@life i'm failing

Digital Artist | Film Nerd | Depressed af boys

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So, here goes...

I’m going to be as honest as I can, but I don’t want to share too many details. This year has probably been one of the worst in my life. A lot of stuff has been brought up, a lot of bad things have happened and I’ve been abandoned by a lot of friends. Most recently though, I was diagnosed with Depression, Anxiety, Depersonalisation and PTSD.

I’m trying to slowly recover - however, for me, recovering means not going on Tumblr. I love Tumblr, and I’ve loved meeting people though posting my art. But right now, I find it too triggering see old friends and difficult posts. It’s too toxic for me right now.

I’m not saying that I’m leaving Tumblr! I love Tumblr! However, I’m not going to actively check it or try to keep up with it. When I do art that I’m proud of I’ll post it, but I’m not going to promise that.

Thank you to all of you that have shared, liked and followed my page. You’re all amazing and have been so encouraging to me :) I hope you continue to stick around.

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Okay so a little off theme - I made this in my media class today and honestly I’m a little too proud of myself 😂 so I thought I’d share it with all of you

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Fiverr Pixel Art

Here we go!! My personalised pixel art is now up for sale on Fiverr! Check it out :D

https://www.fiverr.com/s2/e56e2a797b

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Fiverr

As promised here is my new fiverr account where you can request personalised art from me :) This is my first gig available - however I am planning on adding a personalised pixel art one at a later date

https://www.fiverr.com/s2/a98e3b8966

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Fiverr

Lil update - going to set up a fiverr soon in which I’ll be selling personalised pixel art pieces and icons! Sorry I haven’t posted much - as you know I’ve had a lot going on so I’ve just been prioritising my own health right now :)

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Secondary blog!! Hol-ly-shit

So I finally created a secondary blog - I’ll defiantly be posting on there more regularly that here. However, it’ll probably mainly consist of reblogs, themes posts and not sure what else. This blog will remain the place where I post all of my art, updates and things like that :)

SOOOoooooo if you’d like to hear more from me I’d suggest following it <333

@hol-ly-shit

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Update

Hiya - just thought I’d make you all aware I probably won’t be as active for the next 2ish weeks. I have a whole lot of exams next week that I’ll be prioritising, and I’m shooting a short film the week after plus stating my new job. But then I’ve got some time off so I’m hoping to produce some more art 😊 Who knows, might even get around to opening my etsy shop?? What’d you think?

- Your friendly neighbourhood Holly -

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Drew some fairy lights just for practise :) I’ve videoed it too so I’ll upload a speed painting tomorrow of it - but at the moment my internet is being wayyyyyy too slow.

Sorry that my posts are so irregular at the moment. Life is probably the hardest it’s ever been right now. I collapsed at my boyfriends house the other day just from stress, been in and out the doctors like mad, high-key miss my best friend, I have two exams next week as well as all my course work deadlines due at the same time. And on the side I’ve got a lot going on in personal private life which is very difficult to cope with. It’s all a bit much with no-body to turn too.

Sorry for the ranty post, but hopefully some context will help explain my lack of posting :)

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Made another little simple gif. Sorry that I keep posting odd things, I’ve been really struggling being on my own lately :/ But hey! Have a rocket my friends :D

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My first hand at gifs :) felt a little better after doodling today so thought I’d go back to some pixel art. Might create some jpeg pallets later for different colours, who knows?

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Another eye doodle for you - more of a sketch than something made to look realistic. Little bit of a tear in the corner too

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Time and hearts will wear us thin So which path will you take Because we both know a break Does exactly what it says on the tin

What the hell would I be without you Brave face talk so lightly Hide the truth

I’m sick of losing soul mates Won’t be alone again I can finally see You’re as fucked up as me So how do we win

- dodie -

Reading these lyrics makes me cry a lot at the moment. Going through the worst time in my life right now, so it’s difficult feeling so incredibly alone through it all. I love my friends and family, it’s just a difficult time <3 hope a doodle will do x

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THANK YOU SO MUCH!! I only just realised that this pixel art got over 1000 notes! It's been such an encouragement seeing how much positive feedback this piece got. Before 8pxl reblogged it it had maybe 5-6 notes and I remember being so please with even just those. But 1000!!!! That's so many!!!! Thank you so much for continuing to encourage and support me - you're all amazing :)

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Was feeling really depressed today, so I drew this to try distract myself. It’s only supposed to be a bit sketchy (might go back and improve the background another day) so nothing professional. Not sure why I chose to draw proposing squirrels, I promise I’m not a furry!!

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Update: Please don't unfollow me :)

Hey, So without going into detail I’m taking a break from tumblr. Not for good, but the long and short of it is I’ve probably had the worst 4 months of my entire life so I don’t think I can keep up to a promise of regular original posts. When I do art I’ll post it :) but it may have a couple weeks gap in between - I’m still here, just dealing with a lot and I'm prioritising that right now

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Ignoring the fact it’s water marked, this is the image I used for reference for my eye drawing :) I didn’t try to copy it exactly, idk was just interested in drawing a cool eye yesterday

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Update!

Would just like to again say thank you so much to everybody’s support and kind words about my art recently - it’s really encouraged me seeing how much a lot of you liked it, and how some even found it inspiring. It’s the first time I’ve gotten such positive feedback about it so just thank you!! I will continue to regularly post art, it may not always be pixel but my original art (whatever it’ll be) will regularly being posted. I love pixel art, it just takes a lot longer to make than normal drawings - I also find it difficult to decide between making large pieces for you guys to enjoy (which take longer to make) or small pieces (like icons and backgrounds) which are a lot quicker to make. So let me know which you’d prefer :D Please stick around and continue to share with friends - I genuinely read every single comment and tag from each re-blog as I love getting your feedback and reactions Again, thank you so so much and I look forward to continuing to interact with you guys in this little community

– Love from your friendly neighbourhood Holly –