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Apparently this is what my future husband will look like when he's 70.

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Veluz Reyes

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Blessed

I don't know how I ever got so lucky. I'm dating a guy who is the most level headed calm person I know. The other day he was put in a situation that was truly upsetting and he texted me that he's "more than pissed". For him to even be mad takes a lot. By the time I got home from work he had already calmed himself down and realized the problem wasn't worth the negative energy. He showed me the text he had sent this person, I was more than impressed. Not only did he not show his anger, but he remained the better person. It takes a lot to do that, especially in the heat of an argument. I couldn't imagine a better person to spend my life with <3

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People scare me... also this reminds me of a woman I used to work with.

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I guess I should add that I learned a lot about my other relationships and my support groups. My friends had my back the whole time and sent me lots of love, they even helped me get my confidence back. My parents sent me flowers and kept up with me to make sure I was okay. That period in my life was the darkest in my life, not just from the break up but with school and other things happening in my life. With out the love and support of those around me, I wouldn't have made it through. Looking back, I'm glad I did.

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"I just got a flash back to my worst break up... My ex, came to visit me at my dorm (I went to a private college in Milwaukee for a year). Something seemed off but we still spent the weekend together. He hesitated whenever I said "I love you" and he was distant. Before he left on Sunday I made him tell me what was going on and that's when he told me he wanted it to end. It was so out of the blue (a few weeks before we were planning our lives together and everything was fine). I think the hardest moment was wanting him to comfort me and give me hugs but he just wanted to leave. He later told me he broke up with me because of my personality, and even later he admitted he just said that to make it easier for him, truthfully he liked my friend and didn't want to admit it at the time. This break up screwed with me for at least a year or two. I forgot how to trust.  Fast forward to present day: He never ended up with my friend and he's still on the dating scene. I realized that he wasn't the right guy for me, I had a few short term relationships, found my trust and confidence and now I'm dating my best friend. We've been together for almost 4 years now and we're completely honest and ourselves when we're together.  I guess if I where to find a reason for writing this, other than to have it out of my head and in writing, is break ups suck, and there's going to be short term repercussions, but things turn around and they do get better. You also learn a lot about yourself along the way"

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I just want to feel valued.

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I Scream

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if only it was chocolate..

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Why is this a thing?

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Opposite Day

Normally when I write on here I'm bitching or ranting because next to nobody reads this, and I'm good with that, but today is the opposite! I'm the happiest I've been all week, maybe two weeks? To start off I finally get to wear something that's not a work supplied outfit. I went shopping the other night so I'm wearing one of my new dresses paired with some new earrings that I'm in love with. Next, Steve's coming home for lunch today, so I can actually see him. SIDEBAR: He works 8am-5pm M-F and I've been working 11am-11pm the last few days and it seemed when I finally saw him we were both tired and cranky and ended up arguing END SIDEBAR. Finally, my bestest friend in the entire world is coming to visit! We see each other as much as possible, but it never seems like enough. It's cool though when we do see each other because we always seem to have super cute plans. Last time we cooked food together than had a picnic in a park by a river and had a photo shoot. Today we're going to a healthy restaurant called the Urban Frog, going to a zoo and ending our day downtown Green Bay to go to Taste on Broadway (which is really cool sounding, look it up). Anyways, I'm just happy that today is going to be such a good day.