this is not edgy. this is not romanticizing drug addiction. this is heart breaking. this is reality. this is my fucking life. this is for me. anyone who wants try to twist that, is ignorant as fuck and oblivious to the suffering of addiction. i need to document this disease. i need to self actualize with the notion that i am doing this. i am often so detached from my addiction, i often can’t fathom the idea of sticking a needle in my arm. i know i do it, but i dissociate from it. i’m posting to remind myself that this is real. this disease is real. i am an IV drug addict. once i can accept that, i can start to heal.












