hopelessness

Sw: 76.3 Ugw: 54.5 Gw:72.3

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I’m might try a 168 hour fast

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Ended my fast at 46 hours

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24 hours into my fast and if I would’ve binged an hour ago I wouldn’t have made it <333

I’m so happy with myself right now

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I need up eating at 20 hours into my fast with 700 kcal, because of my mom

But for the next three days I will be ok to fast so now it’s just a battle with my mind 👍

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I’m either gonna be fasting for 3 days or 18 hours and eating one meal tomorrow

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187 days to lose 19kg

That’s 1.4kg a week

That’s not even that hard I got this

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I binged on cookies today :(

I was doing good in the morning and planning to fast for the rest of the day but then I got cookies and binged.

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I used to eat 3 packets of oatmeal for breakfast

Now even one pack looks like to much

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Seeing everyone else live their lives with their friends

While I’m at home crying about a singular oreo I ate

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I think my mom found out I’m cutting again. I think she found the blade I was using, I can find it and I think I left it in the open

Idk though because she hasn’t said anything to me and she hasn’t been acting weird or anything

Idk what to do if she did, I’m so anxious

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I’m so bad at this

I keep binging so I’m gonna start posting every binge or daily intake or something idk

If anyone has any tips please share 🙏

I have 196 days to get skinny!

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New weekly goal 10/11

10/11- 162

10/13- 164 :/

10/15- 162.8

10/17- 162.2

10/18- 161

Gw- 158

Ew- 161

Lost- 1.8

Better than nothing I guess

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Finally got a bike

Now I can ride it for hours at a time :)

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Day 10

Food,

I used to love food so much now I hate how much I loved it

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Beginning of the day I was 162

End of the day I was 161.2

With 700 calories 🔥 😎😎

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Day 7

No, and no probably not

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Day 6

Yes, a lot unfortunately. I think it’s cause I restrict to hard or fast right after a binge, it’s something I’m working on