With the random flashback I had about him, I started biting my lip and tapping my foot against the ground anxiously. That mask most certainly didnât hide anything; nothing could ever escape his gaze. Just looking at him made me so nervous, my knees went weak. And now, I had a meeting with him. On top of that, I didnât even know how long it would take.
âOkay, Y/N, being nervous wonât help you right now. And I donât have time to go talk to Diluc either. I have to, no, I will handle it.â
I was trying to change my jacket into something more formal while looking in the mirror. With a hair tie in my mouth, I kept going,
âThough⌠he might get frustrated and send a whole army after us.â
I continued as I tightened my hair one last time and straightened my clothes with my hand.
âOh well, even if he realizes it, Iâll use my skills. And everything will be juuussst fine.â
While walking toward the hotel, I kept repeating the same thing over and over:
'A shaking hand ruins everything.'
Walking through the crowds, head held high, repeating the same lines to myself, I soon arrived in front of the hotel. There were more Fatui guards outside the gate than usual. Whenever there was a problem with Mondstadt's security, they always seemed to disappear but when one of their masters arrived, they knew exactly how to follow them around like dogs.
When they noticed my gaze on them, one of the high-ranking soldiers stepped forward. He first examined me, then began to speak.
âWhat are you staring at, knight?â
Ugh. I hated that condescending tone the Fatui always had. Every single one of them spoke like that, as if their voice was whispering in my ear, âbeat him up.â
âIâm here to meet the Lord Harbinger, Pantalone, to represent Mondstadt and the Knights of Favonius.â
My tone was steady and sharp.
Upon hearing me, he gave a short nod, turned around, and sent one of the soldiers inside. It didnât take long for him to return. After delivering the message to his commander, all eyes were suddenly on me again.
The same soldier spoke, âLord Harbinger is waiting for you, madam. Please, come in.â
Wow, the change in tone was something else.
Without indulging in any further conversation with these lame dogs, I stepped inside, heading straight to speak with their master.
While I was still in awe of the fanciness of the hotel, another guard approached me.
âItâs an honor to have a Favonius knight in Lord Pantaloneâs hotel,â he said after giving a small bow of the head. âPlease, follow me.â
The hotel was full of Fatui soldiers. Sure, they didnât wield Visions like I did, but they could manipulate elemental powers in one way or another. I could probably take most of them down, up to a point. But against my (...) vision, there were just too many elements in play.
The stairs were steep, but if I could reach the chandelier from the upstairs balcony, I might be able to drop down and escape. The windows inside the hotel were either too high or too low, at ground level, impossible to access in a rush.
Without realizing it, I started scanning my surroundings in a very obvious way. My brain was automatically concocting over a thousand scenarios, trying to separate positives from negatives and find a definitive solution. But this didnât go unnoticed by the soldier walking beside me. Even with a mask covering his eyes, I could feel his gaze.
âYou like the hotel, I guess? Strange that youâve never been here before.â
Before I had the chance to answer or more like, before I had to come up with a quick lie, he kept going.
âThough I must say, Lord Regrator rebuilt this place to make it more appealing to the eye.â
âAh, yes. Thatâs why I was looking around. Even though it was a building on Mondstadt land, it was marked as âprivate propertyâ and guarded 24/7. We werenât exactly allowed inside.â
I could hear that small spark of irritation under his little laugh.
Good. I still know how to push their limits.
After we climbed the stairs and passed through the hall, the soldier led me into a large room. Even though it was broad daylight, the interior was dim, lit only by low-hanging chandeliers. A not long rectangular table stood at the center, but unlike the usual arrangement, there were only two chairs.
âHe knows how to hide his true face very well. He could fool someone into thinking this setup is sincere.â
I was too caught up analyzing the room, calculating new escape routes, to notice that the soldier had already left the door open, and that someone had walked in without a sound.
âWell, if you prefer to sit at a long table, we can,â came a voice behind me, velvety and cold. âBut either way, to hear me properly, you'd have to come closer eventually. And we wouldn't want to waste time, would we?â
He was already behind me. I felt a bead of sweat trail down my spine. Iâd been distracted. That fear Iâd tried to toss aside? It had already cost me my first mistake.
'I must not fear. Fear turns hunters into prey.'
I forced the words from the underground intelligence network back into my mind, the words they made sure that we carved into our brain.
'Fear freezes people before death ever reaches them.'
With a deep breath, I composed myself, masking the tension with a formal smile. I turned around to face him.
He mirrored my smile. Calculated, hollow... and took a slow step forward. That heavy aura clung to the air around him, pressing down on me like smoke. Something about him made my instincts scream. I hated it. I didnât even know why I hated it. And I hated not knowing.
âHoweverâŚâ he said, voice low and amused, âto speak of someoneâs true self before formally meeting themâŚâ
He stopped in front of me, and extended a gloved hand.
âThatâs a little rude, donât you think, MissâŚ?â
I took his hand and gave it a firm shake.
He tilted his head slightly, smile never touching his eyes.
âPleasure to meet you, Y/N.â
As we sat at the table, he placed his hands calmly in front of him, fingers interlaced with deliberate precision. He was observing me. More so dissecting me, with that unreadable, unnerving stare. I didnât know how to escape it. But looking away would make me seem weak, unsure. And I wasnât about to give him that.
So I looked straight into his eyes.
Even if I couldnât read his mind, I knew he was measuring everything, my posture, my breathing, the smallest twitch of my eye.
He doesnât blink much, I noted.
"Are we going to begin discussing the reason you came here?â I finally asked, clearing my throat to break the silence.
I was the first to speak.
Just that same controlled, practiced expression, like he already knew every answer I could give.
âI didnt know Mondstadt people were that eager to work. Quiet⌠surprising.â
âIt seems like you âquietâ enjoy making inferences about people.â
If you're talking to someone like Pantalone, you need to be quick and sharp with your answers. Even in the few seconds I had spent with himâwell, plus the additional research I did afterwardsâI learned that this man doesnât just read your mind. He reads your soul.
You canât give him time to figure you out. Not even a sliver.
He took a slow sip of the coffee that had been served to him. As I picked up my own cup to accompany him, he began to speak again.
âSo, do you want to talk about the business first... or what you were doing in Snezhnaya?â
How did he even figure that out so quickly?
Am I that obvious?
Did he see my face back then?
What is he going to do to Mondstadt if he knows I was the one who planted that bomb in his tent?
Maybe the cityâs already blockaded. The Fatui always seek revenge or whatever outcome benefits them the most. Is he planning to threaten me? To pressure me with something Mondstadt won't be able to endure?
A thousand thoughts started pacing through my head like foxes, quick, sly, dangerous.
The cup Iâd picked up was still suspended halfway. My expression froze, and I tried to correct it quickly, forcing myself to take a sip of coffee, albeit with some effort.
My voice was steady, and I didnât blink once as I delivered the response.
He slowly rose from his seat, and each step he took toward me was unnervingly graceful, effortless yet precise. It wasnât just the way he moved, but the aura he carried with him. That presence... as if the entire room shifted around him.
Thatâs what it screamed. And it sank into your bones whether you wanted it or not.
When he finally came to stand beside me, he leaned casually into the narrow space between my chair and the table.
âAre we really gonna do this Miss Y/N? Iâm trying to create a peaceful environment for you to open up. You donât have to lie to me.â
âYeah, its very obviousâ I said to myself.
My gaze lifted to meet his, and for a brief second, the air between us shimmered, not with elemental power, but with something far more dangerous. Recognition. A silent nod between predators who'd once crossed paths with daggers drawn but never declared the war officially.
Pantaloneâs expression remained unreadable, but the amusement playing at the edges of his mouth grew a fraction deeper.
âYouâre trembling slightly. Thatâs not like you.â
His tone was gentle. It was like silk drawn across a blade.
âYou're mistaken,â I answered, steady this time. âThis is just... anticipation.â
His smile curved, just enough to betray interest.
âI can see why Mondstadt keeps you buried in paperwork. If I were a lesser man, Iâd say itâs a waste. But perhaps they understand that keeping someone like you caged is safer than letting you run loose.â He tilted his head slightly. âThough, clearly, even cages canât hold you.â
He was toying with me. But it wasnât ridicule. No, it was something far more calculated. Admiration, maybe. Or curiosity disguised behind condescension. I wasnât sure which one I hated more.
âYou slipped through every crack we thought we sealed. You planted a bomb in the middle of our winter capital, at a time when the Harbingers were most exposed. And you walked away.â
His voice had lowered to something barely above a whisper. And he didn't even sound angry.
So, I chose to remain silent, watching him.
âWhy?â he finally asked, leaning a little closer. âWhat drives a Favonius knight to wade through ice and blood for such⌠reckless acts?â
âI was following orders,â I said, flat.
âAh,â he breathed. âBut not Mr. Ragvindrâs, I assume.â
He leaned back again, finally giving me space to breathe, though his words filled it quickly.
âYou see, Y'N⌠life has an unpleasant way of boxing people like you into roles that donât suit them. Sharp minds dulled with bureaucracy. Wild hearts smothered in morality. You tell yourself you're doing the right thing, but whatâs ârightâ in a world where borders shift depending on whose wallet weighs more?â
His fingers traced the edge of his porcelain cup, slow, idle.
âYou could have killed me. You had every opportunity. Yet here you are. Alive. So either youâre terribly bad at finishing your workâŚâ
He looked up, the amusement now razor-thin and cold.
âOr you never truly intended to finish it.â
That shut me up for a moment. Even I didnât know what held me back then; fear? uncertainty?
He continued before I could fire back.
âPerhaps, deep down, you understood something the rest of your little guild hasnât grasped yet: killing a Harbinger does not make the world more just. It just leaves a vacuum. One more dangerous than before.â
He stood again, always moving, like the world existed to adjust around him, and paced slowly behind my chair.
âI know people like you... You donât belong behind a desk, pushing pens and reporting to commanders who think too slow to matter. You are not meant to obey. You are meant to calculate. To survive. To win.â
The words fell like a blade between us.
I turned slightly, not fully facing him. I didnât trust myself to, not yet.
âYou want me as your pet?â I said, eyes narrowing. âA former assassin you can leash, just because I was reckless enough to challenge one of you and live?â
âNot a pet,â he replied instantly. âNo, no. I want you as a partner.â
I let out a short breath, couldâve passed as a laugh, if not for the tension tightening my shoulders.
âYou offer that like it means nothing.â
He returned to his seat, this time leaning forward just slightly, fingertips touching like he was praying to a god of balance sheets and silent wars.
âIt means everything in business. More than trust. More than loyalty. Itâs the acknowledgment that both sides are dangerous and useful. Youâve seen what I can do. But Iâve seen what you can do, too. Very closely.â
Then he paused for a short time
âAnd frankly, Iâd rather you work beside me⌠than against me.â
Silence descended for a moment, stretching taut like a drawn bowstring.
âYou think life is a business deal,â I said.
He chuckled once,genuine, this time.
âNo. I think life is unfair. But Iâve learned how to profit from it.â
He held my gaze again, he was more transparent than ever.
âAnd I think⌠youâve learned how to survive it. But surviving isnât enough anymore, is it?â
His words struck something deep. Too deep that I hated that they did.
Because I knew this was only the beginning of his game. And Pantalone didnât play unless he already knew he could win.
The words hung in the air like frost. I stared at him, long enough for the coffee in my hand to lose its warmth. He knew it, too. The silence wasn't awkward. It was deliberate. A pause for effect. A space he carved so I could either step in⌠or fall.
I hated how well he played.
I hated how familiar it all felt.
Because in some strange, unforgiving way, I understood him.
And maybe thatâs what unsettled me the most.
The room hadnât changed, yet the weight of it had. The chandelier above us barely swayed, yet the gravity between us shifted subtly. He wasnât threatening me. Not in the traditional sense. No daggers. No blackmail. No armies. Just⌠invitation.
âIf I say no,â I said carefully, voice low, âwill you let me walk out of here?â
He studied me, that smile still faintly there. Less predator, more merchant.
âI donât chain people who think for themselves. I only invest in them.â
There it was again. That damned tone. Like I was a blueprint he wanted to fold into a larger plan. Like I was a rare piece of art that someone clever enough had finally appraised correctly.
âI wasnât asking if you'd chase me with shackles,â I added coolly. âI was asking whether Iâll be allowed to leave without strings tied to my spine.â
He didnât flinch. Didn't need to.
âEverything has strings, Y/N. The only question is⌠whoâs holding them?â
He leaned back, crossing one leg over the other, serene as winter.
âIâm not here to own you. Iâm offering you a way out. A way forward. One that doesnât end in you rotting behind some Knights of Favonius desk, or worse, being sent to die for someone elseâs pride again.â
That last word hit harder than I expected.
He knew, he was seeing right through me. Like how I studied him, he also studied me, it was obvious.
He knew I wasnât just some bored desk rat who wandered into Snezhnaya for a little thrill. Heâd looked deeper. Somehow. And he was digging it all up now, laying it on the table like cards he knew I couldnât ignore.
âI donât trust you,â I said, finally.
âIâd be disappointed if you did.â
My eyes dropped to the untouched sugar cube beside his cup.
This wasnât a game of good versus evil. It wasnât a matter of pride, or country, or vengeance. It was a matter of vision, his and mine. And for a second, I realized the terrifying part wasnât that I disagreed with himâŚ
âŚitâs that I didnât.
I stood slowly, my chair scraping softly against the polished wood floor.
He didnât stop me. He didnât rise. Just watched.
âThen let me give you what you seem to enjoy so much,â I said, steady again. âA maybe.â
He let out the faintest breath of a laugh. Not smug. Not pleased. Just⌠entertained.
I turned, pacing carefully toward the door. I wouldnât give him the satisfaction of looking back. Not yet.
But just before I reached the threshold, I heard his voice againâmeasured, echoing softly in that dim, suffocating room.
âDonât take too long. Opportunities have an expiration date.â
I didnât answer. I couldnât. Because if I did, I mightâve said something I wasnât ready to mean.
Instead, I stepped out into the corridor. My head was high, heart pounding and told myself the same thing Iâd whispered in the mirror that morning:
âEverything will be juuussst fine.â
The hallway felt colder than before.
Not the kind of cold that brushes against your skin and vanishes. The kind of cold that reminds you that somethingâs changed, even if youâre not sure what.
I didnât rush my steps. Not because I wasnât shaken, but because I couldnât afford to show it. Not here. Not while the walls had ears and the floor was probably reporting to someone in the next room.
Each step away from him felt like stepping back from a ledge you didnât know youâd walked to.
Archons, that man was dangerous.
Not just in the obvious ways, not in the assassination, detonation, blood-on-gloved-hands ways. No. This was worse.
He was the kind of dangerous that crept inside your logic, wrapped around your reasoning like ivy, and whispered, What if heâs right?
I hated that it wasnât easy to dismiss him. Hated that somewhere, in a shadowed corner of my thoughts, part of me kept replaying his words. Not the threats, as he hadn't even made any. That was what made it worse. They werenât threats. They were possibilities.
The one that didnât have me spending the rest of my days rotting behind Favonius stone, pretending not to hear the rot in the councilâs decisions.
I found myself outside the hotel without realizing Iâd passed through the lobby. My hands were in my coat pockets, fingers curled tight. I donât even remember the soldier who opened the door for me. Everything blurred.
The city buzzed around me. Carriages clattered in the distance, heels echoed on stone, merchants argued about fruit. Normal things. Ordinary. But I wasnât quite in it.
I crossed a narrow bridge over one of the frozen canals and stopped halfway across, leaning against the railing.
There was a dull burn behind my eyes. It wasn't even my tears though, it was something else. Something heavier. Maybe frustration. Or recognition. Or both.
The truth is, I hadnât really belonged in Mondstadt for a while now.
They perhaps liked me because I followed rules. Or I was useful, which is okay.
But Pantalone liked me because he saw that unleashed side.
The difference was terrifying.
But also⌠intoxicating.
I looked down into the icy water below. The reflection of the sky fractured over ripples and frost, unsteady and uncertain.
A âmaybe,â Iâd said. And I meant it.
Not a yes. Not yet. But not a no either.
And thatâmore than anything elseâwas the part that scared me.
Because for the first time in a long time⌠the idea of staying still felt more dangerous than moving forward.
The frostbitten air pressed against my face as I stood on the bridge, eyes fixed on nothing.
I hadnât thought about home in years. Not beyond the surface. Not beyond the script I repeated whenever someone asked why I left.
A simple truth, once. I had walked away from that crooked little house with calloused hands and pockets filled with promises. I was going to send money. I was going to return with enough to fix everything, like leaky roofs, sick beds, debts whispered about behind our backs.
But then⌠I got the letter.
No return address. Just the red-stained handwriting of a neighbor too shaken to spare details.
Hoarders. A raid. They took everything, including them.
I didnât cry. I didnât go back. I didnât bury them. I wasn't lucky enough to do so.
Because working meant not feeling. Earning meant not remembering. If I stacked enough coin between me and that memory, maybe I wouldnât hear my motherâs voice on the wind. Maybe I wouldnât see my brotherâs silhouette every time I turned a corner.
So I climbed ranks. Took on jobs others called suicide. Lied. Stole. Bled. Smiled. Made others smile.
Anything to keep the gears turning. Anything to keep the ghosts quiet.
And now, now this man, this Harbinger with a voice like velvet and a mind like razors, he was offering me more.
More coin than Iâd ever dreamed of.
More danger than Iâd ever tasted.
And for the first time since they died⌠I wasnât sure if money was the distraction anymore.
I straightened from the railing, exhaled into the cold.
âIâll consider it,â I whispered to no one.
The silence had settled in like fog.
I hadnât heard from him. Not a letter, not a knock, not even the flicker of a shadow that mightâve suggested his interest lingered. Pantalone was many things but needy was not one of them. He didnât chase. He planted seeds and walked away, certain they'd bloom.
And yet, today, a letter arrived at the Knights' headquarters, not for me, but for Jean.
A brief note, penned in that impossibly neat Fatui calligraphy:
To Acting Grand Master Jean of the Knights of Favonius,
We appreciate your cooperation in the matter discussed during our diplomatic audience. As promised, the delivery of the agreed productsâfinalized with Miss Y/Nâwill begin shortly.
Regards,
Lord Regrator.
She walked into the common room that afternoon, the letter in hand, her face gentler than Iâd seen it in weeks.
âYou didnât mention it went so well,â she said, patting my shoulder like a proud commander. âI knew you were capable, but this was exceptional. We needed this deal even though we dont like Fatui. You were brilliant.â
I smiled, hollow. The kind of smile you give when someone unknowingly thanks you for the lie youâve dressed in diplomacy. The kind of smile that hurts more the longer you hold it.
But my mind wasnât in that room anymore.
It had been spinning since I left the hotel.
Spinning like that chandelier Iâd memorized, just in case I needed to jump.
I didnât remember packing. But when I looked down, my saddlebags were full, some supplies, a second set of gloves, the blade I never used unless I meant to kill. I hadnât even touched half the things in my home. Left the books, the trinkets, the small comforts. Left them like I might come back.
Like I wasnât really leaving.
Before I stepped out, I scrawled a quick note for Jean. Nothing too detailed, but just enough to spark the right questions.
Jean,
Thereâs something off with the Fatui. I saw things in Snezhnaya, things I didnât understand until recently. I believe theyâre orchestrating something bigger than we imagined, something that spans all of Teyvat.
I need time.
Please trust me.
âY/N
I sealed it, left it by my window, and mounted the horse Iâd never named.
The winds outside the city had a different taste today. It was drier, colder. Something was shifting.
And I was running toward it.
I reached the border post faster than I expected. The Fatui caravan was already on the move. Rows of sleek carriages and soldiers in formation, cloaked in black, with a quiet efficiency that made my skin crawl.
I spurred the horse forward.
The guards flanking the rear noticed immediately, forming a defensive arc across the road. One raised his arm in warning.
âHaltâState your business, citizen!â
âLet me through!â I barked. âYou know who I am!â
âOrders were to proceed without interruptions. Lord Regrator isââ
That voice, soft, deliberate, without even the need to raise it, sliced through their formation like a command.
They all stepped back in unison.
Pantalone emerged from the second carriage, gloved hands tucked neatly behind his back. He looked like heâd been expecting someone else entirely.
But when he saw me, something flickered in his eyes.
He took a few slow steps forward, the heavy silence dragging behind him like a second cloak.
âYouâre late,â he said simply.
I dismounted but didnât approach.
âYou didnât wait,â I replied.
He gave a faint shrug. âI find that when people want something badly enough, they find a way to catch up.â
I didnât answer. My heart was thudding, not from the ride but from the line I was about to cross.
âSo?â he asked, tone light. âDid you come to threaten me, or... accept the offer?â
âI came to tell you,â I said slowly, âthat I havenât decided.â
He studied me for a long moment.
âBut you left,â he said. âPacked. Rode out here. You acted. That's what matters to me.â
I hated how well he could see through people. But I also hated that he was right.
Even if I hadnât said the words yet, my feet were already walking the path.
He gestured toward the carriage.
âNo binding contracts. No blood pacts. Just... travel with us. Observe. Learn. Iâm not asking you to serve me.â
He stepped closer, enough that I could see the pale glint of his eyes.
âIâm asking you to understand me.â
Then I gave the smallest nod.
And in silence, we rode toward the next border.
Toward the edge of a map that was already starting to burn.
Chapter 3 will be uploaded soon!