[vjola]

i don’t have any red flags. i have a white flag. i give up

[sadallthedamntime-blog]

[thestralboy]

That’s what I am

[bakwaaas]

I feel like I’m delusional and hyper self-aware at the same time

[atypicalpsychotic]

Full offense do i have to keep doing this whole living shit every fucking day

[th1n-to-thecore]

I want to be sknny, I want to feel pretty and get those complements when people suddenly realised you lost a lot of weight, I need it

[sickdelights-deactivated2023091]

Don't ask me "wyd" i really just be in my room going insane and being a danger to myself

[bpdeadpool-deactivated20240320]

Idk if it’s because of my fluctuating identity but I feel like I don’t belong anywhere, that I never completely fit and it’s so alienating

[daysarelonggone]

The thought of getting hurt again terrifies me

[womanism]

no one tells you what its like to be self aware of your mental illness. i know im irrationally angry and i know im just being paranoid and its the tiny piece of rational mind i have left and the unstable part of me fighting each other every second and i just want it to stop

[ojibwa]

[trashboat]

my fear of abandonment? well that comes from my experience of being abandoned

[srrybabe]

[loviely]

the sexual tension between me and disappearing without a trace

[loviely]

I’ve been thinking about how thin I can get so then maybe you’ll take me with you. If I take up less space maybe you’ll find room for me in your life. If I close my mouth more and the room doesn’t fill with words we don’t mean I won’t be able to hold you accountable for feelings you never had to begin with. Maybe if I can squeeze into a double small you’ll find somewhere for me in your arms, you’ll find a place for me to drown in your thoughts. And you’ll think “wow she doesn’t take up much room at all” maybe if my physical self wouldn’t drown on a sentence of ‘I’m sorry’ and ‘are you mad at me?’ you’d find a place for me to go with you; a place for me in you. And maybe just maybe there’d be a home for me. And maybe just fucking maybe I’d be enough. I’d have to stop searching for love where it doesn’t exist and you’d see that I only do the things I do because more than anything I want you to love me too. More than anything I want you. I keep looking for something and I think I’m dying because this can’t be living. Should I keep searching for some kind of meaning?

Is there a point to this? March 2020

[pathologising]

[pathologising]