things easy for me, are you now?" She asked playfully, taking one of the girl's hands and lacing their fingers together, bringing them up above Val's head and holding them there, pressed against the bed. The gentle nuzzling slowly shifted into featherlight kisses against the taut skin of her sister's neck, pressing harder until she was shamelessly mouthing at her pulse point, raking her teeth over the same spot. It was all too easy to lose herself in Val, to get further carried away with each kiss, and without much of a conscious thought, her hips rocked back and forth subtly, her lips becoming more insistent as she searched the other's, her free hand tracing the curves she had only ever dared to dream about touching.

[alyssa-lopz]

Coming home to you || Valyssa

[alyssa-lopz]

sketchingvalpez:

Val sighed, resting her head against Aly’s. “Always did know what I was thinking, or did you smell the gears burning and guess?” She giggled a bit, kissing Aly, arms protectively wrapped around her sister’s waist. She then buried her face in Aly’s neck, breathing a little, trying to ground herself. This was Aly. This wasn’t Reagan. It wasn’t anyone else who’d fucked her over. This was the one person who had always fought to do anything but. This was the person she’d pushed out of bed over morning wood but still had in her bed again the next night. This was, “Lyssa.” The nickname slipped from her lips as she nuzzled against Aly’s neck.

Pulling her face from Aly’s neck, she kissed her. It was gentle and hesitant, whatever dominance that she’d held before all but drained from her. It had to be, no matter what happened, because losing control safely meant needing someone else to have it. Meant needing Aly to have it.

"Both. Or maybe I'm just that awesome." Aly jested, grinning softly at her sister. She knew Val, perhaps better than she knew herself, and it was clear that the adrenaline and dominance had all but left the girl's body as she suddenly felt smaller in her arms. So she wrapped her arms around Val's shoulders, offering silent comfort and a moment to gather herself. This was the part where she stepped in, stepped up to the challenge and offered reassurance in the strength of her arms, where she held on tightly to keep Val from falling apart and getting lost in her own head. That he always been her duty, not by blood but by choice.

She hadn't made her own fears a secret, but in that moment, as the old nickname fell from her lips, and then said lips where upon hers, it all melted away. This was their moment, and Alyssa wasn't about to let it be taken from them by their own fears. So she kissed back, cradling Val's face to keep her close, arching her body against her sister's, deepening the dance of their lips. Aly kissed her with fire on her lips, her hands finding their way back to her hair, fisting the silky tresses with borderline desperation, both to show her always latent desire, and to reign herself in, as the last thing she wanted was to puch too far. "Fuck, V..." She whispered after breaking the kiss, breathing heavily against the woman's lips, eyes hooded and gaze heavy. "Tell me what you want, baby girl, and I'll give it to you."

[alyssa-lopz]

Coming home to you || Valyssa

[alyssa-lopz]

alyssa-lopz:

sketchingvalpez:

Feeling the way Aly reacted to her had Val returning the energy. Letting years of doubt and hidden secrets fall away. Her fingers in Aly’s hair held her head in place as she pulled her sister off the door. She kept her lips on Aly’s as she moved skillfully across her bedroom, only breaking to breathe. 

When they reached the bed, Val smiled, as she took a seat on the edge, pulling Aly into her lap, hands moving from her hair to around her waist. She’d thought about this for so long, getting Aly like this. Val was barely in control of what she was doing and that scared her. She’d made a vow to herself about how this was going to go but the closer her head got to stopping the thinking, the more worried she got about losing control and breaking that.

It wasn’t the most graceful of things, but somehow, she managed to follow Val to the bed with minimal embarrassment. Lips still puckered up and chasing her sister’s, Alyssa watched with a dazed expression as her sister sat on the edge of the bed, and only barely managed to stop herself from moaning at the indescribable feeling of being able to be with Val like this, so close and without false pretenses. She did sigh, though, her hands finding their way to the girl’s hair, tilting her head up to kiss her softly. “You’re thinking too hard, V. It’s okay, just relax. We don’t have to go any further than this.”

[alyssa-lopz]

Coming home to you || Valyssa

[alyssa-lopz]

sketchingvalpez:

Val smirked as Aly spoke. Part of her wasn’t entirely sure where this would go. She knew where she wanted it to, but the rest of her was still hesitant on the matter. As Aly spoke again, Val nodded silently, before pulling herself from the wall and backing towards her bedroom door, more than a little happy she’d thought to leave it open.

Once through the door, she used one hand to push it mostly closed before spinning and closing it the rest of the way by pushing Aly up against it. Kissing her sister deeply, she smiled.

Like an eager puppy, Alyssa was happy to follow Val further into the darkened apartment,her bag all but forgotten somewhere in the living room. If she was to be honest, having Val being the aggressor, per say, was not something she would’ve ever imagined, but the older of the two was not about to complain. As her back met the door with a dull thud, her dopey smile changed into something more feral, and when Val kissed her, she kissed back without holding herself back. Years of wanting and pining in secret were poured into the kiss, into the way her body arched against the other’s, finally free of the restrains that held her back for so long.

This was real, Val wanted her, and Alyssa was on cloud nine.

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Coming home to you || Valyssa

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"You know me, I'm greedy, so both would be good." Alyssa all but mumbled, surrendering all coherent thought in favor of losing herself in the feeling and taste of Val. If her sister was merely teasing her, she would likely have an aneurysm or something equally as dramatic, but if not... well, let's just say Aly wanted - more than anything - to get down to it already. Even if all they did was make out like hormonal teenagers, she would take it as long as it guaranteed the both of them in a horizontal position. "No, but seriously, your room. Now."

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Coming home to you || Valyssa

[alyssa-lopz]

sketchingvalpez:

Val smiled, letting out the slightest gasp as her back hit the wall. Her lip caught between her teeth as she looked at Aly. Laughing a bit at what Aly had to say, she moved her head, exposing more of her neck to Aly as her fingers tangled in her sister’s hair. “Why would I do that? They’re creeps out at this time of night.” She slipped one hand from Aly’s hair and used it to raise her chin, kissing her deeply. “Besides, I had something a little more, fun, in mind.” She whispered against Aly’s lips, biting at them a little.

“Please, I’m a tiny latina with a monumental temper that lift weights for fun, I’d be the most dangerous creep out there.” Aly jested lightly, softly raking her teeth over Val’s pulse point, before they were kissing again. The feeling and taste of Val was something she just knew she would never grow tired of, would never stop craving it, and it showed in the way her body arched against her sister’s, seeking more of the heavenly sensations. “Oh yeah? And are you gonna share, or would you rather just show me?” The older of the two asked in a quiet husk, her hands moving to Val’s waist, clutching at the material of her top possessively. 

[alyssa-lopz]

Coming home to you || Valyssa

[alyssa-lopz]

sketchingvalpez:

Val smiled as she wrapped her arms around Aly’s neck. As the kiss broke, Val rested her head against Aly’s. “Yeah? It can be arranged.” She smirked before kissing Aly again, slowly walking backwards, pulling Aly with her. When they got to where the kitchen became the living room and the hallways led off to the bedrooms, she stopped.

“How tired are you?” She asked, not entirely sure if everything her sister had consumed was still running through her system. Val wasn’t entirely tired. Her sleep schedule was still fucked beyond repair, but she’d been managing to get sleep somewhat regularly. She had also taken a small nap before Aly arrived, so she wasn’t as tired as she could have been.

Aly followed Val happily, distractedly tossing her duffel off to the side in the darkened living room. “Are you kidding me? I’m high off my ass on caffeine and sugar right now, it’ll take me at the very least a couple hours to crash.” She explained, further walking forward, forcing Val to walk backwards by proxy, until her back met a wall, trapping her in place with her body. 

“Why do you ask? Because if you say a stroll, I will lock you out of your own place, this is Florida still.” She pried cautiously, leaning forward to nuzzle against Val, peppering the taut column of her neck with little kisses and nips of her teeth.

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spitfiretana:

I never said I wanted you to do anything. I said that it’d probably be cheaper to buy blow and that it’d probably get you there faster. If you wanna be wired, then that’s up to you but don’t try pin it on me unless you plan on sharing. 

Ah, of course, my bad for trying to pin the blame on you for an idea you put in my head. Made it to Saint Pete safe and sound, though, but this is a subject we should revisit net time I see you. And that brings me to the next subject, when the fuck am I gonna see you again, you hoe?

[alyssa-lopz]

Coming home to you || Valyssa

[alyssa-lopz]

sketchingvalpez:

Val was curled up on the couch in the living room, waiting for Aly. Ro and Isaac were in their room, likely asleep, but Val had made sure to let them know Aly was coming up. They had seemed excited for her, and she knew why, it was just a little odd. So much had changed since the last time Aly had been around and they could sense it. Not to mention Val didn’t tend to shut up if they managed to get her going.

As she heard the door open, she slowly stood from the couch, making her way towards the door. She moved to where Aly could see her as the other spoke. “Yeah, but unless you want to wake the other two, keep your voice down.” Val smiled as she made her way over to Aly, not even hesitating as she pulled her into a kiss.

The moment her sister came into view, the tension melted from Alyssa’s shoulders and her expression lit up with a toothy smile. It was ridiculous, really, the effect Val always had in her, righting her world with a single smile, with just being there, and that was a fact, even before they had taken this new, terrifying step in their relationship. It just... was.

Caught by surprise with the kiss, her arms hovered in the air for a moment, eyes wide before she regained her senses and all but melted against the contact, closing her eyes and kissing Val back softly, arms sneaking around her waist gently. “Man, I could so get used to being received like this every time I visit.” She said after breaking the kiss, her expression dopey as she looked at her sister.

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Coming home to you || Valyssa

Miraculously, the armful of snacks and drinks did manage to keep Alyssa awake for the duration of the drive to Saint Pete, after an already long day of meetings, private sessions and some more meetings. The prospect of getting to see Val again was a huge incentive too, and as soon as the Jeep turned onto her sister’s street, it was like her energy was suddenly restored and Aly was left almost shaking in her seat with excitement. Things had changed drastically since her last visit, and the world of possibilities that her sister was offering had the hope in her chest burning bright.

Barely remembering to take her duffel bag out of the car, Alyssa jogged inside the building, then cursed the elevator for being so slow, until finally, finally she was in front of the door to the apartment Val shared with Ro and Isaac, only hesitating a little before using the spare key she had been given. “Hello, anybody home?” She called out, closing the door behind her as she looked around.