aren holzer.

❛ just keep holding their necks and selling them sex. it's better if we keep them perplexed, it's better if we make them want the opposite sex.

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SIOBHAN

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siobhan had been walking behind someone on her way to get food for only a bit, unsure of their destination, but quite sure about the big pink splotch on the ass of their jeans. “hey yo ma.” siobhan called the guy out in front of her. “i think you sat in some shit. not like actual shit, but shit as in gum or something pink.”

        He’s snapped out of his daze by a voice that could only be calling for his attention, after all, Sunday mornings don’t tend to amass big crowds. “ Oh shit really ? ” It’s rhetorical, his hand already trailing over his jeans until his fingers meet a sticky substance. He doesn’t exactly want to pull it off, but he doesn’t really have another choice. Though, it’s easier said than done, the gum’s thoroughly intertwined with the denim fibres. He successfully attains a PIECE of it, skeptical towards whether he’s gotten all of it. “ Any better ? ” 

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WOLFIE

       His concern would other times be appreciated, though now? Not nearly as much. ❛ I will! Whenever I get the time. Three kids, dude, it’s a lot of work.  ❜  Blaming his children for his own reckless behaviour might not be the best course of action, but it’s not the worst, either. He shrugs, hands brought up: admitting defeat.  ❛  I’ll call them in the morning, alright? S’that good enough for you?  ❜  

      His face is imbued with SYMPATHY, his own responsibilities were SCANT compared to that of three children. He wants to tell him to MAKE time, but he remembers the HIERARCHY of kids versus their parents, the health of a father ranking LOW when babies were involved. “ PERFECT. ” He remarks, and he even gives a playful thumbs up in GOOD faith. “ How’s the MOM doing ? ”

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WOLFIE

      Aren’s not wrong. And even though his avoidance of appointments had been kept on the lowkey, the revelation had been brought to him before. By himself. The question isn’t whether he knows he’s screwing up or not, it’s whether he cares.  ❛  I’ve made it this far, haven’t I?  ❜  The comment is one of jest, though it holds certain, unintentional, gravity.  ❛  Dude, it’s nothing! Just boring ass check-ups. Like going to the freaking dentist.  ❜  

      He shouldn’t get ANGRY, simply because he doesn’t have the RIGHT. Though his temper TICKS at him, his teeth grit and his eyes wander to create a charade of NONCHALANCE. “ Yeah, yeah, I KNOW that. ” He halfheartedly assures, though this time he doesn’t try to force a SMILE. He takes a deep breath before returning his gaze. “ But you’re too SMART to be making STUPID decisions. Go to the appointments. ”

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WOLFIE

         Wolfgang knew how to bullshit his way through just about anything, but, God, if he wasn’t a terrible liar. Subjects are avoidable so he won’t be forced into a corner where poor excuses & horribly made-up half-truths are his only escape. Though, at this time, it was difficult to make his way out of the conversation with a witty comeback.  ❛  I– Wouldn’t really know. Skipped out on the last couple appointments. I’ve been busy! I’m sure if I was fuckin’ dying they would’ve been able to tell me over the freaking phone– welcome to the 20th century, right?  ❜  

        CONCERN washes over wearied features, the extent of it yet to be deciphered (or rather, AVOIDED). Though, Wolfie’s attempt to DETER from the seriousness of the situation was quickly CAUGHT. “ How’re they gonna tell you if you’re dying if they don’t SEE you ? Bring bring, hey it’s the HOSPITAL, you better come in -- -- oh wait, you’re DEAD because you’ve been SKIPPING appointments ! ” He strives to speak with notes of LEVITY, and FORCES a smile but it’s hardly enough for the compensate for the MORBIDITY of the words. Dark hues avoid direct contact, the cracks in the sidewalk providing REFUGE instead.

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WOLFIE

          It was no surprise that Aren picked up on the confession, anyone would’ve, but still, the teensiest of groan managed to escape the older regardless. ❛  Heart problems… Been shit since I was born, so– PROBABLY not going anywhere anytime soon. Fingers crossed, right?  ❜  The sentence ends with a chuckle, one more forced & awkward than intended. 

      His judgement towards the WEIGHT of the confession was an off-kilter scale, the trouble in recognizing the SERIOUSNESS of the claim expressed through the confusion of his features. “ Why’d I have’ta keep my fingers CROSSED ? ” A nervous laugh escapes thin lips. “ How SHIT is SHIT ? ” He asks, his smile intended only to console HIMSELF already WAVERING.  

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WOLFIE

          The male’s agreement ‘caused a weight to be lifted from Wolfie’s chest, and a smile was formed onto defined features.  ❛  Alright ! That’s … that’s awesome, man. Thank you.  ❜  Truth be told, Wolfgang hadn’t expected an immediate response from the older. And he was more than willing, and prepared, to offer him a couple of more days to consider. Weeks, even.  ❛  I don’t know, sleep deprivation’s a silent killer, isn’t it ? Maybe one of those movies will FINALLY scare me to death. Got a heart problem, too–––  ❜  He cut himself off, forgetting his own, previously, well-kept secret.  ❛  Uh, don’t have that great of a diet, either.   ❜

      He crosses his arms over his chest, and gives a FIRM nod of his head. Maybe the ANXIETIES regarding the proposition will appear, but CONFIDENCE propels his mood, a wide grin seemingly SETTLED on features. “ Heart problem ? ” He queries, a single brow raising. “ You got HIGH cholesterol like an OLD man or something ? ” He quips, as a small CHUCKLE is elicited from thin lips. “ Best start  drinkin’, y’know the stuff that them old folks drink - ENSURE. ”

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WOLFIE

     ❛   sounds pretty fucking cliché, but yeah. guess i’ve OFFICIALLY got that fatherly intuition and shit, y’know ? dad of the freaking year. but, uh … you’re supposed to have a BACK-UP, right ? like if you bite it before they hit the BIG 1-8, and  my parents would KILL to get their hands on ‘em, but … three kids it’s A LOT, trust me; i know it’s a lot to ask, –– SHIT. gotta name someone godparent, y’know ? and i thought – HEY, why not my buddy aren who kinda kept me from a fucking meltdown. whatever. you can say no, it’s cool.  ❜

        The request catches him off guard, instinctively raising his brows in SURPRISE. Pure shock sends adrenaline coursing, heart racing at a HUNDRED miles per hour. “ Yeah ! Yeah of course. ” He replies before his mind can even FATHOM what he’s agreed to. The edge of his lips turn upwards, growing into a WIDE grin. “ Ain’t like you’re gonna kick it soon anyways, reckon you’re too BUSY to be DYIN’, raising kids and makin’ movies. ”

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WOLFIE

     ❛   yeah, yeah – but … it’s harder than it SOUNDS ! they’re–– i love ‘em to death. it’s fucked up to jus’ leave them alone like that. plus, if one starts … TRIPLETS, dude. doesn’t sound right. – – – s’not what i’m here for anyways. i wanted to ASK you something.   ❜

      “ Ah so you DID get it then. Y’know the whole thing where ya just had’ta take one look at ‘em and now you’d give your LIFE for them ? Just think of it as TRIPLE the fun. Triple all the GOOD STUFF. Oh yeah, what’s that ? ”

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WOLFIE

    ❛   what ? no ! maybe … like, later. i slept TWO HOURS last night. an hour. 120 minutes. probably less ! i mean, i slept way less back in college, but ––– fuck. i’ve got this, come on; you don’t think i know i got this ? i do got it, right ?   ❜

     “ I mean, the eyebags are KINDA’A good look on ya. But JESUS CHRIST man, you gotta get more sleep than that. Ain’t there that thing where you just LET the kids cry, s’meant t’a be GOOD for ‘em or something ? Would it make you feel better if I LIED to ya ?  ” 

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MAVERICK

      “when you become president of sheffield, i declare your first duty to make this place more eco-friendly. y’know, AREN 1996.”

      “ My first promise as president is not t’a make any PROMISES. That’s what FUCKS OVER all the presidents, makin’ promises they can’t KEEP. But recyclin’ plants, programs and initiatives will be at the very TOP of my list ! ”

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WOLFIE

     ❛   yeah, yeah – s’gotta be in the future, though. pretty fucking far. i dunno how people do it, man … i’m EXHAUSTED. working moms gotta get SOME cred, holy fuck.   ❜

      “ You ain’t gonna fall ASLEEP on me are ya ? You got this ! Ah fuck it, you HAVE to GOT THIS, you ain’t gotta choice, you SUCKER. Sleep ain’t THAT important, right ? ”

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TARA

     ❝     you’re not like what — a big dog ? you’re not a big dog ‘cause YOU don’t think you are . if you can dream it , you can do it . that’s what i say at least ‘cause i’m a “ stubborn asshole ” but without the disrespect of course . just brutal honesty … with other people , at least . i guess that’s why i don’t get along with them ; they don’t handle CRITICISM well .     ❞

      “ I don’t wanna be a BIG DOG. I got no doubt I could be, I jus’ don’t WANNA be - that shit ain’t shit to mess around with. I think that’s ALL parents. Even if you’re right, you ain’t RIGHT. Think it’s ‘cos they think it’s like their DUTY or somethin’ - to be right. S’like if they ain’t, they doin’ parenting wrong. You handle CRITICISM well ? ”

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What am I supposed to do? I don’t know what to do.

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WOLFIE

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     ❛   i don’t know–– if i was in SEVENTY films over THIRTY years, and spent each one talking at random volumes, i might accidentally win an oscar.  ❜

     “ I dunno’ man, ain’t DEFENDING the dude but he does have SOME range. You jus’ can’t pin him down you know ? Maybe part of his appeal is that he’s just really fucking WEIRD. In any case your OSCAR ain’t gonna be a FLUKE, whatever shit you make, it’s gonna be GOOD, I know it. ”

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MAVERICK

      “do we have a recycling plant? is sheffield THAT caring about the environment?” 

     “ Huh, never thought about it. Probably NOT. If you collect enough I can drive it up to HARTFORD, but then the GAS would be just’as BAD for the ENVIRONMENT. Just can’t seem t’a WIN.”

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i know a place // muna

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