Queen of Denial

Call me Cleopatra I'm the queen of denialI'm a sister, best friend, soon-to-be mother, and a park ranger. I'm a bit infamous around these here parts for showing off my parts and now have a criminal record because of it.

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evie--maxwell:

Not me. I love a good shower. Hell, I love a bad shower. Just keep me clean and I’ll be a happy camper.

Me too. I hate having to go a day without one. 

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evie--maxwell:

I’m kind of a germophobe. Or I can be at times. I’m just really happy to be able to shower.

As am I. I hope I never have to be that gross again. Even my brother was fussing about not getting a shower and growing up, he had to be forced to take one.

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evie--maxwell:

I’m ready to give it all up and jump in the nearest body of water.

I don’t know if I’d jump to that drastic of a measure. 

[amberxolucas]

I’m really over this no power thing. I need a good shower and some air conditioning. If it’s going to jump right to summer, I need to have some damn AC.

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phoebealcorn:

“That’s a pretty good way to look at it. Old and wise had to be young and stupid. I’m going to pocket that. –Oh, now you have to tell me.”

“Which time would you like to hear? There’s the time I ran naked around the town square on a dare. Or I flashed these guys who were about to demolish an old building I was trying to save. Or the time I went skinny dipping in the lake in the middle of December. Take your pick. See, third-ary lapses seems to be the new momentary.”

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phoebealcorn:

“Momentary lapses… More like secondary and… Third-ary lapses. I’m not proud of it, believe me.”

“Now it sounds like insanity,” Amber teased. “But hey, now you have a good head on your shoulders. Can’t be old and wise if you weren’t once young and stupid, right? I have my share of embarrassing skeletons. I have a criminal record for indecent exposure.”

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Amber Marie Lucas Moodboard

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phoebealcorn:

“A lady doesn’t kiss and tell… But if you must know, I’d had an edible and thought it was a good idea.”

“I understand. Well, we all have those momentary lapses in judgment during our teen years. Only way we learn at that age.”

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chloexlucas:

“hey, you don’t know that.” her voice still soft. “you had your hand in practically raising me. whether you knew it or not. and now i’m like a super awesome person.” she made a light chuckle. chloe had always looked up to her older sister and was one of her favorite people. “eventually. him not knowing might end up hurting you both. whenever you feel ready to tell him.” seeing her sister so upset and confused, wishing she could give her all the right answers. but one thing’s for sure, she was going to be there for her no matter what. she gently raised her head back up, looking her sister in the eye. “you won’t. I can’t predict the future or know what it’s like to be a mom, but I know you won’t be anything like mom. you’re much to caring to be anything like her.” she held her sisters hand, giving a light squeeze, as to reassure her. “and the fact that you’re worried about that means you aren’t anything like her. she doesn’t care who she hurts. you’re a good person, amber.”

Amber knew that her sister was right; she needed to swallow her fears and actually tell him, no matter what happened. In her emotional state, she feared things that her logical side knew would never happen, like her losing her best friend. As Chloe made her look at her, she realized how silly she was being. Of course that didn’t shake the doubt from her mind, but it wasn’t anything to cry about. Not at this point anyway. Not when the baby was only the size of a peanut, or... Oh, hell! She didn’t even know how big the baby was yet. She was off to a great start. Amber leaned her head against Chloe’s and sighed. “What would I do without you, kid?” Despite their age difference, Amber always felt closest to Chloe. Chloe was hers. She remembered a time that their mom got mad and Amber told her never to talk to her kid like that again. Ash and Adrienne had each other and Amber had her Chloe. She pulled her sister into her arms and hugged her tight. “I’m sorry you have to take care of your crazy older sister.”

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phoebealcorn:

“The last time anything that weird happened at a carnival, I made out with Freddy Andrews behind the bathroom stalls my junior year of high school. God, what was I thinking?”

Amber snorted. “Please tell me you got your rabies shot after that? Who knows where that creature had been.” The blonde gagged at just the thought. “Was it on a dare?”

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My Dirty Little Secret || Wilber

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willconroy:

Her words hit him like a bag of bricks, taking his breath away again, so he was quiet for a long moment. Playing the words in his mind over and over again, their night together coming back to him in fleeting fragments of memories. He finally took in a deep breath, and made a move; he stepped forward, away from the loud festival going on behind them, and sat down beside her, bringing his arm around her to pull her close to him, resting his chin on her head. “We’re going to have a baby,” he repeated, holding her gently against him, his hand rubbing her back as he pressed a kiss on her forehead. “It’s going to be okay, Bambi.” He had no idea if what he was saying was true, but he needed her to believe it. He needed to believe it too, otherwise, he didn’t know how he was going to go forward. 

Amber leaned into his embrace and sighed. She wasn’t emotional because they were doing this and she wasn’t necessarily emotional other the situation as a whole, but that she was scared of what she was going to do to her child. She didn’t know what unconditional love looked like. Or a functional mother-child relationship was. “I feel like I need to be the one telling you that.” She moved around so she was hugging him. “It will be okay,” she echoed is words. “I never really imagined having kids, but at least the one I will have is going to know what it’s like to have a real dad.” She pulled back, and with tears still streaming down her face, she smiled at him. “You’ll do great, I know it.” She kissed his cheek and sighed. “Sorry to drop it on you all at once, Charming,” she added.

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My Dirty Little Secret || Wilber

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willconroy:

“You just did, what?” Will raised his brow, gaze locked onto hers as she continued on, explaining what she meant. “Valentine’s Day?” He started to make a joke about how ironic that was, to end up pregnant after having sex on Valentine’s Day, of all days, but he stopped, as suddenly, he remembered. It was just fragments of memories, but it was enough to put together. He remembered them drinking, a lot. He remembered kissing her, and suddenly being in bed together. He’d woken up alone the next morning, with no recollection, which was why he was so caught off guard. Not just by the fact that he was suddenly going to be a dad, but because he and Amber had slept together. Him and Amber. Prince Charming and Bambi. It was all sorts of crazy, and he was shocked to his very core as he watched her walk off, sitting down as she waited for him. “—-Holy…. shit.” He let out a big breath, staggering back, catching himself just in time from falling over. He was not going to be the guy to faint after finding out he was going to be a dad. Nope. “–I…. We—— Baby???”

Amber felt bad about how she had just dropped this huge ass bomb on his lap, but was there really any other way? She was too tired to try and slowly introduce him to the idea, especially since she knew she’d get frustrated with him not making the connection and end up screaming it or something along those lines. She was never good with patience, after all. And now she really didn’t have the urge to try. She was still confused and worried herself. When she heard him talk finally, she nodded. “Yes,” she finally spoke, keeping her eyes fixated on him. “We’re going to have a baby.” 

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My Dirty Little Secret || Wilber

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willconroy:

“Not that busy,” Will quickly replied, letting out a small laugh. It was basically a joke, him having to be there to make sure things didn’t get out of hand– chances were, he was going to drink a couple more cups of cider, maybe reprimand a drunk and send him home, then go back to the station and spend the rest of his shift on his phone, unless his boss had him fill out some paperwork. “What’s going on?” He watched Amber, noting how unlike herself she was; she was anxious, and obviously bothered by something. He began thinking of what it could be that was making her feel and act like this, wondering if maybe he had to kick someone’s ass for hurting her. But as she finally uttered the words, revealing what was going on, he let out a breath, nearly laughing. “Oh…. shit. Bambi, are you serious? –You didn’t tell me you were sleeping with anyone. –Have you told the dad? Listen, if he ends up flaking on you, let me know, and I’ll knock some sense into him, okay?”

Amber felt a little bit relieved, though now she was back to normal self and rolling her eyes at his “chivalrous” attitude. Since she hadn’t remembered until the doctor’s visit that anything had happened, she didn’t really expect him to remember. She snorted as a mental image of him beating himself up popped into her head. “It was a bit of a one night thing. Didn’t even remember anything had happened until your mom told me the test was positive.” She crossed her arms over her chest. She wasn’t interested in playing anymore running around games, right now. “I just did.” She pursed her lips and watched him closely. “Valentine’s Day. I know you don’t remember, but I’ve been getting little flashbacks. And well, I haven’t been with anyone in months before that and according to how far along I am, it would’ve been around that day, so... Congratulations, you’re a dad. I know it’s a lot to take in, so I’m going to go sit down while you figure everything out.” Amber walked over to one of the benches and sat down.

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My Dirty Little Secret || Wilber

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willconroy:

Will was on duty tonight, appointed to patrol the town square in case anything eventful were to happen– which was highly unlikely, considering how small Granier was, and low the crime rate was. But still, it was a formality, ordered by Teresa Lucas herself. He mingled with his fellow officers, as well as some of the townspeople, who were kind enough to buy him refreshments and make his time at the festival pass fairly quickly– so quickly, that before he knew it, the moon had risen, and the festival was well under way. He was sipping on a cup of apple cider when he felt a tap on his shoulder; turning to find Amber, his best friend standing before him. “Hey, sure– what’s up?” he asked, giving her an affectionate smile before glancing away, still focused on his job to protect his community. 

Seeing him made her want to turn around a run away, but that would’ve definitely set off a red flag. She began fidgeting with her hands and avoiding any kind of eye contact. For Amber, she was acting so different than her normal self and she wanted to kick herself in the butt for it. So many thoughts were running through her head and she didn’t even know how to begin. “I know you’re busy right now, but it’s one of those things that I felt if I didn’t tell you now that I would always find reasons to avoid it. Of course I can only hide it for so long as eventually it would come to light, but still... And now I’m rambling.” She groaned before taking a deep breath and slowly looked up at him. “I’m pregnant.”

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chloexlucas:

chloe sat there, stunned. she didn’t even know what to say. which she always had something to say, especially when it came to her siblings. so she listened to her until she had let it all out. “oh, amber.” she began to rest her head on her sister’s shoulder. her eyes widened a little, when she said will’s name. not necessarily out of surprise, since she knew amber had a crush on him, something she had always noticed. but because clearly, this wasn’t how amber thought things would turn out. “are you going to tell him?” her voice quiet. “I don’t know. but we’ll figure something out.” 

“I don’t know. I mean...” Amber groaned and leaned her head into Chloe’s. “I’m going to be a horrible mother. I’m not cut out to be a mom. I can hardly take care of myself. How the hell am I going to take care of a child?” Amber’s biggest fear was more that she was going to end up like her mother and she would be damned if she was going to hurt her children. “I don’t know what to do. I don’t think Will even remember’s that night... But he needs to know... Right? Or do I just..” Amber was always so sure of what to do, but now she was questioning everything that popped in her head. She leaned back and placed her hand on her belly, then rested against her sister again. “What if I end up like Mom?”

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My Dirty Little Secret || Wilber

Rather than taking part in the town’s silly celebrations, Amber had better things to do. She wondered away from the crowd to find Will; maybe this wasn’t the place to talk about it, or the time. She had to do it, though. If she didn’t tell him now about what was going on with her, she never would. With a sigh, she began scanning all the faces until she finally saw him. Her stomach began fluttering as her nerves took over. She pushed her way through the crowd and tapped the brunette on his shoulder. “Hey, Will, can I... I need to talk to you for a minute...”

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