The girl with amber eyes

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بحزن كبير وعيت اليوم الناس، لملمت اوجاعها و الناس اللي حبتهن...

بحزن كبير وعيت اليوم الناس، مش مستوعبة بعد شو اللي صار و شو لازم تعمل...

الاسى، الحزن والوجع ما بينوصف و كل واحد فينا خسر شي او حدا و عالاكيد كلنا خسرنا حالنا و احلامنا. خسرنا آخر نفس ببيروت الحلم.

نحنا اليوم موجوعين و مفجوعين ع بيروت و ولادها.

بس وعد منا كلنا، انو اللي صار ما يمرق مرقة طريق. وعد منا، انو دمعة كل لبناني و كل ام رح تدفعوها دم.

وعد منا، نحنا اللي ما بقى عنا شي نخسرو، لا احباب و لا بيوت و لا اشغال و لا مصاري، رح تدفعوا الثمن.

رح نتصافى معكن عالارض و الله بيتصافى معكن مطرح ما رح يبعتكن.

CK

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Not mine.

What am I supposed to do right now? When I miss you and you're not around. When I crave for a look at you but I can't reach you.. I miss you and I don't even have the right to, because you're not even mine. Just tell me what the hell am I supposed to do when you're far away and all I need is you by my side?

CK

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Not mine

What am I supposed to do right now? When I miss you and you're not around. When after all the fun with my friends all I need is a look from you. When I crave for a smile from you but I can't reach you.. I miss you and I don't even have the right to, because you're not even mine. Just tell me what the hell am I supposed to do when you're far away and all I need is you by my side ?

CK

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Fight for ur Dream

No matter how many times you were hit, pushed, bullied, told that you can't do it. No matter how many times you got scared and decided to give up when you were so close to winning. No matter how many battles you're gonna lose or how many scars you're gonna have. Keep holding on to your dream. Fight for it. Never give up when difficulties strike you, and most importantly don't hesitate about it when you feel tired and know that the more battles you'll lose, the more power you'll have to face all your haters, enemies, and own fears. You're gonna get there I can assure you! Hold on it's worth the fight.

CK

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Me, myself and I

It's true I can't decide what I want in life. I can't decide what I want to study nor what I want to become in the future and that's my issue or at least what people see in me as an issue. I can fit in any place yet cannot find myself in it for a long time. Maybe because I'm not made to be the same person over and over again..each day. And that's who I am, the same person having millions of personalities.

CK

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You're perfect

Don't change for anyone! You are perfect just the way you are..with all your flaws and all your mistakes. With your imperfect body,your freckles and stretch marks. With all the sadness and the heartbreaks, the failures and the faith. If that person doesn't see and feel how beautiful you are then go away but don't change. Someone will come one day and fall in love with every single mistake you're made of.

CK

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Broken love

She loved you, she loved you more than anything and she was ready to fight for you. But you took her love for granted because you were always sure she'd get back to you no matter what because you meant the world to her. And after all what you did, you were sure that she's gonna be still waiting for you but she wasn't and you blamed her. It's YOUR fault not hers. It's you. You're the one who left her no other choice but to leave.

CK

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Dear strong me,

The battles are too many and I've had enough. I tried to handle all the pain in a smooth way and everyone knew how strong I was and I was proud of it..I mean kind of.. I was proud of myself being able to handle all the pain and all the struggles alone, without shedding any tear in front of anyone. Until they decided that I'm strong enough and it's okay for me to he hurt because anyway I'm gonna get through this. And this is when life knocked me hard. I found myself sinking in my own thoughts,own ideas, own problems without anyone offering to help. I swam to the shore but no one was there to save me. And I kept sinking.. down to the darkest oceans... deep down. People should know that being strong enough doesn't mean that we don't need to take someone's hand to guide us to a safe place. Strong people are the weakest and most crushed people but they choose to show you their strength. So, to all the strong persons out there waiting for a hero to save them I say: you are your own hero..don't lose the war. 

CK

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Dear strong me,

Stop falling for the wrong people! Stop letting your heart guide you everyday! Be fierce, indestructible, be your own story hero...stop letting your fear of loneliness guide you to believe every sweet word said. Maybe you're tired..I know you are. But just wait..give yourself some time and stop settling for less than you deserve! Cause darling believe me..you deserve every spit of love and even more despite all the mistakes you've made. People might come to your life and you'll be fooled by their sweetness but just promise me to trust your instinct and move away. Dear strong me...you deserve more.

CK

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HE

And suddenly all I can think about was him. His perfume filled my soul, butterflies enjoyed the flight between my organs, even my heart! My heart launched a party in the middle of evey beat... I knew I had a crush on him since I was a little girl but I used to ignore it. But yesterday was a whole new thing..my eyes couldn't turn away from him, I wanted to tell him so many things but all I did was smile and laugh because I just couldn't believe that this is finally happening.. I was the closest to him, my lips craved his, we tried to move away but the attraction was too strong and all I can remember was the taste he left on my lips as a sweet goodnight.

CK

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Imperfection

Well yes. I'm not perfect, I make mistakes, I take wrong choices, I don't wear heels all the time nor make-up, I cry, I shout sometimes, I apologize... People may not always like me or even recognize me because I change from time to time. Yes, I am a mess! A beautiful one! I'm a human and humans can't be perfect but at least I'm an original version of myself.

CK

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Love vs Hate

The process of hating you is gonna hurt me even after what we've been through! But I can live with it because loving you the way I do is much worse.

CK

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Letter to myself

Dear strong me,

I apologize for every scar I've caused and for  all the little broken parts left of your heart.. I'm sorry for every decision I took despite me knowing it would hurt that much. And I'm sorry for every decision I'll take cz I know that I'm gonna hurt you even more but I promise that this storm will end someday and u'll be proud of what I did and for what u've become! 

CK

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Eternity

People always search for eternal love and a happy ever after life. But nobody ever said that eternal love meant eternal happiness.

CK

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Somewhere between dreams and reality

I love the feeling that I get everytime i go to sleep and feel him rolling to reach me.. His perfume consumes me and fills my soul with hope and strength.. Everytime i feel his breath on my neck while he tells me "I love u" my whole body starts shaking and I start searching for the right words to respond.. I love how he rolls his arm around me and suddenly all my bad thoughts are shattered when he reassures me that I'm gonna be okay! I feel safe.. I feel at home everyday when i reach my bed and roll quitely in his arms, until... I open my eyes and go back to reality where he doesn't exist no more...

CK

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Turmoil

For some time now, I've been happy for being single and free but every now and then, I wish I wasn't that "free".. I really do miss being in love with someone..someone who could fill my soul not my space!

Right now I really do wish being wrapped in someone's arms and forgetting about all my troubles but all I can do is sit right here, on the sofa, shouting at everyone around, not being able to talk or even see anyone in front of me..

Right now, all i need is space, and not being reminded of how poor I am..being so full of love and affection but not being able to show it to anyone..

CK

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