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im suddenly reminded of preteens testing their new boundaries by swearing as much as they can as offensively as they can when they’re out of earshot of any authority figures so just as a primer to people new to the hellsite:

don’t say shit like k1ll or unalive or you will be made fun of

you’re allowed to say shit like im going to rip elon musk apart with my bare hands like a rampaging chimpanzee. nobody cares

wishing death upon random tumblr users is still unacceptable. we are all just some guy. don’t be fucking rude.

you leave neil gaiman alone. he’s nice.

you FUCKING leave lynda carter alone. she’s nice.

smoluglies

Lily of the valley 💕🧚🌱✨

inkskinned

you say it's my villain era and what you mean is that when you were six you panicked about wearing the right thing to kindergarten, what you mean is that in middle school nobody was eating, what you mean is that you spent high school prepping for college and college prepping for adulthood and adulthood fucking lost in the system.

what you mean is that you've been good. you were a good team player. you would have never considered yourself perfectionist - those are people more popular, prettier, more successful - but you carry any flaw like a secret in you, terrified someone will desert you for the simple reality of your personhood.

if you were good you could be loved. you could be loved if you were selfless and thoughtful and caring. if you bent over for every person, if you went above-and-beyond, it would absolve you of who you actually were. deep down, how horrible that you had needs. that you had boundaries, that you had desires. you learned young that you cannot afford to cut people out of your life - you would have nothing left. it is better to live in the service of others, to supplicate. to worship. you weren't exceptional, you had to make up for it in some way. to prove to others you were worthy.

if they need you, it's the same thing as loving you. if you are always-there, always-listening, always-friendly, you are filling a role. you have a purpose. you are living correctly.

villain era, you repeat. you mean: yesterday you finally told a man no. for hours afterwards, you couldn't control your heartbeat. you mean: you've been saying positive affirmations on repeat, trying to teach yourself any new thing about how self care is necessary. you mean: three weeks ago, due to a scheduling conflict, you finally told a coworker that no, you couldn't do them a "quick favor". you have felt bad about that ever since. sure, it would have made you work late and it would have been extra stress - but you feel bad about it nevertheless.

you tell your therapist you have been leaning into evil. she asks what that means. when you tell her: sometimes i prioritize my own needs, she doesn't find it funny. she looks at you a long time.

"and that's evil?" she clarifies.

"well," you say. "feels evil to me."

hungryfictions

don’t you know it’s not good for your hair to wash it every day. you have to use sulfate and paraben free shampoo. you have to wash your hair with conditioner instead. you should stop washing your hair for a month because actually your scalp has the natural ability to maintain itself. greasy hair can make your acne worse so make sure you wash it every day. you have to use this three step regiment on your face EVERY SINGLE night. buy this $70 serum and use it with the 10 other serums you have but don’t combine them. don’t use anything on your face except a gentle cleanser and moisturizer. do NOT use moisturizer on your face you are DESTROYING your skins natural moisture barrier! acne is just for teenagers you’ll grow out of it :) oh no but adult acne is sooooo common. just take birth control and your acne will go away. cut out all sugar and dairy and your acne will go away. actually those studies are fake, get light therapy treatments instead. take accutane and your acne will go away, only a couple of those kids killed themselves! shave your armpits because it looks better. if you shave your armpits you’re not a feminist. actually shaving your armpits is for HYGIENE. wax your legs. wax your bikini line. but waxing any part of your body can give you ugly ingrown hairs and permanently damage your skin and follicles and besides that’s the patriarchy. (but get laser hair removal instead.) don’t have an eating disorder because that’s too much but definitely do intermittent fasting. don’t eat carbs. don’t eat sugar. don’t eat fat. actually your brain uses carbs as its main energy source. actually fat is necessary but only good fat. you have to DRINK MORE WATER!!! drinking 8 glasses of water per day is a myth. burn fat and get toned by doing these exercises. but cellulite is natural and 99% of women have it so you HAVE to embrace it. take diet pills. ummm don’t you know those are meth?? take NATURAL diet supplements for weight loss. take THESE vitamins to cure your depression and clear your skin and make you better at sex and make your vision better and speed up your metabolism and make your digestion better and make you focus better. i know the ONLY right answer but you have to pay me for it. follow my blog! listen to my podcast! subscribe to my email newsletter! buy my snake oil!!

seashellronan

i want to go home. i will always want to go home. even when i am at home i want to go home. but i’m not really thinking of a place, it’s more that feeling of everything finally being over, of seeing the light in the windows of your house on a cold night, of being safe, the relief of leaving a party you’re not enjoying, like when you felt sick at school and they sent you home, or when you got upset at a sleepover and they called your parents. i want my mam to come get me. i want to go home.

seashellronan

elizabeth wurtzel, prozac nation // lorde, ribs // maggie stiefvater, the dream thieves // billie marten, red sea blue sea

ryebreadgf

karen russell, st. lucy’s home for girls raised by wolves

maryolive

i like to fork myself by daul kim // road music by richard siken // art by beth fuller // sarah addison allen // why be happy when you could be normal? by jeanette winterson // poetry by @jonismitchell

tallahasseemp3

even past the fact that putting fan content behind a paywall would be copyright infringement it’s literally depressing that everywhere online you’re encouraged to monetize your hobbies until there’s not a single thing you do that isn’t a side hustle. like it’s truly so soul destroying that we live in such a capitalist hellhole that you can’t create stuff for yourself anymore because it’s a missed opportunity to make an extra $4 a month and how dare you not want to produce labor every day of your life in exchange for money

mothergeekness

sighinastorm

Anastasia wasn’t a Disney movie. Saying it is now, simply because Disney bought Fox, is creatively anachronistic. Don Bluth didn’t fight in the animation trenches and escape the clutches of The Mouse to have his work artistically misattributed. I’m not dying on this hill. I’m defending this hill. I’m killing on this hill.

clockworkwizard-moved-deactivat

i hate being neurodivergent sometimes bc someone will be like "hey, check out this piece of media!" and i'm like. i would love to. unfortunately if i do i will probably become hyperfixated on it and lose my current hyperfixation and i don't want to do that bc i love my current hyperfixation :/

notcaptainjack

funnytwittertweets

aoi--no--ue

You have a plan so you can vary from the plan when necessary and can pick back up where you left off.

norothythefilmmaker

in case this wasn’t enough

fishfrommars

To be fair though he does have a criminal record

gumi-megpoidd

He did say that he tried to keep out of trouble

im-a-dragon-cawcaw

*high opera note* hasjfshdghskd

whatbigotspost

“BREAKING: Austin City Council approves the purchase of a hotel to permanently house people experiencing chronic homelessness USING DOLLARS

The Austin City Council voted on Wednesday to purchase a motel to provide transitional housing for those experiencing homelessness, while po

Proud of my city tonight

whatbigotspost

Been thinking about this so much since the news broke. (Caveat that of course there’s still so much to be done etc etc etc). But I hope you will indulge me in info dumping about it a moment. This is an INCREDIBLE opportunity for the Austin community, which was made possible through years of incremental reform, with key leadership by organizers and communities of color. (I won’t be naming or crediting all the organizers who contributed to this, so please don’t think I’m claiming that.) But there are some key city changes getting us to this point that I am personally aware of:

1. In 2014, the city moved to a more equitable “10-1″ city council structure by regions (instead of “at large” council members) which has led to more actual community representation on the city council. It decreased the disproportionate representation of city-wide very wealthy, white candidates. It increased the presence of people of color on the council, representing the interests and real lived realities of people of color and neighborhoods with lower socioeconomic status.

2. In 2019, the city council repealed a camping ban so that our unhoused neighbors could no longer be violently removed and all of their belongings, etc. sweeped and trashed from the public places by police. This drove the truth about the situation in our city “into the light” and has forced many Austinites who (literally) ignored the problem to acknowledge and confront it.

3. In summer 2020, the defund the police movement got some critical momentum at the city level (nowhere near what would be ideal, but still) and the more progressive city council members (backed by organized movements and orgs like Austin Justice Coalition) elected because of the 10-1 structure were able to make some key decreases to the police budget to seed this new hotel purchase that has just passed. All of this shit really matters. It tells a story of how a city can start to actually DO SOMETHING to better support its citizens instead of policing them (literally) to death. I’m in no way saying things are GOOD with Austin police, but this is the story of something important really happening to limit their power.

There is so much yet to be seen about this project. I am extremely heartened to see what we learn and I hope that the successes of housing those who need it will prove to be a fruitful endeavor that gets replicated. I live very close to a large exchange of giant highways and elevated roadway flyovers in South Austin, with a Walmart nearby and access to interstate travel. This clustering of elevated roads has become shelter for SO MANY of my unhoused neighbors. Prior to 2019, I’ve witnessed the police raids and property sweeps that they used to endure. It was horrifying. Right next to that interchange? Another empty hotel property just sitting there…….up for sale that is on the list of the properties that the city could potentially also buy and convert into permanent housing. That would be radically transformative for my neighborhood and my neighbors. My hope is really really high that actual solutions are coming.

aoi--no--ue

Super proud of my city.