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I just have so much hatred for humanity, myself and the concept of life in general and exhausting doesn’t even begin to describe how this feels. All i want is to sit in a dark hole and slowly lose consciousness but i have to leave the house and talk to people and be looked at and judged and pretend i actually care about anything when all I want is to cease existing. And why do i feel inferior and scared even in my dreams? And why am i willing to kill myself to make others feel safe and happy when they couldn’t give less of a fuck when i’m not feeling well. And why is it considered selfish to just fucking end it all??? I never asked to be born im gonna be fucking sick
Nostalgie - Ida Lorentzen , 2009.
Norwegian - American , b. 1951 -
Oil on canvas , 130 x 160 cm.
When I run out of distractions and I remember how pointless, fickle, and cruel existence is lol
Brassaï. Les Cafés de Montparnasse, Paris, c.1932.
"Men and women need each other!"
Outside of reproducing, abusing their children, and making the lives of everyone who is not like them a living hell what do the average osa man and woman even enjoy doing together? The world would be better off if men and women stayed away from each other more. When they get together they only know how to destroy everything around them. They also do not like each other at all and need all kinds of rituals and religions to tell them how to effectively roleplay their household roles because they do not actually like the other's true self.
This is poetry, so sufficiently stated. I have nothing else to add, only admiration.
being good and playing by the rules feels satisfactory I guess but nothing ever feels as good as letting your sickness wholly consume you. Just reveling in your mental illness, giving up, destroying your life, cutting people off. I don’t know why it always feels wonderful.
it really is not as simple as "if you don't like being alive, you can leave"
- it's very hard to overcome the survival instinct, even if you want to die
- chances are you have been told at some point by someone religious you'll go to hell if you end your own life, and even if you don't believe any more it doesn't mean it doesn't still affect you
- someone is likely to be traumatised by your death e.g you may have been told the worst thing a parent can ever go through is the loss of a child - especially by suicide
- access to peaceful, reliable methods is very difficult for many people - you could go through a lot of pain, fail and end up permanently damaged
- euthanasia / assisted suicide is expensive
- you're unlikely to be accepted by euthanasia / assisted suicide clinics for "mental illness" - they will want you to have gone through many treatments before they will consider you
(i understand there are some previously suicidal people who are glad they got professional support and are glad they didn't end their lives. some people have suffered intensely for a long time, and don't want to have to gamble on countless treatments on the offchance something might help. increased access to effective mental health treatment is a good thing, but the point is there are people suffering deeply right now who don't want to wait on the offchance in the distant future something may possibly help. i don't think anyone should be pressured into ending their life, and i appreciate there is a risk of this happening and measures need taking to help reduce that risk)
as someone with "mental illness" (a term i don't really like, as it tends to be associated with having a lack of capacity or logical thinking, which I don't think is true in my case) I WISH my parents had not had me, or at least had knowledge of mental health conditions / neurodiversity before doing so. I don't know if it had been "caught early" if things might have been different, but the longer you've suffered with something the more difficult recovery becomes, and not everyone wants to be forced to try every treatment under the sun whilst suffering deeply in the meantime.
i just think bringing children into a world where they are not allowed to leave if they hate it here is too big a risk to take. mental health is still poorly understood. you can't guarantee that your child will be happy. and having an unhappy child is painful for the parents as well as the child.
why do I need to reach a breaking point for you to realize how bad it is? Why do you love ignoring all my silent pleas for help then tell me you’re scared i’ll kill myself when I finally break down?
A royal bunny, pearl and gold, 16th century
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i do think it’s kinda hilarious how the self proclaimed leftists on this website have infinitely more tolerance and sympathy for religious people than they do for vegans
So that’s what she thought of me at the time. She called me her best friend and made me friendship bracelets but that’s what she thought of me deep down.
I should have left sooner.
'Bedtime'. Nicole Parker. 2021.
Oil on mounted linen
Franz Kafka, The Blue Octavo Notebooks: 1917-1919
I’ve never had a single drop of alcohol in my life but I really really really really really feel like drinking myself into a coma right now.