MI PERDO // MI TROVO @aostas - Tumblr Blog

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Do you have any advice for healthy tumblr/general internet use? I bring this question to you since you read so frequently there's proof there of having restraint from scrolling all day.

I deleted all the apps off my phone and only use desktop and that has seemed to help tons with habitual scrolling, but I still feel as though I could be doing more.

i’ll level with you, i am not doing good right now. sick with grief, stressed out about life changes, just feeling on edge & chased by sadness. so i am seven books behind on my books for the year (and I was several ahead!), trying to read four books and barely getting anywhere. scrolling on my phone has a magnetic, malevolent hold on me right now. it feels horrible. I can see myself from outside my body sometimes. it makes me feel insane; i know i am in dystopia. bent over my phone like everyone else i see. so i am going to implement my regiment again, right now

the first thing is to think of your phone as your enemy. basically, you’ve been given the greatest gift of connection and source of information, but at the price of the seconds/minutes/hours of your one life. that is what it is. like all people bearing cursed lexicons, we have to scheme to get the greatest benefit with the least amount of cost

i remove all apps, set draconian time limits on all websites (5-8 min a day), someone else has the bypass code. i become excruciatingly aware of how much i want those minutes & how quickly i use them. the blocking apps in my phone malfunction & i don’t get any time that day and i sit with how that makes me feel. if i need to, i go to my (fucked up) laptop. i do this for 2-3 months and then get a few months of reprieve. but isn’t it horrible it always happens again anyway?

my phone should be for communication, necessary/useful information, and writing down my thoughts. it’s good to have fun with it also, but i am not having fun right now.

i also leave my phone in the other room, or in the car, & try to carry a book with me or just look around

FRICTION MUST BE INCREASED. the lack of friction in access to scrolling is like having no friction and inertia: you will go forever and your life will be gone. your brain will be worn down to a nub and you won’t even feel it happen