words on words

the words that never leave the comfort of my journal

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I am deeply sorry to the people I hurt when I was hurting

from the healing heart #4

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How is it possible to feel everything and nothing all at once?

from the sad heart

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It wasn't supposed to hurt like this. I wasn't supposed to feel like this. And I sure wasn't supposed to love you like this. But things change, hearts break, and life goes on without you.

from the hurting heart #3

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I hate you and the way you make me feel. The way you make my cheeks turn pink and the way you make me smile all stupid. The way your lips part and your eyes shine and you control everything I am. The way you cloud my brain and make me forget the things I swore I never would. But the thing I hate the most is that I really don’t hate you at all as much as I try to convince myself I do.

I hate you

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Seeing someone slowly slip away from your grasp is utterly heartbreaking. Knowing nothing you say or do can bring things back to the way they once were.

from the hurting heart #2

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The saddest truth I’ve had to learn is that as much as I love you I’ll never have you. You’ll never be mine. You’ll never look at me the way you look at her. You’ll never love me as much as I love you. I’ll never be the one and it’s about time I start telling myself that.

from the hurting heart

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Sometimes I wish I could go back and save myself the heartache that came from falling in love with you, but I know I never would. As bad as it hurt, I would go through a pain a hundred times worse to see your stupid smile one last time.

from the healing heart #2

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It's funny how at one point in time you were the only thing I could think about, and now you're just a face in a crowd.

from the healing heart

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I wish you saw the way my eyes lit up when I saw your face from across the room. I wish you saw how happy I got when you spoke my name. I wish you could see how I cry myself to sleep knowing that I'm never going to be good enough. I wish you could see how hard I fell for you. But I guess that's what I get for falling in love with someone I have no chance with.

from the shattered heart #6

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You know that feeling when you are on the verge of tears but have to push them away to conceal yourself. You have to convince yourself it’s alright, that’s you’ll be okay but then one person says one single word and suddenly you are drowning in tears as everything comes rushing back and you are stuck in the middle of it.

from the shattered heart #5

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The thing about falling in love is you always end up shattered. Things that fall break right?

from the shattered heart #4

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What a shame it is to love someone more than they'll ever love you.

from the shattered heart #3

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It’s all shattered. Like a million tiny pieces of glass that can never be put together again. You can try and try and try but in the end all you get is blood on your fingers and tears on your cheeks.

from the shattered heart #2

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You left me. You left me broken. You left me shattered and unable to pick up the pieces. But that's what you do to broken things, you throw them away.

from the shattered heart