I have a sinking feeling about Qifrey and where his story is headed. [EDIT 5/28: NOT PERMANENTLY!!!!! I THINK HE WILL HAVE A HAPPY ENDING!!]
MASSIVE spoilers and maybe slightly long-winded theorizing below the cut.
I believe quite certainly that Qifrey intends to reveal the complete truth to Olruggio very soon, and that while he seems to be accepting his fate, he is trying to maintain as much control over the terms of what he believes to be his inevitable end as possible.
Following the events of Chapter 88, after he reveals his nature as a Silverwood host to Coco, he asks to postpone his complete confession, wishing to be able to reveal the truth elsewhere, in a peaceful place beneath a wide open sky where his roots would have room to comfortably grow. He has described the land around the atelier in this way many times before.
Later, when the entire group is finally reunited and Olruggio tells Qifrey they’re going home. Qifrey’s expression looks pained for a moment, before he answers, “Alright then. Let's go home. Our atelier awaits."
His verbal recognition of the atelier as his home is a rather glaring signal that he is beginning to accept his imminent end and has chosen the atelier as his ideal final resting place. This is hinted at early on in a sequence during which Beldaruit spoke to Riliphin of the Silverwoods, and implied that he knew of Qifrey’s condition as he privately worried that his beginning to think of the atelier as his home could be dangerous for him.
At a point during their journey home, we return to the group to find the girls all asleep, while Qifrey has distanced himself from the rest, sitting on the bank of a lake to write in his book. Olruggio joins him and points out how far he’s sitting from the fire.
I think this was probably intentional in an effort to be closer to the lake to keep himself anxious, since it is my personal theory that here, Qifrey is actually writing a letter to Olruggio in which he tells him the entire truth, and that the narration through the next arc is comprised of excerpts from that letter. The lake is intended to be a failsafe of sorts, since of course, we know that vocalizing the truth to Olly is Qifrey’s greatest comfort trigger, while water touching his skin is his biggest anxiety trigger. Given this, it makes sense for him to choose this particular spot to begin to release the truth so he has a means of keeping the Silverwood at bay readily available should he need it, which he evidently does later on.
In the segments that follow, Qifrey reminisces on how he and Olruggio crossed paths at the Great Hall and became close.
Through the end of chapter 91, we watch the story unfold neutrally as though it is happening in real time, with no narration, but in chapter 92, something shifts. As soon as Qifrey’s recount reaches the part of the story that would have been lost to Olruggio’s memory, a past-tense narrator voice begins to cut in, and suddenly, it becomes clear this story is being told to someone, not merely recalled, and not just to anyone, but to Olruggio by Qifrey. This is the strongest evidence that what we’re reading is actually the contents of a letter to Olruggio.
All of this indicates to me that Qifrey is not just reminiscing, but is actively preparing for the end. The telling of the story, the physical and emotional distance Qifrey has put between himself and the others, and his now repeated framing of the atelier as both home and the kind of place where he would want to be forever, are all supportive of that.
As far as we know, Qifrey hasn’t been the one to initiate a full confession since they were kids at the Tower of Tomes. Spilling his guts in a letter written under duress is probably a new tactic, and it’s a smart one, as it ensures Qifrey can get the complete truth out on his terms without the usual interruption from the Silvertree, and if the others read it without him around, then he also doesn't have to worry about the potential for harming them with his transformation.
Him wanting to be away from his loved ones when he changes is what has me especially worried for him now, because Olruggio and the girls just left the atelier, leaving Qifrey there by himself. Maybe I'm projecting (probably), but the thought of Qifrey leaving a note before seeking out a means to essentially kill himself while they're split up makes my stomach hurt. Painfully though, it does feel in character, especially now that he's vocalized his trust in his students, particularly Coco, to carry on his mission. Olruggio, please go home now, your husband is an active danger to himself!!
Fortunately, Hiehart and Jujy pay the atelier a visit, but even upon greeting them, he does already seem on edge and uncharacteristically down. He's clearly having a hard time. I think he WANTS to live, but he's also teetering on the edge of thinking he doesn't get to live anymore.
Hopefully, whatever Hiehart has to say will get Qifrey out of his head and convince him to keep living for a little while longer. I'm guessing he's going to ask Qifrey to take on Jujy as his apprentice. I guess we'll just have to wait and see.
Anyways. To conclude, here is Qifrey’s directed narration/possible excerpts from a letter to Olruggio compiled:
Every day I turned my gaze away from the encroaching dread, and for as long as I was in the dark, I was happy. I greeted each morning with excitement, for with the rise of the sun came another adventure with you. I thought if I could retrieve the past I lost, my joy would be as genuine as yours, and perhaps I would have a real chance to share in your happiness. A child can dream. Like ordinary boys, we would share our visions of tomorrow with each other and we would laugh at how far away it all seemed.
Little did I know that felicity came with forgetting. It was a bliss born of ignorance. If I knew what I was… If I knew that I was never meant to be saved, I would've stayed far away from you, the sky’s kindest, most radiant star.
I once read an old poem that likened stars to boats sailing through the sky. But as far as I know, boats don’t twinkle like stars. The light doesn’t come from the vessel itself, but its guiding torch. Like your pyreball, it burns at the bow. A beacon of light in the dark.
After that fateful day, you would uncover my secret again and again. Each time you would respond with disbelief. Then your face would twist and turn in anguish. And after biting back a few words, you would show me grace, and comfort me and forgive me for lying to you. And then, without fail, the Silverwood’s roots would grow. You would offer me the same path back every time, and I would take it, adding to my mess of sins.
I had often considered leaving your side. I thought that perhaps traveling alone would save me from taking away your memories. But even that minute solace was enough for the Silverwood. I knew then that distance would do nothing but break my promise to you.
So I had another thought: A master never wants for worry with apprentices to look after. The selfishness behind my reason for taking on pupils made me ill, but they’d never have to know that. So I decided to put every fiber of my being toward becoming a good educator. If only I had known then what a joy it truly is to watch your students grow with each passing day.
It’s somewhat rare for a Silverwood to take root in people. Unlike animals, they tend to hold onto too much anxiety. Which is why the tree planted in Custus that gave him his legs raises some questions. My right eye was the only one to sprout during the experiments. It must have some connection to the Silverwood in Custas. For so long, I thought I was the only host, but now I'm not so sure. There could be more victims out there than I ever imagined.
Did I make the right choice?
Would it have been better to throw everything aside and hunt down the brimmed caps?
Doubts like these turn in my head, but the moment I see my atelier, I remember.
This is where my heart is. This is where I want to be.
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[EDIT 5/28: just to be clear, i do not think qifrey's story will END with him as a tree. i am praying for dear life that it will culminate in something hopeful. i DO however think it's imminent that he will fully transform at some point, especially since they have explicitly established that it doesn't matter how far they've progressed, the process can still be reversed if their peace is taken away again. i think a significant part of coco's arc will include saving qifrey before she saves her mom, and think that her journey to the tower of tomes will ultimately result in her learning more about qifrey rather than finding the picture book. you can see more of my theory about her trip to the tower here]
had a silly revelation about silverwood trees yesterday.
Their parasitic nature is part of their visual design. Holoparasitic plants, those that can only get fixed carbon from their hosts and therefore require hosts, commonly lack any chlorophyll. This makes colors aside from green much more common in them; as expected, they can't photosynthesize.
Some examples include Monotropa uniflora, the genus Voyria, most family members of Orobanchaceae, and my beloved genus Rafflesia.
The silverwood trees are seen colored within certain illustrations, but they've been most recently shown in episode 4 of the anime. Here, you can see that the plant lacks green leaves which indicates a lack of chlorophyll.
The aesthetic of these trees always was indicating that they're parasites; what makes them magical is what they take from the hosts.
it's canon that he was an active experiment- yeah?
-> like, he was purposefully put in different situations to either distress him or make him feel safe so that the extents of being a silverwood host could be studied. and those studies were written down somewhere
i'm not sure Qifrey was ever genuinely 'rescued' from the Brims
Lestisse was monitoring how Custas took to his roots, that's also canon and it's how they knew what was going on when the tree receded
-> following this logic, Ininia is also being monitored- though she seems to be the only one that was ever actively aware of it
with how often the Brims love to hurt and terrorize Qifrey... I think one of 'em might genuinely be monitoring him too in some way- perhaps through his stolen eye
i don't think he ever truly stopped being their original experiment
Its going to take so long for the anime to even start the silver night arc.... I don't know how long I can endure defending Qifrey from the Dumbledore accusations on tiktok comment sections.
Yes the gay witch man is sus, no he isn't evil, yes he loves his students very much and cares deeply about Coco
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