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i want it to all live here (handmade clothing from ur fave dinka lesbian)

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Look 5 photos by Hana. For Karama

Black mini gown with a white tulle skirt. freshwater pearls and seashell charms hand sewn onto the corset. Model is Poppy, who did her own makeup so perfectly:33

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Look 4 photos by Rowan Sharp. For Karama.

Black satin dress. Modeled by Logan

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Look 3 Photos by Hana. For Karama

Pleated mini skirt with grommets and lace trim, and a blue halter top with grommets on the center front slit. Model is Alvina

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Look 2 by Eugene Kim and Rowan Sharp. For Karama.

Black grommet dress with pink flower in the back . Modeled by Jinny

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Look 1 Photos by Hana, (shotby.hana on instagram) For Karama.

White ribbed tank, with pleated skirt and cow print tote bag. My model Cam, spent a lot of time perfecting the look of the bows in their locs and i appreciate it very much:3

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model’s faces, backstage for my collection, karama. (May 2023) photos by me.

Taken on a pentad k1000 camera:3

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the dress that holds the holes of my heart. taken at Saint Mark’s Cathedral. (june 2023) by sasa.

i made this dress for my collection in may. i said i wanted to make a dress for the funeral of my heart.

i trusted god, i trusted the spirit, i trusted myself to take care of him. sometimes it feels like god’s betrayal hurts more than losing all that i have.

he was my baby, he was what brought me closer to the earth. he was the love that i carried and held every night. he was the only miracle in my life. i miss him. when he died in the park, i wish i lied there with him forever. i wish i got to spend eternity screaming.

that day i told myself i wouldn’t care to search for the spirit anymore. if it was true, it would find its way back to me.

until this day, on june 19th, we walked near the cathedral, an angel let us in. he let us take these photos. and the rest of my day felt just as magical, just as sweet.

i still believe that betrayal was undeniably cruel. and i think thats what these photos, and what this dress are all about..

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“a black lamb resting in the most serene blue.” (illustration by sasa)

This is for all the undeniably beautiful, misunderstood girls.

Back in high school, I thought of clothes as nothing more than an instrument for beauty. A slip dress was beautiful to me because of its silky feel, beautiful drape, and soft colorways. I never took it for the implication. If I thrifted it, I might think about the woman who previously owned this dress. And I might imagine her reaction to seeing such a beautiful dress for the very first time. I’d think about how she would wear it around her house, making breakfast, or lounging under the sun. Or how easily she would fall asleep in such a breathable fabric. my desire to own such a dress would be based on how romantic, and naturally sensual my life would be because of it. 

I hope you see my work as beautifully interpreted, authentic apparel.  Sometimes inspired by the simple things, or whatever the girls are looking at. When you see the black lamb, hold onto what she truly represents.  Look to yourself, look at the ones you love, and understand your beauty has nothing to do with the ways of this world. “I am just a girl, therefore I am undeniably beautiful”.