i Hate Bpd

this is an anonymous blog about someone with bpd its a sideblog too pls read rules about this blog before sending in nasty anons

[anonbpd-blog]

i feel a lot

i feel everything at once

i get tired so quickly

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that bpd feel when u feel

a lot

just a lot

and yr like

fuck

[shoppingcartfullofpinkturd-deac]

[anonbpd-blog]

i havent posted on here in awhile but hi 

how has everyone been i have a ton of followers

[anonbpd-blog]

thank you so much for your blog, it makes me feel less alone in this

thats so sweet <33 im glad i could help you honestly it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside 

[anonbpd-blog]

me: stop taking up my Favorite Person's attention. I want their attention. it needs to all belong to me. they are mine. m i n e

everyone: but...it's normal for them to have other friends? it's expected for them to talk to us? you're being really possessive?

me: MINE

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me: *is having a hard time*

me: wow i really want to reach out to my friends for support

my brain: wrong that is manipulative and 100% not allowed you can never do that

[anonbpd-blog]

i have a really suspicious feeling im only being kept around so people avoid having to deal with me when im upset

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when your symptoms chill for like 15 minutes and ur like "wow im cured(:"

[an-actual-real-live-eevee]

tfw how have people not hit their breaking point in dealing with me yet I’m a literal mess and terrible person

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all  i  wanted  was  family  love  and  i c ant  even  have  that

because  everyone leaves  and  rejects  me

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little BPD things: having someone totally disregard your inability to control yourself because they don't bother to understand you to the best of their abilities and completely invalidate a mental illness you already struggle with because you're always thinking you're a huge faker anyways

[anonbpd-blog]

[[READ MORE]] idk if the read more code works still but w/e I'll still tag my stuff [pushes needles through my skin, rips my hair out in chunks and sliced my skin open] (: wow !!! fantastic !!!! i love death !!!

[anonbpd-blog]

i don't even remember how long i broke down for because i can't keep track of time i barely have any concept of it tbh but i sat there and cried and wondered why it had to be me that suffered why it has to be me that ended up sexually abused in my childhood and why it had to be me that family members rejected and partially neglected why did it have to be me why did i have to end up with a disorder i can barely cope with i don't like surviving

[r-e-d-rum-deactivated20190110]

I think neurotypicals and also mentally ill people (those that aren’t suffering from BPD but with other disorders) need to grasp what being borderline is like.

BPD is also known as “Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder” so that must speak for itself, one minute we can seem “fine” but the next we can spiral into fits of rage, depression, mania, psychosis etc.

We do not fluctuate these mood swings ourselves, our personalities are UNSTABLE and we do not control our impulses and the severity of our symptoms. 

So all i am asking is for everyone to understand that we do not “turn off “ our symptoms when it suits us, we don’t always know when we are going to spiral out of control, we cannot help our constant fear of abandonment so please don’t get annoyed at us if we don’t believe your reassurances. 

[paininthejas]

when ur Favorite Person talks to Other People and suddenly you’re going to d i e

[akllljoy]

why can’t i be mentally chill instead of mentally ill