signing off after 8 years
This has been a long time coming, but I am finally leaving this site for good! I barely come on anymore, and if I do, it’s only for a few minutes.
I’ve not done well mentally on this site (ever since my first big hiatus in 2015). The reasons for this are private but it has, at times, directly affected me to the point of self-harm. Ever since graduating and moving on with my life, I’ve found that I’m in a better headspace outside tumblr, even with what little resources I have.
I want to thank this website in general (and a few of you who have been on since the very beginning) for helping me to change my world view, educating me, and helping me to become a better person.
This isn’t some nostalgic bs…I came from an extremely isolated conservative christian bubble, never went to school, had extremely limited contact with friends, no siblings, no groups or camps, not allowed to drive or go out, was kept in a small room every day except sunday, and everything I did, said, and looked at was heavily monitored by my parents. I have been really fucked up in my life, but when I received my first laptop at age 19 and signed up on this website after finding some of @mfluder14‘s posts, it opened up a new world for me.
I’m also just not really into fandoms anymore. It’s multiple reasons…whether I’ve been extremely jaded by how my favorite franchises have been treated, or seeing just years of infighting and discourse: I’m tired. One thing’s for sure though, I’ll miss the creativity here.
In conclusion to this rambling, I would just encourage anyone to reach out patiently to young people who don’t share your views, because I was once there, and it helped me to change. There’s shitty people out there but there’s also just uneducated people like me that are struggling to unlearn everything that had been forced on them. It takes time.
This blog will stay up, since I can’t bring myself to delete 8 years of stuff like that. I think I created my blog in May, so it’s fitting that I will leave it on this month. And, I want to thank the few people who know me irl on here for keeping my blog, and real name, private.
So long, and I hope you keep sipping that Loving Mulder juice!











