With IV drugs comes a certain kind of lifestyle. You either subscribe or you don’t, and unfortunately, once you subscribe it’s extremely difficult to unsubscribe. I always told my friends curious about shooting up for the first time that, if you do it once, you’ll always remember how great it felt. No matter how much self-discipline you have or how well you guard that ‘fence,’ there will always be leakages because you’ve already substantiated a positive precedent regarding that action within your memory bank. What I ended up seeing is people turn from friends to fiends within months, no longer even recognizable to who they used to be. They would even sometimes turn ‘demonic,’ to some degree, as if they were possessed, in that, they would have this nefarious intelligence - in which they usually would not possess as they weren’t that ‘gifted’ to begin with - to manipulate you and trigger you in certain ways in which they could and would never have been able to do before having been hooked on shooting up their particular brand of drug. It would literally feel like I’m speaking to a demonic entity - not them. I would even look in their eyes and not recognize their faces speaking back to me. One of my ex-girlfriends would terrify me with her sudden ‘Machiavellian expertise’ and dead cold heart in what she was willing to say and what she would end up actually doing to people to get her way. What I’m saying is, even if you’re in a low place, and you feel like IV drugs are the only way to balance out all the pain you feel, you are only setting yourself up for greater hurt in the end by engaging that. Please rethink whether or not it’s truly worth the experience of toying around with being a first time shooter before you find yourself helplessly hooked - essentially a bitch to a drug - for longer than you’d care to fathom. Shooting up isnt ‘hardcore’ - like some people try to play it up as - it’s willingly becoming something else’s bitch.
Syncretic Tendencies
