“1) I sat on your lap the first time we hung out because there was no room. there was never any room and somehow I always ended up there. with one hand on my back and the other on my legs, it became a home to me and I swore I would always come back home to you. 2) You used to text me drunk at 2 in the morning, and we would talk until the sun about everything. when I shared how I wanted to die, and you told me you were glad I didn’t, I swear you gave me the reason to always want to live again. 3) On prom the minute i saw you, the words “You look beautiful” escaped your mouth for only you and I to hear, and I swear noones words ever meant more to me then yours . 4) you were the first person I called when I was in pain, my legs hurting immediately after surgery,and the meds wore off. you stayed with me and when I needed to be rushed to the hospital, and you couldn’t be the one who took me to get more meds, I never heard more remorse in my life, and I swore that gave me a high within itself. 4) You grabbed my phone when he didn’t care for me, and wrote down the nastiest things in your own anger, showing me that you had the biggest soft spot for me and lord I swear I never seen you become more defensive for me in our lives. 5) You moved ever so slightly to face me, and placed your hand upon my wrist ever so gently, thinking I was asleep, holding onto me as if scared that in the moment you were to let go, i wouldn’t come back to you but I swear I would always come back to you no matter what. 6) on the bus ride back the only comfortable position was to lay my legs across your lap and I fell asleep to you tracing my knee as if to calm the pain, only to wake up to find my head on your shoulder, and the glare of a girl who wouldn’t love this down and I swear I promised I wouldn’t get in the way. 7) I was about to leave the dance floor when our eyes met, the devil of a grin pulling me right back to you as you grabbed my hand, and taught me a polka dance, not caring who watched us stumble and trip over our feet in laughter. I swear I couldn’t breath because in that moment it was just you and me babe. 8) on the day you hurt me so bad, and I refused to talk to you, it killed me inside to see the defeat behind your eyes, because you were trying so hard to make things right again without getting lost yourself. it killed me to try and distance myself from you when I knew I couldn’t. You held me in your arms and I swear no matter what I would always forgive you. 9). I leaned against your torso as we talked all night, somehow our faces drawing closer and closer to one another until you breathlessly muttered the words, “Kiss me” and I melted away. I swore I would kiss you for a lifetime every time I had the chance. 10) We decided to get drunk all night long and laugh under the stars, and that all lasted after 4 shots of vodka with me stumbling around for hours, and you hearing me confess my love for you, only to shock me with the same words coming from your mouth, and I swore i would love you as long as you loved me too. 11)it killed me to see you smiling with her, to see her looking at you after that game. My heart shattered into broken pieces, and when your mother warned you to watch the line between her and I because she knew I loved you, you chose to cross the line back and forth instead. yet when it was your turn to see my happiness reside in someone else you felt in pain and I almost felt bad. but yet i swore one day it would be all worth it. 12) Minutes before picking you up you texted me to go alone, that you were leaving in the morning and had to stay with her, but wanted nothing more then to be with me, I swear my heart tore into pieces only you would be able to put back together. I cried an ocean that night knowing I won’t see you for months and I wouldn’t say goodbye to you and I swore every time you came I would spend every minute with you 13) Now that you’re gone I realize that it’s you. it’s always been you whose been my other half, the person who I love wholy and dearly. the person I want for the rest of my life, the person I can envision a whole future with and never get tired of it. I swore that one day I’ll be with you, no matter how log the wait.”
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HI YES AUTHORS NOTE BC I CONSTANTLY GET NOTIFICATION FROM THIS. ITS BEEN TWO YEARS SINCE THIS POEM AND IM WITH THE PERSON IN THIS POEM AND WE ARE IN LOVE AND EVERYTHING IS GOOD WHEN YOU LOVE YOUR BEST FRIEND ITS BEEN 6 YEARS IN THE MAKING
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authors note; we aren’t together anymore. we broke up this week and ended itfor good yesterday. there’s moments where I wish I couldn’t love him or never met him and went through these moments; there’s time where I wish I could have added more moments to this poem because there’s so many. there’s times where I wish I was able to just kiss him one last time or go back ik time to erase all the bad i’ve done to him and he’s done to me so we could both me happy and together likr we were. we just made a yeartogether and it’s all done and there’s no hope in reconciling because I know he will never come back. my heart is shattering and i haven’t felt lose like this in a long time.being in love with your best friend is so dangerous when there’s the risk of losing it all and that’s what happened with me. I wish I could be hopeful that in the future when we’re older and wiser and more mature that it could work but it may never. call me pessimistic but i know him a lot more then he’ll ever think. i’m so sorry brian, for everything i’ve ever done to push you away and make you unhappy. all I ever did was try and be someone good to you and i just wanted to be loved back the same way. i’m so sorry and I’ll love you always.
authors note; it’s been three years since we broke up, and six years since I wrote this poem. i’m currently next to him in our bed, in our apartment, with our dog on the floor both sleeping and snoring the nights away and as I sit here recounting these two reactions; one newly in love, one newly heart broken and i think about how far we’ve come to get to this point. we’re together and decided for the long run. we’ve learned how to grow apart to be able to come back together and life couldn’t be any more perfect the way it is. I love him, and he loves me and that’s all we’ve known with each other and if love conquers us then it conquers all and that’s what I choose to believe in while in doubt. I love you forever.
Authors note; we are reaching a full year of being together and through each individual up and down, what we never lost sight of is the fact that we love each other and that will never change and that is the most important thing that helps guide us. i’ve lost words to describe how he makes me feel in the most glorious ways, bc no words are worthy enough to describe the love he gives me to this day. we’re in bed, him still snoring, dog still taking up the space by my feet, and I am happy, purely and truly happy.
Authors Note again; We’re engaged now and are planning to buy a house soon 😭
