Into Their Good Graces โ With Jacob Black and Bella Swan - Part 1
โIt's not about making the right choice. It's about making a choice and making it right.โ โ J.R. Rim
โThe Newtons seem to be impressed by you.โ #Charlie spoke from behind the sports section of his newspaper.
โAre they?โ I shrugged my shoulders hunched over the tattered copy of To Kill a mocking bird. I had read this book a million times, and today I awoke feeling Scout vibes and needed to be in her head. "When did you see them?โ I tried to keep my voice natural and stop my face from giving me away. Had #Charlie been checking up on me?
He changed the page of the newspaper, the crackling sounds of it irritating my ears. โI saw them in the diner yesterday lunchtime. They were saying that if you keep it up, youโll surpass Mikeโs sales for the quarter. Which they joked he wasnโt happy about.โ
โOhโฆโ My eyebrow popped at hearing this. Taking another spoonful from the porridge in my bowl as I mulled the words over. This had come as new news to me, they hadnโt told me Iโd been doing that well. I knew Iโd been stepping up and out from behind the counter more. Where as in the past Iโd left it to the others and #Mike to make the sales. Now I was making a point to do my ๐
๐ถ๐๐. โMr Newton said I would be very happy with my paycheque this time around. But he didnโt mention the rest.โ
He sighed, letting his paper drop to glance over the table. โItโs good Bella, you are doing good.โ His eyes moved to my hands which were all but healed now.
The few passing weeks had given the two of us a chance to look past the mishap, which had been what we could only explain as sleepwalking. It had taken #Charlie and me a few conversations to piece together what could have happened. I had to agree to a full check-up with #DrGerandy, and the doctor had come to the same conclusion and offered some medication to help me to sleep again. But I was glad that both #Charlie and I were on the same page not wanting me to take any sleeping aids.
However, there were changes made. #Charlie had stopped working nights, but he was always on call. For the first week heโd taken it upon himself to sleep downstairs on the couch, ๐ฟ๐๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐ธ๐ถ๐๐ something like that happened again. And to both our relief it had not.
โSoโฆโ He leant over the table a little. โWhat do you have planned for the day?โ He half smiled as he asked. And I knew why. I had heard the phone ring this morning, and I knew from the one-sided conversation that #Harry wanted to go out fishing for part of the day.
โMe? Oh, you knowโฆโ Closing the book I made eye contact. โI need to go down to the Newtons to pick up my paycheque, and then you know... Someoneโs birthday is coming up soon, so I was going to head out to see what I could find for his gift.โ
This made #Charlie laughed waving his hand in the air. โNo Gifts. Iโm too old for that now.โ I shook my head; however, the sound of his laughter was welcomed. It was a sign that I was slowly making it back into his good graces.
โOh, I see, I say no birthday and no gifts, and you donโt listen, now I am meant to let your day go by uneventfully. Not happening dad.โ I managed to say it and keep my mask in place, not thinking about my last birthday and all that had conspired from it. How my life had been turned upside down by it. โItโs happening Charlie Swan, and you will enjoy it.โ
โJacob Ephraim Black!!!โ I heard the bellowing from the bathroomโฆ I had barely towelled off from my shower and my fatherโs voice had me stuffing my feet into my jeans. Zipping up, I staggered still shirtless to the front door.
โWhatโs with theโฆโ I stopped dead. The front wheel of Dadโs wheelchair was wedged into the loose board of the ramp, at the front of the house. โShiโโ I didnโt get to finish the word before he whacked me with the newspaper.
โIโve been telling you to fix this for weeks.โ He glared.
โSorry Iโve beenโฆ distractedโฆ Iโll do it.โ He glared again and that vein on his temple bulged. โToday. I swear.โ I moved behind the wheelchair and tugged on the armrest to unwedge the wheelโฆ the boards on either side of it splintered and cracked too. โDammit!!โ He whacked my forearm with the paper. โLanguage!โ
I pushed Dad inside and promised him I would do the job today. He grumbled into his coffee and aggressively leafed through the paper as I picked up the phone and dialled #Embryโs number. I asked him to come over and help; he was good at this stuff too. He was here the day #HarryClearwater put the ramp in and showed us howโฆ at the same time. He huffed a little down the phone but agreed to come over and help.
I went to finish getting dressed and brushed my teeth before I headed out to the ramp to start lifting the broken boards and check to see if the wood was rotting. It had splintered so easily when I pulled the wheel out. But it all seemed fine.
I tugged on one of the cracked boards just to see if it was sturdy butโฆ one hard tug and it pulled clean from the supports beneath it. But again, the wood didnโt seem to be rotten. Normally Iโd need a crowbar or at least a claw hammer, to pull up the boards that needed replacing but, not this time.
By the time #Embry showed up in his jeep with #Quil as back up. I had pulled all the broken ones up. โDudeโฆ how the hell did you do all this since you called me?โ
โThe boards just came up.โ I shrugged.
โShitโฆ is the whole thing rotten?โ #Quil asked.
โI donโt think so, take a look and see what you thinkโฆ maybe I should have #Harry take a look? It all looks good to me, but I donโt want to patch it if the whole thing needs replacing.โ I scratched the back of my head.
โYou know Harry hasnโt been feeling well latelyโฆ we shouldnโt call him unless we have toโฆโ #Embry stated looking at the pried-up boards and the ones still nailed down. #Quil and I looked at him; curiouslyโฆ #HarryClearwater never gets sick. โWhat? #Sue is friends with my Momโฆ. You think that man would ever admit weakness?โ โBry clarified with a laugh. He wasnโt wrong!
I followed #Charlie out into the back yard. My eyes not moving toward the opening into the forest on the far side. It was the only way into the woods, and it would have been the place I would have gone threw when I was unaware of my own actions. It was scary to say the least, knowing that you could leave the safety of your own house, stepping into a forest where wolves and bears lay waiting for a feast. And you have no recollection of it.
Shaking myself out of my own mind, hearing #Charlieโs voice. โBella, are you listening?โ
โUhm, yeah. Hmm...โ I really wasnโt, when I moved to glance up at him, my foot caught on my shoelace and I half tripped over my own feet. โDamnโฆโ Biting my lip โIโm okay, Iโm okay.โ I held my hands up to stop him.
#Charlieโs brows pulled together, but he stayed put. โI said, I wonโt be late, and Iโll grab a pizza on the way back if you are up for it?โ He opened the door to his tattered old shed where he kept all his fishing gear since I moved in.
โDad, Iโm happy to cookโโ But he cut me off saying that even I deserved a night off from cooking, so I gave in. Really pizza and a movie sounded like a good night for the two of us. It was one way to stop him from bugging me about being out with my friends, instead of staying in with the โ๐๐๐น ๐๐ถ๐โ, as he called himself when it suited him.
โDad, you need a new shed!โ Glancing in I didnโt dare step foot inside. Staying at the door. โItโs an eyesore after all the work I did to clean the yard up. We really should look at bringing in a guy to build you a new one.โ
#Charlie waved a hand in the air as he gathered what he needed. โIโll do it in the summer, it doesnโt take much time to put up a new one. Itโs an easy job.โ
โIs it now?โ An idea started to form in my head, but I hid it away and made a non-committal expression when he turned to look back at me.
โWhatever it is you are thinking, donโt.โ I gave him the most innocent smile I could muster.
โI havenโt got a clue what you mean.โ Oh, this was going to be the next project that would keep me in #Charlies good graces and out of trouble in his eyes.
#Charlieโs birthday was around the corner, and if he believed that it wouldnโt take long to build a new shed why wouldnโt I give him this? I could put up a few boards to stop him from looking out, and then on the weekends, or after school, when I wasnโt working, I would have a reason for staying home. This was the perfect gift that just kept giving.
We took my Dadโs truck into Forks; my car wasnโt nearly ready and #Embryโs jeep wasnโt going to be big enough. The guys insisted on stopping for food before we hit up the lumber yard. So, we sat in the car park of Subway while #Embry dug into his second foot-long sub with meatballsโฆ I wrinkled my nose as, yet another dollop of sauce landed on the tailgate, where we sat in the back of the truck.
Not letting him eat it in my Dadโs truck had been a good call. โYouโre an animal, you know that, right?โ I feigned just little more disgust than I was actually feeling.
โIโm a growing boy.โ He said with a shrug. He wasnโt wrong. He had one hell of a growth spurt recently; he was taller than me now. #Quil just laughed and shook his head, muttering โSavage.โ Under his breath. Which prompted โBry to ball up a napkin and peg it right at #Quilโs head.
When we were all finished eating; we jumped down and piled into the truck again. We drove to the lumber yard just outside town and parked up. It wasnโt going to take us long to find what we needed; we were used to these trips by now. #HarryClearwater had made it his business to make sure we knew how to do basic maintenance. It was all stuff my Dad knew but, by the time I was old enough, he was already in the chair and supervising just annoyed himโฆ Not because I didnโt listen, just because heโd rather have been doing the job with me.
Before I knew it #Quil was sat on one of the long flatbed carts, with #Embry racing up and down the โaislesโ of ten-foot-high walls of lumber.
I pinched the bridge of my nose and hoped no one assumed I was with them, as I approached a guy in overalls to tell him what we needed.
By the time #Charlie had left to pick up #Harry I was ready to go too. My jacket pulled on, hat on my head and my wallet in my back pocket. The idea had formed to a point that Iโd even logged onto the internet to look up some easy How to ideas.
The best one by far with the highest star rating had been something called flatpack plastic sheds. They were the best on the market and could withstand extreme temperatures and weathers. Okay fine I knew we didnโt have the temperatures they spoke of; however, it did get really wet and cold here in Forks. The down side had been the $800.00 plus starting price for these โSystemsโ, as they called them. Add to that the eight weeks waiting time to have the system delivered out to Forks. Not that I could get away with spending that much money in the first place.
So, good old trip to the hardware store it was to be. I hadnโt had time to look into how to put up a new wooden shed, But I could do this. #Charlie said it was easy!
As I climbed into the Beast, I ready myself for a productive day. This was going to be a turning point for #Charlie and me, he would see that I was actively seeking out ways to keep busy. ( All be it ways to work alone and not mix with too many people. ) However, it still counted! ( At least that was my story, and I was going to stick to it. )
My first stop was the Newtons for my paycheque. When I pushed the door open #Mike was busy serving a customer, his dad called out from behind the counter. โHey Bella, you arenโt working, today, are you?โ Mr Newton smiled over his glasses at me. The man was an older version of his son, but with dark hair. #Mike had gotten his blonde hair from his mom.
โNot today, but I needed to pick up my paycheque.โ I half smiled with an awkward shrug of my shoulders.
โOf course, of course. And Congratulations too. You beat Mike for first place on sales.โ I shifted on my feet awkwardly, as I felt #Mikes eyes on me.
โIโll be back next quarter.โ He called out, but there was no sign of malice in his tone.
โSure, you will Mike, if I let you.โ I said without turning back to him and taking my cheque.
โNow donโt go spending it all, put some of it away for college.โ #MrNewton said as I half rushed out of the store. College? I shook my head as I tripped on the sidewalk, and again somehow stopped from toppling over myself.
Frowning as I glanced at the ground. โBe careful there, young lady.โ Someone called out as I made it back to my truck slower this time. Climbing in to check what Iโd made, and half smiling when I realised, I could do something nice for #Charlie this year.
Pulling out from in front of the Newtonโs I made my way to the hardware store.
I was relieved to get the wood loaded into the truck and get out of there; with the guys still acting the fool. But I couldn't completely hide the grin when they were acting like idiot kids. I considered myself mature for my age... but I could goof off and have a good time too. Just.... lumber yards weren't really the place for it.
"Okay, guys! Hardware store next and can we please try and not get kicked out?" I flashed the guys a grin and they just looked at each other and burst out laughing. I reversed out of the space and headed into the centre of town. Traffic was never a problem in Forks, there was more than La Push for sure, but never anything that delayed your drive.
I turned into the lot and tried to find a space where the long boards sticking out of the back of the truck weren't going to impede other cars coming and going. Then we all piled out and headed inside, going over the list I had compiled in my head. I grabbed a cart because I was going to need the paint the new boards, with weather seal paint too.
I headed straight to the back of the store to get nails for the nail gun first, then started making my way around the store looking for the paint and anything we might need at home. The guys were messing around behind me the whole way.
Parking up in front of the hardware store, I pulled out the rushed list I managed to create from the videos and the blogs I had viewed. I had a rough idea of the things I needed, and the restโฆ I mean how hard could it be?
#Charlies words looping in my mind saying it was an easy enough job, gave me some encouragement. I pocket my paycheque, I opened the door, jumping down from the #Beast. My hand caught on the crook of the door by edge of my jacket pulling me back down into the truck. Hitting my head on the edge I curse under my breath. Keeling over myself I rubbed the back of my head.
โThat proves Iโve lost my mind.โ Protective energies, Auras, all paranormal beings, and sensations I had been making up. I had to have been insane. I was positive now that it all lived in my mind. โIf it were true, I wouldnโt have a bump growing in the back of my head right now.โ I told myself, as the stars in front of my eyes started to dissipate. I unhooked my coat from the door, this time making sure that there was nothing keeping me tethered to my truck before I closed it.
Pushing open the door to the store I rubbed the back of my head and came to a stop. The store was full of tools. Full of the scent of wood, plastic, metals, and glue all combined hitting you at once as you stepped inside. โExcuse me, moveโฆ move let us past peopleโฆโ And it hit me, my feet moved me back, knock on the door as I pushed it open. The rusted smell of iron hit me hard before I saw the older man, holding a towel wrapped around the hand of a young guy in his twenties. Seeing the towel turning red I closed my eyes and jerked my head out towards the cold air outside. โPlease, please, Pleaseโฆ do not faint hereโ I muttered to myself.
โAre you okay there, Miss?โ I didnโt hear him the first time, so he asked me again. I opened one eye to glance around. I wasnโt sure I knew this boy; he was older than me. Tall, grey eyes, a nice and welcoming smile. โDonโt like blood huh? Itโs okay they are gone. I did tell Roger that he needed to keep his fingers to himself. Some guys just donโt listen.โ He was talking away as if he had known me all my life. And I wasnโt really listening. โBut really, are you okay? You look like youโve seen a ghost.โ He placed a hand on my shoulder.
โHmm...โ My head was still spilling; however, my legs didnโt feel like jelly any more. โYeah, Iโm cool. Just not great around blood.โ I told him, shifting my shoulder out from under his hand.
The boy noticed the way I moved out from under him and smiled. โYeah, Iโd guessed that. Are you looking for your dad? Or maybe your boyfriend?โ He nodded his head into the store. Making me frown and cross my arms.
โWhy because a girl couldnโt want anything in a hardware store?โ I huffed at him, and then my body betrayed me, and I bite my lips uncertain of my plan to go in.
โNot at all.โ His hand flew up in defence. โThereโs nothing sexier than a beautiful girl who knows her way around this place.โ He grins and winks, causing me to frown. โIs there anything I can help you with?โ He was so full of himself, and I could tell he was certain that I couldnโt work my way around the store without his helps.
I had to think fast, were there anywhere easy I could go? Anywhere else at all? And the answer was no. โNope, donโt need any help. I can do this myself thanks.โ I told him, pushing myself off the door. Testing my feet before walking past him with my shoulders square. Without knowing it I had just talked myself into really doing this alone. โThis is going to be so much harder!โ Muttering as I looked back over my shoulder at him smirking and then winking at me.
I hefted a large bucket of paint and sealant onto the flat cart. #Embry and #Quil were fighting with yard brushes like they were quarterstaffs. I dropped my head and sighed but I was partly laughing too.
โHey!โ #Embry said too loudly, his attention moving across the store. #Quil raised his hands in victory.
โAnd Call forfeits! I win by default.โ #Quil held up the yard brush like it was a trophy.
โIsnโt that Bella Swan?โ #Embry nodded in the direction he was staring. My eyes immediately darted to the area just in front of the door. It was definitely Bellaโฆ in a place where there were power tools? This could end badlyโฆ. Not Because Bella was a girl, just because she wasโฆ well, Bella . She had trouble staying upright on a good day.
โWowโฆ She looks good!โ #Quilโs obnoxious tone was not appreciated. โA little skinnyโฆ that must have been a hell of a breakup.โ
โKnock it off!โ I hissed between my teeth, jabbing him in the arm. โAnd donโt say anything like that to her.โ
โSo defensive!!โ #Embry teased. โSoโฆ.โ An eyebrow quirked and he looked at me urgingly. โDude! If you arenโt gonna talk to her I will!โ I laughed at the same time #Quil snorted a laugh of his own.
โPlease!!โ #Quil patted his chest like he was struggling to breathe from laughing. โWhat are you gonna do? Stand there and stammer at her until it gets so weird, she just leaves? Iโll go talk to her.โ #Quil set off in her direction. I stopped him by shooting out my arm to block him from passing me.
โNo!โ I stared them both down and continued. โYou two stay here. Iโm just gonna say hi.โ I took a few steps in that direction when โBry called in a hushed voice. โHey! Bite your lipโฆ chicks dig that!โ
I rolled my eyes. โIs that why youโre turning down dates left right and centre?โ It was a rhetorical question... Because he most certainly was not, and not for lack of trying. โIโm not going to flirt! I just want to say Hi!โ
Alsoโฆ I didnโt know the first thing about flirting, even if I wanted to. Maybe I did want toโฆ but today wasnโt really the time or place.
By the time I got closer; I noticed that some dude was talking to herโฆ and I really didnโt like his body language and how uncomfortable he seemed to be making her. Maybe I should get her away from himโฆ
โBella!โ I said animatedly, making sure to flash the townie a look. โFancy meeting you here. Great timing too.โ I smiled. โI could use a hand with something. If youโre not in a rush?โ I gave her a quick wink when the guy wasnโt looking.
I moved down the store, trying to look busy but everything on the shelves looked the same. Nailsโฆ There were like ten million of the same kind. Brackets, Iโd say there were at least fourteen different kinds of those too. Then there were screws? What was the difference between nails and screws? Didnโt they both do the same job?
I slowly turned my head back over my shoulder, looking through the curtain of my hair. The guy had moved back a little, however he still stood there with his arms crossed over his chest, a cocky smile playing on his face. Like he knew that any moment now, I would have no choice but to ask for his help. And I wasnโt sure I could live with myself if I went to ask him.
His brow popped and his smile grew at catching me looking at him, and he moved to take a few steps towards me. My heart was pounding in my chest as dread consumed me from the inside out. I jumped out of my skin at the sound of my name being called, and the guy narrowed his eyes looking past me. I spun around dropping the box of nails in my hands, clambering to catch them before they hit the ground.
โJacob?โ His name was the sound of uncertainty and shock from my lips. There were sounds of laughter coming from behind him, however, I didnโt dare to look to see if it was due to what I had been doing.
โJacob!โ This time relief flooded my voice, it was a little louder and I half smiled holding on to the box of nails in my hands for dare life. The last thing I needed to do now was to drop them again. โYou want help โฆ.โ My eyes followed his and I saw the look he was giving the store assistant. โOhโฆ Uhmโฆ Yeah... Sureโฆ What can I help you with?โ Jacob must know that there was nothing at all in this store that I could help him with. So, this had to mean he was trying to help me.
My feet slowly started towards him and I lowered my voice. โRemind me to buy you a hot chocolate. You are a life saver.โ I whispered, trying not to glance back again. โWhat are you doing here?โ I asked him.
I quirked a brow in surprise when she caught the box she dropped. Catching was never her strong suit, but dropping on the other handโฆ I grinned to myself.
I could see the moment of realisation dawn on Bella, and I smiled, kind of smugly at the guy behind her. I turned and started walking with her. But not towards #Quil and #Embry. โNo problemโฆ I could see that he was bugging you. Some guys canโt take a hint.โ My brows pinched together. โI think the better question is what are ๐ช๐ ๐ฆ doing here?โ
She looked even paler than normal. โAre you okay? You look like youโre about to be sick?โ
Dammit!! Why the hell did I say it like that? That was definitely not a compliment! Idiot!
โIโm just picking up a few things to mend the rampโฆ Dad is currently housebound. So โโ And right as I was about to say; โI came to town with the guys.โ the cart came careening towards us, with #Quil and all the supplies I picked up, sitting on it. Far too fastโฆ I could see the '๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐ฅ!' look on #Embryโs face. I stepped between Bella and the cart and put out a foot to stop it.
Hell!! #Embry really didnโt know his own strength. That hurtโฆ But I managed to keep it from showing on my face. On the plus side, #Quil jolted at the abrupt stop and looked like an idiot. โAre we done acting like ten-year-olds now?โ I raised my brows at him.
But he was only interested in Bella. โHey, Bella.โ He flashed the crooked smile he thought girls melted for and winked.
I glanced up at Jacob now, had the boy grown again? When was it going to stop? That a little too smug grin on his face had me rolling my eyes, however I wasnโt going to correct him right now after all he had just read the moment in the store and acted to help me with it.
โMe? Uhmโฆ.โ I knew he was going to have a laugh at my expense now. โPlease donโt laugh, and I donโt know why I said that, because when you tell people not to do somethingโฆ they do it.โ I rubbed the back of my hand over my cheek. โIt was dadโs birthday, and I wanted to do something nice for him. Iโm building him a new shed for all his fishing things, the old one is falling apart.โ I spoke as the two of us started to walk again. I came to a stop and frowned a little.
โThanks Jake, next time why donโt you just tell me that I need a face lift?โ Did I really look that bad? Even thinking about the blood now I could smell it in the air, making my head a little light on my shoulders. I rubbed my nose trying to stop my mind from homing in on it again.
โYou still havenโt fixed that ramp? Billy is going to kill you soon if you donโt get a move on. Even I went flying over it the last time I was around.โ I told him, but my words were cut short as he grabbed me and moved me out of the way. I wasnโt sure what was happening until I saw the two faces looking at me, and Jacobโs foot stopping the trolley. โHowโฆ.โ I frowned looking between the three faces again.
โHey there.โ I half smiled straightening up. โTrying to kill me now are you guys?โ
Right after I put my foot in my mouth it was as though sheโd turned a pale shade of green. โNot at allโฆ I just meanโฆ you look paleโฆerโฆ than normal. You know?โ I took a relieved breath when she changed the subject.
โI know, I know. But itโll get done today. I swear.โ I smiled at her.
I didnโt have the chance to say anything about her building a shed before I had to stop the cart. My foot was still throbbing a little, but it was already fading. โNow why would I ever do a thing like that, Bella?โ #Quil still had that smile on his face and I kind of wanted to slap it off, of himโฆ well not really. Butโฆ you know? Maybe?
โNever to a pretty thing like you.โ He addedโฆ Yup! I wanted to slap him. I wouldnโtโฆ but boy did I want to!
โSoโฆ umโฆ Building a shed? On your own? Are you sure thatโs a good idea?โ I asked her with pinched brows.
#Embry and #Quil burst out laughing. Tact was never their thingโฆ but then again, I wasnโt doing so good myself. โThatโs a good one Bellaโฆ I thought you were serious there for a minute.โ #Embry added insult to injury.
But it was #Charlieโs birthday soonโฆ and I knew he had been through hell lately with Bella being in that dark place. I remembered overhearing him telling Dad about her waking up screaming most nights. โThatโs at least a two maโโ I stopped short. โPerson job. If you need a handโฆโ I shrugged and raised my hands in an offering.
โMaybe you will live to see your next birthday in that case, and Billy will be able to access his home and the outside too.โ I shifted to face the other two.
โSo, if I wasnโt pretty in your eyes, you would go ahead and run me over?โ I teased #Quil and saw his cheeks redden. โNo, thatโs. Not what I meant.โ #Embry was laughing now a little harder.
If I was not aware of the madness in my plan, I sure was fully aware of it now. Before Jake, #Quil and #Embry laughing, I had been a little unsure. But now, seeing that they didnโt believe me. Boy was I in too deep?
I bite the edge of my lips, my fingers tightening around the box in my hand as I felt a little foolish now for thinking it was something I could do. And I noticed the close call save Jake made with saying it was a two ๐๐ถ๐ job. However, then I heard the whispering voice in my mind.
โActually guys, itโs not a joke. I want to do something nice for Charlie, and the shed is something he wants, but just doesnโt have the time.โ I so couldnโt do it. But I was going to give it a good try. โThanks Jake, but I canโt ask that of you. You have school and things to do at home.โ I pointed to the supplies for #Billyโs ramp.
โYouโre right Bella, he does have a lot on. But I donโt. I could come and help you. You need a strong set of arms.โ #Quil winked at me, making me raise my eyebrows.
โSureโฆ maybeโฆ if you see anyone with strong arms Quil, please could you send them my way?โ
โAre these boys troubling you?โ The store assistant called out from behind us. I turned my head to glare at him. โDo I look like I am being troubled by my friends?โ He shrugged his shoulders and turned to leave.
โReally, some people are a little too heavy handed.โ I was frowning now.
โRight. He canโt even tell when Friends are bantering.โ #Embry added moving to place a hand over my shoulder.
I stiffened to the touch. Not because of who it was, just because I didnโt do well with people holding me anymore.
I noticed her chewing on her lip and I stopped myself from laughing. โI think that he would love thatโฆ But even #Charlie wouldnโt tackle a job like that alone, Bellaโฆ And it wouldnโt take too long. We could get it done in a few days; if it was after school. Or over a weekend.โ I followed her gesture to the cart.
โOhโฆ the ramp wonโt even take an hour. We already have the lumber in the truck.โ I added. I glared at #Quilโฆ but it was quickly replaced by a big smile when Bella made her comment about strong arms.
Then I couldnโt stop myself from laughing out loud when she roasted the store clerk again and made an agreeable sound. I noticed the way Bella tensed when #Embry put his arm around her shoulder. But he seemed to be obliviousโฆ So I jabbed a finger into his ribs and he barely flinched, but he did turn to me and say. โHey!!โ Though, he did move his arm from around her.
โBut seriouslyโฆ Bella. I would love to help. I mean, Iโm good at it. And #Charlie has always been so good to us, Iโd like him to have a great birthday. So please let me help?โ I smiled at her and then #Quil and Embry piped up all at once about how; if we all pitched in it could be done in no time at all.
I really hated these guysโฆ. I mean, they were brothers to meโฆ but right now I kinda hated them.
My eyes were darting around the three of them. Anyone who stood and took the time to witness the carefreeness between these boys would notice what it was I was witnessing for myself. They had an ease about them. A friendship that went deeper, they knew one another and still. They teased each other ruthlessly.
#Embry called out; however, he didnโt move when Jacob poked him. Making me frown just a little unsure why Jacob had done that in the first place.
โGuysโฆโ I was speechless, and a little overwhelmed. I hadnโt the courage to face Jacob after all the time I had been in my ๐ต๐๐๐ท๐พ๐๐๐ถ๐๐น times. And now, whenever I crossed paths with this boy, he pushed me to shame.
I moved out of reach from the three of them, as their eyes were on me. Waiting for an answer to their offer.
โIf you three are really sure, and this is something you want to do. And it doesnโt interfere with your other work and school. I would be extremely grateful for the help and support.โ Placing my hands crossed over my chest.
#Quil made a cheering sound, and #Embry clapped and rubbed his hands. And I. I shrugged my shoulders at Jacob Black. โYou really are a good friend Jacob. I am so lucky to have someone like you in my life.โ
The guilt of how much of a terrible friend I had been was drowning me with shame. However, standing here and now. I knew, I would try to be a good friend to himโฆ to them all. If they would still have me.
I smiled at Bella and tried not to glare at the guys. I could talk to them later and ask them to back out so I could spend time with her alone. "Of course, we're sure. Besides, we enjoy this kind of thing... not as fun as rebuilding engines... but way more fun than fixing a wheelchair ramp." I laughed.
My cheeks are heated when she singled out my name from the three of us. But that made sense, right? I mean she'd known me since we were kids. I could tell that she was still having some kind of internal struggle. "Don't worry about it... that's what friends are for, right?"
I didn't move closer to her; she clearly needed a little space. I wasn't going to step into the space she had made between us... but I watched the other two in case they did... picking up on social cues wasn't their strong suit.
"So, have you been to the lumber yard yet? Do you have any measurements or anything like that? Oh, and there's a guy on the Rez that would give us some good deals on glass if you wanted any windows." I rambled off the questions.
'Oh yeah, great idea.' #Embry added and then #Quils started rambling off a list of tools that he had in his shed, that he could bring along if we needed. "Okay, okay... hold up guys. Let's just see what Bella's ideas were before we start making plans." Then all eyes turned back to her again and I was sure she hated the idea of that. She hadnโt been the type that like being the centre of attention.
This was a lot, and I mean ๐ถ ๐๐๐. The three of them were on board without even asking for anything in return. How was I meant to pay them back? And then came the inundation of questions. Size, wood, glass, toolsโฆ The list was never ending. However, it was when they all stopped and turned back to me. My feet shifted, and I somehow caught my shoelace under myself and stumbled.
โSlow down there Bella.โ #Embry darted out and took a hold of my arm before I went far, bringing me back forward. โYou need to tie those things before you kill yourself.โ Letting me go once he knew I was safe. How had he managed to reach me so fast? I shook my head and died a little inside. I was mortified.
โThaโฆthank you Embry.โ Giving him a small smile, before he held the trolley for me to lean on. And thankfully this gave me a moment to gather myself.
โLumber yard? Can I not get that from here? This is the hardware store, right? they should have everything I need?โ #Quil and #Embry looked to each other and then to Jacob. And I knew Iโd said something wrong. My cheeks were blushing hot, and once again I hated all the eyes on me.
Hunching my shoulders, a little in the hope to hide myself, I moved on to the next questions.
โI was thinking, that with the new one replacing the old one, we could make it sayโฆ eight to ten feet? No more than twelve I would guess, otherwise it will over take the yard? And three or four feet wide maximum. Bigger than what Charlie has now so that we can put up some shelving for him to pack his things away?โ
I was glad that I had done some homework before coming out today. โI have an idea for these two styles, I wasnโt sure which could be done by myselfโฆ So, I was going to ask the guy hereโฆโ Looking over to the front. โButโฆ Yeahโฆโ I wasnโt going to ask him for help. As I spoke, I took out my phone and flicked to the pictures I had saved. Holding it out for them to see.
โIs this something we could do?โ I asked unsure of my choices now. One was a Dutch/ barn style wooden shed with double doors and four side windows. ( Two on each side. ), with a curved roof. This one I knew would be harder of the two. And the other option was a simpler shed with double doors again, with a flat roof and only two small windows in the front.
โThe double doors are a must; it is really hard to watch Charlie trying to take his poles out and his bait boxes. He is always banging into the one small door he has.โ
#Embry really was laying it on thick todayโฆ I almost growled at him. Bella seemed to be clearly uncomfortable with his closeness.
โUmโฆโ I wanted to explain this without sounding like a mansplaining jerk. โWell, there are a lot of things youโd need from here; like the roofing felt, nails, hinges and locks and so on. For the wood, the lumber yard will be best.โ I hoped I wasnโt condescending saying all of this. โAnd then stain or paintโฆ youโll need to protect it from the elements.
I looked at Bellaโs phone and swiped through the pictures; just the four she had already shown me. โBoth of those look goodโฆ but you have a lot of open space in the yard. So, the first one would probably be best, it will let in more light, and it has a good slope on the roof for heavy rainfall.โ I chuckled about her dad struggling in and out of the door. โDouble doors it is.โ I smiled at her and started looking around.
โHow about we start with the hinges and fittings. Then we can do the math on how much lumber weโll need?โ I looked over my shoulder again at the guy that Bella seemed to be keeping tabs on. That guy must be a creepโฆ girls always had a better sense of these things. She seemed to want to know where he was at all times. I noticed #Embry was doing the same thingโฆ watching the guy when she did.
#Embry and #Quil both moved in closer to look at the photos I was showing them until Jacob took the phone from my hands. I smiled noticing how #Quil walked around to Jacob to get a better look at the images, but #Embry. He stayed close beside me, and his eyes were on the sales guy. If I didnโt know better, Iโd have thought that he could feel the unease I felt from that man.
โOhโฆ Uhmโฆ That would explain a lot.โ I wasnโt sure why I hadnโt thought of these facts. โPaintโฆ Does the wood not come treated?โ I asked, not even sure where the lumber yard around Forks was. Iโd never needed to go there, and Iโd never seen #Charlie going there since I came to town.
โSome of them do, but you want to put a few more coats on it. You know how bad the weather is here, best to be safe and give the wood that extra protection.โ #Quil rubbed his chin as he spoke, and then started to look around.
โI like the first one more, so Iโm glad we can make it. The roof is higher on it tooโฆButโฆ Jacob, are you sure you have time for this? Arenโt you meant to be fixing Billyโs ramp?โ I was grateful, and I was starting to realise I couldnโt do this alone. However, I didnโt want to be the reason for #Billyโs ramp not being fixed.
#Embry pushed the trolley they had, and I rushed over to walk next to Jacob again. โHey, thanks for thisโฆ really... you are a life saver.โ Turning my attention to the other two. โAll three of you are.โ I said a little louder.
I looked up from her phone to find #Embry hovering. He was such a player!
โDonโt worry about it, Bella. Weโll make the time. Anything for #Charlie.โ I smiled at her. Bella was the silently selfless type; if I made it about helping #Charlie then she was more likely to accept it. โThe ramp will only take an hour. And weโll need to wait for the wood to be delivered anyway.โ There was no way even with both trucks that we could get what we need from the lumber yard to Bellaโs house.
When โBry move to push the trolley and Bella moved next to meโฆ I hadnโt meant to give him a smug lookโฆ it just sort ofโฆ happened. โNo thanks are necessary, Bells. Weโre happy to help.โ Even though I was planning on talking the guys into being ๐ง๐๐ฃ๐ช busy when the time came.
We moved around the store and picked up the paint, hinges, window fitting and I filled Bella in briefly on what each part was for. She might not be a carpenter, but she was smart as a whip.
There was no need to dumb things down for her.
When it came time to circle back to the registers, I noticed that guy still there, speaking to another woman now, closer to his age and clearly being the same condescending asshat that he had been to Bella earlier.
โCharlie really wonโt know what to say when he sees what the four of us have done. And I do mean fourโฆ Iโm not going to sit on the side lines. I promise I will dig right in there with you boys.โ It was going to be a new project for me to lose myself in.
Following the three boys around the store, I took note of everything they were saying and everything they were picking up. It was crazy how they were younger than me and knew so much about all these things.
โI feel like Iโve been living under a rock.โ I finally said to Jacob as it looked like we had all that he thought we needed.
โItโs allowed Bella, you have been missing in action for a while.โ #Quil said and I stopped in my tracks. The smile on my lips faded a little for a second before I pulled it back in place. Witnessing #Embry nudging his friend I waved my hand in the air.
โYeah, uhmโฆ You arenโt wrong there Quil.โ Trying to laugh and shrug the comment off. I knew that he didnโt mean anything by it. It wasnโt the same as when #Jessica made these kinds of comments. When #Quil said it, it seemed to come from an innocent place.
Tugging on the sleeves of my shirt I followed along behind Jacob, until I noticed we were walking towards the front of the store now. โWe have everything we need from here?โ I glanced over the cart and then came to a stop seeing the store clerk in the middle of talking to another girl, someone older than me this time.
I laughed at the mention of #Charlie showing up and finding us all in his backyard. โDonโt worry. Charlie loves me! Heโll be glad to see you recruit extra hands.โ I rolled my eyes at her. โYou really need to spend more time on the Rez Bella. If you think Quileute girls get away with playing it all sweet and dainty, you are sorely mistaken! Whatever you canโt doโฆโ I looked at the guys. โWeโll teach you how to do it. Itโs not like youโve built anything like this before, so just ask and weโll show you.โ I smiled sincerely at her.
โThis will be great Bellaโฆ thereโs nothing like manual labour, out in the fresh air to get you feeling like youโve accomplished something. And with us lot involved it will definitely be fun!โ I smiled again and wondered if I was being selfish wanting to talk the guys out of helping.
Iโve known for a long time that #Charlie was worried about Bella being alone all the time, not seeing her friends outside of schoolโฆ if she wanted to be around us thenโฆ My eyes stayed trained on the arsehole as my inner monologue played. Yeah, it would be good for herโฆ to be around people and even if I wanted to punch these two right nowโฆ they were the best people I knew; even if they were idiots sometimes.
โYeah, we can head to the lumber yard next and figure out how much wood weโll need.โ #Embry grinned at her when he realised the dirty double meaning in his words. Yepโฆ. Definitely wanted to punch him. โI can ride there with you if you donโt know the way, Bella.โ He added with that same grin. And I chokedโฆ covering it with a cough. Really!? How did he always get there first!?
โSweet and dainty?โ The image of #LaurenMallory with her blonde hair and green eyes flashed into my mind, followed by #KatieMarshall, who even with red fiery hair and blue eyes had that sweet and gentle aura about her. They were the kind of girls who did the hair flips, flurrying of their eyelashes and asking guys to pick up their book bags. Girls like #Angela, #Leah and me, we did things for ourselves. There was nothing wrong in the way we all moved through life, however what worked for one person, did not have to work for another.
โOf course, Charlie loves you, you are starting to sound like him.โ Smiling a little, I pushed a stray strand of hair behind my ear, before nudging his shoulder with my own. โOuch.โ Rubbing my shoulder. โWhen did you become this strong?โ I teased him chuckling. However, it had hurt me.
โIf you guys are going to help and teach me all you know, themโฆ I need to find things to teach you. Is there anything you three need help with?โ I genuinely asked.
โYou could teach Jake how to talk to girls?โ #Quil laughed and nudged his friend.
โAnd what about you Quil? Are you able to talk to girls?โ tilting my head to the side I gave him a look. I was sure none of them could. ( Well maybe Embry )
As we came to the front of the store, I took a deep breath before answering #EmbryCallโs question. โSure, I have room and I really donโt know where I am going. Butโฆโ I looked to Jake and #Quil. โOnly if itโs okay with you all? I wouldnโt want to break up the merry band or anything?โ
Before they could answer the store clerk was back. โGet everything you needed beautiful girl?โ I glanced over my shoulder to see who he was speaking with. And then my face flushed with embarrassment seeing the way #Embry glared at him.
โOh...โ He was speaking to me! โYeโฆYes. We have it all, could you ring it up. We are in a little rush here.โ I told him. only because I wanted to get out of here.
โNo worries, and even if you have missed anything. Iโll be happy to help you if you come without the entourage.โ He gave me that smirk and wink, licking his bottom lip. Which had me cringing.
I laughed a little when Bella repeated my words. Sweet and dainty werenโt the words that came to mind when I thought about her. Kind, generousโฆ beautifulโฆ maybe even a little fragile, (but there was something strong and solid inside; that I could see she was fighting to rebuild)โฆ definitely clumsyโฆ all came to mind.
I shrugged and smiled far too big when she called me strong. โIโm just filling out Bella. Maybe it wouldnโt seem so drastic if you came around more?โ I teased her.
I shot #Quil a glare and he just smirked and burst out laughing at Bellaโs telling question. โOh yeahโฆ like you have girls lining up to get your number.โ I scoffed at him. Embry was laughing now too and as if on cue his phone beeped in his pocket. He flashed his screen at us quickly. Just long enough to see a string of shorthand texts with far too many Xโs at the end of the ones he received. โLooks like Iโm the only one that doesnโt need that kind of help.โ He bragged. He thought heโd wonโฆ But I knew he liked Bella and though I couldnโt say what her type was; I was pretty sure it wasnโt the kind of guy that led on multiple girls at a time like he made it sound. But I knew it was one girl From the Neah Bay Rez.
I leaned in and whispered to Bella. โLooks like โBry could use a few spelling lessons.โ I laughed. I shrugged at her while #Embry glared at me. The was no way to get around this without sounding desperateโฆ plus, it seemed like a good idea to let #Embry dig that hole he had started a little deeper. โSureโฆ If youโre okay with being alone with this creep.โ I nudged Embry this time, but I laughed so Bella knew he wasnโt really a creep.
Thoughโฆ the way he seemed to square up to the cashier guy was out of character for him. But that last comment about her entourage gets my back up too. โDudeโฆ be creepier. It really goes with your signature look.โ The guy tilted his head at me like he wanted to ask but stopped himself. After we paid for everything, I clarified. โYou knowโฆ the grown-ass-man-flirting-with-high-school-students vibe you have going on.โ
Okay so maybe #Embry wasnโt the only one acting out of character today.
#Quilโs feet shifted, and his almond cheeks took on a blush. Rubbing his neck, he began to laugh when Jake turned his attention to #Embry.
This wasnโt the first time I was witnessing the three friends speak, laugh, and joke with one another. Each time I had seen them in the past, it was the same as it was now. I smiled partly because it was kind of them to allow a girl like me into their circle like this, and partly because it was indeed entertaining to watch.
I lent in a little at the phone #Embry turned towards us. He was being pursued by some girls, and from the few words I made out. He was into her too. However, was he really into her?
โPlease tell me The Player type isnโt the look you are going for at your age Embry.โ He seemed like a good boy, but I wasnโt the best judge of characters anymore.
โYou really have a thing about age Bella. Itโs only a number. Iโm so much more mature than these two.โ He gestured to the other two.โ
This of course I was sure would come back to bite his arse at some point. โIt looks like I will have time to get to you better, to see if itโs true or not.โ
My mood dropped when my attention moved back to the store clerk. However, if I were to place my finger on the pulse over the reason, it had been due to the way #Embry and Jacob had reacted.
Was I really that weak, that these boys felt I was a damsel in distress? Did they feel I needed saving? And if so, I knew my reactions had to be the reason for it.
โStep away boys. All of you... two steps back.โ Clearing my throat because my heart had its bags packed and was ready to jump and run. โWe have what we need, and we have a lot more to do.โ
I pulled at Jacobโs and Embryโs arms. Turning my glance to the fooling store clerk and the smug grin he gave the boys.
โYou need to do better.โ I told him.
Using #Charlies name here would have done the trick. But then I would just be passing the buck to another man ( all be it my dad ), to save me. And I was done with that.
โIโm going, if you all are done with your pissing contest.โ Why was I so angry? I knew it wasnโt towards the boys. It was at myself.
Pushing the cart out of the store I didnโt look back.
#Embry did that thing where he chewed on his lip and I knew my theory was right. Bella wasnโt into the womaniser actโฆ even if it was clear she knew it was just an act. This was exactly why I preferred to just play things straight and try to live up to some kind of imagined reputation.
My eyes narrowed on #Embryโฆ Did he really think he was the most mature out of us? The guy makes some questionable judgementsโฆ More and more lately. My Dad had put him in a place more than once recently. Or was that a subtle hint that he was only one of not still a virgin?
I let Bella drag me away and I could see that #Embry was doing the same. #Quil followed quickly behind us not knowing where to look after my outburst and #Embryโs silent threat of violence. I heard #Embry mutter a curse under his breath.
โSorry Bells.โ I pressed my lips into a tight line. I rubbed at the back of my neck. โThat was over the lineโฆโ The guy was being a creepโฆ But that was an excuse. My Mom always said an apology didnโt count if it came with a caveat, so I wasnโt going to make excuses with her.
I gave her the sincerest smile I could muster. โIโm really sorry. Letโs go get what you need for this birthday gift for #Charlieโฆ No moreโฆโ I glanced over my shoulder. I couldnโt say pissing contest to her. I sped up to keep pace with her.
Keeping my eyes forward I open the back of the truck. The flat bed was empty, and I started to fill it up with the things we had purchased. I could sense the boys behind me, and then it was #Quil who came around taking a hold of the side of the truck, and jumping up into the bed.
โWhy donโt you pass the things to me, and Iโll set them up in the back. That way we have all the room you need for the timber?โ He was leaning down so that I had to look at him.
Nodding my head once in agreement I started to hand him the things.
It took me a few deep breaths to find my words again. The path my memories had taken me down hurt in the depths of my soul. Bringing back a time when I let another do everything for me. And where had that gotten me? โI really am Sorryโ #Embry reached into the cart to help. And of course, I heard Jacobโs apologies too.
โNoโฆ I am sorry. I didnโt mean to go off on all of you.โ Chewing on my bottom lip, I stood brushing the back of my hand over my face to move my flyaway hairs out of my eyes.
โI just donโt like guys like him.โ I pointed behind us. โAnd you are all much better than that. You are still young, and that macho act... you are better than that.โ
I nudged Jacob in his side. โYou are too kind, too sweetโฆ donโt end up becoming like that guy.โ I turned to look at the other two. โYou tooโฆ all you boys are so much better.โ
I started to pass things up to #Quil too... hearing Bella use the word macho act stung. Was that what that was? I glanced back at the door of the hardware store. Of course, I couldn't see the guy... but is that what I had done?
Acted exactly like that jerk and thought I was better than him because I was defending her?
The nudge of her elbow into my side brought my focus back. I flushed when she called me sweet and kind. I had no idea why... because she was definitely friend-zoning me. I smiled but it faltered...
What the hell was wrong with me? She was just starting to come back into herself after a traumatic breakup. There were worse things than being friend-zonedโฆ and that was having the Bella I knew almost completely erased. I tamped down any selfish thoughts and touched her arm, giving her a real smile. "We might even stand a chance with someone like you on our side to call us on it." I laughed and took the empty cart from her to return it to the bay next to the door.
By the time I turned back #Embry was pulling open the driverโs door for Bella and talking about riding with her to the lumber yard. I took a long breath... No... I wasn't going to be the jealous guy... I wasn't going to be the guy that swoops in on a girl because she's single now.
I was better than that. Wasn't I?
But Bella... Bella was... everything.
I crossed the parking lot again forcing that smile back to my face... just be her friend... and then see what happens. She wasn't going to fall for either of these idiots... even if they were the best idiots I knew. I reached into the glove box and called to Embry that we should work out what we needed before heading to the lumber yard. I grabbed a pencil and notebook and gathered the others around... and drew out a rough outline that we could add measurements to, based on what Bella wanted. We tended to trust #Quil's math... because... well he was never wrong.
โI will always be here to straighten you boys out, and keep you on the right pathโฆ Well, thatโs until I go away for College, then Iโm sure I could enrol the help of Seth to look out for you three menaces.โ The sound of Jakes laughter was so soothing, I wasnโt sure what it was about him, however the boy made anyone who came close feel better.
The boys all worked so well together, at one stage I felt like I was in the way, then when #Embry reached over my head to hand #Quil a box, I knew for certain I was most definitely in the way. The three of them were like a well-oiled machine, and some part of me was in ore while watching them.
โHere let me take this last one.โ #Quil said jumping down from the truck bed and taking the box of screws from my hands. โItโs best we keep this one up front, itโs small and we donโt want to lose it on the way.โ Okay that was something I should have known too.
Turning a full circle when I thought weโd lost Jake, I watched him rolling the cart back to the bays. โYou okay there?โ #Embry stood beside me opening the door to the cab for me to climb in.
โI am, I think I upset Jake. Iโm just not sure how.โ Maybe the macho comment had gone too far? I knew Jake was nothing like that idiot in the store, he was a polar opposite.
โItโs Jake, he will get over it. and look...โ Embry pointed over to Jake as he returned, the smile on his sweet face back in place. โSee, he is fine. Now come on, let me help you up. And Iโm just helping you up. No Machoness at all. I promise.โ He laughed a full-on laugh, and for the first time I noticed that when he did so, it made it all the way to his eyes.
I had climbed in when Jake mentioned doing some work on understanding the supplies we would need to purchase, I was about to climb down but then they all came to stand around the open door, so I turned my body letting my legs swing out. Watching them, I help #Quil with the numbers. However, he was fast and really good with his head. โWhere are you planning on going to school Quil, you have to put that mind of yours to good use.โ
I smiled at her; I knew she meant it. "#Seth will just sic his big sister on us." I tried to sound teasing, but Leah didn't pull any punches, she could be scary when she wanted to be. I hadn't thought about Bella and college. I had started to take it for granted that Bella was always going to be here... which made no sense at all. She hadn't even been here that long.
If I was ever going to have a chance, I would have to make a move sooner rather than later... but that was pretty much the opposite of my previous thoughts. This was complicated!
#Embry was still making more moves on her. I heard her talking to #Quil about colleges and he looked from me to Embry, he was the only one of us that planned on going to university. But it made him a little self-conscious when he talked about it. 'Um... Hopefully Seattle, maybe Math and Physics, if my grades are good enough... or Engineering.' he shrugged; acting like it wasn't a big deal.
I slapped him on the back lightly. "Whatever #Quil doesโฆ he'll do brilliantly." I grinned. We all knew that academically speaking he was destined for more than the rest of us. But I felt like he held himself back because he didn't like the idea of leaving home.
I gave #Embry a look before we all pulled out of the parking lot... but I knew that he was going to be flirting the entire time. #Quil turned to me and gave me a knowing look. "Shut up." I muttered, shifting gear, even though he hadn't said anything.
โLeah? Now why in the world didnโt I think of her, she will surely keep all of you in line.โ I was making a mental note of stopping by the Clearwater home with some pizza over this weekend. It had been a few days since Iโd seen her now.
โSeattle for engineering?โ I could see the uncertainty in #Quil, the slight movement in his posture, the way he glanced at the others as he spoke, and I wondered if he was shy in speaking about his future endeavours? However, when Jacob stepped up with an encouraging smile, a pat on his friendโs back. I knew that he would stand by #Quil no matter what.
โQuil I would have to agree with Jake, you really will flourish in whichever path you choose in the end.โ His cheeks turned a shade of red, that you could miss if you werenโt watching him closely.
We all dispersed, splitting up into two teams. #Embry climbed into the beast beside me, with #Quil and #Jacob making their way over to their vehicle.
โWhat about you Bella?โ #Embry asked as soon as we pulled out of the parking lot and were on our way. โWhere are you thinking of going to school?โ I kept my eyes on the road because the hole in my chest was threatening to open, as the thoughts of going to college came to mind.
It had been an ongoing conversation in my past with him. However now it was a different conversation all together.
โWell, itโs an open-ended choice at this time really. I know what I want to study, however where is a question mark. I have Arizona, Georgia, and Miami on the shortlist. It will all depend on my grades.โ
โReally, so far away?โ He asked, when I let my eyes glance over to him, I saw how long his legs were, and how he shifted to get himself comfortable. Embry really had grown since I saw him last too.
โI am from Arizona Embry, so it would be going back to home. And then with Georgia and Miami I would be closer to my mom in Jacksonville. On top of which, the University of Miami is one of the best schools in the country for getting a degree in English language and literature.โ I had read the brochures from cover to cover. At first it was just to keep #Charlie happy, if he thought I was making plans he would think I was getting better.
โI guess, Iโm just not sure I could go that far from my mom and home. Itโs a big decision.โ His voice trailed off. Out of the corner of my eye I could see that he was regarding the hole in my dash where once there lived a radio.
"I will give you anything you want... if you promise not to set Leah Clearwater on us." I laughed. But I knew that she really wasn't all that bad. She just had a certain way about her... like she was always expecting the worst to happen. So, she was always too fast to defend and protect. I wasn't sure if it was a good thing or a bad thing... but I think it hurt her more than it hurt anyone else.
I pressed my lips into a tight line, thinking about when she was going to off to college. Of course, I wanted all of that for Bella... but if she left... I knew that she would never come back here. The worst part about that... was that I wanted that for her too... there was nothing here for a girl like Bella. I had nothing to offer her but me, and I hated that that could never be enough. Not even if she felt the same way.
Embry never seemed to want anything he couldn't do without a guitar in his hand and yet he never even talked about trying to make that a job. It was different for #Quil and me... it was what was holding back. I mean, sure there were tons of Quileute kids that wanted to get away from the Rez and that was fine... I mean there was nothing here but fishing and woodworking. Ikea was quickly killing these dreams too. But for #Quil and I? For #Seth, #Leah and so many others this was the land the Spirits of our ancestors walked, while their bodies lay guarded by their keepers. Lands they protected with their magic and then bled for from their earthly bodies... I got it... they were stories. Legends. But the last part; that was a fact. It was different.
I made sure to stay close to #Embry and Bella on the drive to the lumberyard. I tried not to obsess about what he might be saying to her.
โTake the left and then itโs another left, and we will be there.โ #Embry sat back, his hands tapping on his thighs as we drove talking about his mom, school and what was happening on the Rez. It was like a small telenovela that was for sure. I didnโt really buy into knowing other peopleโs business and by the sounds of it nor did Embry which I had to admit I liked about him.
โWhat are you tapping out there?โ nodding my chin to his hands making him stop right away.
โSorry, Itโs nothing.โ But it was something.
โEmbry, do youโฆ uhmโฆ you knowโฆ. play?โ I asked. โAn instrumentโฆ I mean... Do you play an instrument?โ Rolling my eyes at myself and my inability to speak on the best of times, however right now there was no reason for me to be succinct.
โUhm. Yeah. I play the guitar.โ He seemed to blow out his chest as he spoke. And I was sure I should have reacted in another way, but I just chewed on my lips and kept looking ahead at the road.
โOkayโฆโ He muttered. โYou know what, we should go out sometime. Pizza, a movie. Port is playing some good retro movies right now.โ he said off the cuff.
โHmmโฆโ I took the left he had mentioned. โSure, my friends from school and I were there a few weeks back.โ Taking the next turning, thinking I needed a reason to ask #Leah out, maybe even #Seth? โWe should do it. Get the others in. It would be a good night, and hey my treat for all of this.โ I pointed to the back of my truck and then towards the lumber yard. โMaybe depending on what we go to watch we could ask Seth to come? He always gets left behind.โ I knew it was because he was so young. โI know the kid would like to come to Port too.โ
Pulling up into a free spot I parked the beast up before looking over to him. โReady?โ he looked a little abashed but smiled and nodded.
โLetโs see what you need.โ He pulled the handle and stopped as if he was going to say something, however thought differently, stepping down and out of the cab. โThe guys are right behind us.โ Leaning on the side of the beast he waited for me to walk around and join him.
'Hey...' #Quil nudged me lightly with his elbow. 'How much would you bet that #Embry already asked her out?' My eyes widened and I glanced at him... "What?" I fixed my gaze back onto the road. "No!... I mean... He wouldn't..." He so would, I heaved a sigh. "I hope he didn't... Bella is just out of a really dark place..."
#Quil scoffed. โPuh-lease!! Like you donโt want to ask her out!โ He barked a laugh.
โI can want to.. and know that itโs not the right time, too.โ I shot back. โBella getting better is more important than me shooting my shot.โ I turned into the lumberyard for the second time today. #Embry was climbing out of the car with a bemused expression. It gave me more joy than I would care to admit.
We stepped out too and joined them. Before we had a chance to say more than hello; one of the lumber yard workers appeared, pulling heavy gloves off his hands. โBack again, lads?โ He said in a thick Irish accent.
I nodded to him. โHey, Paddyโฆ Yeah, we picked up another project and we need a lot more this time.โ #Quil handed over the piece of paper with the measurements and the list of what we thought weโd need. โItโs a biggun for sure.โ The man nodded.
โAnd itโs for the Chief of Police so Iโm sure we can talk about some kind of public service discount, right?โ I gave my best charming smile. Paddy just raised a bushy brow but cracked a smile, shaking his head and laughing. โOkay, how about you throw in the roofing felt for free?โ I kept smiling, knowing it wasnโt a completely unreasonable request.
โYou drive a hard bargain for a young chap. Roofing felt at half price.โ He stuck a hand out to me, and I gave it a firm shake.
โYer auld man will be chuffed with you.โ He headed toward the forklifts, tugging his gloves back on.
โI learnt from the best!โ I called after him.
It was like watching a master at work. Jacob did not miss a beat, once his feet hit the ground, he was straight to work. I stood back, watching the man with an accent talking with him and I was about to speak up at the mention of a discount. I knew that #Charlie wouldnโt accept any kind of special treatment from the local businesses. However, #Quil stopped me with a tug to my sleeve.
Uttering softly. โJust watch him at work, this is something Jake is really good at.โ
โYeah, sometimes I even forget how good the boy is.โ #Embry articulated. I turned to glance at him.
โIsnโt Jacob the same age as you?โ Even if to anyone observing these two boys would be forgiven if they thought they were a lot older by the way they were filling out.
#Quil sniggered, then tried to hide it when the man called #Paddy walked away.
โI canโt believe you all were happy to come back here after you have already been once.โ Rubbing the back of my neck I shifted from foot to foot. The guilt of asking for their help started to weigh on me once again.
โHey, Iโm happy to help for a Pizza and Movie date.โ #Embry winked at me. Was he trying to act up for the others, or was it just a slip of his mind that I had said we could have a group fun night?
#Quils mouth dropped open and his eyes flew to Jacob.
โYeah, of course.โ I wasnโt sure why I felt the need to clarify once again. โI will call Leah when I get home too. See if she is up to joining all of us.โ I saw #Quil breathing a sigh of relief at this.
โNow, what do we do? Go and pick the timber we think we need or something?โ Attempting to move on, also I had never before in my life come to a lumber yard, and I couldnโt point out what I should or shouldnโt buy.
โI donโt know why I thought I could have done this alone, however, Iโm taking notes now.โ Stepping out to the side, my eyes were taking in the vast amount of cut wood before me.
As I walked back, I heard Bella talking about this being our second trip here today. But before I had a chance to tell her it was perfectly fine... #Embry opened his mouth and my heart dropped like a stone into the pit of my stomach. I fixed my eyes on the paper in my hand; with #Quilโs impeccably neat handwriting and the roughly sketched dimensions. Hoping none of them would know that I had overheard.
The tension in my chest eased when Bella clarified that it wasn't actually a date... though I was one hundred percent positive that was what #Embry had intended it to be. So much for bro' code. But I was still in control of how I reacted to this... I could double up my attempts to charm Bella or... do right by her and give her the time she needed. Why did I have to be the good guy all the time? Why couldn't I selfishly go after what I wanted for once?
Even #Quil was stunned into silence. I looked back up to Bella with a smile. "Now we wait, they'll bring around whatever we can take in the trucks and deliver the rest this afternoon." I moved back to stand next to Bella... I was feeling oddly protective of her.... even with #Embry. He had a bad habit of saying every little thing that popped into his head and I hoped he hadn't said anything... inappropriate to her.
"We'll drop everything off, then I'll have to go back to the Rez to fix the ramp... but we can get started right after that if you want to?" This time my smile was less forced. I focused on Bella and helping her out with this project. It would be good for her. My Dad always said there was nothing better to lift one's spirits than hard work and a job well done.
A little oblivious to all that had taken place behind me, I stood listening to the voices however not quite hearing them now. For a moment I could feel something in my chest tugging me forwards, but to where I didnโt know. It was like something was calling, trying to take me out of myself and then, with a blink of an eye I was back when Jake spoke.
โWe waitโฆ Okayโฆโ I shook my head. โFirst you need to make sure Billyโs ramp is done. Donโt feel like you have to rush over to Forks.โ Iโd taken so much of their time today. โI am happy to get things started, and then went ever you have timeโฆโ
Before I could finish #Quil snorted. โDonโt take this the wrong way Bella, but if you start without us, the likely thing is we will have to take it all down and start again.โ He bumped my shoulder and laughed at my expression if I were to guess.
โHeyโฆโ however, could I really fault him for this. โOkayโฆ fineโฆ Butโฆ I was thinking more the case of breaking the old one down and clearing the space wise arse.โ The smile I shared, I hoped told him I wasnโt offended by the comment.
Shaking my head slightly, I turned to face the others, and no one was speaking. This had to be a first with these boys? Whenever Iโd seen them all together, they were always laughing, joking, playing, and goofing off. So, I replayed the conversations being had before I zoned out. Had I caused this? I hoped I hadnโt.
I couldnโt help but make the observation. How Jake had come to stand beside me, his body in place as if he were protecting me. But from what or who? Then I found myself glancing at Embry.
โEmbry and I were talking on the way here.โ I started without really knowing where this would end up. โAs a thank you, we thought it would be nice to have some time in Port and do something fun, right Embry?โ I didnโt give him time to reply, but he was smiling big again.
โYeahโฆ so, we thought Pizza and maybe a movie on meโฆโ And idea popping into my mind as I spoke. โWait.โ I turned to them one by one. โHave you heard about the new rock-climbing wall they are opening up in Port? Itโs in this big warehouse, and they have an arcade, food etc. Erik was talking about it at school.โ
The plan was coming together. โWe could do it in the day, not too late so that Seth could come too?โ I knew I would have to talk #Sue into letting him out. However, he always said he missed all the fun.
I chuckled when Bella confirmed that we needed to fix my father's ramp first. "Don't worry Bells... Your project will be far more fun than fixing a creaky old ramp. But..." My voice was mockingly dire. "I wonโt risk another whack of a rolled-up newspaper from Dad!" I chuckled. Though #BillyBlack was far from anything resembling a disciplinarian to be dreaded. "But that will take an hour at the very most." Realistically it would be a lot less than that... but an hour gave us time to drive back to the Rez too.
#Quil was either brave or stupid... or both. If there was one thing my sisters had taught me growing up it was that you should never suggest that a woman couldn't do something without the aid of a man.
But #Quil was the type that said what he thought assuming that people would perceive it as innocently as he meant it. He wasn't suggesting that her gender was the reason she shouldn't start alone... only that Bella shouldn't. It wasn't like she had experience with these kinds of builds. But there I was underestimating Bella's kindness. She had heard exactly what #Quil intended to say other than his misguided words.
I raised a brow, and a grin spread across my face. "Wait... you climb? Really?" I was amused and the thought of the klutzy girl I knew scaling a rock wall. "Now, that I have to see!" I chuckled. "You can count me in for sure." #Embry and #Quil quickly joined in with their agreement.
โIf we donโt get this ramp done today, we might find more than the paper rolled up.โ #Quil shared with a playful punch into the side of #Embry. And whatever tension had been in play, dissipated.
โOkay.โ I resigned myself to the momentum of what had been started. โI am taking your word for it.โ I half smiled hoping they werenโt taking on too much.
My body stiffened a little and I tugged the sleeves of my jacket over my cold fisted hands. My face reddened as the blush of embarrassment creeped itโs way up. โIโฆ I meanโฆโ I cleared my throat before starting again, and this time with a little more confidence. ( Or at least I hoped I was portraying confidence ).
โIโve never climbed before.โ Making myself stand upright, pushing my shoulders back. โBut Erik was saying they teach you, and itโs all hooks and ropes so you cannot fall and kill yourself.โ Shifting a little my eyes started to drift to my feet before I made myself look up. Some part of this plan had started to thrill me as it came together. โHow hard can it be?โ
The two boys shared a look, and it made me cross my arms over my chest. ( However, even that move had a lack of certainty in it. ) โI saw that.โ Biting on my lips. โItโs meant to be fun. Iโm sureโฆโ I would fall and break my neck? โIt will be fine. Right? Totally fine.โ
Thankful when the man Jake had been speaking with came back. ( Even if he made me jump out of my skin. ) โWhere ya want it all lads?โ
I laughed at #Embry and #Quil. They both knew all too well that my dad had no second thoughts about turning that paper on them, if they deserved it. I could say the same for #Quil and #Embry's Mom's, they were all like parents to the three of us.
The red flush in Bella's cheeks made me smile and before I could say anything #Embry spoke... That boy could never keep a thought inside his head. 'In that case, we have got to see this. If she can climb a rock wall, we could take her cliff diving in the summer.' He was grinning.
"Let's not get ahead of ourselves." I shot him a wary look... Bella was far too clumsy to put that idea in her head. Knowing her she'd try it alone and get herself into all kinds of trouble. "And I'm sure you wouldn't fall..." I was trying to be nice... but it sounded unconvincing.
At least it was kind of impossible to get hurt doing it in a gym. But when #Quil and #Embry share their little eye roll; I stepped closer to Bella and squeezed her forearm gently. "Ignore those two chuckleheads... Everything takes practice. It sounds like a good time to me."
When Paddy came back, I turned to him and asked him to split it between the two trucks and we all set to the task of loading them. "Do you want one of us the drive back with you? You can just leave everything in the truck until we get back and we can unload everything together."
My ears perked up for a moment. โCliff diving? Whatโs that?โ But before #Embry could answer me Jacob had shot him down. Once again it felt like these boys spoke with a squint of the eye rather than words from their lips.
Jacobโs words had a lack of certainty in them, however, I still made myself smile at his attempt to help me in the moment. When he squeezed my arm, I did feel a little bit of warmth in his eyes and this time the smile I shared with him was real. โItโs okay Jake, I know they mean well.โ These boys were all kind hearted, them being here had to be proof of the fact.
#Paddy and the boys set to work, #Quil handed me the paperwork and a pencil. โYou stand here and mark off all the things we call out. So, that we are sure itโs all here. It will help Paddy out.โ The man gave me a crooked smile and they set to work.
โSorry? Oh. Uhmโฆโ I wasnโt sure; however, I knew one thing. โNo, you guys head back to the Rez, Billyโs work first and if you still have time then come on over.โ If one of them came with me, it would mean they were one hand short.
As they all got to work, I tugged on #Quilโs sleeve and whispered. โWhatโs this cliff diving thing?โ
#Quil straightened up and gazed over to Jacob who was busy with Paddy. โHe will kill meโฆ Butโฆ Itโsโฆโ His eyes were back on the others as he told me of the cliffs out on the first beach in La Push, and how there are different levels you could climb up and then go diving.
โAnd you guys do this for fun?โ There was more astonishment in my voice than Iโd intended, with a combination of enthusiasm.
โBella, Iโm only telling you this because you asked, but you have to promise not to go anywhere near it without us.โ Saved by the bell, #Embry called #Quil over to help, so I hadnโt needed to make any promises.
โAll Done Miss Swan.โ The man told me as the boys finished off loading.
I followed #Paddy into the office to pay for the supplies. โThank you for everything Paddy, youโve been a real help.โ I told him before returning to the others by the trucks. โThanks guys, really I mean it from the bottom of my heart.โ
That smile... It was different from the others, it reminded me of the first time I'd seen her after she moved here. The day we gave her the truck Charlie bought from my dad. Genuine... and one hundred percent Bella Swan.
I nodded to Bella. We would be a lot faster if all three of us went home to finish this job... and I could try and talk the guys out of the shameless flirting. Not just because I liked Bella more than I should, considering that I knew she was still in pain... but because that pain meant that it really wasn't the time for any of us to fawn over her.
She wasn't wrong though; they did mean well... they just didn't know when to think and when to talk. I smiled at #Quil, trying to find a way to keep Bella in the loop while we got to the task that we were used to doing together. Whether we came here with Dad or #Harry... even #Sam. The three of us had a rhythm that even they would keep out of the way of. We just worked together, we always had.
"You're welcome, Bella." I smiled, genuinely. "Anything for you." I cleared my throatโฆ then added quickly. "A-and Charlie. He's always helped out Dad and me."
โSure, you know Charlie would do anything for you and Billy.โ I glanced up to the sky and the greying clouds coming in. โNow head off before the rain comes down again and stops all the work you guys have planned out.โ
The smile was back once again on my lips, for some reason when Jacob Black spoke, anyone could see the boy meant every word he said from the bottom of his heart. I nudged my shoulder into his side and then bounced back at the brick wall that welcomed me. Rubbing the side of my arm I half laughed. โWhat are they feeding you boys at the Rez?โ
โBaconโฆ Lots of Bacon!โ #Quil pulled the sleeve of his shirt up to squeeze his biceps tight. They didnโt quite make the shape he was hoping for by the look on his face.
โCome on bacon boy.โ #Embry yanked his friend away as I opened the door to my truck and climbed in.
Half shaking my head, I watched them fool around for a few moments before closing the door and rolling the window down. โDrive safely Jake, Iโll see you soon.โ Turning the key, the Beast came to life and as I put him into gear, I could feel the heaviness on the wheels.
โIโm going to need to get your air pressure checked.โ I whispered to myself as I reversed out of the parking spot waving to the three guys as I headed home.
I knew what #Bella said was true, #Charlie had always been there for us. I never hesitated to call him if we needed a helping hand. No ask was too big or too small when it came to Bellaโs Dad. Seeing her smile put something at ease inside me. It seemed like it had been forever since I'd seen her smile for real.
I laughed when she rubbed her arm. "We all know that everything is bigger and better on the Rez Bella." I grinned. "You should spend more time there... It might catch on."
I stepped back towards my dadโs truck as Bella climbed into hers.
"We'll see you soon, Bells." I pointed to the load in the back of her truck. "Do not unload that by yourself. Itโs not a one-person job."
I climbed into the driver seat and waited until she pulled out. As soon as she did, I slapped #Embry, hard, on the shoulder. It hurt!
But I tried not to let on.... was that what Bella meant when she'd bumped me with her shoulder? Was #Embry secretly hitting the gym?
'What was that for?' He protested, but he hadn't so much as flinched.
"Multiple bro' code violations!?" I scoffed like it was obvious.
'You were the one that said it was too early to make a move, not me.' He said with that annoying little smirk of his.
"C'mon 'Bry... Bella is the only girl I ever liked like that." I sighed and gripped the wheel a little tighter.
#Embry huffed. 'Don't be an asshole; Call... you hit on girls all the time.' #Quil chimed in from the back seat.
'Fine... I'll keep it low key. But if she comes onto me the deal is off.' He scoffed.
I tried not to laugh at the idea of Bella flirting with #Embry. The rest of the drive home consisted of a long, inane conversation about what was and wasn't flirting.
On my way home I made a point to stop off at the diner to pick up sandwiches. Then it had been a drive past the station, to make sure #Charlie was still there before I pulled up and went in.
I stayed out of the way of the people who were working inside. Making my way to his desk to set the box of sandwiches on it for him to eat, when I saw my dad leaning over a table with dread on his face.
โHey Bells.โ He tried and failed to smile.
โHey dadโฆ I bought you some lunch.โ I told him.
โThanks kid, weโve not had time to eat today.โ He opened the box taking out one half, however he didnโt eat it.
โWhatโs going on?โ I asked, all the time my eyes followed the people in here, noting that some of them worked for the forest rangers.
โNothingโฆโ he started and then somewhat, came to. โListen, that promise you made to stay outta the woods. It still stands. Do me a favour and spread the news to your friends too.โ
Okay now I frowned a little worried. โOkayโฆ but why?โ I knew why he wanted me to stay away. But the others?
He set the sandwich down on a napkin, rubbing his forehead. โThere have been some animal attacks. People areโโ he cut off as someone called his name. โGive me a sec.โ And he was gone.
I didnโt want to eveโs drop however; it was hard not to overhear. Someone on the radio was saying that a body had been found five miles out. It was a hiker who had been lost for over a week.
I felt bile grow and bubble in my throat, at the images my mind conjured. And it was the guiding hand on my shoulder who bought me out of my lost state.
โAre you okay Bells? Maybe you should go home? Remember. No going into the woods. Not until we find this animal okay.โ
With that said, #Charlie walked me part way out. โIโll be okay dad.โ I stopped him remembering my truck was full of supplies for his surprise. โYou go bad to work. And please eat something.โ
Saying my good bye to him, I rushed to my truck and climbed back in. Leaning forward I rested my forehead to the wheel breathing in deeply for a few moments. There was an electric charge, it felt like I was surrounded by some energy that was invisible to the naked eye. It felt like safety. Like I was going to be fine. However, I wasnโt the one whom I worried for. The loss of any life, even one you didnโt know was hard to come to terms with. My dad... #Charlie took the safety of everyone in town on his own shoulders. I knew this day would be hard for him. I pulled out of the parking lot and for once listening to him I drove straight home.
By the time we got to the Rez #Embry was criticising my taste in music. I rolled my eyesโฆ like he could talk. He was the one flipping through my Dadโs CDs and looking impressed as he selected a Def Leppard best-of album and cranked up the volume.
When we pulled up outside the house, Dad was sitting out on the front porchโฆ well not really a porchโฆ just the top of the ramp where we had set out a small table and a single chair so Dad could take a spot on the other side and sit with whoever was coming to him with any tribal issues. Soโฆ seeing him there wasnโt unusual. But what was unusual, was who was sat in the seat across from him; #SamUley.
But right there, leaning against the end of the ramp, like it wasnโt completely abnormal for them to just be hanging out in front of my house with a grown-ass man; was #JaredCameron and #PaulLahote. Wearing wife-beaters and cut off shortsโฆ who were they fooling? This was La Pushโฆ
#Sam stood up when he saw us getting out of the car, stepping over the hole weโd made in the ramp with ease. All three of them locked their eyes on #Embry as they walked off, heading away from the road and towards the tree line. I walked to the back of the truck and grabbed what we needed, #Quil followed, but he stopped and nudged me with his elbow. My gaze followed his to where #Embry was frozenโฆ The boy never stood still; it was unnerving. He watched them disappear. I walked around the truck and took him by the elbow. โCโmon โBryโฆ Donโt pay any attention to them. Letโs get to work.โ
He seemed to shake himself, chewing his lip raw. โHmmโฆ Ohโฆ yeah.โ He forced a laugh. โHall monitors on steroids.โ
#Quil and I exchanged looksโฆ we knew he was freaked... this wasnโt the first time heโd been the centre of their focus.
Once home I planned on emptying out the old shed, I needed to stop thinking about the poor hiker in the woods, and the animal attacks. It wasnโt easy so I knew I had to keep moving and doing something for my mind to remain distracted.
I when up to my room, to set my wallet and things down, and then to the bathroom to freshen up. Pulling my hair up into a ponytail so that it did not distract me from the work. However, as I came out of the bathroom, I stopped at the threshold of my bedroom door looking in. Something felt out of place. But everything was still there. I shook my head. It was my mind playing tricks on me, it was the same as Edwโ.
I stopped those thoughts of Him coming to the forefront of my mind. The times when I found him sat in the chair or listening to my Walkman. The times when I would wake to find him sat on my bed watching me, when I knew there had been no way for him to get into my room.
โStop it!โ I chastised myself. Hitting the palm of my hand to my forehead. โThat was the past.โ And still at times, no matter how much I tried not to think of him, his memory would come rushing out.
โDad. Birthday. Work.โ Starting to think of the things in my life that had to be more important than the past. No matter how much at times I wanted to wallow in my self-pity. I had given #Charlie my word, and each day his fear of losing me subsided so, I couldnโt fall into the depths of my sadness again. ( Not visibly anyway. )
I plastered on that smile I had in my arsenal, even with no one around to see me, it was good practice to do it. I made my way down the stairs and out the back door.
It didn't take us long to fix the ramp. The support beams were still solid. The miserable Olympic weather hadn't taken its toll on them yet. When we were done, I had wanted to rush right off to Forks but Dad insisted that we eat something.
'What's the hurry?' #Billy asked. 'Why are you so eager to head back to town so soon?'
'We're helping Bella build a new shed for #Charlie.' #Embry blurted out and promptly started shovelling Dad's favourite pasta dish down his throat. I kicked him under the table. Did he really need to say every little thing out loud? He kicked me back and DAMN!!! Someone has been eating his spinach because that hurt!! 'Was it meant to be a secret?' he asked.
Dad and #Quil just laughed.
'So, Bella is still doing better then? Socializing? Leaving the house for more than school and work?'
"Yeah. She seems good... you know, happier." And apparently, my smile gave away too much.
'Just... remember that heartache never fully goes away. Give the girl room to breathe.' Dad's eyes moved from me to #Quil.
'Hey! Why isn't Embry getting the evil eye? He flirts as much as I do.' #Quil protested.
"Yes... But he's bad at it." Dad teased and 'Bry just glared at him.
'You are so lucky youโre in that chair or I'd kick you under the table too.' He teased Dad right back. And if anyone else had said that; they'd be answering to all three of us... but Dad just laughed and nodded towards the door, giving us permission to leave the table.
"Bye Dad!!" I called back as the three of us got jammed in the doorway while the other two called back 'Thank you, Uncle.' It was the Chief thing... and a tribal thing considering how close our parents had been as we grew up.
Thirty minutes. Thirty minutes is all it took for me to get three splinters, fall over twice and bang my head on the broken shelves once. I was stood outside rubbing a bump which had started to grow just higher than my hair line. Looking over the progress I had made despite my incoordination.
โThis is why Charlie doesnโt like me going into this place.โ I told myself. โItโs a death trap.โ We all knew true blame lay in the person, and not the inanimate objects. However, it felt good to share the blame now and then.
I stepped back into the shed to see if I could find some gloves, something to protect my hands from getting any more splinters stuck into my skin. The ones I had already taken care of had gone in deep, I wasnโt sure I could take any more without needing a tetanus jab or something stronger.
Just as I set back to work, removing buckets, rods, tins of fish line, and hooks, my phone started to ring in my back pocket. Stepping back outside I answered it seeing that it was #Charlie calling.
โHey dad, is everything okay?โ I could still see the concern on his face from before and hear it in his voice now.
โSure, everything is okay. I wanted to make sure you made it home. Thatโs all.โ On any other day, my hackles would be raised. But todayโฆ I understood.
โI did thanks. Came straight home, didnโt stop on the way. Iโm here safe and sound.โ Putting a little pep in my voice. Trying to tell him not to worry about me, even if I knew that would be hard for him to do after everything, I put him through last year.
โGood. Good. I maybe home late tonight. So, donโt wait up. And donโt worry about dinner for me.โ I had guessed this would be the case.
โNo worries. Jake and his friends #Quil and #Embry are coming by, and I promised to get in some pizza for us.โ This must have been unexpected, because for a moment #Charlie didnโt say anything.
โThey are? Okay. Theyโre good boys. Have fun.โ He said before he had to go again, and I returned to my work at hand.
We loaded up the truck with a ton of tools that we would definitely need, few things we might needโฆ and some that I honestly thought were unnecessary. But #HarryClearwater had suggested them when we asked to raid his tool shedโฆ and he always knew what he was talking about when it came to this stuff.
#Embry took control of the radio on the way back to Forks tooโฆ we just let it slide. Music was a bigger deal to him than it was to any of the rest of us. Plus, most of the time, the stuff he played was decent.
When we got there, we pulled up behind Bellaโs truck. #Charlieโs cruiser still wasnโt thereโฆ Good. He wasnโt home yet. Once we got the old shed torn down #Charlie couldnโt tell us he didnโt need a new one. It was easy to guess why Bella wanted to give her dad an extra special gift this year. I flashed back to a shirtless #SamUley carrying Bella out of the woods. She knew she had worried #Charlieโฆ then when she was in that dark placeโฆ heโd seen it all.
When we came around the side of the house, we saw that she had been busy. Each of us carried some of the tools that weโd need to tear down the old one. โLooks like someoneโs been busy.โ I called across the yard to her.
โYou could have waited you know? Until we got here to help.โ I looked her over to make sure she hadnโt hurt herself, but she seemed fine. And sheโd worn glovesโฆ so at least that was something.
โLet's get this old thing emptied so the fun can begin!โ #Embry rubbed his hands together with excitement and I rolled my eyes.
โHe likes to demolish things way too much.โ I explained to Bella with a chuckle.
As I worked, there was an internal monolog taking place. Words and sounds, sharing of quotes, I was paraphrasing from books and plays. There was an opening in the school play this year that Ang had been asking me to help with. I told her I wasnโt going up on stage, and I was thankful that her offer was for me to help her back stage. I hadnโt agreed to it, and really with everything going on, I had forgotten about her request. However, now with me trying to keep my mind distracted. It was the first thing to pop into my mind.
โHoly Cow!โ I jumped out of my skin, dropping the tool box in my hands down to the ground.
I had readied myself; I saw it heading for my foot but at the last moment it toppled forward and missed me by a couple of inches.
โMake some noise Jake.โ The guy was so big, and yet I hadnโt heard him or the others coming. I cupped my mouth to hold my stomach in that was threatening to leap out of me. โSorry.โ I said holding a finger up asking for a minute to gather myself. โI was miles away.โ
Jake was in front with his hands full, and both #Quil and #Embry stopped where they were with hands full of tools too. โWhatโs all that? You know there are tools here too.โ But when I looked towards the sorry collection #Charlie had, I added. โActually, maybe it was a good idea to come prepared.โ Who knew that teenage boys could think ahead like this?
โCleaning this mess isnโt as much as it looks. There is no way I wouldnโt try to help Jake.โ I told him half smiling. Because I knew I hadnโt managed to do half of what Iโd planned to before they arrived. โYou guys made good time? Everything sorted with Billyโs ramp?โ
The guys started to walk towards me, setting the things down and look over the old shed. The glint in #Embryโs eyes told me that Jake wasnโt lying. โEasy there Embry, we donโt want to kill ourselves bringing this old thing down.โ
โI should be offended with the fact that you have so little faith in me Bella, Iโm a demolitions expert.โ He told me.
And I went to stand beside Jacob now. โAt sixteen? Who gave him a licence?โ I teased shaking my head. โHave you guys had something to eat? Need a drink or anything before we get to work?โ Before I could finish off my sentence, Embry was inside of the old shed with Quil on his tail, checking to see what needed to be taken out.
โAre you guys always so gung-ho?โ I asked Jacob with a nudge in his side.
I cringed when I saw the toolbox dropโฆ but somehow, completely inexplicably it missed her toes by a hairs-breath. I shrugged it off let out a relieved sigh. โYou really shouldnโt have started without us.โ I chuckled.
#Quil sauntered up and plopped a bright yellow hard hat onto Bellaโs head and spoke saying. โI knew this would come in handy. You should have told us it was your feet at risk, we could have found a pair of steel-toed boots for you.โ He teased.
โWe werenโt sure what Charlie had here.โ I explained to her. โPlus, weโve used all of this stuff before soโฆโ I nodded towards the other two, thoughโฆ I was mainly talking about #Embry. โLess room for error.โ And I mouthed the word idiots to her silently, but with a grin.
Then I scoffed at her. โPlease! Like weโd let you get away with not helping.โ We totally would; but Bella wasnโt a side-lines kinda girl. โAlthoughโฆ waiting for us all to start together would have been perfectly acceptable.โ Then I answered her question. โYeah, all fixed, we just needed to replace a few boards.โ I stood as tall as I could next to her.
I managed to cover my mouth but not my snort at #Embryโs declaration. โLetโs get the rest of Charlieโs stuff out before we start tearing anything down.โ
Instinctively the three of us fell into a line, #Embry inside the shedโฆ because he never thought things through, and he was already in the doorway. Then #Quil and then meโฆ because I had the foresight to take shorter strides and I led Bella over with an extended hand, not actually touching her because of her reluctance to be touched in the hardware store. โYou know #Charlie best so you should sort the stuff that comes out. Thereโs probably a lot in there he might want to throw awayโฆ you know how Dads are about keeping old stuff.โ I chuckled.
That was when #Quil noticed I had placed myself between him and Bella and gave me am โI-see-what-you-did-there-grinโ but said nothing as we started to pass things down the line to Bella.
I was smiling once again, without thinking, without needing that mask I wore around this world and its people. These three boys brought a pure joy with them whenever they were around me. Their friendship. Their thoughtlessness towards how they spoke within their group. What you saw was what you got with them all.
I tapped the hardhat with my knuckles, and then pushed it up a little so that I could have some visibility before me. โThanks, Quil. Iโm surprised you didnโt bring me some sort of metal suit.โ He winked and clicked his tongue telling me the day was still young. Which earned him an eyeroll of course.
Jacob made me tilt my head to the side, it was so easy to forget he was so young when he spoke sometimes. I knew boys two years older than him who wouldnโt have thought ahead like he did. My eyes drifted to the shed and #Embry as Jake spoke, and I rained in the laughter bubbling up within me, as he mouthed the word โidiotsโ. Biting my lip to stop myself from reacting was the only thing I could do.
โI know, and I thank you for not being one of those guys who think girls canโt help.โ Because I knew those boys too. The ones who didnโt think it was possible for a girl to think for herself or know what was good for her. I took a step back as that rift in my chest threaten to blink open at the spiral of thoughts I internally began falling down. However, I knew the signs, and I knew too well by now how to counter act them.
โBella, you really did make a dent in here.โ #Embry was the one to call out and bring me back this time, and then Jacob too.
Clearing my throat as Jake motioned towards where he wanted me, and I noticed how he didnโt attempt to touch me. Making me so grateful, if in this moment he had reached out I knew that I wouldnโt have been able to hold myself together.
โI tried.โ I called out to #Embry, taking my place at the end of the chain where Jacob started to place things on the ground before me. โThatโs a good idea.โ I told Jake. โEven if I have no idea what holds sentimental value, you know?โ
I started with looking for things that were broken or looked like they couldnโt be fixed. Making three stacks behind myself. Keep, Throw and Iโm not sure.
As we worked making progress with the piles growing behind me, I began to feel an ease around the boys, listening to them banter and work. It was something I used to have with my friends, well before I checked out for so long.
โIf you throw that rod away, Charlie will come after all of us.โ #Quil pointed to the old, battered rod I was about to place on the throw stacks. โBilly carved it, and Harry lined and painted it for Charlie for one of his birthdays.โ I stopped to look the rod up and down. It was well used, the carvings on the handle were still visible in the light.
โThanks, you just saved me from being disowned by my dad.โ I told him; my eyes were on Jake now. โI knew Billy carved, but this.โ Holding the rod up to the grey light of the day. โThis is amazing.โ
I laughed at Bella and #Quil, my eyes staying on her. Seeing her laugh and enjoying herself... even when it was a little work too, it was good to see her getting back some happiness in her life.
I just smiled at her. "You know I was practically raised by #Rachel and #Rebecca, right?" I chuckled.
'And Momma T.' #Quil added, and we all laughed.
"Oh yeah... #Embry's mom doesn't tolerate that kinda thinking in herboys." That was what we all were to, Ms Call. I winked at Bella now. "Besides we agreed to a four-person job, not three. So, it's too late to back out now."
I smiled when she said I had a good idea. "Yeah, you never know what kinda things people get attached to." I nudged her with my elbow and pointed to #Embry. "Like him, he never gets rid of anything." I laughed.
#Embry rolled his eyes. 'Because I don't own anything that isn't worth keeping.' Then I just rolled my eyes because this wasn't the first time that I heard it. I had to laugh when Embry passed out the fishing rod and #Quil passed it to us.
"Oh wow!" I laughed. "Yeah... Dad worked on this for days!" I leaned in and examined it as Bella did. "Right there... that was me." I pointed out a slightly wobbly fish carved just in front of the reel. "#Charlie really loved this old thing." I grinned when Bella praised Dad's work... "Yeah, Dad was always great with his hands."
After a while #Embry called out that were done and the two of them ran to grab the sledgehammer we'd brought. "Wait, Guys! I think #Bella should have the first swing."
โAll of you boys need someone to show you the way.โ I said.
However, Momma T? my brow raised in interest until Jacob clarified and the image of the beautiful woman on the beach speaking with #Leah came into focus. I recalled concern on her face, witnessing part of her conversation with #HarryClearwaterโs daughter, and then the way she smiled as she passed me by. I could see that woman taking the time it took to teach these boys how to respect girls and be respected by the world too. It also didnโt go a stray on me how these boys all called her Momma T. She really had to be a caring woman who must be well respected within their tribe of people.
My thumb stroked the disjointed fish, and I was smiling again, thinking of an even younger Jacob Black helping his dad to do this. โItโs so sweet.โ I said as I carefully this time set the rod to the far side, where there would be no confusion when filling my truck up later.
When I heard what Jake wanted me to do, I called back. โIโm sorry What?โ I abruptly rotated to face the boys, falling about on my feet, tripping over some boxes, landing in the heap with a soft thud.
โOh sure, letโs give the girl who canโt turn around without falling, a sledge?โ I wasnโt sure which one said it because I was looking up at the sky.
โHeyโโ I started but gave up becauseโฆ you knowโฆ But then something inside of me twisted. โYou know what.โ Shuffling myself out from inside and under the boxes, pulling myself up onto my wobbly feet once again. โI can so do this.โ With a new found determination, I stomped over to #Embry holding my hand out.
โBella, itโs okay. I canโโ I shook my head cutting him off.
โI can do this. I mean just how hard can the first hit be?โ The moment he placed the hammer in my hands, it fell to the ground and tugged my arm with it. โThis thing is heavy.โ However, I was still determined. Slowly lifting the hammer, I dropped it again. โThird time lucky.โ I told myself this time lifting it with all my will, aiming to hit the side panel beside the door of the shed.
โYeah! Here we goโฆ This is going to be fun.โ #Quill called out.
"Thereโs no shortage of that on the rez." I chuckled. #TiffanyCall had always been a big part of our lives... even before we were old enough to understand the rumours. But those never stopped any of us from loving her like family or speaking up when people voiced all those nasty thoughts about her or #Embry. But I smiled at the thought that #Bella would just know her the way we did.
I flushed a little at Bella's comment... I'd not stopped to think before I pointed out my addition to the project about how she would react. I would have to find a way to show her I had gotten a lot better over the years. Let her see some of the nicer, more skilful things I had made.
I reached out for Bella when she stumbled, but the girl had a talent for falling over. I gave her my hand to help her up and looked to #Embry... who had gotten closer to her then the rest of us than I thought possible in the few short seconds, but Bella was already upright again.
But even her clutzy moment didn't stop her... just like I knew it wouldn't. I smiled to myself, biting the inside of my cheek, trying not to let it show. "She can do it." I nudged #Embry with my elbow. "C'mon Bells!" I cheered. "You got this!"
I caught #Quil's attention and motioned for him to take out his phone, he did and started recording the moment. Bella swung and made contact... considering the size of her target; it would have been hard to miss. But it did punch a decent-sized hole in the wood. I cheered and clapped for her, then went to help her yank the hammer free from the structure. "See! you totally got this!" I laughed. "But that was purely symbolic... now we take the rest of it apart panel by panel." I was smiling brightly but as the heavy hammer thunked to the ground next to my feet and I looked up to see her eyes so close to mine I realised...
Maybe I was too close, close enough that her chocolate brown eyes were level with mine and made my mouth go dry. I cleared my throat and stepped back. "Ready to play with some power tools?" I tried to cover my awkward shift.
The vibrations rushed up my arms into my shoulders and body. If I had made the hit any harder, I was certain that the shed would remain in place, and I would have been the one to go toppling over. The clapping and the cheering from the three boys had my cheeks rush with heat and colour.
โIt wasnโt that good of a hit.โ I told them, as I decided reading books and writing were going to remain my top-level past times if I survived these tasks.
When I glanced over to Jake, he was right there beside me, making sure like a good friend that I didnโt hurt myself, and #Embry stood close by too. However, something in Jakes brown eyes seemed to be off, like something was wrong?
โIโm going to send this video to the station, itโs got to get a few hundred for the comedy aspects if nothing else.โ #Quil was re-watching whatever he had managed to film.
โDonโt you dare.โ Both #Embry and I said at the same time. And then #Embry added.
โYou didnโt get my good side.โ Following up with a flexing of his biceps. Biting on my bottom lip I turned my eyes away, something felt wrong with watching #Embry while he did that. And that was when I saw Jake shift and move away.
โJake, maybe power tools are a step too far, I mean Iโm up for making the videos, but donโt we like Bella and want her to live?โ #Quil was joking again, his big brown eyes twinkling with mischief.
I took a step back away from the three boysโ. โYou know what, I am happy to start filling the truck.โ
But #Embry took a hold of my arm gently and smiled. โJake has this in control, none of us are going to let you hurt. Give it a go, itโs a rush.โ
That word Rush had my undivided attention. As I let the words sink in to my psyche, the intelligent side of me told me to run. And there was another side that had started to flicker to life more often.
โOkayโฆ fine.โ I slowly freed my arm from his hold. It still didnโt feel right to be touched by anyone, not after everythingโฆ
Then I felt this vibration of energy wanting to heave me away from the danger.
I laughed. "Hey, it's not the hit that matters. You celebrate... It's the end of one age and the beginning of the next. This shed did its job for years and years. So, we show gratitude." I leaned in a little not getting too close this time and whispered. "Plus, it was a pretty good hit."
Damn!! Did that mean the #Quil had gotten the awkward moment with Bella and I on video too? Of course, #Embry used it as an excuse to flex... I really needed to start eating more of #MommaT's cooking.
Wait... I watched Bella pull her eyes away, was she... did I... just catch Bella checking out #EmbryCall?
I turned my attention to #Quil and my brows pinched together. "We aren't in a rush... we have time to show her... I mean we had no idea the first time either, right?" I knew that #Quil was just being protective... but I guess his idea of protection and mine had always been different. Even with Dad... instead of doing things for him, I tried to make it so he could do it for himself. Keeping the house, a certain way, making sure he could reach and use what he needed from his chair and so on. I guess it was the same with Bella... When things got hard having a project ย helped me... so hopefully this one would help Bella.
#Embry was right there again... but Bella eased out of his hold on her arm. Maybe I had imagined things earlier. #Embry seemed to get the message taking a step backโฆ maybe too fast because he staggered over his own feet a little but caught himself.
"We can start with the electric screwdriver and work our way up... you won't get hurt, I promise. At least... not by the tools." I smiled. I grabbed one of the toolboxes and motioned for her to follow me into the shed. "Why don't you guys work on the windows and try not to smash the glass?"
I talked her through how to back out a screw and take down the internal shelving. It was all a little mismatched and clearly added to over the years... not unlike our barn at all. I removed a few to show her how it was done. "See..." I let a screw drop into my palm. "Easy peasy... We take down the shelf first and then the bracket." I handed her the screwdriver. "Ready to give it a try?"
โYou are always too nice to me Jacob Black.โ It wasnโt a lie, and I knew that I could have been worthier of his friendship. And I planned on making up for lost time now until I left for college.
Every now and then the boys would pop their hands and heads in through the holes they had made, trying to distract us, while they were removing the glass from the walls and being careful not to let any of it break. I wasnโt sure what they planned on doing with it, but Iย knew they knew what they were doing.
โEasy peasyโฆ.โ I repeated Jakes words with less than the same amount of excitement he shared. Asking ย myself just how hard could it be? Itโs a screwdriverโฆ ( Even if Electric was the key word. ) Then there was the voice telling me, โItโs also pointy and could take someoneโs eye outโ. Those thoughts didnโt help matters. โEasy when you know what you are doing.โ However, like #Embry saidโฆ They were going to be looking out for me.
I could hear the muttering coming from the outside of the shed with both myself and Jake inside, I kept turning for reassurance by watching him before I continued trying to do as he did.
โI got this. Right?โ Not sure if it was him, I asked or if it was myself. I wasnโt going to wait and see. The tool in my hands felt weighty, however it was finding the screws that was the real challenge. #Charlie had been placing new shelves up as an when he needed them, so there was no organisation or uniformities in here.
โThis could take the rest of the day the way I am going.โ I huffed, sweeping a strand of hair out of the way from my face. The first one I kept missing, the next one the driver kept slipping until #Quil shouted helpfully to try a smaller head. The third one I tightened deeper into the wall, before I got a hang of what it was really, I should have been doing.
โWhy is this kind of pleasurable task to complete?โ I asked Jake as I removed the last of the shelves, handing it back to him, before starting on the brackets. ย
I just laughed. "I'm nice to everybody," I replied without thinking. It was the truth, but would it have been so bad to let her think she wasn't just everyone? I really was an idiot and the sideways glance that #Quil gave me he thought the same thing.
I was glad to have the distraction of something to do with my hands while I showed her how to dismantle the shelves. "Of course, you do." I encouraged her before she attempted her first one. "See?" I beamed at her.
I moved to the other side of the shed and started on the shelves at the back of the small structure planning on working my way around to meet her. "It won't take all day." I gave her an encouraging smile. "It's your first time... once you get a feel for it you'll get a rhythm going and get a little faster each time."
'Yeah, Bells!!' #Embry popped his head through a now glassless and frameless window. 'We'll turn you into a pro in no time!' If I had had anything in my hands other than rusty old screws, I would have thrown one at him... as it was, an epic eye roll had to suffice. We both had to change the driver heads once or twice... I grumbled about this being a problem with Dad's not thinking ahead when they set these storage systems up... everything was mismatched.
I smiled broadly. Bella confirmed what I had thought earlier. Completing a tangible task like this was cathartic. There were a lot of tasks you could complete and have proof of... but something about manual labour that worked your body, and your mind was different. It worked out tension and anything pent up inside. "There's nothing like a hard day's labour to cleanse the soul." I grinned, and we carried the last on the shelves out of the shed.
'You sound like #Harry.' #Quils teased... but that wasn't a bad thing in anyone's opinion. We took in the shed. All three of us assessed the next step.
"Roof?" We all asked, in near-perfect unison and laughed at the absurdity and frequency of it.
'Gimme a boost. I'll do it." Embry walked over and proceeded to try and climb onto the roof using the empty window frame as handholds. #Quil and I lurched forward at once, shouting
My shoulders were a little stiffer, my hands a little bit sore. My fingers bore a tautness, telling me they couldnโt hold a pen right now. However, Jake was right, it did feel good to have this part of the job done.
I made my way around the small empty shed collecting the last of the screws and nails we had dropped as we were working. Gathering then releasing them into the bucket we had set aside just for this. When I heard the boys shouting outside, I leaped up from my knees and darted out of the door of my old shed.
Grimacing, unsure what I would see. My brown eyes taking notes so fast that things were not registering with me until, I turned my attention to my side, catching why the other two boys were rushing towards the shed.
#Embry had attempted to climb up the side of the structure.
It all happened in slow motion. I saw #Embry set is foot down on the old window frame they had removed the glass from. Then as his hands reached to pull his body up, his foot went down into the fractured old, damaged wood.
โEMBRY!โ ย I cried out his name at the same time as he came toppling down.
I turned my body out of the door, right underneath where he was climbing, my hands were reached out and up to stop him from falling back, but I should have known better.
#Quilโs voice was the one to reach my ears first. โBella move!โ However, it was too late.
I saw #Embrys dark brown eyes, and in the moment, I didnโt realise it meant he was coming down on top of me. His lips parted and I just heard my name on them, asking me to move, but I was frozen in place still attempting to... well โsaveโ him?
I closed my eyes; I knew what was coming. I could feel the rush of air in my face, the firmness of his body knocking mine back towards the ground, a rush of energy, heat, and something else like an elastic recoil trying to push free, and not all at the same time. It took a hold of the two of us. I collapsed back into something that reminded me of a cloud of softness, stopping my body and head from banging into the ground. I could detect #Embry was with me, then I sensed a short burst of something pushing him off. ( It was a blink, and you would miss it kind of a feeling. ) But enough to push #Embry off. Making him roll onto his side like a cat landing from a first-floor window to the ground.
Winded I let my head fall back into the grassy earth, blinking up to the grey sky above. And then it hit me. A smell I couldnโt dismiss. It was on my breath, in my nose, and it was all I could think off. That metallic scent that coated the inside of my mouth without being here. Nervousness kicked in because I knew what was about to happen.
โEmbry is hurt.โ I just managed to say as the nauseousness made my stomach turn, my head span and everything went black for a few moments before I was back again.
The wood under #Embry's foot fractured... it was so fast. In a blink of an eye, Bella was there, and it was too late, she was right under him the moment she stepped out of the door of the shed. I threw my arm out to block #Quil, though we ย had both rushed forward in the hopes of stopping #Embry from acting the fool. I knew if we get any closer it could potentially end up with all of us landing on Bella and probably #Embry too.
Before I could really register what had happened, ย I was on my knees next to Bella watching her turn even pale than I knew was possible. #Quil stooped next to #Embry who swore he was fine, and that his ankle just hurt a little.
"Bella?" I pinched my eyebrows together and slipped my hand ย under her, raising her up off the ground a little. Completely forgetting her reluctance to be touched in the rush of concern. I was instantly worried she'd hit her head when she seemed to... pass out? But not.
'Okay his ankle is bleeding... but the idiot will live.' #Quil was slapping #Embry's hand away as he pulled off his boot, showing where the splintered wood had cut his ankle when it cracked.
'Damn... is she okay. She looks like she's going to hurl.' #Embry ย wrinkled his nose and hissed as #Quil turned his foot to get a good look.
It hit then... a memory from when I was little. Bella fainted at the sight of blood. My sister #Rebecca was the same way. The last time it happened to #Becca was ย ironically when #Embry fell off another shed and broke his leg so bad the bone came through his skin.
"You sure youโre, okay?" I said over my shoulder to him; to which he replied that it was barely bleeding, and he just needed a band-aid. I mean it didn't look too bad, but it would need to be one hell of a band-aid. Bella seemed to be coming out of it but was clearly still woozy.
"Sorry about this Bells." I had one hand under her already, so I slipped the other under her knees ย and lifted her up... I knew she wasn't going to be happy about it. "Take him upstairs to clean that." I carried Bella to the back door of the house, pressing the handle down awkwardly with my elbow to get inside. I tried my best not to ย jostle her too much.
I set her on the couch and let go of her quickly. "Don't hate me for that... I just wanted to get you away from the blood as fast as I could." I dragged over a footstool so she could put her feet up.
"I'll go get you some water." As I went back into the kitchen #Embry was hobbling in the back door with one shoe off. "You, okay?" I asked... I still wanted to call him an idiot, but he was hurt so I would save that until tomorrow. Okay... the ride home maybe.
'I'm more worried about her... I'm pretty sure I landed on her... I mean... it didn't feel like it... but I had to.' He sounded confused and really guilty.
"She'll be okay." I didn't want to tell them what I thought it was, that was Bella's business. I filled the glass and told them where to find the bathroom.
Then I came back into the living room, pulling the door closed behind me. "Here you go." I handed her the glass and perched on the edge of the coffee table across from the couch. "Are you okay? That was one hell of a slam you got."
Head ringing, eyes closed, the noise coming from the boys ย and their talking had felt muffled, to the point that they all sounded the same as time went on ( Or was time standing still? ). Inaudibly I tried to tell them I was fine, that I needed to lay here on the cool ground for a few moments longer. However, the conversation only took place in my mind.
The pulsing of something I couldnโt place my finger on, slowed, calmed, and then dissipated. Leaving me a little flabbergasted and breathless, and enervated. This is when I heard the voice again.
โSorry about this Bells.โ Who was sorry? Was that Jake? Why did the voice sound like another I knew, however hadnโt heard in a while? I wasnโt sure if I was losing time, or if time was losing me?
The proof of it being that as I felt myself drift off with the copper like scent coming closer. These strong arms overwhelmed me to the point that I was attempting to push away unsuccessfully. The night when my life was turned upside down came tumbling all around me.
The sound of #SamUleyโs voice vibrating in my chest as he told #Charlie and #Harry that I was going to be okay. โSheโs just a little cold.โ The tears I had been holding in had come out like a waterfall when I heard #Charlies voice telling me that I was safe, that it would all be okay. However, he didnโt know. He didnโt know if it would be okay.
I opened my eyes on the same couch I had been placed on that night. And with the trauma coming in to focus for some reason now, I tried to hurtle myself up and off the couch. The room spun and my legs went off like jelly, making my body claps back down.
โIโll get you some water.โ This time there was no mistaking the voice. Jacobโฆ Jake had been the one to carry me in here? I closed my eyes, my head dwindling into the back of the couch as I covered my face in the crook of my elbow. I was mortified. Once again, I had been a burden on my friends.
There were awkward sounds coming from the other side of the door. The living room was never closed off, so I knew for it to be done I must look a right state. I couldnโt move my hand when I felt Jacob come to sit close.
โYeah, I am fine.โ I finally found my voice and will to speak. โIs Embry, okay? Does he need to go to hospital?โ I could swear the scent of the blood had felt all consuming. It must have been bad.
Moving my hand from over my face. I still felt the world spinning all around me. โIโm so sorry Jacob, I didnโt mean for any of this to happen. Iโm sorry Embry is hurt because of me.โ I couldnโt stop feeling devastated knowing that someone was harmed while helping me.
I arms were still trembling as I took the water, and my feet now on the foot stool still felt out of place.
"Don't look at me like that please. Embry is the one we need to be worried about." I turned my head toward the closed door and regretted the movement instantaneously.
I laughed softly. Of course, her first clear-headed thought was about somebody else. "He's going to be fine. He might limp for a day or two. But he's survived worse." Her eyes glazed over a little and I eased off the edge of the table and sat next to her, careful not to jostle the couch and her with it. "Okay, sit up a little and take a drink." I took a cushion from the other end, propping it behind her to straighten her up a little more. "You have nothing to be sorry for.
If anything, I should be apologising to you for not warning you about #Embry's..." Was stupidity too harsh considering he was hurt? "Impulsiveness... and his history with sheds." I laughed. Hoping she would too, then remembered that there was no way she could get the joke.
"He is in good hands. #Quil may goof around a lot but he's actually the most responsible of us all." I wasn't sure if that was entirely true... but he was certainly the cleverest and most rational. "If #Embry ย needs a hospital #Quil will drag him there if he has to."
She was taking this hard... maybe harder than I could make better. There was no way she could realise that this was a regular occurrence... All three of us had our brushes with stupid accidents. #Embry more than most and maybe the most serious consequences because of his utter lack of self-preservation instincts and fear, he didn't stop to think. "He doesn't think things through. Believe me when I tell you... this ย is just another Saturday in the life of Embry Call."
'My ears are burning.' I heard through the living room door, then they walked in. #Embry with one shoe off and a bandage on one foot and ankle that would make #SueClearwater proud. I ย looked for traces of blood. There was nothing on the bandage, but he still had the shoe in his hand. I stood up still careful not to make the couch bounce.
I took the shoe and whispered before he could make it past the door. "You'll make her sick again. I'll leave this on the porch for now." The front door was only a few strides away, then stepped out onto the front porch. Curiosity hit me at Bella's words... she had thought he'd been hurt bad enough to need a trip to the ย hospital. I tugged the opening of his shoe open wider. tilting it to the light. "What the..." I trailed off.
Almost the entire inside of the well-worn white trainer was stained red. it wasn't like something from a movie with blood pouring ย out of it or anything. The lining had been soaked through but, #Embry had been standing on the foot... limping, sure but still holding some weight on it. I set the shoe down and went back inside finding #Embry had usurped my place next to Bella.
He moved cushions around me, gave me water, he hovered above me and examined me as though I could break any minute now. However, wasnโt I already broken?
โThank you.โ I sipped on theย water, letting myself sit back a little when Jacob told me that his friend would be okay. I didnโt fully believe him. โItโs not the point Jake, I donโt care if the three of you dangle from the trees off the side of the cliffs. This was on my watch. Iโm the oldest hereโฆโ
I bit down on my lip thinking about my dad. ย โCharlie will be disappointed that I didnโt protect the three of you better. He doesnโt even know that we are doing this.โ I pointed sheepishly towards the back window. โIt would upset him to know that Embry is hurt because of it.โ
My father wasnโt a man of gifts. ย When he did buyโฆ I cut that thought off, because the last gift he gave me was one he bought with my mom, and I hadnโt picked that camara up in over a year now.
The sound of voices came close from behind me, but I didnโt turn to look. โI hope you are right. I am sure I can climb into the beast if I need to take him in.โ However, some part of me was so thankful that #Quil would be able to help. Sitting in the tight space of the cab of my truck could make me faint like a fool again. So, for now I had to take Jacobโs word for it, at least until I could see #Embry for myself.
Jacob jostled the couch, making the queasiness return. #Quil was around the couch holding on to the water in my hand. โEasy there, Bells, you going to be alright there?โ I gave him a half-hearted smile.
โIโm so sorry Quil.โ I told him the same as I had Jacob, and in return he had repeated his friends sentiments.
โDonโt worry about me Bella, see. Nothing will keep me down.โ #Embry jumped into the spot on the couch beside me.
โIโmโโ He cut me off with half a hug, his arm over the back of the couch.
โDonโt say you are sorry. Youโve said it like five times since we came inside.โ I pulled my brows together.
โHow would you know? You werenโt in here with me.โ I poked his side, making some room between the two of us, with #Quill sitting on the edge of the coffee table.
โThe walls are thin in this place.โ He told me.
โI didnโt hear her.โ #Quil jumped to my defence.
โYou never hear what your mom shouts right next to you.โ Embry poked him with is injured foot.
โThat looks like it need to be seen.โ I told them as I heard the front door closing.
โIt looks worst than it is. The bandage should do the trick.โ #Quil told me looking up and over my head, I assumed towards Jacob.
โMaybe itโs a good time to order in some pizza I asked? โThe menuโs are in the kitchen on the pinboard by the phone.โ
I shook my head; I could have laughed... but she was one hundred percent serious. "Bella... we aren't kids. You don't need to be responsible for everyone all the time. It will age you ten years. #Charlie has witnessed or heard about his fair share of our shenanigans. He'll be glad he wasn't trespassing or that none of us didn't fall through his roof."
I was still trying to figure out how he had bled so much and was able to stand on that leg, the cut had to be deep. But there he was the moment I came back inside; his arm was around her shoulder. The guy had no idea how to read a room! My head tilted at the conversation, and I couldn't help but glance up the stairs before stepping back into the living room. I suppose it wasn't impossible for him to have heard if they left the bathroom door open.
"I'll get them," I said and walked past the back of the couch. Crouching over it against the back of it next to Embry. "Does that hurt?" I asked, knowing that if I asked him if he was okay again, he would give me a dead arm.
'Barely.' He shrugged. 'I mostly feel for landing on Bella...' He turned to her. 'I'm really sorry Bell's. Most people know better than to try and catch me at ย this stage.' he chuckled and shook her a little with the arm of her shoulder. I cringed internally.
"Dude... easy. Sheโs not feeling well." I messed up his hair.
'Hey! not the hair!' He laughed and I headed to the kitchen to grab the menus.
Then, I unpinned the stacked and my eyes caught on the corner of a photo. I lifted a notice for a charity event that was at least a year out of date and under it was a young, so young that she was missing two front teeth and still smile big Bella. Judging by how sunny it was I was guessing her mother took this in Phoenix. My curiosity piqued and I scanned the board, there were more... a few that looked like school portraits and one of her and the twins that made my heart ย twinge for my sisters.
I cleared my throat and headed back to the living room. "Alright, guys... what are you all in the mood for?" I asked and listed off the take-out places as I flipped through them one at a time.
โOuch! Donโt make age jokes.โ Muttering to Jacob, โNot when you are still a baby.โ
โWe are not babies Bells.โ #Embry piped up to defend his friend and himself.
ย โThatโs so wrong. We are young adults.โ #Quil added.
โNot sure your mom would agree with us.โ #Embry reached over me to punch his friend. And I ducked out of the way to the far side of the couch. It wasnโt so big that I could get completely out of the way. But something was better than nothing, right?
Watching the interaction between these was a whole lot of entertainment in itself. The way the spoke to each other, the way they joked, laughed, and looked after the others. I was something I had read about in my books, but never had myself. The closes I came to something this good, was with Alโฆ. I shopped that thought.
Angelaโฆ She was a kind soul, someone who had stood by me even in my โzoopโ phase as #Leah had called it. But even what I had with her wasnโt this.
#Embry and #Quil were joking back and forth. โWe need to get back out there soon.โ #Quil had been saying when Jacob came back in.
โI think you guys need something to eat and call it a night. I can clean up a little and maybe do some more another day. #Charlie is going to work out something is up the moment he is home.โ
We all turned to glance back at Jake. โPizza.โ One side and the other agreed too.
โIโm good with Pizza too.โ I told him with a half-smile. Something had diminished in his eyes. I was uncertain what it was.
โHere letโs take a look at the menus, there are more options here then in La push.โ #Quil stood to reach for the papers in Jacobs hands. While I watched him.
I shook my head... she was seriously obsessed with age. I watched them rough house across her. None of us was raised to think of girls as the weaker sex... but she had just taken a major spill. And manners were a thing too.
"C'mon guys! You told her we aren't babies... let's try to prove it shall we." I gave them both a look. I held out the menus to #Quil and #Embry grabbed them before he could reach for them.
'The Lady said pizza, so pizza it is.' #Embry started flipping through the stack.
'Pretty sure we all said pizza... but sure.' Sarcasm dripped off every syllable of #Quil's words and I gave him an agreeable smirk.
'Whoa! Three pizza places?' Embry scoffed... exaggerated. 'Townies have it ย good! Which one is your favourite Bella? I've ever had the slices from the diner.'
"Home Slice is the best if you ask me... but Pacific deliver. I don't mind running out to pick it up. It's not far." I said, the guys looking at me like I ย was a stranger to them. "What?" I shrugged. "Dad and I ate here a lot with #Charlie."
'And you never brought us back a slice?' #Quil looked horrified! and I laughed.
"Hell no!! It was way too good to share... there was never any left to ย bring back." I said unashamedly rubbing their faces in it.
My eyes stayed on Jacob for the longest time as he spoke. I couldnโt put my finger on it. And I was sure it had everything to do with the spinning head thing that I had been going though. However I wasnโt so slow that I didnโt see the look both #Embry and #Quil exchanged. Some sort of warning sign and alarm began to ring internally and I darted out the way just in time.
Both the boys went jumping up and over the couch, theirs arms out stretched to the point that they crossed over. The biceps hit Jacobโs chest and they both took him down flat on his back.
โGuys!โ I covered my mouth and closed my eyes, to stop the wave of fear of hearing all three heads crack on the floor. But as laughter erupted, I slowly allowed myself to open one eye. Climbing onto the couch with my knees on it, and my arms over the back. My eyes couldnโt believe the sight before me.
โDo you have a death wish? What if you both hurt him or yourselves? Jeez.โ My heart was going a mile a minute, I could feel it trying to except that they were all still alive. By some miracle.
โNah. Weโve been clothes lining one another since weโre were five..โ #Embry was the first to sit ย up and face me.
โWe know how to wrestle like the pros Bella. And he deserved that. He knows better than to keep food from us.โ #Quil rubbed his shoulders a little. Frowning. โAnd Pizza is on him for this too.โ He added. I shook my head, still in a little shock. Resting my forehead of the back of the couch.
โI told you, pizza is on me. And I can go pick it up. I donโt mind the fresh air.โ
And out of the danger zone for a hour.
"Oh hell!!" I saw it in their eyes before they even moved. "Guys wai--" And then I was flat on my back trying to push both the fools off me. #Embry held me down like he meant business, but he was laughing and smiling like we always did when we wrestled and joked around.
I finally sat up when they let me. "Seriously!?" I huffed at them, trying to sound annoyed but I was smirking. I looked up at Bella leaning over the couch. "Do you see what I have to deal with every day?" I laughed.
I was starting to think it was a bad idea to have these guys around her, she was still easing herself back into the social thing... and these guys were a lot for anyone to deal with.
"You shouldn't go on your own if you still feel dizzy. I'll go with you. If you want me to." I looked at the other two idiots. "And if you trust these two fools alone in your house.
'Or I could go with her and you and can babysit Call?' #Quil interjected which started a back and forward between the two about who really needed a babysitter.
I slipped away from between them both on the floor and moved around the cough. "This could on for an hour. Wanna escape now? I know their orders."
โIโll be fine, it will do me some good.โ I told him, needed out of the house while my head came around.
โThey are your friends, you kinda have to deal with it.โ What I wouldnโt give some days to have this, but then again, I liked my alone time. It gave me what I needed to think, to read, and to remove the mask I showed the world.
Slowly, really slowly I pulled myself up off the couch and started to make my way around it and as far away from the three boys tumbling around on my living room floor. I had a feeling, that if I remained where I wasโฆ And before that thought was finished #Embry and #Quill started to pull one another into head locks.
โJaโฆ Jake! Make some noise.โ I had been trying to sneak out without pulling their attention. Not that it would have been heard over the madness that the other two had brought down. โYou read my mind.โ I told him. Jacob was stood right there before me. So, pinching the sleeve of his shirt, I tugged him towards the door. Only stopping when the guys moved across and then back again.
My chocolate brown eyes moved over the length of #EmbyCallโs body. Not because I was checking him out, but more the fact that someone who had so much blood loss was moving about so easily, and had no issues playing around? โMaybe Iโve become overly sensitive?โ I wondered to myself as I reached for my jacket from the hook, and wallet from the small table beside the door.
โIf the place is ripped down, they will have to answer to Charlie.โ I told Jacob as I opened the door and stepped outside. The cold fresh air blowing my hair out of my face. I closed my eyes and thanked the wind gods for the relief this gave my senses.
โCrap.โ Before I forgot, I reached back inside to the bowl sat on the side table for the keys to my beast. โGot them.โ Throwing the keys in the air, I missed catching them and had to bend down to pick them up. The scent of blood hit me when I saw #Embryโs shoes beside the front door.
โWow.โ Standing up slowly, I felt light headed again.
"I'm sure you will." I told her with a smile. "I just want to look out for the truck. In case you start to feel poorly again. Can't have you scratching that bad boy." I laughed. we both knew that the paint job was beyond saving already.
I shrugged at her next comment giving an apologetic smile when startled her. "True... but sometimes I need a little sane company... to stop me losing my mind like them."
I smiled a little too wide when she tugged me out towards the day. The ย other two had devolved into a verbal back and forth to was barely English anymore. All three of us were closer than brothers but there was a bond between the two of them that defied even that. It never bugged me... Neither of them grew up ย with siblings at home so they found a little of that bond together, it was a good thing for both of them.
"They'll be okay." I chuckled... "They're idiots but they are respectful idiots."
I reached out for her when she leaned down to ย examine the shoe on the porch but kept my hand a distance, so she could take it if she wanted to, or not. "Whoa, whoa... don't make yourself sick again." Her colour had drained when she stood. "You, okay?"
โOkay?โ It was a question rather than an answer to his question. I could feel that he stood close by, however I lost myself in trying to stay upright and not allow myself to buckle under the sensations flooding me.
โFine. It. I. Iโm fine.โ All the conversations form before weโre forgotten as I set my shaky hand on the wall and then slowly backed away from the trainers at my doorstep.
โI shouldnโt be this sensitive towards the smell of blood. Iโm sorry. I didnโt mean to frighten you.โ I told him when I turned to find his eyes on me. Embracement taking a strong hold of me now that I had place some distance before the offending object and myself.
โHey. Jake! This fast!โ I throw the keys in the air for him to catch. โMaybe itโs not the best idea for me to drive right now. Iโll add brownies to the Order ย if you donโt mind driving us down there?โ My hands touched together like a small plead for him to do me this favour.
I tried to smile, tried to push that mask into play. But the rawness of this sickening feeling had make it impossible at this exact time. โIโll even owe youโฆ a favourโฆ? Please?โ My mind wasnโt working completely.
Some part of me thought I needed to give him for, him to do something for me. Otherwise I would once again be some hopeless girl who need saving. And there. That feeling! I didnโt want to live ever again!
I raised a brow at her while she tried to make up her mind about how she felt. I laughed when she apologised. "You didn't... worried. Of course, but I've seen this before and trust me when I say I've seen way worse." I smiled, remembering ย Rebecca fainting when Embry had broken his leg... "Let's just say... 'Bry has that effect on a lot of women. And not in the way he would like you to believe." I caught the keys with ease. "Nice throw for someone that can hardly see straight." I laughed.
"I'll never turn down a brownie... but... You never need to bribe me to drive this beast." I grinned wide. "Man, I miss this truck!"
I had loved driving this thing, but we needed something newer just to make it ย easier on dad. Plus, once I had finished rebuilding the engine I was dying for a new project, and I knew Dad had a point when he told me I couldn't keep this and find myself a new fixer-upper in the salvage yard. It was an easy choice... I loved having something to work on. "Did you know I learned how to drive in this?" I beamed at her and pulled open her door.
"I'm not being all guyish..." I said with a goofy smile. "You're not feeling well... I'm just being polite." I raised a brow, chuffed that I got there before she could tell me she was perfectly well able. Plus, it was kind of a habit for me... I was so used to driving dad around and helping him in and out of the truck. I walked around to the driver's side to climb in.
โWooha!โ I really had to do a double take thing you only see in cartoons. โI cannot believe you actually so casually caught those keys.โ
It was not a clean throw ( I couldnโt throw straight to save my life ), however the way he reached out. โYou need to play ball. Any ball games. Anything where you can do that.โ
I was rambling to take my mind of the nauseous still playing havoc with my stomach.
I stopped, however did not have the will power to act on the door opening thing he did.
โIโm sorryโฆ excuse me Jacob Black, how do you know I am not a girl who likes her door opened?โ
My voice and face cracked at the same time. I really was a bad actor. ( which is why I didnโt audition for school plays! )
I was in The Beast half smile when I saw #Embry doing some kind of a dance in our window, knowing we could see him.
โI mean, he has his moments. I am sure?โ The last work turned the statement into a question.
I covered my face, waving from him to go away as Jake climbed in too. โI didnโt know you learnt to drive in the Beast. Iโm still thankful to you dad and you for all your hard work on him. He still runs so well for me.โ
Resting my head back I closed my eye feeling the truck pulling out of the drive and onto the road.
โWhat are you working on now? Billy mentioned you are trying to work off a new part?โ
I was trying hard and failing as the memory of him flashed into my mind arriving at my prom to give me #Billyโs warning.
My hand slowly slipped up to my chest as that hole started to push its way open and I pushed down hard.
I laughed and jangled the keys. "Like I said... it was a good throw." I grinned. I wasn't really sure if it was or not... I always had pretty good reflexes and I had been too busy watching for signs that she was about to keel over again.
"Oh, I tried... but all the coaches told me I was just so damn good that it wouldn't be fair to all the other average human boys out there and cut me." I boasted with a goofy smile. I rolled my eyes at her suggestion that she like having doors opened for her as I walked around to the driver's side. "Because I didn't meet you yesterday." I answered. "Don't worry, you can pay me back and open doors for me when you're feeling bet-- Oh jeez!" I cut off when I saw #Embry in the window.
I smiled at her question about what I was working on. That was a good sign, right? When girls asked you about the stuff you were interested in? I started the engine as #Embry was snatched from view... by #Quil I would imagine, as ย soon his dance moves turned from comical to... well... pelvic thrusts. "Oh, right now I'm rebuilding a Volkswagen Rabbit. But when this one is done it's gonna be my main set of wheels."
I back out onto the road and rolled down the window ย when I noticed Bella start to clutch at her chest. "A little fresh air is all you need Bells." I gave her a warm smile and set my gaze back on the road, heading into town. "You're gonna be just fine. Promise."
โThe coaches did what?โ The hole in my chest prevalent, however the thought of someone telling Jacob he couldnโt take part in sports. It jolted me out of my self-pity.
That was until I saw the smile and cheekiness on his features. โJacob Black! One of these days I Will believe you, and go to war, and make a fool of myself.โ
Uncertain why out of nowhere had this protection over him come to land? I shook my head and rolled my eyes at him. โSure, sure. You may know me. Howeverโฆโ I laughed at how long it took for him to find out what his ย friend had been doing.
When we were on our way, the cold air from the rolled down window had been a welcome reprieve. It had some how make things In my chest calm.
โA Volkswagen Rabbit? Not sure Iโve seen one of those. Is it a truck too?โ I asked training my ย eyes on the tree foliage as we drove past.
My mind wondering about his size. Seeing that the kid had such a growth spurt over the months, I could only imagine where he would end up in his height and build.
I laughed hard and shook my head. "Hey if you really want t go to bat for me, you can have words with my English teacher... She's a hard ass" I laughed. I was a good student but literature just wasn't really my thing... and poetry... I mean, what was I ever gonna use that for? I knew I needed to put in a little more effort but I really wasn't interested, so it was hard to motivate myself.
"It's a very old truck. My Uncle Kevin had it lying around, so he said if I can babysit and help out Aunt Connie I could have and fix it up. It's a work in progress... but I only need a few more parts to get it road worthy."
I drove threw town and pulled in along the curb outside the pizza place. "Are you feeling any ย better? A little fresh air, peace and quiet... and a lot less crazy. It is good for the soul." I laughed and pulled the keys from the ignition.
Moments such as these were the ones to remind me why I seemed to enjoy Jacobโs company.
He maybe younger, however sometimes his ability to change your mood and take your mind off into a new direction. The thing that makes it ever so endearing, had to be the fact I didnโt believe it was planned by him.
โEnglish? That has to be the best subject in school, the only one I look so forward to. Iโm sure you are exaggerating, all English teachers are always so nice and full of the best quotes.โ
When the truck stopped, I half smiled looking out at the full day. And yet it still felt light somehow.
โWorking hard for what you want? Thatโs very grown up of you.โ Opening the door, a little. โWhenever you are done with your new ride, Iโm sure you will be that much prouder of it.โ
I didnโt push the door completely open at first, testing the air, my breathing and more so my legs where I sat. His laughter was contagious again, making me join in.
โI am feeling a little better. I need to get a handle on myself. Poor Embry is the one hurt, and I am the one running away from him.โ
Now I pushed the door wider before jumping down from the beast. The wet road did not take me down this time and I let out a sigh of relief.
โDo you think we should have called ahead with the order?โ The thought occurred a little too late now. Closing the door, I make myself to the curb and then towards the store front.
โCome on, letโs get some food in before Embry decides to take another running late from somewhere.โ
There was a strange sense of pride that I was able to amuse Bella and make her smile... after everything she'd been through I knew that sometimes, moments like these could make all the difference. Even if they were fleeting. And even ย better... I was to do it by being completely myself.
"You did always have a thing for books." I smiled. "And it's not that I don't like books or anything... but Lord of the Rings isn't exactly on the syllabus." I laughed. "And it's not I prefer practical stuff, I'm great at history... decent at math and everything. It's just that the material in English isn't my thing."
I smiled. "Exactly! See the girls at school don't get that." I climbed out of the truck and watch her carefully as so did the same. "But it's not all that hard really... They always tell me they make me babysit the kids and stuff. But, they never really go anywhere, my cousin is always sick and Aunt Connie is overprotective."
I shook my ย head and locked the truck, spinning the keys on my finger. "Stop worrying about him." I laughed. "#Embry hurts himself on a daily basis... we're probably lucky it was while we were all here and he didn't get into a fight instead." I nodded ย to the door of the pizza place that was propped open, heat from the ovens wafting out. I heaved a dramatic sigh. "And I was about to tell you it was your turn to open a door for me!"
I shrugged my shoulders, โSometimes the world in books helps to relieve you from the Reality we live. Words written by people you know of, and yet have never met could make the difference in someoneโs life.โ
There was a truth so deep, however I hoped I skated it, and didnโt allow him to see the depths of how I hid in the books I read all my life.
โI can see how you are more hands on. Some of us are made for books, and others are made to use their skills and intelligence to survive.โ
Stopping I frowned a little. โAunt Connie? I donโt believe I know her. Is your cousin going to be okay?โ
I held my hands up in defence. โI will stop thinking of the walking, talking hazard who is trying to steal my crown.โ Laughing I chewed on my lower lip. This laughing thing, and smiling thing is something new around Jake and his boys, they had this energy about them that was contagious.
โWould you prefer me to close the door, and then maybe opening it again for you? I wouldnโt wish for your hopes to be dashed at all. Not after all you are doing for me.โ There may have been a touch of sarcasm, however it wasnโt with malice. More a dark humour I had found in myself.
There were a few customers stood before us waiting to order, I reached the counters and picked up a menu opening it for the two of us to see. ย โWhat do you and the guys like eating on your pizza?โ My dark brown eyes looked around before settling on Jake stood beside me.
I walked with her, taking in each word. "I know... it's not that I don't like reading. I don't hki read a lot or anything either... but just the trading list for school isn't exactly my genre."
I flushed a little... did Bella Swan, of all people... call me... Jacob Black,... intelligent? The cleverest and most articulate person I had ever met? I must have misheard her.
"My Dad's sister, she's one of the twins. And he will be fine... that boy has Guardian Spirit's... he's a ย sick kid but... he'll be fine." I had always tried to help him be normal... but my aunt was overprotective. I got why... but I always just knew he was going to be okay, I didn't know why... but I was always certain that he would pull through stronger every time.
"Oh, walking-talking-hazard is SOOO going to be his new nickname!" I grinned, I had made her laugh again. I tilted my head like I was thinking about her offer, furrowing my brow in concentration. "That sounds ย great... But I wouldn't want to come across as a diva. So I guess you'll just have to owe me one." I flashed her a bright smile.
"We'll need to get #Embry his own unless we want to lose fingers trying to make him share." I chuckled, he ย had been eating like crazy lately. "He likes sausage, extra pepperoni and All-the-cheeseโฆ" I air quoted the last part, #Bry's exact words. "#Quil's favourite is chicken and mushroom... And I'll have what you're having. I like ย it all and I suck at deciding... we could be here for hours."
Nodding my head, I actually understood what he meant. โSee, thatโs where you are missing a trick. Find something you like to read about.โ I thought for a moment.
โCarsโฆ You like cars right? Making them, building them? Driving ย them?โ I asked setting my eyes on him, not really waiting for a reply because anything who knew Jacob Black, knew this of him.
โThatโs where you should start. Go to the library, the book store, browse the shelves, read a chapter, until you ย find something you want to read.โ
I straightened my shoulders a little, that really had been some good advice to give a kid who didnโt like reading, right?
Tugging on the cuffs of my coat I listened trying to place this aunty. โI may have ย met her once, at Harryโs and Sueโs?โ there were a few times when #Charlie had dragged me out in my โZoopโ days as #Leah called them. My walking, talking zombie daysโฆ.
โIโm sorry, to hear he is sick.โ I nudged him with my shoulder. โIโm sure your aunty knows that you are only trying to be there for the youngster.โ I half smiled. Liking the sound of having a Guardian spirit to look over him.
I rolled my eyes at him unexpectedly. โJacob! Stop that. You cannot name one of your best friends a โWalking-Talking-Hazardโ! Even if the boy had proven himself to be one so far. โAlso itโs a little too late Master, Black. Your are known in town as a diva queen. All the boys are saying it.โ
Running my eyes with the back of ย my hand. He was making me take my mind off all that had been happening to me of late.
The teen behind the register went to my school, the pizza place belonged to his dad and mom. โHey Bella, what can I get you?โ
He smiled looking between Jacob and me. I placed the orders for the two boys at home first. And then an order for two Pepperoni pizzas, one deep and the other thin. Once I paid. I turned to Jacob.
ย โYou may regret going for my choice, Charlie and I tend to like our ย pizza simple with just pepperoni on it. We do drift between thin and deep pan.โ I added shifting a little. Now it was a waiting game.
I nodded, tilting my head in thought. "You know what..." I smiled. "That actually makes sense... I never really thought about doing anything like that before."
I nodded, "You probably did, they are all quite close." I shook my head and ย laughed at the change of subject. My cousin wasn't fond of being the centre of attention, whether he was there to see it or not. "Oh c'mon!! It suits him so well!! Especially lately... he's been so clumsy the last few weeks."
I narrowed my eyes at her... "Master Black?" I laughed. "I guess that's better than Cheif... I think."
She ordered the pizza and as I stood there surrounded by all the scents of cooking food I suddenly realised I was starving. "That sounds great." I ย wondered how many fingers #Embry would break if I stole a slice. Then I turned to the guy at the counter. "Could we get some garlic bread with that too?"
โActuallyโฆ could you make that two garlic breads, and two portions of your hot wings too?โ The kid smiles nodding his head before I set the money down and he went off to update the order.
Turning to Jake I shrugged my shoulders. โIโve a feeling the pizzaโs wonโt do the trick tonight.โ
And then I went back to his comment. โMaster is the title of young man, before he becomes a man. And then it is changed to Mister.โ What exactly did he think I was speaking of.
โIt is the same as a girl being Miss, until marriage, and then is changes ย depending of if she is married, divorced or widowed.โ A little lesson in history, felt nice. I Chester over to the stalls and started to walk towards myself, glancing back ver my shoulder.
โWhat do you mean by that? Embry becoming clumsy in the last few weeks?โ Sitting down, I combed my hair behind my ear. โI mean I understand I should stand up for him, you know. The clumsyโs United club and all.โ
Without thinking, my fingers slipped under the cuff of my coat, and I caressed the Crescent Moon shaped scar. It had been a lie, however when my father saw it, it remained him of just how clumsy his daughter could be.
I smiled at her "You'll have to let me pay you back somehow... next time the truck needs work you know who to call, right?"
I tilted my head at her explanation. "Wow... you really do read a lot." I was half teasing and half impressed. Shrugging when she asked about #Embry... there had been a lot about him that was changing lately, he was angry a lot, which was out of character for him, and we (#Quil and I) had had to stop him from starting fights in school twice in the last few weeks. But I wasn't going to worry Bella with that, he wouldn't ever hurt someone... Not on purpose at least; given that he had just fallen on top of Bella.
"His Mom says that he needs to grow into his limbs.โ I chuckled.
"He's grown like four inches in the last month." Of course, that was an exaggeration, it was impossible. It was just that these went unnoticed when you saw someone every single day. Then you suddenly realised ย ย they'd gotten taller. Right?
I followed Bella and slid into a seat too. "And don't tell him I said... He's like a brother to me. But he kinda turns into an idiot when he's trying to impress a girl." I gave her a look that I hoped she'dย read as a Yes, youโre that girl. She'd seemed completely obliviously to the flirting from him and #Quil today.
I glanced at her hands... that was the second time she'd tugged on her sleeves. I chewed on the inside of my cheek and asked quietly. "Is that from your accident?" I knew there was a scar there, #Charlie had mentioned it though I had never gotten more than a glimpse of it.
I stiffen a little and felt my cheeks reddening with the heat creeping up on them. Maybe I had let out a little too much of my inner geek? Then again, this is me, and I wasnโt going to hide myself to make others feel comfortable around me. Those days were gone.
โJakeโฆthis is pay back for everything you are helping me with today. So, itโs counterintuitive to set a new payback.โ Biting on my lower lip.
โHowever, you know if I need help with the beast. I am calling you first.โ
I gave him a nod, and a small nudge of my elbow.
I listened to Jacob intently, not wanting to miss anything as he spoke. I could see that this was about growth when it came to Embry. The boy had been clearly going through a spurt, and how ย his mom had described it.
ย โI guess you will all be going through these changes soon enough. Growing pains and all.โ
#Renee had tried having this talk with me, until I turned the tables on her. She soon saw the errors of her ways when I started quoting my biological reproductive system to her in their Latin terms.
โYour secret is safe with me.โ I told him.
Looking confused at what he said and then that look he gave me. โI mean anyone can tell thatโฆ Embry would love to ย be a ladies manโฆ.โ But again, why was Jacob giving me that look?
I stiffen at the next question. Tugging down on my sleeve to hide the scar away from him and anyone who would pay it too close attention. โUhmโฆ yeahโโ
My words cut out when ย arms came around me from behind and I was lifted up off the stool and spun around mid-air. I let out a high-pitched squeal.
โHey Arizona! Why are you having pizza without me?โ #MikeNewton kept spinning me.
โMIKE! Put me down!โ I exclaimed.
He laughed while #Ben and #Erik told him to let me be. He finally set me on the ground, and I had to hold on to him tightly with my head still spinning.
I nodded and laughed. "Okay, okay you have a point. But this is the kind of thing we live for. Plus, I bet you ten dollars that Embry will try to use photos of this build as his assignment in wood shop." I laughed because honestly... they would probably accept it too. They liked it when used the skills from class in the real world.
"Sad thing is... if he dropped the act, girls would probably give him a chance." I had been so distracted watching Bella fidget with her sleeve again that I didn't even notice the townie guy coming up behind her until he lifted her clear out of her seat.
I stood up, not sure what was happening until Bella said his name. Then it made sense... he was her age... a guy from her ย school? An idiot from her school.
I stepped around the table and stood next to her after he put her down. I eyed him warily, my hand coming up to sable her by her elbow. That couldn't have helped her feel any better after her spell earlier.
"You, okay?" I asked her, not bothering to fill in any blanks for the guys.
โSheโs fine!โ #Mike places one arm around my shoulder, tugging my hair and making my chin jerk up.
โI am fine! I donโt need you to answer for me Mike.โ I batted Mike away freeing myself from him and tugged my elbow away from Jacob too. Why did everyone always think it was okay to touch me? โMike here can be a jackass, at times.โ I frowned at the boy who tried to give me big puppy eyes.
โCome on Arizona, I was just playing.โ He brought his face close to mine, and I jerked away. Placing my hand flat on his chest and pushing him back. โAnyway, are you going to introduce your friend to us?โ His eyes were looking past me to the boy stood behind me.
I sighed, chewing on my lips realising what I had done to Jacob. Giving him an apologetic glance. โJacob, this is Mike, Erik, and Ben. And Guyโs this is my friend Jacob.โ I told them.
โAhโฆ I thought maybe you were babysitting.โ Mike said, then #Ben slapped him over his head.
โHey Jacob, donโt mind Mike, he is a prick at times, but he has a good heart ish.โ He reached out to shake Jakes hand before going to the counter to place an order.
โYeah, we still arenโt sure if he could live in the wild without us babysitting his ass.โ #Erik winked at Jake and again reached out his hand to shake it, before pulling #Mike away with him. โWe will leave you guys to it. Have a good evening, Bella, see you in school.โ
Rubbing my forehead, Still frowning after #Mike, I turned to face Jacob. โJake, Iโm sorry. Mike really isnโt a bad guy, just a little bit of a โฆ.โ I didnโt finish the sentence. โAndโฆโ I shifted on my feet. How did I explain it to him? How would I tell him that when someone steps up to catch me, I feel like I am drowning in my own worthlessness? Before I could, I heard my name being called to collect our order.
I cringed again, watching this #Mike guy. He was careless... rough... Was I like that? The way Bella tugged her arm away suggested that maybe I was. Was it a guy thing? Hell! Was I one of those guys? I examine the three of the... were ย these what the guys and I acted like when we were out together?
I rolled my eyes at his babysitting joke. "Nope... I learned to tuck myself in a few months before I learned that grabbing a girl from behind was kind of a dick move." That ย is what I would have said if his other friend hadn't reached out to take my hand. The impulse to snap, thankfully, passed quickly.
"Hey if he needs some survival lessons, I'd be happy to show him a few secluded camping spots." I quirked a ย brow at Mike as I spoke to the other guy with him, who laughed. I shook his hand and smiled at him.
"Jerk?" I offered with a laugh. It was the most polite word I could think of that also wasn't a lie.
I waited while she collected the ย food and I took the stack of pizzas off the countertop, pausing to thank the guy behind it again before heading out with her.
"You don't need to apologise for other people Bells." I smiled. "Guys do stupid things when they're trying to ย impress a girl. Do you feel well enough to drive, or would you like me to?" I asked, stopping next to her truck.
โSee you at school Arizona.โ #Mike called out as I walked step in step with Jacob out of the store. I wished in that moment that I was one of those girls, who were crude with the confidence to flip people off over their head without feeling any guilt. However, I wasnโt that girl.
โI will see you are work first Mike.โ We had a shift together tomorrow, and his laughter had me rolling my eyes. #Mike really was a nice guy, however at times he just knew how to push buttons that shouldnโt be touched.
โStupid things.โ Repeating the words. Didnโt I know it. โHowever, when your friends speak like that to another friend. It needs to be apologised for.โ I told him.
Patting my pockets for the keys of the beast. Frowning when I couldnโt find them.
โHmm? Sorry.โ Replaying what Jacob had asked I shook my head. โOh, Uhm. Thanks however I am think I can manage.โ My mind had been so preoccupied that Iโd forgotten that Jacob drove us here. Half smiling, I walked around to the driver side, pulling the heavy door open and climbing in. Once Jacob was inside, I turned to look at him.
โJacob. I am truly sorry about Mike. Heโฆ wellโฆ I donโt want to make excuses for him, so I wonโt. However, I will address this with him tomorrow. I promise.โ Holding my hand out for the keys.
I laughed softly when she corrected the guy... It was a petty kind of joy, but it was only for a second.
"Well, in that case, your apology is accepted." I smiled at her. It was hardly her fault, but when I thought about it; I understood the impulse. We climbed into the truck and I rummaged in my pocket for the keys and dropped them gently into her open palm.
I pressed my lips together and looked over at her... She was serious. "It's not the worst thing I've had said to me ย by a townie Bella... It's best to leave it be, the more attention you pay to these things the more you give them what they want." I started to pull on my seat belt.
"What he needs to hear about is grabbing you like that... he's lucky..." I stopped myself from saying that I didnโt punch him in the face, because I wasn't that guy. "You didn't tear him a new one for that. Are you okay? I mean I know he's your friend...ish. But still..."
The key in the ignition, I put the beast into gear and pulled out of the parking lot. Even over the roar of my truck, I could hear Jake asking me why I hadnโt dealt with #Mikeโs behaviour. โItโs not that I donโt want to. Itโs just that I needed to address his behaviour ย towards you first. And I failed trying to beโฆ wellโฆ friendsโฆ.โ
And it stung. What he said about that not being the worst thing said to him. My brows pulled into a small crease on my forehead. โI canโt pretend to know what you go through, what is said, how people act. However, If you ever want a ear. Someone who doesnโt want that to become a part of your life. Then Iโm a phone call away. And I will get into this beast and come to you.โ
The story #HarryClearwater shared with us on last Thanksgiving came to my mind, and my eyes pricked with stinging. โAndโฆ Iโll be fine Jake, #Mikeโฆโ how should I say that Mike hadnโt picked up on the tells that #Charlie and even Jake had. That I didnโt like being touched.
I changed the subject. โDo you think me house is still standing?โ I gave him a sideways glance.
I narrowed my eyes a little and thought about what she had just said. I failed trying to beโฆ well... friendsโฆ. Did she really believe that? She had said a lot of things but that one stood out to me like a neon sign.
"You can't fail at being someone's friend, Bella. You can mess up, - which you haven't by the way - you can hurt your friends and everything like that. But you can't fail at caring about someone who cares about you." I gave her my ย brightest smile. "It's not possible. Believe me. I'm wise beyond my years." I gave a small hopeful chuckle and hoped against hope that it was true. The more time I spent with her the more I wonder if I should have tried harder to see her during her dark weeks... Was I wrong? Had I failed to be her friend?
ย My heart did a weird jittery thing when she said all I had was to call and she would come. "I know Bells... and the same goes for you."
I laughed again. "Unless your ย house isnโt standing then you might need to accept the charges and speak to me on the prison phone." The guys were idiots... but they were mostly respectful of others' property. So, I wasn't too worried. "There's a good chance your fridge is empty though."
I swallowed the lump building in my throat as I drove us back towards home. I had to keep my eyes on the road because this boy was really too good for his age.
My hands tightened to the point that I could see the whites of my knuckles where my hold on the wheel had gone beyond the need when holding it. He had managed to disarm me with those thoughtful and considerate words. โSo wise Jacob Black, Iโm going to add a year or two, towards your maturity levels this time.โ
The stinging behind my eyes dissipated and I laughed a little softly. โCharlie will keep you out from becoming jailbait. I somehow cannot see him allowing you or the other to be carted off to prison. Andโฆ If he does, I have money for an okay ish lawyer to help bet the rap.โ Pointing to the cheque book I hadnโt taken back into the house after going on my little shopping trip today.
No sooner that we had pulled up, then a roaring thunder came rumbling out of my house. Both the boys were running ย towards her shouting โFOOD!โ making me smirks as the door flew open, and they had the boxes in their hands, and they were gone. ย
โHurry Jake, on I have a feeling you will go without.โ I jumped down out of the beast and followed up behind them. Giving Jake one last smiled before coming to a stop inside the door. โYou guys set the table?โ the small round dinner table in the kitchen had plates and napkins. Cans of soda and a jug of water with glasses on it. Before I could do or say anything else, the sound of #Charlies patrol car pulling up had me looking back out the open door.
โHey Bells, Jake. I didnโt know you were all getting together here.โย My father gave the two inside a nod of his head and gave me a kiss on the side of my head. โWhereโs my invite to the party?โ He clapped Jake on his shoulder smiling from ear to ear.
I noticed the tension in her hands, but I didn't say anything, I let her process her thoughts quietly. Because she was on her way back to a mad house, there would be no room to think about it there.
"I told you; age is just a ย number baby!" I teased with a low chuckle, hoping to lighten the mood and instantly regretting the Baby. But I tried my best to play it cool.
"The best kinda friends are the kind with bail money." I laughed, almost nudging her with my elbow ย but... She probably had enough of being touched after the douchebag.
"Animals!" I laughed, rolling my eyes at how they pounced on the food. When I saw how the table was set, I knew it was probably #Embry, he hid it well but anyone that paid attention knew he was a mama's boy, and #TiffanyCall was a force to be reckoned with at dinner time... But then my eyes dropped to his ankle. So maybe not. But had he been limping when he charged us for the food?
"Hey, Chief! We got plenty of food, why don't you join us?" I beamed at the hand on my shoulder, I had always looked up to #Charlie before I learned how to use a wrench, I always wanted to be a cop. But the reservation police were very different from what Charlie did. "Stop ย any bank robberies today?" I teased, crime in Forks was small stuff mostly, shoplifting, fender benders... and occasionally drugs just like the Rez; with the occasional missing tourist or idiot townie teen that left the trails in the woods. They always turned up.
'Always a hoot kid!' #Charlie tried to mess with my hair, but I dodged him.
"Oh!!! Too slow old man!!" I laughed and sat at the table, flipping open the pizza boxes. "C'mon Bella, before these two get their hands on any and every slice."
โIโm coming, just one sec.โ I told Jake. Seeing him and #Charlie this way reminded me of how my father had known this boy since he was born. All three of them really. The way they were all looking at him, smiling and joking. I could tell they at least respected him.
I went to the fridge to take out a beer for my father, however noticed that he wasnโt taking a seat on the table. Frowning I sent him a questioning look as he grabbed a slice over #Embryโs shoulder and messed with his hair.
โOh. Man. Chief!โ But #Embry was laughing as he tried to huff.ย
โDad?โ I asked and he took a can of soda, saying no to the beer.
โIโm not staying kiddo. I came to grab my heavy coat; I need to head into Port.โ He saw my frown deepening.
โAgain? You were there only a few days ago?โ I asked him, hugging myself with my arms, because this meant he would be late home.
โI know, but Mr and Mrs Biers brought in the things we needed, so Iโm going to drive them up and check in on the progress of their case. And I also wanted to remind you of your promise. No night time walks in the woods behind the houseโฆ Please Bells.โ The look he still gave me in the moment made my heart drop.
I knew I could not and would not stop #Charlie from doing his job, not when it came to missing kids. Mr and Mrs Biers had been in to report their son missing. And Riley Biers was just a few months older than me, which made it even more important for dad.
โI told you I wouldnโt go out there again, and I wonโt.โ He kissed my temple and gave me a one-armed hug. But it was light, and he barely touched me.
โThatโs my girl.โ He walked off to the closet under the stairs. โAnd you three. Same goes for you. Have the elders told you all to stay out of the woods?โ His head disappeared in and them he came out with his big rain coat. While the slice of pizza hung from his mouth.
I had heard about the Biers boy on the radio, and I had hung posters in the community centre and in the stores and schools on the Rez when he first went missing. "Can we do anything else to help Chief? I'm not sure if putting up any more flyers ย in the village will help..." The Rez wasn't exactly a tourist spot and his parent ahead already said he was a surfer and that was the only reason townies visited the Rez unless they watched the powwows or went to the markets.
'I don't ย think so kiddo... But I know who to go to if something comes up.' He winked at me.
When #Charlie mentioned the night Bella went missing. I chill ran through me. I had been terrified, kids from the Rez and Town had both disappeared into those woods and not all of them were found, the ones that were lucky to survive.
I nodded to Charlie. "Dad already made us go to the little kids' classes and talk about all of that and the Rez police came to the high school classes." I told him.
'Yeah, being best friends with the Chiefs kids is kind of a time suck... we get roped into all the civic duty stuff and we can't even use it to get into college.' #Embry griped.
'Speak for yourself, I'm putting all ย of it on my college applications.' #Quil laughed.
I stopped for a second and watched Bella as she watched her Dad. "He'll be back before you know Bells." I said, hoping not to alert the other two to how clearly worried she was.
#Charlie said his good bye, taking another side of pizza with a kiss to my head before he was out the door once again. Out of the kitchen window I kept my eyes on him until his cruiser disappeared. And them my eyes were on the woods. A flash of something came and went so fast, that I was certainly sure I had imagined it.
โI know Jake,โ I gave him a small smile before taking a seat beside him on the table. โThanks.โ Nudging him with my elbow before I rejoiced the conversation.
โMan, I thought the chief would find us out there for a moment.โ #Embry said leaning back so to look out the side door. โHow didnโt he see what we have been doing in the back?โ
โHe doesnโt take notice at home as much as he would on the job.โ I say biting into a slice. โAnd he doesnโt really look out back unless he is going to fish.โ I added.
โDo you thinkโฆโ #Quil stopped and stook his head.
โThink what Quil?โ I ask seeing that there was something.
โI donโt know.โ He rubbed the back of his neck. โI mean. Do you think your dad would write me a recommendation for college?โ My eyes widened at the request.
โQuil, I am sure he will. All you have to do is ask.โ Feeling a warmth in the thought that he would want #Charlie to write something up for him. โBut, I warn you. He may make you do some hours at the station first. He did that to a few of the guys from school who asked.โ Then I added. โWhat about you two?โ Looking to Jake and Embry. โIt maybe a good idea to ask #Charlie for a letter too. Itโs up to you how you use it.โ ย
