an inner chaos;

All good things must come to an end.

[northernsunrises]

“I wish you didn’t have to go, Lou,” Sloane admits brokenly, whatever remnants of her heart lodged in her throat.

His hand leaves hers, cold air quickly filling in the gaps between her fingers, and she gasps at the loss of contact before he stops that intake of air short with a brush of his fingertips against the curve of her jaw.

“I wish you’d come with me,” he breathes, the words and promise of a future together kissing warmth back into her body.

Sloane wants to tell him yes, scream from the rooftops, but instead, she whispers, “I love you,” for she is too strong to tell him yes but too much of a coward to tell him no.

Sighing, Louis acquiesces to her implication. “I love you, too.”

turn the world to gold, prologue coming aug. 13 • story page • banner by leesh

[harktheharold]

I had never been the bright-eyed college kid that went off thinking that they could single-handedly change the world. I wasn’t a hopeless romantic that thought everyone was supposed to get along and see eye to eye on everything. I was a realist. I knew from the start what I was getting myself into – or at least I thought I did.

Oh, Arizona – a story about a story about horrible first impressions, falling asleep under the A-stage, grape juice in wine glasses, and tone deaf serenades

[aninnerchaos]

You're all too nice and I love you all very much and miss you all even more 💕💕💕💕

[aninnerchaos]

Love u girl!!!!!!

I love YOU! 💕

[aninnerchaos]

I miss writing fic and reading fic and being involved in the community and I just fucking miss all of this a whole lot more tonight for some reason.

[aninnerchaos]

Link to all the chapters of THE PRIMER OF THE SMALL WEIRD LOVES?

You sent me this message four times, which was extremely unnecessary, because if you were on my blog you would see that I deleted all of my stories. Sorry.

[aninnerchaos]

Sometimes you just have to say goodbye

So, that’s an ominous title isn’t it? But it’s true. Sometimes, you just have to say goodbye. Sometimes things come to an end. It’s sad, and maybe it’s not what you want, but it’s necessary.

I’ve had a rough few weeks, mentally and emotionally. A lot has happened. Some family things, the loss of a very good friend named Julian (who some of you may have known as well), and just the overall being a 22 year old post-grad who is having a Hard Time.

I’m okay. First and foremost, I want to say that I’m okay. That’s not what this is about.

This is about being completely and totally burnt out. This is about not enjoying writing any more. This is about reaching the end of a certain chapter of my life, and that chapter is writing fanfic. 

It’s weird, because I’ve been writing fic for almost ten years. Fic is the reason I write now. Fic has given me so many friends that I wouldn’t trade for the world. I owe a lot to the various fic communities I’ve been apart of over the years. It’s been a good run.

But, all good things must come to an end. This is my end.

I stopped enjoying writing fic awhile ago, but I’ve only recently realized that fully. It stopped being fun for me and started being about writing for other people. Writing can’t be about other people. You have to write for yourself, and when you stop writing for yourself, you need to take a step back and re-evaluate. My re-evaluation has lead to me needing to delete, unfortunately.

I probably won’t delete everything right away. I’ll probably delete it tomorrow or sometime this week. With that being said, I would greatly appreciate it if none of you distributed any of my fics (complete or not) when I do delete everything completely. 

I’m going to miss this community, and I’m going to miss posting stories for all of you to read. If it wasn’t for my time in fic communities, I wouldn’t be half the writer I am now. So thank you all for reading and encouraging me and giving me feedback. Every single bit of it has been appreciated. Thank you for loving my characters as much as I did. I’m just sorry I had to abandon so many of them. I wish I would have come to this conclusion sooner so I wouldn’t have ever started Zuzu or Rosie. But these things happen I guess. Such is life.

Thank you all for reading. Thank you for sticking with me for so long. I appreciate it more than you’ll ever know.

xoxox Sonya

[aninnerchaos]

Sometimes you just have to say goodbye

So, that’s an ominous title isn’t it? But it’s true. Sometimes, you just have to say goodbye. Sometimes things come to an end. It’s sad, and maybe it’s not what you want, but it’s necessary.

I’ve had a rough few weeks, mentally and emotionally. A lot has happened. Some family things, the loss of a very good friend named Julian (who some of you may have known as well), and just the overall being a 22 year old post-grad who is having a Hard Time.

I’m okay. First and foremost, I want to say that I’m okay. That’s not what this is about.

This is about being completely and totally burnt out. This is about not enjoying writing any more. This is about reaching the end of a certain chapter of my life, and that chapter is writing fanfic. 

It’s weird, because I’ve been writing fic for almost ten years. Fic is the reason I write now. Fic has given me so many friends that I wouldn’t trade for the world. I owe a lot to the various fic communities I’ve been apart of over the years. It’s been a good run.

But, all good things must come to an end. This is my end.

I stopped enjoying writing fic awhile ago, but I’ve only recently realized that fully. It stopped being fun for me and started being about writing for other people. Writing can’t be about other people. You have to write for yourself, and when you stop writing for yourself, you need to take a step back and re-evaluate. My re-evaluation has lead to me needing to delete, unfortunately.

I probably won’t delete everything right away. I’ll probably delete it tomorrow or sometime this week. With that being said, I would greatly appreciate it if none of you distributed any of my fics (complete or not) when I do delete everything completely. 

I’m going to miss this community, and I’m going to miss posting stories for all of you to read. If it wasn’t for my time in fic communities, I wouldn’t be half the writer I am now. So thank you all for reading and encouraging me and giving me feedback. Every single bit of it has been appreciated. Thank you for loving my characters as much as I did. I’m just sorry I had to abandon so many of them. I wish I would have come to this conclusion sooner so I wouldn’t have ever started Zuzu or Rosie. But these things happen I guess. Such is life.

Thank you all for reading. Thank you for sticking with me for so long. I appreciate it more than you’ll ever know.

xoxox Sonya

[aninnerchaos]

Sometimes you just have to say goodbye

So, that’s an ominous title isn’t it? But it’s true. Sometimes, you just have to say goodbye. Sometimes things come to an end. It’s sad, and maybe it’s not what you want, but it’s necessary.

I’ve had a rough few weeks, mentally and emotionally. A lot has happened. Some family things, the loss of a very good friend named Julian (who some of you may have known as well), and just the overall being a 22 year old post-grad who is having a Hard Time.

I’m okay. First and foremost, I want to say that I’m okay. That’s not what this is about.

This is about being completely and totally burnt out. This is about not enjoying writing any more. This is about reaching the end of a certain chapter of my life, and that chapter is writing fanfic. 

It’s weird, because I’ve been writing fic for almost ten years. Fic is the reason I write now. Fic has given me so many friends that I wouldn’t trade for the world. I owe a lot to the various fic communities I’ve been apart of over the years. It’s been a good run.

But, all good things must come to an end. This is my end.

I stopped enjoying writing fic awhile ago, but I’ve only recently realized that fully. It stopped being fun for me and started being about writing for other people. Writing can’t be about other people. You have to write for yourself, and when you stop writing for yourself, you need to take a step back and re-evaluate. My re-evaluation has lead to me needing to delete, unfortunately.

I probably won’t delete everything right away. I’ll probably delete it tomorrow or sometime this week. With that being said, I would greatly appreciate it if none of you distributed any of my fics (complete or not) when I do delete everything completely. 

I’m going to miss this community, and I’m going to miss posting stories for all of you to read. If it wasn’t for my time in fic communities, I wouldn’t be half the writer I am now. So thank you all for reading and encouraging me and giving me feedback. Every single bit of it has been appreciated. Thank you for loving my characters as much as I did. I’m just sorry I had to abandon so many of them. I wish I would have come to this conclusion sooner so I wouldn't have ever started Zuzu or Rosie. But these things happen I guess. Such is life.

Thank you all for reading. Thank you for sticking with me for so long. I appreciate it more than you’ll ever know.

xoxox Sonya

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Fine

For: Sonya @aninnerchaos

By: Chelsea @imalikurdick

A short story of leaving, and the people who get left

Word count: 2083

Harry/OFC

“A year really isn’t that long if you think about it.” Harry was getting ready to board his flight to Germany, leaving the girl he’d known for only ten short months behind. Joining the Army had never really been what he wanted to do, but he figured that getting his school paid for and a chance to travel was a pretty fair trade for being away from his friends and family every now and then.

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sweet nothing

for: Ariana, @kerosenenarry​ by: Alice, @afitzgeraldfic​

Willow isn’t a fan of people. Harry Styles wishes to be an exception to that rule. A story about rereading the same pages, boys cropping up in places they shouldn’t (like maybe her heart), and only realising you’ve made a mistake once it’s too late. Or, a summer AU set in the beautiful backdrop of Bath.

word count: 16,470 warnings: language, sexual content main pairing: willow/harry

Willow Reid was, without question, the last person anybody wanted in charge of their morning coffee. She didn’t work particularly well in high-pressured situations, and that meant anybody in pursuit of their caffeine fix at 5 Abbey Green, Bath — or, ‘The Grind’ — would suffer one of the three following things: said hot beverage actually sitting in the lukewarm end of the spectrum; placed order coming out about fifteen minutes after you’re scheduled to start work; the coffee having a slightly dodgy, oddly tangy aftertaste.

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Business and Pleasure

for: Erin @blacklungsblueeyes​

by: Ashley @justanchorandhope​

Estefania knows better than to mix business with pleasure. After a few too many chance encounters and the date from hell, she knows she shouldn’t get mixed up with Harry Styles. Still, she has a hard time saying no. Their tangled web of casual sex and unwanted feelings is tested when Estefania finds herself struggling with addiction—an addiction that nearly gets the both of them killed.

word count: 7,360

warning: mentions of sex, drugs, and alcohol

main pairing: Harry Styles/OFC

It doesn’t feel like Halloween. There’s no crisp of fall in the air, no crunch of leaves beneath feet, and no caramel apples to be had. There is, however, a half of a pumpkin smashed in the alley, its guts spewed across the gum-riddled street. It’s rotted and smells of death, which may be the most autumnal thing of all. 

Everything was dying.

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We Could Just Pretend There’s Nothing On My Mind

For: Ella, @ella-menoh-p-writings By: Sonya, @aninnerchaos Summary: Harry Styles is the bane of Logan Dixon’s existence. He’s annoying, obnoxious, and everything she dislikes in a person. That is, until he’s not. Word count: 4,820 words Warnings: None Main pairing: Harry Styles/OFC

Logan has a headache. It’s hitting her right between her temples, and it feels like an army of the spider monkeys she just finished giving a talk on are sitting inside of her skull, banging about with hammers. It’s not a migraine, because the bright lights of the exhibits aren’t making her poorly or anything, she just has a headache.

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some things to keep in mind as we embark

as stories are to begin posting tomorrow, i’d like to make a few points:

the purpose of the fic exchange is to celebrate our lil community.  it’s like a secret santa gift exchange at a party, but way more personal: somebody made something for you with you and your preferences in mind.  it will hopefully be really cool and really fun to see how somebody made your prompts their own.  please take the time to read the story that was written for you and say thank you for it.

the purpose of the fic exchange is NOT to line up authors in a row so that you can compare them.  i absolutely encourage you to send positive comments about the stories to me and to the writers themselves, but please keep in mind that phrasing like “your story was the best one i read” and “your harry is just as good as [insert super popular writer here]’s harry” pits writers against one another.  that’s not the kind of culture that i want to promote with this exchange.  please, compliments without comparisons.  take the time to read work by authors with whom you are unfamiliar.  please keep in mind that this exchange is to celebrate the efforts and contributions of everyone who participates.   

finally, a note about how the stories will be posted: stories will be queued to post 10 times a day.  they will be added to the queue completely randomly.  i’ll update the masterlist page (located in the sidebar under the read the stories link) when i can.  please do not message me asking when your story will be posted.  please do not message me asking me to speed up the posting of the stories.  the queue is the queue is the queue.   

and one more thing: please don’t post your story to 1dff or your own tumblr until the exchange is over.  i’ll have participant banners available for you to post with your story then if you wish.  if there are any questions or confusions about this or anything, please don’t hesitate to message me.     

now let’s have a fun and successful posting phase!!      

[imsrybitw]

Murphy’s Law: Part 9

Previous Parts

Sigs has seen her fair share of beautiful sights.  Sunsets over the Thames.  Her mother’s garden in full bloom.  Chris Evans in Captain America right after he gets the super-soldier treatment.

But nothing quite measures up to the sight of Niall Horan in casual clothes standing in her flat.  He’s in her front room in black skinny jeans, cute little boots, and a gray button up that should probably be illegal.  Or ripped off right away.  But that’s beside the point.

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[aninnerchaos]

Thank you for answering all those q's! Beau getting over zuzu?! I mean I kinda figured something was going on bc he was super moody lol did he ever tell zuzu about his feelings for her? When did he feel more than friends for her? How long had this been going on? Poor beau :( again thanks so much for answering!

Sorry this is so late! But yeah, Beau was in love with Zuzu. You know, that’s what I never figured out. I couldn’t decide if he told her. Originally, he wasn’t going to tell her. He just wanted to move on! But I think he did tell her because of a fight they had, and it just sort of came out. Not because he wanted it to, but because... it just did.

I think he probably started feeling more for her after his first season in Pittsburgh. She was there for him and a friendly face when he was feeling sort of alone, and he just latched on to that.

But yeah, poor Beau! Poor kid couldn’t catch a break. :(

[aninnerchaos]

Hiii! So I just reread fine fortune ( I was feeling nostalgic lol) I know you said it won't be finished but I was wondering if you would maybe tell us what you had planned? Did zuzu and Harry make it official? Did she introduce him to her family? Did her mom give up on the blind dates lol? Did beau end up w Jordan? Sorry to throw all these q's at you :)

Hi there!! That makes me so stupidly happy that you reread FF, even though it’s not finished. So thank you! I actually answered an ask where I explained what I was thinking was going to happen in the rest of FF a little while back, but I’m just going to answer these q’s again because 1. my internet is shitty and isn’t letting me do much so I can’t go find that post and 2. I still think about Zuzu a lot.

I think about Beau and Zuzu a lot, unfortunately. Harry and Zuzu did even up making it official. She brought him to dinner with her fam sometime after the new year. Her mom was enamored with Harry, but still skeptical of course. She still tried to tell Zu that she had found the perfect guys for her, but Zu stopped going on blind dates. She didn’t need them, she had Harry!

As for Beau, he did end up with Jordan. They worked for a little while, but it was never really that serious. Beau was just trying to get over Zuzu and Jordan wasn’t ready for a serious relationship. So Beau focused on hockey instead, and that was fine with him.

I LOVE ANSWERING QUESTIONS ABOUT ANY OF MY STORIES! Seriously. So don’t apologize! I’m always down to talk stories, old or new! :)