My Name on Your Back — Jude Bellingham
featuring: jude bellingham x gf!reader. summary: jude notices you always wear white to his games, but you never wear his real madrid jersey. contents: established relationship, little bit of angst. author's note: my first football fic oh my gawd. trying it out to see how it goes. also i kinda like these colors. might change my theme AGAIN.
You and Jude have been together since his days at Dortmund. The two of you met while you were still in college, long before his career skyrocketed to the heights it has today.
The way you met has always been hilarious to you—and incredibly embarrassing for him. It happened early one morning at your local coffee shop, where you were finishing assignments and studying when you noticed a guy in a Borussia Dortmund kit struggling to place his order.
The coffee shop was owned by an elderly couple, and their daughter usually helped them run the place. The problem was that only their daughter and a few of the other workers spoke English. Unfortunately for him, only Greta, the owner’s wife, was working that early morning.
He looked nervous and embarrassed, clearly feeling bad about making her struggle through the interaction, but his German was just as unhelpful as her English.
You watched the scene unfold for a few seconds before stepping in and asking him what he wanted, translating it for Greta. He quickly paid for his order, managing to give her a grateful “Danke” before turning his attention back to you.
"You're an angel."
"Uh no, I'm Y/N."
The rest was history.
He didn’t ask you out right away. Instead, he became a regular at the coffee shop, just like you. Whenever it was only Greta working, he would still try to place his order himself, but by then, she already knew exactly what he wanted, making things much easier for both of them.
After two weeks, he finally built up the courage to ask you out. You accepted, and he took you to a nice, cozy restaurant for your first date. After that came another date, then another, and another, until eventually, the two of you made it official.
Four years had passed, and your relationship was stronger than ever. After four long and exhausting years, you finally graduated from college. You couldn't have been happier to leave behind endless classes and earn the degree you'd worked so hard for, but your excitement was nothing compared to Jude's as he watched you walk across the stage to receive your diploma.
Not long after, the news of Jude's move to Real Madrid became official. You had always known this day would come. Dortmund was a massive club, but Real Madrid was on another level. Even though you weren't a Real Madrid fan, you knew this was the opportunity of a lifetime for your boyfriend.
He asked you to move to Madrid with him. After giving it some thought and securing a great job opportunity in the city, you agreed to go with him. Jude was ecstatic.
You were going to miss Dortmund, but if you were being honest, staying there forever had never been part of your plans.
The first couple of months were better than you expected them to be. Both you and Jude quickly settled into your new routines, adjusting to the new city and meeting new people along the way. Your job was demanding, but also very flexible, allow you to enjoy it and truly make the most of the opportunity.
Jude was still getting used to the team and their style of play. The better he performed, the more confident he became, and watching him grow more comfortable in his new environment made you prouder every single day.
You never missed a single home match. No matter how busy your schedule was or how you were feeling that day, you always found a way to be there for him.
Jude would look up and find you sitting beside his mom in the stands, wearing a white shirt, top, or dress that matched the season and the day’s conditions.
He started noticing a pattern.
You would wear white, or if you were able to travel to see him away from home, you would match his second kit. But you never wore his jersey. Not once.
It wasn’t like you didn’t own one or couldn’t get your hands on one. Jude had plenty of them lying around the house.
Maybe it's because they're too big, he thought.
No, if you really wanted one, you would’ve asked him to get you one in your size. But you never did.
Because you didn’t like Real Madrid.
It wasn’t a secret, but he thought that with time, maybe—just maybe—your dislike for the team would fade. You never made negative comments about the club or his teammates, in fact, you actually liked some of them. But you were passionate about football, and he knew that changing your mind wasn’t going to happen overnight.
It still bothered him to some extent. After all, there was nothing he loved more than seeing you wear one of his jerseys. The last time it had happened was back in Dortmund, not counting the international break.
At first, he tried to ignore it. It was a small thing, dumb even if he gave it any real thought, and he knew there were much bigger things to care about—like the unconditional love and support you'd given him for the past four years.
You supported him in every way that mattered. You had moved to another country for him, you were building a new life alongside him, and you were always there whenever he needed you.
But still, it bothered him. Because to him, the jersey was never just a jersey, it was a milestone.
He had grown up dreaming of moments like this. Playing for a big club like Real Madrid, living the life he'd always imagined—and seeing you wear his shirt would have meant more to him than he could ever explain.
But every match day, he looked up into the stands and saw you dressed in white. You always wore a smile, but never his name. Never his number. Just white.
He hated that it made him feel this way. It almost felt as though it was a part of his life you refused to embrace—which was ridiculous, because you had embraced everything else. Literally.
You helped him adjust when everything felt unfamiliar. You listened as he talked—and ranted—about training, tactics, teammates, and every little thing that came with joining a new club, even if you didn't understand some things. You celebrated his victories and stood by him after the difficult matches. You were there. You were always there.
So why did something so small bother him so much?
Deep down he knew the answer.
He wasn't asking you to love Real Madrid. He wasn't asking you to forget the club you grew up supporting—or the one you'd probably support until the day you died. But a selfish part of him wanted one thing that felt like it belonged only to him.
He wanted to see you wear his name.
So one night, after another match where he found you sitting beside his mom in the stands wearing white, he decided to finally bring it up.
The two of you were curled up on the couch at home when you noticed it. Jude was unusually quiet. You knew him well enough to recognize the silence for what it was.
"What?" You asked, looking up at him. "What?" He looked confused. "You're staring." You pointed out. "I have a question." You raised an eyebrow. "That never sounds good."
"Real Madrid. Do you really hate them that much?"
The question caught you off guard.
"Where did that come from?" Jude shrugged. "You never wear my jersey." That was what was bothering him. "Jude..." He interrupted. "I know it's stupid."
"I just don't get it." He shook his head. "You don't get what?" You asked. "I don't get why you won't wear something that represents me."
The words sat between you. Suddenly, it didn't feel like a conversation about football anymore.
"You think that's what it is?" You looked at him. "I don't know."
That answer hurt more than you expected.
"You actually think me not wearing a jersey means I don't support you?" You were now facing him completely. "No." He said quickly—way too quickly for you not to know he was lying. "You do." He stayed quiet.
You looked away, hurt.
"Jude, I've given up a lot to be here." He rubbed his face with one hand as the other found its way into his hair. "I know."
"No, I don't think you do right now." The guilt immediately crossed his face. "I know you moved here."
"It's not just that, Jude." You were quieter now. "I left my friends behind. A place I knew. Just because I eventually wanted to leave Dortmund doesn't mean I wanted the routine I spent years building to abruptly change. I started over because I wanted to be with you."
"I know."
"I come to every single match. I sit there every week no matter how busy my schedule is. I learn about your team, your opponents, your schedule. I listen when you talk about football for hours, even when you repeat the same stupid stories."
That made the smallest smile appear on his face. But it disappeared when he saw your teary eyes.
"So you don't get make me feel like shit and like none of that counts because I won't wear a fucking shirt."
His expression softened immediately as he grabbed your hands. "I didn't mean it like that."
"I know you didn't." You sighed. "But that's how it felt."
For a moment, neither of you said anything.
Then Jude looked down at your hands.
"I just miss it." He mumbled. "Miss what?" His eyes found yours. "Seeing you wear my name." And that was when you understood. It wasn't about Madrid or the club. It was about him. "You know I don't have to wear a jersey for me to choose you, right?"
"I know."
"Do you?"
He had gotten so caught up in wanting that small thing that he forgot about all the bigger, more important ones.
"I love you. I love watching you play. I love seeing you succeed. But I'm not going to pretend to love a club I don't like just because you're there."
He snorted.
"You really won't compromise on this."
"Nope." He pouted. "Not even for me?" You smiled, shaking your head. "Not even for you." He shook his head, but this time he was smiling. "You are impossible."
"Dude, you knew that the moment you asked me out."
"Fair." He pressed his lips to the back of your hand before pressing them to your own.
And even though he still secretly hoped that one day you would surprise him, he understood that you didn't need to wear his jersey to prove you were on his side.
You had been proving it all along.
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