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Mother’s Arms

By: An Author

My first betrayal will always be my mother at heart, but I still remember her smooth comforting arms. The ones I ran to when in pain, the ones who loved me more than anything. I’d do anything to go back into my mother’s arms, back to the day she truly loved me. I wonder if she knows how sad her baby is, if she knows the amount of melancholy I feel. Would she comfort me like how she used to or would she tell me to suck it up and no one is coming to save me but myself. I guess it all boils down to do I want temporary comfort or a permanent truth.

I’m Sorry That You Regret That Night

By: An Author

If I was a better person do you think you wouldn’t have regretted that night we had sex? Or would it all mean nothing to you, again. I’m not the most perfect person on the earth, I’m not quite sure what you wanted from me. My happiness? My soul? Me? That night minutes after we finished having sex you told me you regretted it, you definitely took all of those things from me. I lost myself for you, trying to keep you. Just for you to say you regretted it.

I Miss You, Every Time I Close My Eyes

By: An Author

There was a time when after we broke up I was sick to my stomach and couldn’t even survive for myself. I thought about you every day, my thoughts were overwhelming, overpowering me. I couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep, couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t even live. I thought I was going to die. Hell, it already felt like I died, like I was going through hell. I couldn’t even focus. I was so exhausted, angry, in pain, and full of rage. How could you do that to me. Why did I have to suffer. I was suffering, while you were thriving. Every time I closed my eyes, you popped up. Every time I walked, breathed, laughed, smiled, or even looked. You. We’re. There. Your presence haunts me, as mine haunts you in your worst times. I hope you always feel the guilt you bestowed upon yourself.

(Hey, I’m sorry I’ve been gone for so long. I’ve been going through so much, believe it or not. I’m going to try and stay for good.

Should I try to write smut?

If I wrote a book would you read it?)

Jeff Buckley

By: An Author

The yearner himself. Jeff Buckley. I don’t think I’d be who I am today without Jeff, his music really opened up something different for me. I’m a yearner, I yearn so hard my heart aches from pain, agony, suffering, sadness, and love. Yearning isn’t always a good thing, it can hurt. Deeply. It can also open up new ways to love someone. When I was yearning for someone who was giving up on me while we were in a relationship, Jeff’s music healed me. It understood me. It understood how I felt. Thank you Jeff Buckley.

Yearning Sex

By: An Author

I need you physically and mentally, possibly even emotionally. I can’t describe how much I need you. I’ve been waiting for so long, now I have you. I need to taste you, eat you as if it’s my last meal. I softly pull your panties down, looking at your pretty pussy in awe. She’s so pretty; I can’t help myself, I start touching her. I listen to the noises she makes, telling me how much she enjoys my touch. I appreciate every lewd noise coming from you. I bend down to taste you, to eat my meal. Your hands make their way to my hair. I start digging in, as if your pussy is my favorite meal. By the way it taste, it might as well be. I never tasted anything better. She’s so wet for me, making wet noises as I please this pretty pussy. I listen to your moans fill the room, I’ve waited so long for this moment. All this built up pressure is going to be released on you. You cum in my mouth, squirting like a faucet. I drink every damn drop, not spilling a bit. I passionately kiss you, whispering in your ear, taste your pretty pussy, baby…

9-5

By: An Author

It’s been a long day, I’m fully exhausted. I turn the knock on the door. I wait till I hear your beautiful voice, your soft look of love. You gently open the door and look at me with respect and affection. I walk into the house embracing you, you kiss me. That rough, gentle, passionate, and loving kiss was enough to sweep me off my feet. We slightly pull away, look each other in the eyes, our faces inches from each other. We smile, our lips still pressed together. You say “dinners ready, baby”. I thank you but tell you the only thing I want to eat is you. You giggle and open wide, ready for me to eat what I’m hungry for.

Friends?

By: An Author

I think we’re friends but I’m not too sure. I’m tend to question our friendship more when you look at me with those eyes and flirt with me. You ask me to touch you, I get flustered because I think you’re serious, I know you’re joking though. At least I thought so, you told me you weren’t. We’re friends. Will this ruin us? This feels so wrong, but I don’t want to be right. I want to be wrong for once. I’ve always been good, what if I want to redefine us. Promise me what we’re about to change will be worth it. I can’t hold back anymore, I physically need you.

Tension

By: An Author

You know I’m celibate, yet you still look at me with those sexy dark brown eyes. I told you how much I love women. I’m not submissive or anything, but if a woman told me to beg… well I’d oblige. You’re so sexy, I can’t focus. I imagine you naked, me touching on you, giving you everything you never had. Giving you something you never knew you needed. I often catch myself reminiscing about something I never had. You. I know I can’t have you, you know it’s wrong. We just can’t seem to leave each other alone. I love it.

Terrified of It

By: An Author

Love. I thought it was supposed to be easy, something in human nature. Something you should never run from, but here I am; terrified of it. I moved on from you, I have a new girlfriend. She’s amazing, beautiful, kind, and sweet. She said she loves me I text my best friend immediately, I say I think I love her too but I’m not sure because I’m terrified. It feels as if I tell you I love you and give my heart to you, you’ll take it, break it and fly the shattered pieces to the floor with gorilla glue so I can’t put it back together. Ahhh but who am I kidding? I can’t help but to love. I blame my mom, she’s the reason I love so hard. She’s also the reason I feel so hurt when I get hurt. I tell you I love you back, my heart beating out of my chest…

Aching Heart

By: An Author

My Heart has been broken more times than I can even count, it aches. I still give my heart out, even if it’s pieces left. Somehow, someone manages to break that tiny piece into smaller pieces. Please stop, my heart aches. My heart can’t handle love the way it used to, but it also can’t handle anger, pain, resentment, disappointment, or failure. What can my heart handle? How much more aching pain does my heart have to go through until it’s finally through? Like a burnt out candle..

The Games You Played

By: An Author

The game you played wasn’t a video game or a board game. It was as fake as it was real. A single look in your eyes and I could see through your little lies. Don’t cry, you did this to yourself. I wanna hurt you like you hurt me. Not physically, but mentally. I was crying, dying inside. I still loved you, well, the old you at least. Although, that person died a long time ago. “Us”. I used to love that word, mostly because it represented me and you. However, there is no us anymore. I’m still wondering if there was ever an “us”? You don’t make any sense, how can a person do something as cruel as what you did to me? You had me thinking I was actually special to you, guess not huh? God always has a plan, we’re just not in it together.

Ride Me Until You Can’t

By: An Author

I’ve been dreaming about you lately. I’ve been dreaming about us, I can’t stop dreaming about you in a sexy ass nightgown. You’re curves showing in all the right places, you’re face just beautiful as the moon. I want you climb on me slowly, ride me. Hold onto me when your knees buckle. I’ll make sure you’re stable, baby. Look at me when you cum, I wanna see that pretty face. Speed up for me, my love. I wanna hear your pretty moans. Now slow down for me, I want to make love to you. I want this to be pure, I want our love to be pure.

Competition? Tuh

By: An Author

I’m not competing with your ex for your love. If I’m yours, I should have your time, your love, your loyalty, your trust, your care, your kindness, your appreciation, your attention, your support, and most importantly, I should have your effort. I had none of that. Well, let me rephrase that. I had that, but not from you. You gave me a tad bit of some of those and some you just gave up on. Just how you gave up on me. It’s crazy because I know you’d fight for your ex, you ruined our relationship to get closure from them. I knew I was starting to compete with your ex, I can no longer compete and fight for your love. If you want to be with someone who hurt you and treated you like dog shit on the street, go ahead.

Lack of Intimacy

By: An Author

I should’ve knew you lacked intimacy the moment you told me sex was more intimate than cuddling. I would’ve maybe considered your thought if you said making love, but no. You said sex. How could sex ever be more intimate than cuddling? So, you’re telling me you rather be moaning and sweating in an aroma of lust rather than someone holding you telling you how much they love and care for you. An aroma of love? You don’t desire that? You’d rather someone suck your clit while you’re sad? You don’t want someone to hold you while you cry in their arms; someone that’s cries for you because of how much they love you. They love you so much their heart aches? You lack intimacy, love will ALWAYS be more intimate than lust.

mkweber

Ten Things About Me

My greatest fear is bugs. Straight up if I see an insect inside my house, I want to move.

Lemon Lime, green apple, and blue raspberry. No explanation needed. 🤤

I have a huge scar on my foot from a cat food tin

I am super short. Think 5’1-ish

I always carry a book

Pink is my favorite color

I wanted to be a Neonatologist but college was too expensive so I started working ASAP

I love art. All art. From the masters of the Renaissance to modern art. All of it has meaning and human passion that I find beautiful.

I love shoes that make me taller 🥸

I’ve written and rewritten my novel more times than I can count 🤣

If you’ve been tagged it’s your turn, make your list and tag 10 @‘s.

@eleanorjane0690 @doctorkepner @districtunrest @charlunday @charcoalseraphim @groceryreceipts @ashesinverses @stardust948 @mandrake-mistakes @xoheartsaurore @notsocooljess @dandelionsunset1210 @distractionsfromthefood

ashesinverses

Thanks for tagging me @mkweber

I had to think about it for a long time.

1. I'm actually from Germany and I usually write in German. But I mostly write poems in English. I can often express myself better that way.

2. My favorite colors are blue and black (I know a lot of people say black isn't a color, but I don't care).

3. My favorite artists includes NF, Billie Eilish, The neighborhood , The Fray, Cleffy, Noah Henderson, SYML, and Amber Run (I had a hard time choosing).

4. I learned to read at an early age (I was 4), and I've loved it ever since. I read all kinds of things. I can't decide on a genre.

5. I have a bit of a true crime obsession. Another obsession of mine is medicine, especially oncology.

6. I've been writing stories, essays, and texts since I was 5, but I only started writing poetry when I was 13.

7. I hate a lot of things that most people love, for example: pizza, swimming, sun, and spicy food.

8. My favorite authors are Charlotte Brontë, Jane Austen, Joy Fielding, John Green, and Mona Kasten.

9. I'm a vegetarian (boring, I know, but I'm running out of other facts).

10. I have 283 books in my room. I think you can tell I'm out of ideas.

You don’t have to 🫶🏻

@picklemafia @sylviamione9 @nyx-tenberis @myhiddenquerencia @mygodwomen @rain-rainynights @holeinthehedgerow @alex-a-roman @versesbyaaliyah @kara-ltc

picklemafia

Thank you for tagging me! @ashesinverses

hoo boy, here we go lol

10 Things About Me

I love the outdoors. Being out in nature is very cathartic to me, but due to a somewhat erratic schedule, I don't often get to lol

I've been writing for a long time, but have never actually posted anything but poems and have never finished a full length novel, but have started them a few times. The attempt that I'm on now is the furthest I've ever gotten.

I love to paint! Anything really. Most of my painting these days is actually e-painting though. I unfortunately haven't touched a canvas in years. But I do touch brushes! I also paint miniatures for D&D, and also for WH40k, but haven't ever been an avid player of 40k.

Among my writing, I also love comedy writing! In fact, certain ideas I've learned from both comedy writing and novel writing even show up in my poetry! As an example, repetition and call-backs!

I have far too many musical instruments, and I honestly want more lol. I have 3 electronic drumkits. (I had an acoustic kit at one time, but it's gone lol) I have 2 acoustic basses. 4 electric basses. 5 acoustic guitars. 7 electric guitars, and 3 keyboards. (I miss my upright piano) I've played for years and collected them all over time. I've set up a small recording thinga-majiggy (definitely can't call it a studio lol). I obviously play multiple instruments, but very much want to learn violin, cello, and saxophone lol.

Along the lines of the music thing, I've always wanted to open up a place that was sort of like a YMCA in a way, but for music. It would be charity based, and if kids can't afford to buy an instrument and learn it, any one really, then they could come in, pick one of hundreds of instruments to play, sit down and plug it in. Music has obviously always been a huge part of my life and has a tendency to influence me in different ways.

I absolutely love food, in some ways definitely call myself a foodie, but I'm also kind of picky! I'll eat a ton of different things, but for example, I absolutely hate the texture of onions, but love the flavor.

Along the food lines, I love to cook! My dad actually went to college to be a chef (ended up going a different route after college), and taught me a ton about cooking in general. I have some pretty tasty recipes, and have gotten a ton of awesome compliments, holla lmao

I was very wild in my early 20's! I liked to go fast and do some crazy things sometimes lol. There were many intense moments that make me realize I'm very lucky to be here. in fact, I've had a life that could probably make a very interesting Netflix movie, but one day had a very abrupt change in circumstances and it's been boring ever since lol (I was actually running out of things I wanted to say with this one, let's see how the next one goes haha)

I used to ride horses when I was a teenager! (could have gone better lol) My uncle used to have a ton of land and raised horses for a while. It was a ton of fun lol

Well that was fun to do lol. I guess I'll get to the tag part now. No pressure at all, but if you don't do it you might stub your toe? idk, but I wouldn't want to risk it lol

@moonknightmaiden, @behindstonewalls, @lucilleambrose, @versesbyaaliyah, @ghostingmyghosts, @noxnightingales, @peepeepoopoo3d, @nyx-tenberis, @nyx-poetry, @amaramyaccount, @stfuandreaa, @goneahead, @cassiopeia-rising, @faemaril, @butwhyareyoureyessosad, @thesilly-goose, @wrentalks, @aubriestar, @genieinthebotttle, @myharshwordspoetry, and everyone else who wants to join!

nyx-tenberis

^^ Thanks for the tags @ashesinverses and @picklemafia ✨

Alright so 10 things! I'll try to not bore you guys ..

1) I'm mentally chaotic- like really ..people who talk to me long enough prefer considering me as non-human crazy creature

(I'm secretly an aline 👽)

2) On the other hand I can also be really calm like ocean calm.. Yk reading with my coffee soft music in the background type~

3) I used to play piano but thanks to my legendary time management skill i stopped after a few months.. I wish to start playing again..

4) I love eating and cooking^^ .. but not a pro type like it tastes really good but I make the kitchen a mess 😅

5) I also enjoy watching anime! Some of my fav picks are AOT, onepiece, tokyo ghoul and death note..

6) I haven't read many novels but my favourite work of fiction is ORV "omniscient reader's viewpoint"

7) I hate small insects! especially lizards and cockroaches >< ..

8) My memory is worse than one of a goldfish. 😑

9) English is my second language ..

10) what else? I'm a girl.. this also counts, right?

Now i would like to tag~

@lucilleambrose , @wrentalks , @knight-qoheleth , @faemaril , @amaramyaccount , @ruinknight , @stfuandreaa ^~^ ..

knight-qoheleth

As always delightful tag by @nyx-tenberis

I’m a Caffeinated Smoker Vampire MD

1. 🧛‍♂️ I’m an atheist vampire. I only bite people who are boring or overly religious. I’ve officially lost tolerance for all religions and most ideologies.

2. 🪦 I want to write like a Russian ghost with a God complex. Think Dostoevsky with WiFi, cigarettes, and a caffeine addiction.

3. ☕ Coffee isn’t just a drink to me. It’s a blood type. Mine is called Americano Negative.

4. 🎭 Everyone has a little madness inside. I just know exactly where mine lives and how often it throws parties.

5. 🥼🚬 I’m a doctor. I smoke. And sometimes I am a theoretical physicist just for fun. DSM-5 is my Bible.

6. 🤫 I collect silences like rare coins. Some are soft, some are heavy, some scream. I hate loud people. Actually, I might hate all people.

7. 🕳️ I’m not afraid of the abyss. We’re close. She calls me Doc. I call her Tuesday.

8. 😏 My sense of humor is 40% clever, 20% dark, and 20% “should I be concerned?” The rest is none of your business.

9. 📖 I don’t believe in redemption arcs. I believe in unreliable narrators, broken timelines, and stories that don’t follow the rules.

10. 🗡️ I write because if I don’t, the knight in my head sharpens his sword and ends up stabbing me from the inside so yeah I bleed on paper now and then.

Now over to @aankhon-ki-gustakhiyan @sheet102 @hiddencastle3 @faemaril @venefiquee @fallencalliope @pomegranatedecay @brontesinferno @inked-soull @alienbloodheart @foofendale @wrentalks @kaneshaandrews @monet-poetry @poeticmines @poeticstories @poeticsungirl @thetypewriterdaily @the-silent-troubadour @poeticconfusio-26 @metamorphesque @memoirofadarkqueen-2 @theforgottenplaguedoctor @dreamyy-wisterias @drumgirl73 @echo-temporis @lores-things @solacedreamss @christhenerd3 @cleftones @dbaydenny @dethprincess

faemaril-deactivated20260517

Thanks for the tag

@knight-qoheleth @aankhon-ki-gustakhiyan @nyx-tenberis @picklemafia

🫶

As that one meme goes, "Ah **** here we go again"

1. Certified daydreamer, who forgot where they hid the paper but that's okay I can imagine it. 👀

2. I am an extrovert. If we make eye contact there is a 90% chance that we are best friends now (sorry I don't make the rules, it just came with my character creation card).

3. Cat whisperer, my cat said so and I stand by it.

4. I have a lot of hyperfixations, probably the reason as to why I wander a lot, but good ol' Tolkien once wrote "Not all those who wander are lost" :P

5. I am getting tired just by typing all this, I need a break

6. Sleep is my best friend, but we don't talk frequently.

7. @knight-qoheleth stole my heart so I will steal his soul 👀

8. It is hard for me to choose one favorite poet ok? Like wdym I must choose between @lucilleambrose and Shakespeare? Those are practically the same! Just look at their poetry man, pure genius 💕 (Much love to my friend Lucille be sure to give this girl a follow and a lot of reblogs, she deserves it 🫶)

9. Wuhu one more to go and I am happy about it.

10. I love geckos 👀

I tag these lovely people

@lucilleambrose @ruinknight @wrentalks @liyaklynn and whoever wants to participate. My apologies if you've been tagged before. Have a nice day/night 💕

lucilleambrose

Awh Fae you absolute sweetheart thank you for tagging and also, you'd beat shakespeare any day with your poetry 💕❤️ and a big thanks to @nyx-tenberis and @picklemafia as well for the same ❤️ all of your answers were so good!! So here goes nothing.

1. Well, let's start with the basics, I'm a literature and a history major that's pretty self explanatory as to how it shows up and even assists in my writing.

2. I love psychology, i study it individually just because it helps me understand those around me.

3. I write because it is an outlet for me to spill my thoughts onto and not let them just pile up in my head and suffocate me. I mean hey atleast it gives some good content for Tumblr lol

4. I'm a big reader BUT I do not like the classics, mainly because I'm forced to read them for my major so it sucks the joy out of it.

5. My favourite book series is " a good girls guide to murder" by holly jackson. Would definitely recommend it to anyone looking for a new read!!

6. I initially started out in Tumblr not really expecting that anyone would like my content let alone consider the possibility of me finding such sweet friends on here. @faemaril @nyx-tenberis @sarnai4 @wrentalks @casiavae @anauthor01 @picklemafia @solunastuff @red1culous @pyramidofchangingdestinies @sarahivyskye ❤️ these guys are just absolute sweethearts who are the reason behind why I'm able to put my work out there at all :) give them a follow! Their work is absolutely extraordinarily amazing ❤️

7. In real life I am an absolute introvert but I'm forced to socialize as I head a lot of events in my university. So really against my will do I come off as an extravert/extrovert.

8. I love Tim Burton's work 🧡🎃

9. If I could choose a particular aesthetic to describe myself id say dark academia would be a good fit :)

10. For the last one, here's a pretty random one, my favourite colour is turquoise and blood red. Oddly specific but yes xD

Thank youu and also I'll tag everyone who I mentioned above for this and anyone else who sees this post ❤️

anauthor01

Thank you @lucilleambrose for giving me a tag! I really do appreciate it<333

Here are 10 facts about me!!!:

1. I’m a deep yearned. People who yearn, earn!

2. My favorite color is orange🧡🧡

3. My top 10 artist are: J. Cole, Jeff Buckley, The Weeknd, Drake, Partynextdoor, Faye Webster, Frank Ocean, Pierce the Veil, Radiohead, & Adele.

4. I’m hyper sexual🥲

5. I’m deeply introverted.

6. My fav genre in movies is horror.

7. I’m coming out with a book soon.

8. Music is my whole entire life, I wish to be a producer.

9. Writing is also my life as I wish bro also be an author.

10. I’m a dog lover!! I have 2 dogs<3

Stop Expecting, Start Accepting

By: An Author

If you’re someone who gives the people you love chances after chances, expecting them to change and they don’t, this is for you. I see you.

I once expected change from someone I loved more than myself. They gave me all these excuses, she sold me lies as if they were newspapers. I knew they were lies and excuses, but I bought every single one of them as if I was an old person in the morning. I expected them to care about me and about us. Their priorities as well. I expected them to love me as much as I loved them, I expected them to yearn for me. I expected so much of this one particular person, I wanted them to be for me. The perfect soulmate. I gave them everything they ever wanted, they just didn’t want it from me. That’s something I had to accept. I had to accept they loved me but not more than the one before me. I had to accept I wasn’t a priority of theirs, I had to accept that they weren’t going to change unless I left. I had to accept all these things that I never wanted to. Stop expecting, start accepting.

Fold Clothes

By: An Author

I want someone to love and care for. Someone who gives as much as I do, someone who’ll kiss me when I’m sick. Someone who’d hug me even when their body is in deep pain. Heaven knows I’d do the same thing for the right person. I want someone who’ll get up early in the morning just to make me breakfast with our kids. If they were exhausted, I’d cook for them. I’d wash the clothes and fold them. I’d separate the red, white, dark, and black clothes. I’ll wash the sheets and put them back on the bed. I’d help them wash their body, moisturize them. I’ll put the kids to sleep. I’ll give you my everything as long as I receive your everything. Our everything can be put into the greatness of our kids. I wanna admire you while eating cereal with almond milk (silk to be exact). I wanna fold your clothes, I wanna fold OUR clothes.

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