LAMENT.

[armoredone]

I'M A POPULAR MONSTER. #ARMOREDONE / an independent low activity & selective portrayal of REINER BRAUN of ATTACK ON TITAN

Written by DJ ( they/them ) / 30 ( blog is under HEAVY construction. )

an exploration of mental illness, ptsd, childhood trauma, indoctrination, brainwashing, compulsive heterosexuality, sexual repression, redemption, forgiveness, learning to live again, never ending guilt, and a broken man. ( reiner's canon story is full of triggers and heavy themes, look under the cut for a more specific trigger warning regarding his canon and my own personal portrayal. )

**TRIGGER WARNING** Reiner's canon story involves s*icide attempts, child abuse, murder and all around a lot of trauma. I will not shy away from dark topics on this blog, Reiner is a character who has suffered a lot and has put suffering on others. When I write angsty meta or meme / thread responses they will be angsty and heavy, and I will try to tag everything appropriately.

Furthermore, my own personal portrayal will also include internalized homophobia ( for at least his time pretending to be a soldier ). I write Reiner as gay, his mental illness and multiple personalities along with some compulsive heterosexuality ( Marley comes off as a h*mophobic society to me ) made him repress this part of him, something he only explores with Bertolt whenever he allows himself, and more often than not he forgets about it after. My Reiner was absolutely in love with Bertolt and his crush on Christa was a figment he created for the persona he crafted to fit in with the rest of the scouts.

**RULES**

First and foremost, the mun is named DJ, I use they/them pronouns and I’m 28 years old. I have been roleplaying on this website for over a decade now and I have seen pretty much every drama known to man on here. I will NOT be getting involved in whatever drama is unfolding in the RPC these days. I’m here to write my muse and enjoy myself. Because of this you will never see me reblog a call out. I don’t want to see them, though I will block if the person in question is truly dreadful / a predator, but I will not involve myself. In turn, I will also unfollow if you continuously spread call outs, I personally am not here to get involved in petty drama.

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I cannot stress this enough. Reiner is not that great of a person, he has committed some terrible acts, things he carries around on his shoulders constantly. It's very important to his character and I will not sugarcoat how much of a hypocrite he is. If you're a puritan who can't handle nuanced characters and character growth or need every character to not be PROBLEMATIC!!!! Then do not follow me, this blog is not for you.

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When it comes to formatting I have grown past the need for fancy formatting, small text with a few bold and italic words here and there and maybe an icon, but that's it. You can format all you want, but I won't go all out and make anything crazily fancy.

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As I am very much over the age of eighteen, I will not be following blogs that are written by anyone below the age of 20. It’s just a personal preference and I apologize in advance for it. That being said, this blog may be NS//FW at times whether it be more adult themes or plain smut.

I love shipping, I like writing romance, plotting is usually required for longstanding ships, but feel free to send in shippy prompts to test the waters. Usually chemistry with our writing is required though, so please don't assume!

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I’ll be the first to admit that I’m not the best at plotting. I have ideas here and there, but I’m actually way more better at continuing prompts or winging it. Please keep this in mind when you ask to plot.

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My discord is open for plotting and chatting but I will not write on there.

[biosurvive]

not my reiner acc but my steam is ready for tis the season

[maxthieriot]

[armoredone]

it's the way i know he makes such pretty noises when he ( gets shot )

[armoredone]

logging in to show off how beautiful surfer reiner is, i am OBSESSED

[armoredone]

writing rei*bert as my first response since logging in, it's pride month, reiner's love for CAWK, it's truly a time to be alive.

[armoredone]

i'm not embarrassed! i'm just… flushed because of the heat… / modern / bernadette

@prodigum

THE HEAT WAS STRONG FOR A SUMMER DAY and yet Reiner knew the truth. It was a dance and song, a rhythm they both moved to ever since puberty set in and their friendship had become something else. For the most part it was unsaid, too afraid to make waves, too afraid to disrupt the status quo, and in Reiner's case too afraid of what others would say.

They were alone though, his mother wasn't present to breathe expectations down his back, people at school weren't looking onward, ready to spread news through the town like a wildfire where it'd eventually burn across his childhood home and ignite explanations and fears he wasn't quite ready to face. When it was just the two of them like how he preferred most of the time, he could get lost in the fantasy. Lean into his best friend, unnecessary physical contact that was so natural for them both.

BERTHOLDT HAD A FAMILIAR SCENT, A FAMILIAR GRIP. When arms bumped it was magnetic, like two halves coming together in a way that was meant to be and so when Reiner leans in and barely ghosts his lips along his friend's jaw it's a test. A taste of what he truly wanted, of what he hoped Bertholdt wanted. Basking in the light of his best friend's glow, light that he hoped he'd spend every waking moment in, together in all the ways that they wanted with no fear and no chains binding them down.

Until that day though, he could steal moments, and watch as Bertholdt blushes so sweetly and gets riled up from the smallest of touches. This was their spot, a hidden away alcove near the park, trees were their veils when they were there. A spot that was just their own since they were kids. Here, he could make his beloved rive.

" Bertl. " His name drops from his tongue like honey, sweet and heated, lips moving back to marking Bertholdt's jaw, following a pattern he knew by heart now. " If it's so hot we could always shed some layers. Will that make you less embarrassed, or more? " He asks, ghosting his finger tips along the hem of the other's shirt, digits barely grazing along exposed flesh.

" Or we can just sit here and pretend like I don't want to touch you everywhere. Your choice. "

[armoredone]

I'M A POPULAR MONSTER. #ARMOREDONE / an independent low activity & selective portrayal of REINER BRAUN of ATTACK ON TITAN

Written by DJ ( they/them ) / 29 ( blog is under HEAVY construction. )

an exploration of mental illness, ptsd, childhood trauma, indoctrination, brainwashing, compulsive heterosexuality, sexual repression, redemption, forgiveness, learning to live again, never ending guilt, and a broken man. ( reiner's canon story is full of triggers and heavy themes, look under the cut of my pinned post for a more specific trigger warning regarding his canon and my own personal portrayal. )

[armoredone]

happy pride month to my fellow queer aot fans ( and reiner ) reminder that this exists and tears my heart out every time i think about it

[justaholesir]

MAX THIERIOT as Clay Spenser SEAL Team (2017) Season 3 Episode 15: "Rules of Engagement"

[armoredone]

Reiner and Porco hate sex ranks supreme.

[armoredone]

that dance moms quote: and then there were two. nobody likes us. the two bitches are left.

us smashing our muses together while there's a near silent dash ( also annie whenever reiner and birdfeeder get handsy )

[armoredone]

bertholdt screaming "REINAH" when he [redacted] / @prodigum weigh in on this

[mcflymemes]

AS SAID BY LELIANA - ROMANCE *  lines taken from the leliana romance in dragon age: origins

what i'm trying to say is... is that i trust you. i'm comfortable around you. i know you'll be there when i need you.

well... aren't you sweet and attentive?

oh, the games you play.

did you know your eyelids flutter when you dream? and you have such pretty eyelashes.

listen, i want to spend the night with you. there, i said it.

where's the fun in that?

now come with me before i lose my patience.

i do not regret any of the pain, the anger, the loneliness... because it brought me to you.

i... love you. it's so wonderful to say that to someone again.

there isn't much more i can say. my feelings have been laid bare. you are... very special to me.

i'm here for you.

i might need some company... and you're not too irritating. you're welcome to come along if you like.

it is settled then. you and i... wandering the world, seeking our fortunes. i can't wait.

maybe you should let your softer side show more often.

i enjoy those nights when we stand guard together, talking to pass the time in those small hours.

sometimes following your heart, not your head, leads you to remarkable places.

i enjoy the nights at camp. the night always seems more peaceful to me. safer.

sometimes i succumb and fall asleep, and wake to find you still watchful and i know you're watching out for me.

you are our leader, and my friend, and... sometimes i think that maybe we could be more than that.

i knew this would come up sooner or later.

even in the midst of this darkness, there is hope and beauty. have faith.

no more lies between us, at least in this.

it feels good to have this off my chest. thank you for listening, and understanding.

flowers? for me? oh... they're beautiful.

thank you so much for remembering.

this story is one of my favorites, a tale of love so great and so enduring that it defies death and moves the gods to action.

sometimes i ask myself, does such a love exist? can it exist?

i never expected you to say that. it is... a pleasant surprise.

i have to say there is a certain severity to you. finding a person behind that all is nice.

i'm not embarrassed! i'm just... flushed because of the heat...

you often show signs of intelligence and you're fairly good looking... most of your facial features are in the right place.

you're already helping so much by listening to me.

people are starting to look at me strangely. we will speak of this again, i promise.

you don't know how it makes me feel to hear you say that.

now it's getting late. i think i might... turn in early.

i can't help thinking about how soft and warm my bedroll is.

you know i enjoy your company.

it would be nice if you came with me.

stop pretending you don't know what i want.

i've been up for some time, but yes, i slept very well.

i've just been watching you sleep.

knowing you will be the first thing i see when i wake gives me no small amount of comfort.

i feel safe in your arms. safe, loved, and accepted. this is where i belong.

you are my dearest friend and my love. you lit my path through darkness and i will stand with you, to whatever end.

i imagine that whatever you get up to, it'll be anything but boring.

[maxthieriot]

Clay Spenser - Shirt & Tie appreciation post

[gemoglobinchik]

C0mm for @irina-oganer

[armoredone]

@prodigum

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