[andchokeberries]

Anyway I need to stop bitching. It's Saturday tomorrow I am doing meaningful work at uni then going shopping. Actually no. I need to collect my strength...

[andchokeberries]

i need to get out into the world i'm craving like a smoking area type of connection.. feel like i'm way too old for that unestablished network thing but it could be cool still

[andchokeberries]

i want to follow more blogs but even that feels kinda cringe now lol... like idk most of the blogs i come across feel so insular now like sporadic bored updates after work vibes. like to be in you had to be mutuals 2 years ago but not like a fresh connection ykwim

[andchokeberries]

there actually was a purpose, a very strong one at that. and i am just letting it get beaten out of me and refusing myself the self-comfort to see it

[andchokeberries]

dash is so dead... is it because everyone is out there living life? it doesn't feel like it, those shouldn't be mutually exclusive things. when i was younger i still used to think that way or saw "leaving" as a sort of proof of making it. but i don't know if that's the case for me anymore, i think it's either sparks flying everywhere or flying nowhere. and i feel right now all spheres of life have been affected...

[andchokeberries]

roommate screaming in his room in a very guttural way shouting f*ggots and i'll kill you. i need to leave the house soon but i don't want him to know i'm home

[eddysims]

[andchokeberries]

pick one and run with it

[andchokeberries]

Who gives a fuck about moleskine? Really has anyone ever cared?

[andchokeberries]

I am having sugar cravings again... it feels so inevitable but then i rate it and it's like 5/10 on the pain scale. which doesn't sound too bad in comparison obviously, so i think i will just have dinner and then a banana.

[andchokeberries]

low serotonin tonight, craving sugar or to go on a bender. just need to weather it out. and then tomorrow i'll feel less affected already:)

[andchokeberries]

you met me at a very dysregulated time in my life

[andchokeberries]

sabrina carpenter - short and stout

[andchokeberries]

Really opened myself up to the opinions of others this year, not even in an active way like making decisions but just as a constant awareness of them. Thought it was nbd but now I realise people love dichotomies a little too much...

[andchokeberries]

this is such a babana is better than coconut viewpoint...

[barry2018-2023]

the idea of going to the movies alone being like sad and pathetic is crazy to me like thats barely a social event to me. If you try to talk to me during a movie at the movies I will kill you.

[ayatollahsmegmafactory]