My Online Notebook

Fav Quote atm "Standing up physically also implies and invokes and demands standing up metaphysically. Standing up means voluntarily accepting the burden of Being. Your nervous system responds in an entirely different manner when you face the demands of life voluntarily. You respond to a challenge, instead of bracing for a catastrophe. You see the GOLD the dragon hoards, instead of shrinking in terror from the all-too-real fact of the dragon." - Jordan B. Peterson-

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My Fears

This is what my Kindle Library looks like. Haven’t finished a single book for more than a month now. I also have other books on other platforms. What’s wrong with me? I can’t seem to just finish even one book.

I feel like writing now, but I don’t even know what topic to write about lolz. So, I guess I’m going to just put a post to determine where I am right now on my journey towards success.

I still have yet to have a handle on my finances. I only have a small salary, but I can’t even do a good budget for that. How can I be trusted with much if I can’t handle even a small amount?

I have tried blogging since 2006 or was it 2005, before google bought blogger, I was blogging in that platform and until now I don’t even have a popular blog. Epic fail right? I think I’m afraid of failure, but I’m also so afraid of success or maybe I’m afraid of criticisms. I was talking to my bestfriend earlier about my fears and she reminded me that it’s really not about me but about my message.

What is the message that I want to put out there in the world?

I don’t even know the clear answer to that.

I just want to be able to write and have fans lolz, or have online friends all over the world who loves to read what I write. :)  can we not have the haters please or the bashers? However, that’s just not how the world works.

Ever since I was in elementary, I love to read books and I also love to write on my diary. Now, I have a chance to write on a blog and I’m afraid of what people will think about what I write.

I have to remember this quote from Neil Gaiman:

I will be exposing myself, well, my thoughts, online. I will put it out there for anyone to see. I have to be ready for bad comments, that’s a given. Anyone can criticize anything, but few actually take time to create or make good art.

I want to write a fiction story someday. Maybe I’ll put it here...

I guess, what I’m going to do for six months starting this August, is to write whatever I feel like writing and just let it be, not worry about whatever comment I might receive, no one’s reading my posts at the moment anyway lolz.

I have this opportunity now to write whatever I want to write and I don’t want to regret not doing what I love to do, WRITE, when I’m in my deathbed years from now. 

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My Thoughts on Catholic Girl's Survival Guide for the Single Years

This post was originally published on my other blog on March 18, 2018.

I haven't finished reading this yet, but I just want to record my thoughts on this book, my favorite book at the moment.

It was printed in year 2012, but it still is applicable today, six years after it was written. It's like a perennial book since it's rooted in Catholic teachings.

I read a sample from amazon and I really wanted to buy it because I felt like I found a friend who understands my struggles. And I am right, this book is so easy to read. How Emily wrote it, felt to me like she was directly speaking to me. I love it. Well, she was 35 when she wrote it. I'm 36, will be 37 in november,(wow nearing 40. I think in 2021, I will think that 40 is the new 20 lolz. j/k. ), I can relate with everything I've read so far in the book. So, I'm 36, single, never been married, nbsb, but still thinking that marriage is my vocation lol.

As she mentioned on her book, the pool of men that I can choose from is small, since I'm a practicing Catholic single girl and I feel there's no one boy here who could understand no pre-marital sex, no promiscuity (yes, even in a predominantly Catholic population, most guys here regard sex as dictated by movies, they don't really know about the Catholic teachings, nor do they care I assume), my cousin said I'm part of the 0.01% who still believe in what I believe in (I think the church here really failed in teaching our generation about why we believe what we do as Catholics), but I still trust in God and He will lead me to the right person or the guy will find me first, idk. However, there's also a part of me who likes this guy who's not at all my ideal guy, so I need help with that too, I thought I already let it go, but I still couldn't, may blogpost about it on another day.

Back to the book, I skipped to chapter 7 actually because it was entitled: what to do when it hurts. I need advice on that so I read it before I started again on chapter 1.

If you have been single for years and you want to know how to handle when it aches, then I recommend skipping to that chapter so you can get her tips on what to do. I love her tips, but I couldn't mention it here, she doesn't specify in her book that it's ok to quote the book. Neways, if you like the sample which you can read in amazon, you'll not be disappointed. The way she explained each tip, I love it, I highlighted the paragraphs. She is really a great writer, very clear and concise, very easy to get what she means.

On other chapters in the book, I love that she explains the meaning of vocation, the single life, and the authentic femininity.

I'm gonna continue reading the book...

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First Rule in 12 Rules for Life

This was originally published on my other blog on February 24, 2018

I love this book, even though I don't agree with everything he stated. I'm only at the second rule, haven't finished the chapter yet but I just want to write down my thoughts for now on rule number one.

The first rule is to stand straight with your shoulders back. I know it seems simple but even that I realized, I didnt do. I really lack confidence, my bestfriend told me that too. I dont stand up straight and im kinda shy around strangers and dr. peterson was so right when he mentioned awkward pause in conversation. I dont really know how to talk to people comfortably in general. I'm very comfortable when I'm with my close friends and cousins, but when it comes to acquaintances I tend to become self-conscious and the conversations don't have a smooth flow.

I'm going to practice all the rules in this book and see if there will be changes in my life. I am writing on my notebook my favorite quotes from that book and thoughts I have from what I've read. I noticed when I scanned my writings, that I actually dont have any thoughts lol, I just absorbed his words like a sponge.

I love that he referenced stories from the Bible but, I dont like some of his conclusions. One example is when he said that the pieta showed female/male dual unity. I actually dont see that in that art, I only see a grieving mother because her son died. I realized, sometimes we really see things on a lens, I see everything with a Christian lens, not sure what lens Dr. Peterson sees the world. I also realized that people can really look at art or things or whatever matter is in front of them and interpret them in a different way than intended by the creator. Pieta was created to show a mother mourning for her son, but Dr. Peterson interprets it differently.

I won't get into it but when he mentioned androgyny of Christ, wtf is my first thought. I guess when people dont experience Jesus in their lives, they are unable to believe the apostles and understand what Jesus Christ taught. I dont want to spend my precious time on this atm, I'll let it be and I hope someday he gets to talk to Catholic apologists like Jimmy Akin, Karl Keating and Tim Staples.

Anyways, except for parts that I don't agree with, I really love this book, because I think this is what's missing in my life, some kind of structure.... specific rules to follow everyday... I already know what God wants me to follow everyday but, it's so difficult to love even my enemies, difficult for me to love everybody, so I'll start with God and myself first.

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Free books you can read online

I love internet archive!!!! There are millions of books you can download and read for free. There are also more than 500,000 books that you can “borrow” for 14 days. The Internet Archive website is like a world wide library. They have actually books, movies, mp3s, etc. but at this time, I’m just using their site to read books online.

I’m currently reading The Magic of Thinking Big by David Schwartz. I signed up for a free account and borrowed the book. I’m at page 22 and will write a review after I’m finished.

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Motivation from Wil Dasovich

I love these words from one of Wil Dasovich’s videos and I even transcribed here the rest of what he says about goals. I super love what he said and I want to be reminded of this. I want to imitate him, to set a goal and do everything to achieve it in the shortest time possible. I’m a fan of Wil now because of that video and the other vlogging tips videos.

-- start of transcript --

You see a lot of people claim to have aspirations. They want something more than anything, but if you really have a dream and you’re sure you want it so bad more than anyone else and this idea are somewhat fantasy should consume your mind like an obsession that you carry with you day in and day out as if you’re possessed by the thought, as in sinasapian ka talaga. 

(lam ko di sinasapian yung picture, pero parang ganito yung iniimagine kong itsura ng isang obsessed na tao lolz.)

-- continue transcript --

YOU HAVE TO GO ALL IN!!! 

For me this was to create a youtube channel, grow it as fast as I can and get that silver play button so that this idea that was consuming my mind would come to a rest and then I could carry on with my normal, abnormal life.

-- end transcript --

I just love what he said. The video was made 2 years ago, but I think the things he said there are really inspiring and motivating. Although, ilang minutes lng yung tlgang motivational words nya, at halos fan sign na yung ginawa nya sa video lolz, ito pa rin yung pinakapaborito ko kasi napakita nya tlga na kung may goal ka, ma-a-achieve mo when you work hard at it.

This is the video, you can skip to 1 minute:

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3 Quotes from The Messi Way

These are the phrases that I love from The Messi Way, the book written by Mike Grogan which I think will change my life forever. I am writing this so that when I see this years from now, I will remember the words that push me to action, finally. :)

I created these 3 photo quotes, thanks to Pixabay.com for the free no-copyright images. I love Pixabay!! :D

This is the first one that I love:

It is a journey. Transforming yourself to a better person is a journey, it’s not something that you can achieve in a snap of your fingers. 2018 is the start of my journey towards a better me. :)

My second favorite:

This one really made me realize that I am prone to action when I think of other people in my life, specifically my mother, and not just myself. I am well, was a lazy person until it sunk into my brain that I’m not getting any younger and so is my mother. I know my brother won’t neglect my mother, but I also want to do my part, I want to take care of her and give more convenience in her life as she gets older. 

People think that it’s bad to think about money and that if you strive to be rich, you are materialistic... when you’re in a hospital and your loved one needs the money to survive, is that being materialistic? The Bible said that the LOVE of Money is the root of all evil (1 Timothy 6:10), being rich is not bad, unless you treat money as god, like you love money more than God and more than your “neighbor”. Money is not bad, it’s the love of money that is bad. 

I digress, I’m going to put another blogpost on this, another day. Anyways, what I’m trying to say is that, one of my goals/dreams is to give mama all the convenience that she needs and wants. I don’t want her to ride a jeepney when she’s 80 years old and can no longer move as agile as she used to. I want her to have her own car and her own driver. Actually, someday I dream of having a project in my own city, where senior citizens are given free rides in cars to anywhere they need to go, so they won’t have to ride jeepneys, where it’s difficult for them to climb into. 

That’s for a far future, but for now, here are the words I love from the epilogue of The Messi Way: 

I felt like Mike just said those words specially for me lolz. I love it! Just exactly what I needed to read. 

I am going to go out there and live the extraordinary life I know I deserve! :)

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32nd Day

One day to go before I finish the challenge tomorrow. 

I failed on some parts coz I didn’t do it right. I will reflect more on this after I really finish the challenge tomorrow. 

For today, I just felt like doing a video so i recorded me talking about my checklist and the some dreams I have.

Part 1:

Part 2:

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33 Day Challenge

This I got from the ebook of Mike Grogan: The Messi Way

MESSI is an acronym for the categories of the 13 questions that you should answer before starting the challenge. These questions are the key as to why I was able to do the challenge for 32 days (as of this writing), although I failed on some parts that I set for myself, I still did good with the morning ritual. 

He mentioned 9 habits that you should incorporate into your life. I love those and I want to do these 9 habits everyday. 

He gave me an advanced copy and I was able to finish the book and try to apply the habits he explained there and I think this is the start, maybe the pivotal point in my life. I imagine myself achieving lots of things this year and the coming years.

I think this is the missing piece in the puzzle. 

I have read lots of self-help books and I think this one that gave a specific thing to do and have questions to guide you on why you’re trying to change your life for the better, this is the missing piece for me. It might also be for you. Having a morning ritual and checklist, I think I’m more aware of my actions. I also reflect more frequently now through my journal. 

The challenge is to do the morning ritual and the things you stated on your checklist for 33 days. I love how Mike explained the habits and the Messi Way. And I love this challenge, which I think I’m going to do for the rest of my life hahahahahaahah, maybe I won’t call it a challenge anymore but a practice, coz I’m going to practice this everyday. 

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205 lbs

me at 205 lbs

with my cousin and our zumba instructor

I’m going to concentrate on my diet and minimize my intake of sugar... it’s difficult for me to give up the juice I love to drink: fit and right (del monte product), but I already gave up drinking nesfruta, tang and other instant juices.

At this time, I can’t drink only water for the whole day...

I try to avoid eating rice when I can... I want to eat only meat 

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Elizabeth Gilbert on Sh*t Sandwich

Shit Sandwich is the term that stuck with me while I was watching this video of Elizabeth Gilbert.

Just like her, I love writing!! And to have someone have a term for the bad things (shit sandwich) that will happen to me on my journey towards writing success made it easier for me to deal with it.

I have to admit here that I've never read any of her books and I've no idea who she is, but because of this video, I'm going to buy her books.

This is the video where she explained what Shit Sandwich is:

Or you can read this transcript: (I really love this talk that I want to read it over and over again.) This was an interview by Marie Forleo (I also recently just discovered her, my bestfriend recommended this video)

Start of Transcript:

"I wish it were my idea, it's not my idea, I borrowed it, but I'll lay it out here anyway. The idea is that every pursuit, no matter how glamorous it may seem, no matter how exciting you are, it feels to you, no matter how much you feel like you were born to do it, comes with a shit sandwich. And so the question is not what do I love? the question is what do i love so much that I don't mind eating the shit sandwich that comes along with that thing.

So for me, in my life, writing is the thing that I love and the shit sandwich was the 7 years that I was not getting publish. That I was coming home from my job as a diner waitress, as a bartender, as an au pair, as a, somebody who worked in flea markets as a cook and i was coming home tired smelling like other people's french fries. And sitting down and doing my real job which was to write, and then to go the mailbox the next day and get another rejection letter. And then say do I still wanna do this 'cause this shit sandwich sucks.

And I did still wanna do it. And now even as somebody who makes their living as a writer there's no end to the shit sandwiches. It's like, oh, Hello horrible review in prominent newspaper. That's your shit sandwich today Liz. Do you still wanna do this work? Yes i still do, still worth it.

Hello awful comment on social media from somebody who thinks you are a pile of dog shit, you know and just has, like , chosen every possible way that they can just, cannot get it out of their system fast enough, how much disregard they have for your entire life. Still wanna do this thing? Yeah, I still wanna do it.

You know, so that's the question. Because if the first time you encounter the shit sandwich, you're like, "well, this... this isn't worth it." Then that's not the thing you're supposed to be doing. And there are plenty of things in life, that I have run into the shit sandwich and I've been like "so not worth it." So not worth it, like this is not... I don't wanna do this. Like whatever the ben ... alleged benefits of this thing might be, no.

.... i don't want to transcribe this part, but she said something about soul cycle exercise...

So, if you go into this thing thinking "If I follow my bliss, and I live my dream, and I stand in my truth, then everything will be great."  It doesn't mean everything will be great. It just means at the end of the day when you check in with yourself, and you go " In the end, on the balance, is this still better than not doing it? And the answer is still yeah, this thing is still better than not doing it, then you're on the right path.

End of Transcript

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So, for me, I haven't encountered my shit sandwich yet, I'm too afraid to even get my blogposts out there. I don't think I'm writing quality and useful blogposts at this time, but maybe when I have finished the Mastering Content Marketing ebook, I will be able to publish posts that I can confidently promote on social media.

For now, what I'm enjoying doing is making live videos on twitter lolz. Although it's not quality content too, but I'm just enjoying this, I love talking in front of the camera and I know when more people watch it, there will come a shit sandwich someday, for now, I'm going to do what feels fun for me.

**originally posted on July 3, 2017 at annborromeo.com

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Build Customer Trust

These two tips I got from Marie Forleo

We buy from businesses we know, like and trust. Here’s how to get the trust part down —> https://t.co/iISwO0ofS5 #business pic.twitter.com/Cupqigpp4h

— Marie Forleo (@marieforleo) June 28, 2017

1. BE TRUE TO YOU

        - Say things that you really believe in. Don't pretend.

2. SET CLEAR EXPECTATIONS

        - Marie said to say for example, "if you follow me, this is what you'll get..."

She also said:

         Build your business on truth and trust will build itself.

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So those are the two things I'm going to do.

I'm gonna be true to me, maybe I have to check myself a couple of times, to really see if I'm being real or being an impostor thinking of doing things just to please my imaginary readers lolz.

I think my biggest challenge will be my Catholic views, but I'm going to defend my beliefs. I don't know everything about my faith, but I'm going to grow as well with this blog as I do more research and provide more information on my faith.

I have to accept that some people will like me for who I am or they will hate me. It's ok.

I don't have any haters yet, so I know I haven't made it yet, I'm not yet popular lolz.

The second one is to set expectations. I will edit my about page when I have determined this for my blog and my twitter live videos.

I love talking about my interests and I am interested in a lot of things. I don't know how to filter them and make them into just one niche. Hhhhhmmmnnnnnn so I guess the expectation would be, there will be various topics that I will talk about every week and it is not only about one topic.

**originally posted on june 29, 2017 at annborromeo.com

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Dealing with Rejection

Gary Vee's Video

I love writing the transcript for videos that really resonate with me and so here is one from Gary Vaynerchuk, my favorite guy at the moment.

Dealing with Rejection

"Everything I've ever done in my life has started off with I'm an idiot and I'm a loser and ended with I'm a genius and I'm a winner.  And the only way you can actually do that is that you don't actually give a fuck about what anybody else is saying. Like that's what it comes down to. You either the kind of person that crumbles in other people's opinions about what you're up to. Or you're the kind of person that stays in your own head in a fucking field with cows or just in your own head in your bed and realized 'I got this'"  

- Gary Vaynerchuk

I think I'm the kind of person that crumbles in other people's opinions. Although sometimes I think to myself, I don't care about what others think of me, but most of the time, I do. I do care about what others think of what I'm doing. I mean maybe that's why I'm not actively promoting my blog on facebook, nor do as many live videos in twitter than in facebook. I'm afraid of knowing what my friends will think of me when they see me say stuff online or on live videos.

It's easier for me to talk in front of the camera when I know that nobody I know in real life will watch it lolz. Maybe when I have many followers I will let them know in fb what I'm doing in twitter. I don't want to hear any negative comments from my relatives or friends. I can take negativity from complete strangers but with relatives/friends, kinda hard to deal with that so I try to avoid it. Plus I'm not even sure if they're interested in the things I'm interested in. And I'm thinking about what Jesus said in Luke 4:24 "Then He added, 'Truly I tell you, no prophet is accepted in his hometown.'"

I'm guessing, people who know me personally will have a difficult time accepting that I have any meaningful thing to say unless other people have validated my ideas. Well, maybe I will change my mind in a few days or weeks and will share my videos on facebook, but for now, I want to be here in twitter. I'm not busy with anything anyways, I can totally focus on improving myself and my blog. And I'm going to think like that other person that Gary described, I'm going to stay in my own head and realize: I got this. :)

AGE

Another feeling that keeps creeping up on me is about my age. I mean I'm already 35 yrs old, will be 36, this November 2017, and it's only now that I'm taking steps towards what I want and I'm not even clear about what I want. Of course there are lots of goals in my head, but it seems I don't believe I would really get them so I'm not taking any actions that would move me forward towards achieving those goals. I'm slowly getting organized and prioritizing what's really important to me.

I love this other quote from Gary:

44 yrs old, that is how old Sam Walton was when he started building Walmart... https://t.co/Ci1SMCM9LG

— [UASF]Ann 21 Bitcoin (@annborromeo35) June 26, 2017

He mentioned the age of Mr. Walton was 44, I mean he is older than me when he started to do something that would later on become one of the largest companies in USA. So for me, it means, it's never too late to start on something that you really love to do. I love writing and this blogging platform gives me that opportunity to be able to do what I love. I mean at my age, where all my batchmates in school have their own families (except for me and my bestfriend), where they are busy with their own children, here I am with nothing to think about but my blog lolz.

Don't get me wrong, I love my life, even though it's not perfect and there are many things I can't buy yet. I am still blessed and the pastor in our bible study told me, I am a blessing. That is so good to hear. I mean, getting approval from someone is kinda gratifying. I would love to be a blessing to others and so I'm going to get over my fears and write what I want and do live videos and share my thoughts which I don't know, maybe someday my words will help others too.

**this post was originally published on June 2017 on my annborromeo.com blog

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LOLz

made a stupid mistake lolz that cost me hours lolz. I didn’t know that the transcript for the talk of Bishop Barron is already available. I didn’t know there was an “Open Transcript” option at the youtube video with closed captions. *facepalms* Well, anyway, now I know. 

I still want to publish the transcript here, but I’ve got to get permission from the website of Bishop Barron...

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Day 22

I’m doing a 33 day challenge and I’m on the 22nd day. 

I love doing this everyday. I love checking things off my checklist.

After the 33 days, I’m sure I’m going to continue with this, but my checklist is going to be longer than the one I have now.

I love the book the MESSI Way by Mike Grogan, it explains this morning ritual and what the MESSI way is in detail. If you want to know more about it now, check out his book at amazon. 

I’m going to write more about this later after I’ve finished the challenge. 

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How to Set And Hit Bigly Goals

❤️ I so Love this video!! ❤️

lots of nuggets of wisdom

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How to learn from failure!

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"I Was 29 Years old And Had NOTHING" - Motivational Video | Gary Vaynerc...