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Yes I've met the idols you're thinking about

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Stated by UNUDUR (United Nations Universal Declaration of Human Rights), there are 30 rights embedded with each person since they were born. This is a common knowledge that has been taught since I was in primary school, and I think people needs to re-read and learn again. What’s happening rn is people ignores the point no. 1 and 2. So along with this post, I’ve attached the link to the simplified version of UNUDUR that’s a common practice all over the world. It takes less than 5 minutes to read.

It’s not just the black, the white, the asian, the melanesian, the euroasian, the half-race, the rich, the poor, the gay, the trans, the straight, the christian, the moslem, the non-christian and non-muslem, the high caste, the low caste, and the not yet mentioned but has been categorized by social standards...

Supremacy is not cool, bro.

Every lives matter. Everyone matters.

Let’s be the catalyst for changes.

United Nations Universal Declaration of Human Rights Summary: Youth For Human Rights Video

Read a Simplified Version of The United Nations Universal Declaration of Human Rights for Teens and Young Adults. Watch Videos and Learn Mor

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And

Well, it's not the first time I'm meeting the boys. I've met them before with less makeup on. Except for Jackson, he was in China that time

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Sooooo

I'm meeting GOT7 tomorrow and I'm getting everything ready then I realize I forget to bring my lightstick and my Mark clothes

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Well, because I've been tagged and bored af rn

MOST RECENT: 1. Drink: green tea 2. Phone Call: Boyfriend 3. Text: Boyfriend 4. Song you listened to: Friday - IU 5. Time you cried: I tend to forget when I cry right after I cried. HAVE YOU EVER: 6. Dated someone twice: Nope 7. Been cheated on: ambiguous 8. Kissed someone and regretted it: No 9. Been depressed: not really? 10. Lost someone special: yes 11. Been drunk and thrown up: never LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS: 12. Black 13. Grey 14. White In The Last Year Have You: 15. Made any new friends: Yes 16. Fallen out of love: yes 17. Laughed until you cried: Sure 18. Met someone who changed you: u-hu 19: Found out who your true friends are: Yup! 20: Found out someone was talking about you: Yes 21: Kissed anyone on your fb list: hella Extras: 22. How many ppl from your fb list do you know irl: I seldom play fb tbh 23. Do you have any pets: Yes, a pug and a pomeranian. 24. Do you want to change your name: not exactly my name, but nickname? 25. What did you do for you last birthday?: eat then sleep. Nothing fun. 26. What time did you wake up today?: 6.30AM. Morning lectures 27. What were you doing last night at midnight: Sleep duh. 28. Name something you can’t wait for: Summer vacations 29. Last time you saw your mum: March 12. 30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my future 31. What are you listening to rn: cinderella - cnblue 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: does tommy count? 33. What is getting on your nerves rn: See The Light BY GOT7. A lot of stories behind the song. 34. Blood type:O 35. Nickname: Gita, mae 36. Relationship status: Taken 37. Zodiac sign: pisces 38. Pronouns: ... 39. Favourite tv shows: I kinda grounded right here, but currently stream problematic man. I lobe food and intelligence tv shows. 40. High school: Done 41. College: finance. Currently. 42. Long or short hair:Middle length hair 43. Height: 155 cm. 44. Do you have a crush on someone: what should i say. 45. What do you like about yourself: i always see things from the positive sides. 46. Right handed or left: Right handed 47. First surgery: i think its appendix 48. Piercings: ears. 50. First best friend: someone with nickname CCC 51. First vacation: BALI, Indonesia RIGHT NOW: 52. Eating: Its night 53. Drinking: green tea 54. I’m about to: sleep 55. Listening to: sober - selena gomez Want: 56. Kids: Yes 57. Get married: Depends who 58. Career: Idk Which is better: 59. Lips or eyes: Eyes 60. Hugs or kisses: Hugs 61: Taller or shorter: Taller 62. Older or younger: prefer older 63. Romantic or spontaneous: isn't spontaneous romantic? 64. Nose, stomach or nice arms?: don't know. All the same for me. 65. Sensitive or loud: Loud like me! 66. Troublemaker or hesitant: well, there are times when being hesitant is good and being troublemaker is bad. Have you ever: 67.Kissed a stranger: No 68. Drank liquor: yes i'm overage after all, but someone will call and nag right at the line. 69. Lost glasses/contacts: No 70. Had sex on the first date: never 71. Broke someone’s heart: yes 72. Turned someone down: yes 73. Cried when someone died: Yes 74. Fallen for a friend: yes Do you believe in: 75. Yourself: quite like 76. Miracles: yes 77. Love at first sight: yes 78. Heaven: yes 79. Kissing on a first date: No Tagging whoever read this right now.

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I just read and re-read and re-re-read the Mark 'Wear It' fanfic and I don't quite understand the plot?

Sorry it was quite random because it was suddenly plopped out from my mind. The plot actually is:you and Mark both are an idol and because you both couldn’t go public with your relationship, Mark and you decided to use jewelry (ring and bracelet) and commited to use it everytime except on showcases when you guys need to take it off. And that time you were oversensitive because of your period. Then you saw a fantaken picture of his fanmeeting in Singapore and saw that Mark didn’t wear the ring, and you didn’t know that Mark actually wear the bracelet under his sleeve. Aaaand you attacked him during your FaceTime.

Thank you for asking anyway. Don’t hesitate to ask if you’re confused. :)

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[FANFICTION] I Wear It (Mark)

“I saw the fantaken photos,” I said in the middle of our usual pointless facetime conversation. Mark questioned with his eyes, wordlessly asked me to continue. “Where’s the thing?” “What thing?” he asked. I rolled my eyes. “Do I need to tell you like thousand times about it?” I whined. “Wait, babe I don’t understand what do you mean by the thing,” Mark answered confusedly. Suddenly I could hear Jaebum’s voice asked for razor. “Go for him first while you think about it,” I said sarcastically. Mark shouted the location of the razor and went back to me. “Babe what’s going on?” Mark asked again. He never thought he did anything wrong during GOT7’s press conference. “That wasn’t even a showcase, Mark Tuan,” I said annoyingly. “Ah,” Mark seemed to get the idea what did he ‘did wrong’. Then he folded his left sleeve of his hoodie and showed his Cartier bracelet. “On the left side. I wear it right.” “Oh,” I flustered. “The ring is on my pendant. Don’t worry,” he reassured. “And how’s your showcase?” “Some mistakes though, but everyone worked hard,” I said. “I also saw the fantaken photos. You wore those,” he said. I rolled my eyes. “At least that’s the way I can prove to you that I’m taken,” I jokingly said. “Because few knows duh.” “By the way, are you on your period right now?” he asked. “Do you need to say it out loud when I can hear Bambam’s voice right there?” I growled. “Seems I am correct,” Mark laughed. “It’s 12 in Singapore. So 2 in Seoul. Sleep.” “Why should I?” I asked in a sarcastic tone. “I am right you are in your bloody week,” he said again. “I don’t want you to be stressed by acnes tomorrow morning.” “So you don’t want to be with me if I have acnes?” I shouted. “I am the same age as Joey, though. Bye, Mark.” “Kidding,” he laughed. “Sleep now. I’m tired. Morning flight tomorrow.” “Okay bye,” I rolled my eyes and put my phone aside after I ended the video call.

And who knows the next day, straight from the airport, Mark showed in front of the studio with a small bouquet and a box called ‘BLOODY WEEK SURVIVAL TOOL’ which contained all the snacks I like? “Trying to be a sweet boyfriend to repay the weeks we couldn’t spend together,“ he cleared his throat. "I’m up for any food munching and netflix calls anytime,” he added with a cocky smile. "With some Ben&Jerry's?" I asked. "Cookies and cream this time," he claimed and I nodded.

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[FANFIC] Midnight Practice [Jinyoung]

I turned off the loud upcoming comeback song just to take my phone that kept ringing for the last 30 minutes. The caller has left approximately 20 missed calls which was quite annoying, and that was why I sighed hard before saying hello. "You," the very familiar voice said. "Where are you?" "Studio, duh," I rolled my eyeballs although he couldn't see. But he's close enough to know just by hearing my tone. "Have you eaten?" he asked. "I just finished my last schedule. Probably I can send you a Subway personally." "No need, oppa. Thanks," I said. "No. You need to eat," he insisted. "I know you well and I guess you haven't eat anything other than a bite of apple this morning. Don't try to lie." I kept my mouth shut. How on earth did he know? "Any drink?" he snapped me back to reality. "Ah, isotonic drink may help," I said. "I'm bringing sikhye," he said and hung up the call just before I wanted to protest. I sighed and typed a message for him to call me when he arrived. I turned on the song again and let the beat brought my soul away. I swear I was about to collapse when I hear the door was being opened. I thought it was the security trying to send me away, but it turned out to be my security. Yes, Park Jinyoung, my personal security. "Look how pale you are," he rolled his eyes in annoyance. "Go pick the weight scale." "No no no," I sighed uselessly because he took the weight scale himself and put it right in front of my feet. "Weigh," he demanded. I shook my head. He asked again and I shook my head again. Gave up, he sighed and picked me up from the floor. I shouted, but suddenly he stopped his action. I was still floating from the ground. "Are you a human skeleton now? Or a human paper?" he nagged before put me on the weight scale. Seeing the numbers, he just chuckled in total annoyance. I only gave him my super innocent smile which still couldn't stop his motherly nagging. I knew I am a dead meat by now. "Now sit," he demanded. I followed him and seated before he did. He opened the things he bought for me. "Eat these. I bought them with money." He prepped the foods while my eyes widened seeing the foods he bought. They were all my favorite, but were kind of ALL of my favorite meals. Jjajangmyeon, tamago sushi, fish cake, triangle kimbab, hotteok, sweet potato, and even my favorite snacks and beverages. "You sure know me a lot," I laughed while drinking the sikhye. He opened one for him too and drink it. "Listen. You need to listen as I am also an idol and I also need to maintain my weight just like you," he said while chewing his meal. "You gonna faint if you keep skipping meals. Just eat normally. I don't want you to get sick. You won't gain weight though, as you're also dancing." I nodded while chewing the fish cake. "Gomawo, Jinyoungie oppa." "And don't puke like other people do," he added. "It's bad for your health. It can cause death." I nodded. "Gomawo, oppa." "Are you really listening or just temporarily listening?" he asked. "Aish, don't you believe me?" I cried. He laughed and caressed my hair. "Don't be too stressed. You can do well," he encouraged. I smiled and nodded. Just then his phone rang. "Ne," he picked up. "No need. You guys can go, Youngjae-ah, I'm skipping this time. I bring a spare key with me. Don't worry, I'll go back tomorrow probably. Or maybe I'll hit somewhere. Okay, have fun." He hung up. "The kids are going to play bowling." "Not joining?" I asked. "Just go with them, oppa. I'm fine here." He shook his head. "Can't I just watch you practice?" he pouted. "I want to torture you with your song being speeded up." "Damn you," I hissed while chewing my triangle kimbab. He laughed. "You love me anyway, don't ya?" he picked. With all these sacrifices and cares, and also all of him being sincere and thoughtful to me, definitely; I thought.

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마스다아아아 #food #foodism #foodvine #kfood

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[FANFIC] Of Fluffy Confession and Dispatch (Mark)

Fluff, GOT7′s Mark x You (first point of view)

scenarios : you are a member of a JYP rookie girl group that almost debut, and Dispatch caught you and Mark dating on the night when your debut teaser launched. At the same time, GOT7 was going to make their comeback. To make things clear, Mark have to make his move alone.

I swap the iPad screen that Mark held to the left to see the next picture. I could only mouthed incoherent curse upon seeing what I saw. “Dammit,” I said in English.

“Did they follow us behind?” Mark wondered. “This is insane. Dispatch is insane. How could they recognise it’s me? I didn’t wear any makeup--I even wore mask and sunglasses at night! And ugh--that snapback is Jackson’s!”

“Oh my God,” I mouthed again. “I never see you to be this talkative, baby,” I added.

“But our photos came out good, though,” he said. “Maybe I have to save this. Don’t you think so, baby?”

I rolled my eyes. “This is not the right time to throw some joke, Tuan Yi En.”

He held the picture then touched the save button. “Do you think I’m kidding?” he sang the refrain from BTS’ Danger. I sighed. Mark is no joke.

“Brother Tuan, snap back to reality,” I clicked my finger right in front of his eyes. He jumped out of shock but then laughed and circled his left hand around my neck. After all these relationships, I am used to his affectionate skinships already. “Listen, Mark Yi En. I--”

“Baby could you please stop calling me--”

“Okay, Mark baby,” I rolled my eyes once again just to see him grinning widely just by hearing me calling him baby. “Oh you are so whiny. Now, listen well, okay?”

He nodded.

“I’m gonna make my debut on the next few days,” I sighed.

“Or maybe few weeks to be exact,” he cut me again.

“MARK!” I shouted. He laughed and said sorry while patting my head. “Listen. The most important thing is, both of us have our activities planned in near future. GOT7 is making comeback, so I’m also gonna make my debut. This scandal, of course, will affect directly into our activities.”

“You got the point, darling,” he smiled. “I have a plan in my head already. But I need JYP hyungnim to cooperate with me.”

Uh oh. If Mark said he has a plan, I’d better prepare for the worst.

“And you,” he continued. “Please, just believe me, could you?”

“Why should I?” I asked.

“I’ve got things in my hand. Imma make things clear and smooth,” he grabbed my face with both of his hands and made me to have the eye contact with him. Although we often do this kind of thing, but seeing him up close still feels the same as taking triple amounts of caffeine. “Listen to my amend. No matter what happens after what I might say later, I will protect you.”

I froze upon his words.

“Listen. I’m so sorry to make things hard. I believe a lot of my fans have sent you terrors and bad comments by now, as you’ve read at that news. And this scandal will also affect your group as well as my comeback. I know you’re worrying that. I know you’re scared right now. You’re scared upon small things. You’re scared of seeing people misjudge you,”

I nodded.

“I’ve already known the consequences of dating outside, but I still do it. It’s my fault,” he continued. “ So please, let me protect you. After all, I’m your man right?”

“But about that 3 years rule?” I asked.

“It isn’t written in the contract, though. It’s just our self-made amend. Nichkhun made his move onto Tiffany on his 2nd year,” he explained. “So, will you believe me?”

When I was about to answer him, his phone rang. And I got the feeling who’s calling. I heard him spoke incoherent Korean for some minutes, then he hung up the phone. “JYP called,” he said. As expected.

“Go,” I said. “I’ll continue practice. The girls are arriving in--”

Then I heard the door opened. “There they are,” I said to Mark as we stood up.

“Guys,” Boram was the first girl who opened her mouth. “Mark oppa, please take care of her well. Consider us too.”

“Will do,” Mark smiled. “Imma see hyungnim now. Good luck on your practice guys!”

Mark turned to me for a real quick peck. I could see his eyes full with fear he’s afraid to tell, but I won’t bother to ask right now. “I’ll visit again when things are settled.”

He walked to the door and shouted for him to tell the boys. “He told them already,” was the thing that Jihyun said to me. I nodded. I felt anxious.

Break time. I opened my phone the time when Mark sent a message to me.

Stream entertainment weekly rn.

Wondering why, I ran to the girls and asked them to stream it for me. And what I saw made me shocked and panicked. What did Mark do?

“He’s sure a gentleman,” Jihyun mouthed. I rolled my eyes and typed a quick message.

R u crazy? Wru? What r u doing?

Right after I hit send, the narrator said the purpose of that press atmosphere. I saw Mark accompanied by JB and JYP--our CEO. ‘As what we see, Mark is deciding to have a open press conference to tell us the truth about the scandal last night.’

“Okay, the first question?” the moderator asked. A reporter raised a hand.

“Are the rumours true?”

Mark hesitated at the second, but then nodded. “Firstly,” he said. “I would like to make an apologize to IGOT7 for making this chaos. Even though I want to say that the rumour is true, I still spare a space in my heart for IGOT7.

“Even though I am a public figure, I am still a human that has love. I still have the same right as a human, including rights to freely love and freely involve in a relationship. Although some of the fans may feel sad and angry, but I need you guys to understand. Can’t you be happy if I am happy?”

“To be honest, this is the first time Mark made a long speech smoothly,” said JB. “As the leader of GOT7, I’ve known this relationship since the first time they’re together. I also would like to apologize in behalf of Mark and GOT7, but please understand. This is not only Mark’s plea, but I strongly believe Mark spoke for all of the public figures in Hallyu. So, please support Mark for his relationship and his career with GOT7 with all your love for GOT7 and Mark.”

Another reporter raised a hand. “I heard that JYP has the relationship ban for 3 years of debut, but Mark’s girlfriend hasn’t started her debut yet.”

“First of all,” JYP started to open his mouth. “I never state about the rule. It’s not written on the contract--but it’s just our artists’ commitment. I also know about this relationship. At first I was afraid that she won’t focus on her debut, and Mark won’t focus on GOT7. But I was wrong. This couple supports each other. Because of her, Mark has become the better Mark, and so does she.”

“She takes care of us,” JB added.

“So, I’m not against this relationship,” JYP concluded. “As long as the relationship doesn’t disturb their focus on their individual and grouped career, I’m supporting it.”

“Oh, you’re getting the green light from the boss,” Boram sang. I rolled my eyes. “Aren’t you glad getting a boyfriend like Mark?”

“That’s just making your and Jinyoung oppa’s way easier to go public?” I mocked then continued to see what happened.

“Mark-ssi, for I have seen you have been involved in scandals before, I wonder what makes you choose this girl over the others?” asked a reporter.

Mark was silent for a moment, then a smile drawn on his face. “First, she’s innocent. The most innocent girl I’ve ever known.

Second, she takes care of me well. She’s the dumbest girl I’ve ever met, as well as the most foolish person I’ve ever known. She gets close with people easily. She likes to read classical books with a cup of Starbucks. She goes crazy over Caramel Macchiato just because of a song,” Mark explained. “When she smiles, she shows dimples and wrinkles around her eyes. She thinks about people before herself. She’s the one who strive for perfection. She’s so loveable and fragile, makes me feel like I need to protect her.

Every time I see her smile, I always think that I need to work hard just to see that smile again. Her worries worry me most, and her successes make me shed tears of happiness. She makes me into a better Mark without her realizing it. She makes me know what love means, and what love can do. I want to protect her and telling her to love herself, as she always thinks about what people say about her then stresses about it. She even go bulimic because some people said she was fat although she’s not.”

“You did that?” asked Boram. I kept my mouth shout.

“Mark was stressed so much every time she went to the toilet--to the point that Mark followed her behind,” JB added. “I’ve never seen Mark become like this before he met her. And now, Mark becomes more open to us. I’m very thankful to her for her ability to change Mark into a more extroverted person.”

“I guess that’s the last question for this press conference, as both Mark and JB have another schedule right after,” the moderator concluded the press conference. 

Seconds later, I received a reply from Mark.

Thank me later

I laughed. How can he. Then I typed a reply.

I never know you’d talk that long. Good job anw

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The Pig's Life

This is the photo that I posted some weeks ago on my Instagram , and a lot of people have been wondering a lot of questions on their mind. I know some of them asked me on Ask.fm . So, to answer your...

here’s link to my blog.

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[FANFIC] Late Night Talks (Jr.)

[request accepted for GOT7, Infinite and BTS. No smut.]

Pairings : GOT7′s Jr x you [first point of view]

well, just because I’m biased over him nowadays.

song recommendation : Ticket - CHEEZE

“And that was why Jackson went home with dirty hair last night,” Jinyoung laughed over the video call, so did I. I can clearly hear Jackson’s voice cursing him from afar, and I laughed. I was sure Jackson could hear my cracky laughing voice as Jinyoung didn’t wear any earphones. “Are you not going to sleep? It’s past midnight there.”

“Later,” I said.“What are you doing now, oppa?”

“The kids are going to stroll around LA with papa Tuan,” he said.

“Ah, you have to get ready then,” I pouted. “I’m sure papa Tuan will bring you good books and good foods too.”

“Later,” he pouted. “I still want to talk to you. Besides, I still have Mark to show me around too. And I can speak English better than Youngjae.”

“Oh, God. Just go with them,” I rolled my eyes.

“Baby I’m so happy just to see you from my phone, can’t I just stay here and wait until you fall asleep?” he pouted. “The kids know my heart and they have no problem with it.”

I sighed. “Arasseo, arasseo.”

“You always fail to argue with me,” he commented and giggled. “You have no idea how much I want to hug you right now, jagi. I miss you.”

His voice still have the power to make my heart beats uncontrollably, even though his voice is noisy with cracks from the satellite. His giggle is still cute, even though it will be cuter without the pixels. I nodded and answered, “Me too.”

It was 2AM, and suddenly the songs from my iPod shuffled into slow songs. I pulled my blanket more and continued looking at his face. We remained silent, and the silence between him and me is just comfortable. The song I can hear was his breathing and the sound of my music–and I am sure he heard the same thing as me. I hugged my teddy bear tighter as it was him I was hugging.

“Baby,” suddenly his voice broke the silence. I hummed to answer. “At times like this, when you walk around Hongdae and see couples walking, don’t you feel lonely?”

I kept my mouth shut. I do, oppa. Honestly I do.

“Because whenever I see couples passing by, I always think of you,” he continued. “I feel wronged for not being able to be beside you. I feel wronged for you. Because of me, you can’t have a normal life. Fans will chase you and I couldn’t do anything protect you.”

I saw disappointments in his eyes clearly, even though we’re separated by oceans right now. I smiled. I don’t want him to feel bothered, because seeing him blaming himself hurts my heart more. I shook my head. 

“I think of you when I see couples, to be honest,” I started. “But then I looked at the sky and think that right now, you’re seeing the same sky as me. And that is enough to make me happy, because I believe you think of me too on your flights.”

“And for the fans,” I paused. “Since the first time you entered the entertainment, I have agreed for the commitment. I have agreed for all the consequences, and I know I can’t turn back. It is true that sometimes I feel so tired and I’m not gonna lie that I ever thought to quit.”

There were another silences between us. “I can understand your reasons to quit, baby. I’m not gonna blame you if you do,” Jinyoung said with disappointment hinted in the tone.

I shook my head again. “But then I remembered all the things we’ve done. I promised myself to trust you. I promised myself to support you for everything you do. I promised myself to stay, even though I know it will be hard for me. Jinyoung baby, I listened to my heard and make a note on my mind that through all of these struggles there are greater things lay on our relationships.”

“I’m sorry for being a bad boyfriend for you,” he murmured, but I could hear clearly.

“No, you’re the best, oppa,” I remarked. “You’re the muse I’m glad I have. You’re the best decision I’ve ever made. And gosh, I don’t even know what will happen to me now if we didn’t meet at the bookstore back then.”

“And you’re the best girlfriend I’ve ever had,” he reclaimed, and I smiled. “Thank you, jagi.”

I scoffed. “What for?”

“Everything,” he said. “Jesus, I feel like hugging my phone right now I couldn’t contain more of the thoughts of hugging you.”

I laughed. “I wish I am there right now.”

“Or I am there, putting my hand under your head.”

“Or in between,” I smiled. “Distance sucks, really.”

“Sleep. It’s 4AM there,” he said.

I yawned. “I feel sleepy. Good night, oppa. Have a nice day,” I said as I closed my eyes.

“Good morning, jagi. Sleep tight,” he smiled. I didn’t end the phone call because I know he wants to see me drifting to sleep. 

“I love you,” he whispered.

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A tragedy happened at my domain city in Indonesia, Jakarta, last Thursday. I am currently studying in the suburb of Jakarta, and I was in a mall when the tragedy occured. I have been to the mall attacked, and at first I was confused why they chose that mall instead of the more crowded one, but after I remembered that foreigners often come to the attacked mall. Plus, there is a 24-hour Starbucks situated at the office building beside the mall.

My parents who are living quite far from me called and asked me to go home asap after they heard the news, and I did as told; right after finishing my last meatcut of Yoshinoya. I needed to eat though, because I faced the test on the next day. Simply, I and my friend arrived at the car and we rode back home asap (in fear). Then my friend talked about the terrorism that occurs lately, and one thing I could think of is about the lost of human’s humanity nowadays.

Is this the sign of the apocalypse? I don’t know. No one knows. Only God knows. Even if we predict it will happen, let’s say at 2020, God can ‘postpone’ it until 2100. Or even 3000. But the thing that matters now is : I see no humanities in humans nowadays.

Let’s talk from the wide vision first, then shorten it until it gets to the smallest point of view. I can see the world is evolving in some futuristic ways. Technologies are being discovered day by day. I am a 96s kid, so I can feel how the world revolve. Well, I am one of those who is mesmerized by how the world evolves. But I also think that the evolves can make humans into two differentiate of personalities : angels and devils.

Angels. Blogs and social feeds help people to publicly share what they want to share. YouTube and other video websites helps people to see the other side of the world with their eyes and costs montly internet subscriptions (and glasses for getting minus). Social medias help people over the world to communicate. Online shops grow like mushrooms (I don’t know other phrases, but mushrooms sounds correct though). Low cost flights make pennyless travels come true. Google and search engines help us to cure our curiousity, plus helpful in educations. You don’t need to pay for a face-to-face course to know some phrases in Chinese. The world is evolving like it has no boundaries. But don’t you know that those evolves have devils impacts?

Morphines are used wrongly by teenagers, so does Marijuana. Scientists try to find out how the Milky Way was made. Kidnapping and vandalism happens often because of social medias. False informations are spreading out. Even the evolves in educations can make a person into a devil. Doesn’t educations suppose to make a person into a good and mature one?

I remember learning ethiquettes and norms since when I was still a baby. I was born in a norm and ethiquette oriented family as I grow up in an eastern culture. I remember learning about how important our live is–even our wealth can’t buy our live. And those calculations and knowledges are learnt to support us to be a better person. Not to make bomb from our knowledge in chems and physics. Or using knowledge in pharmacy to make another drug.

I remember being told that human are social creatures who can’t live without other human. Even Chinese believe that relatives are more important than daily needs, because who else can give us daily need other than our relatives? And I am confused why do people keep killing each other. Like the bombs happened lately, the killing scenes, and even assasinations often happened. Don’t we feel insecure living in the world nowadays? Why do people hate each other? What are there to be hated for? Why do people have to choose a soroty? Aren’t we all humans the same? Why do people keep talking about each others behind the back? Why do this world is now filled with hatred? We are all made with a face, and why do we need to make another face just to make everyone happy? The first issue in society is : trust issue. I can conclude from my questions above is humans are tired to the betrayal from those they chose to believe, and therefore some of people choose to limit what they say and who they meet in order not to trust them. This makes people become an introvert, as they believe that no one will listen and understand what they want to say. Even I am thinking that you might think negative things about me when you read this. At some points, it also makes some certain people, sometimes, feel alone and alienated with all those hatred they (silently) get. I believe there are lots of people are nodding while reading the statement.

I once read about a whale which speak with unusual pitch, at 52Hz; meanwhile other whale speaks at around 30Hz at max. The 52Hz whale is known to be the loneliest whale in the world. We are all human. We speak in the same pitch and the same form of communication. We know how to say sorry and apologize. We are human, not a whale. We are made to be smarter than them. Why do suddenly I talk about a certain whale? Because I can relate the feeling of being alienated with the lonely whale. Like; the whale was just being itself and no one could understand it. I once heard the sound that the whale made, and really, I want to cry. I can find loneliness in the tone of the voice. But don’t we sometimes, in the middle of the night, also feel the same? Lonely, like you want to tell other people about your feelings but you can’t fully trust them?

Trust issues have a dominant effects on crimes nowadays, though. I actually want to explain, but it could be longer and you might sleep before you could finish reading my whole shit-talking.

I sometimes think the same way as Akdong Musician in this song, “why are people nowadays so cold?”

Watching the music video will also help you understand though. This is only a shitty paragraphs made by an INFP who is irritated by societies nowadays. I hope it can open your mind about how this world is in a trust society complex. Comments are welcomed; and I would like to hear more from you guys.

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