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I was told if u have nice thoughts u look happier and nice as a person. And when u have ugly ones, youre ugly. I just feel ugly~even when i try to have nice thoughts. I feel tired and exausted trying to moderate them....so i probably just look tired.

I wish the best for my personality haha

mxnrique

I can’t believe that the Citizens of Pawnee are actually real.

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I AM LAUGHING !

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honestly even if im doing nothing im busy….appreciating my own aura

Omg so my (unbeknowest)??-dream came true when i finally got to talking to abdul. But the lord loves to fuck with me and although our first "date" was great, his other qualities make me suffer. Like seriously. He is the most fucking boring texter. He is literally horny all the fucking time. He's not allowed to go out (i understand! I really do! I was in that posish before but jesus christ now i know how other half fucking feel!). He asks the same fucking questions all the time. Bless his fucking soul but i am so annoyed and bothered. And on top of all that the times we've had sex literally lasted seconds. SECONDS. He is a little too freaky for me. Butthole stuff i'd RATHER NOT.

Sooooooo

This guy at work is really cute and im totally gonna get disappointed (and he's almost fucking 30) or at 30. He probably already has a gf, even tho he said he didnt, but gosh he is so cute to look at. Whatever. I welcome any cute distractions :)))))

This really sucks

I hate that i still want a future with the version of ryan i created. The relationship was so normal to me, i feel as if maybe this was the closest to real as it got. I wanted so much from him. It really sucks that i have to deal with the left over feelings of past dreams. The thought that we'd be together for "ever". I feel as though i am slowly releasing the feelings tho? Each time i get sad again its not as intense. I dont know why i care for him to see me while i dont care to see him. Maybe its bc i want him to come back and apologize and hate himself for losing such a "great" girl. (God it pains me to call myself that, but i was NOTHING BUT GOOD TO HIM). I ONLY ASKED TO BE LOVED. And to be wanted. And to be worthy of him seeing a future with me as he had mentioned and lied to me before about. I hate that i let myself fall for someone who just wasnt right. I constantly had to mold myself for him, but honestly i loved the version of myself that was with him. I was more normal, had to be more talkative, had to be more patient, had to have some fight in me, had to be less lethargic, had to stand up for myself, had to be cleaner, less lazy, had to be interested and interesting to new trends and stuff. I hate that it took another person for me to find joy in living life with more people. I truly love people but he showed me that i dont have to stand by and watch but i can fully and activly participate! Allison....wtf I miss who i was with him, and i honestly miss having someone to share my life with and who was on my side. What i dont miss is how insecure i was about his feelings, (and i was right). I dont miss his lack of being enthused in the things i loved or enjoyed. I dont miss his lack of education....maybe thats not the right word....but i definitley dont miss his impatience for certain things. He got mad so easily, let it go so easily and i never fucking knew what to do with that. I was always left in the aftermath of his anger. Either propelling him or trying to calm him down. I dont miss his lack of enthusiasm for life, as muchc as he had it for friends and beers and movies/shows he didnt have it for nature, food or the other beautiful things the world has to offer. Even people. I shall soon get over this and then fully not gaf about walking around the mall or checking for his car. Im done thinking about this for the night and hoepfully for a long time. He's honestly better with soemone else who isnt me cause i wouldve eventually become a person i hate. I want to live life for myself. Im learning to enjoy life little by little with the aftermath of ~the string of relationships~ all of the emotions

#time to go make that moneyyy!!!!!!#3 shifts in a row!

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Yadon Ilaheyya/Divine Intervention (2002), Elia Suleiman

Little by little the only thing that was keeping me alive is destroying me

#love #sean #(not that im in love with him-just the prospect)

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the education system wont really be teaching you important shit like this..

so let me be the one to do it…

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doctor i cant feel my butthole

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I love you. I do. I just, I love you. And I have been trying not to say it. I have been trying so hard to just mash it down and ignore it and not say it… I am so in love with you. And you’re…You’re in me. You’re like — it’s like you’re a disease. It’s like I am infected by Mark Sloan and I just can’t… I can’t think about anything or anybody and I can’t sleep. I can’t breathe. I can’t eat. And I love you. I just, I love you all the time. Every minute of every day. And I. Love. You.

Lexie Grey (via phychedelic-silhouette)

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Let me tell you about George O'Malley.

George O'Malley is a hero. He didn’t like his life so he change it into something he could be proud of. He decided to save lives and he did just that, from the moment he walked into Seattle Grace to the moment he walked out.

George O'Malley is a kind, compassionate, sweet, caring, loving, gentle person who changed so many peoples lives. Everyone who met George liked him–though they didn’t always show it. He knew what he wanted and he fought like hell to get it.

George O'Malley wanted to save lives and that is exactly what he did. He died saving a life, a complete stranger who didn’t even smile back to him. His life ended by saving another’s. THEN GUESS WHAT GEORGE O'MALLEY DID NEXT!!!! George O'Malley saved even more lives by donating his organs.

He died a hero, a savior, a god. But more importantly he died a better man then he was before he started his journey.

I hope that I can become even half of the person that George O'Malley was. I hope I can be as kind and caring when my world is falling apart. I hope I can be respectful and compassionate when hurting other people. I hope I love with all of my heart and I hope that I leave behind a reason to be missed.

There are not enough words in my vocabulary to describe why 007 means the world to me. I will never be over his death, but I will always be grateful for the five seasons that lead to a respectful ending to George O'Malley’s story line.