🫧☁️ Bella ☁️🫧

she/her | 29 | Queer femme activist, artist and indie author of ‘Brown Clay’ and ‘Black Girl and the Ghosts Wilting Her Blooms’ | 21+ only! I block ageless blogs. DNI: minors, cishet men, terfs/radfems, & racists

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Me & my art ✨👁

I’m Bella & I’m a Black queer artist. I’m a self published poet and my book Brown Clay is a bestseller. My goal is for my art & book to make an impact on my Black & LGBTQ+ communities! My goal has always been to make art centered on self love and liberation and for people to read my words and feel inspired, empowered, and whole.

Poetry book -ebook for $10.99

Prints - 8x10 for $20

Poetry book - paperback for $16.99

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The main reason why I refuse to settle:

When I was little, it was a tradition for my grandparents to take me to the Oregon fair. Like it was the biggest thing I looked forward to doing every summer. We usually went the first or second weekend. Well one year, my grandfather had a golf tournament scheduled for the same weekend he promised to take me. My mom and grandmother told him that he could easily take me the next weekend since the tournament was out of town.

They were assuring him over and over that there’s no way he’s going to make it back in time for the fair and plus, that would put such a strain on him (because yeah it would be a lot on anyone to make a long drive there and back, golfing for hours, then walking around at the fair + going on rides for hours, etc). These should easily be done on different days. But my grandfather said “I’m not worried about it, I never make it far in tournaments anyway so I’ll probably be out pretty early”

Fast forward and my grandfather is at the tournament. For the first time, he actually makes it pretty fair because he had the most points (I don’t know how golf works so I’m probably not explaining it well but this story was told to me by my mother who also doesn’t know golf lol) but essentially, he was basically doing really well. His friends were cheering him on to keep going. However he said “Alright guys, I’m heading home! I’m taking my granddaughter to the fair!” His friends were confused:

“Mike what the hell are you talking about? You do realize you could win right?” And he said “I don’t care. I made a promise to my granddaughter that I was taking her to the fair today & I’m keeping that promise. There will be other tournaments!” And with that, he dropped out, made the long drive back, picked me up, and took me to the fair. My 6 year old brain didn’t know what he had done, making that sacrifice. I only knew a loving grandfather who wanted to make me happy & spend time with me.

And of course we had the best time. He helped me win a golden cat plushie with wings. We ate hot dogs. We road rides. And it’s a core memory for me. I still have it sitting on my shelf, untouched by time and preserved like I got it yesterday.

So you see, there is no way in hell I’m ever going to settle for less. I don’t know what kind of love this is, but I do know I want it to find me again. He passed away last year and he left behind some very big shoes to fill.

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Are there Love Island fans on tumblr? Because if there are, this might be of interest to y’all:

If you’re a Love Island fan and also happen to be a lesbian, bi, gay, trans, queer, etc… Who would be down to have their own Love Island villa experience but with a bunch of sexy single LGBTQ+ folks looking for love? hi I made it happen! It’s a space that I’ve been hosting for 7 years!

It’s a chat/space where we couple up just like the show, play games, FaceTime, and people can meet up for dates if applicable, and it’s for 24 - 35!

We are accepting applications (seriously, fill out an application) for new bombshells to enter our villa… could it be you? 👀

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Happy Pride Month Tumblr ✨

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My occasional submission for proof of life that I am very much alive but damn, I’m still going through it dawg

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me when the only recourse i have is to live

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"to you i am obscene but to myself i simply am"

the new frankenstein movie peeled my skin back, looked at all my gory, horrible inadequacies and said "i understand you" and now i need to go curl up and die. everyone go watch it right now.

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Love these two 💕

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I saw This post on Insta and ugly-snorted, so

Yeah. That’s actually precisely what it’s about.

[elinexee]

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Photoshoot inspired by my poetry book Black Girl and the Ghosts Wilting Her Blooms

Photos by lavena_takes_pics on IG

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‘Black Girl and the Ghosts Wilting Her Blooms’ inspired portraits! Shoutout to the incredible @/lavena_takes_pics for capturing the essence of my book and my vision all in one go. This photoshoot tells the story of my poetry book ‘Black Girl and the Ghosts Wilting Her Blooms’ and my journey of transformation. Additionally, the beauty, the grief, and the ghosts that haunt us 🦋

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‘Black Girl and the Ghosts Wilting Her Blooms’ inspired portraits!

If you’d like to read a poetry collection that addresses themes on grief, trauma, healing, identity, and the ghosts of the past that haunt our lives, you can find it online at Barnes & Noble 🦋

These images represent my section called “Roots” where I use botanical imagery to represent upbringing, childhood and the sense of self.

Photography: lavena_takes_pics on IG

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It’s easier to care about nothing than to care and continue to get hurt over and over and over again. I’m done clawing for the things I want and failing every time. If I care about nothing, there’s nothing that can hurt me anymore.

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I am online and going to crash out on main and you all will have to deal with me:

WHY DOES EVERYONE HAVE A HOT BUTCH GIRLFRIEND, WHERE’S MINE???? IM SO SICK OF GETTING MY HOPES UP AND THEN ITS LIKE OH JK AND IM LEFT HERE FEELIN FUCKIN DUMB !!! LIKE OMG WHY IS IT SO HARD TO FIND SOMEONE WHO JUST LIKE WANTS ME ??? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME, FUUUUCK DUDEEE OMFGGGG

I AM. SO SICK OF LIFE!!!! IM EXHAUSTED!!! IM TIRED OF THIS SHIT!!! IM TIRED OF THE WORLD BURNING!!!! IM TIRED OF MY LIFE BEING SO FUCKING CHAOTIC AND FALLEN APART!!! I FEEL LIKE SUCH A LOSER WITH NO GIRLFRIEND, DONT HAVE MY OWN PLACE, DONT FUCKIN DRIVE, IM SO OUT OF SHAPE, IM SEVERELY DEPRESSED, MY GRANDMAS NOT DOING WELL, EVERYTHING IS TURNING UPSIDE DOWN AT WORK, IM COMPLETELY FUCKED AND I CANT DO ANYTHINGGGG ABOUT ANY OF ITTTT

My love life is a shitshow, my job is a shitshow, my family is a shitshow, oh BUT AT LEAST I HAVE POKEMON CARDS I GUESS!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!

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‘Black Girl and the Ghosts Wilting Her Blooms’ inspired portraits!

If you’d like to read a poetry collection that addresses themes on grief, trauma, healing, identity, and the ghosts of the past that haunt our lives, you can find it online at Barnes & Noble 🦋

These images represent my section called “Roots” where I use botanical imagery to represent upbringing, childhood and the sense of self.

Photography: lavena_takes_pics on IG

[anarchy-kisses]

‘Black Girl and the Ghosts Wilting Her Blooms’ inspired portraits! Shoutout to the incredible @/lavena_takes_pics for capturing the essence of my book and my vision all in one go. This photoshoot tells the story of my poetry book ‘Black Girl and the Ghosts Wilting Her Blooms’ and my journey of transformation. Additionally, the beauty, the grief, and the ghosts that haunt us 🦋