Lucien Unspoken Words Date Translation with Commentary
I decided that the title of this date is “Unspoken words date” but it’s more like “words that you want to say but cannot say” Date.
This date happens between chapter 21 and 22. I strongly recommend reading this date before the new chapters are updated because I think the content of this date is semi main story. Also, this date has references to chapter 13 and chapter 16.
This time, I implemented commentaries in-between dates. Tell me if you like them or hate them.
I used Yōurán as MC’s name.
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In a dark laboratory, the computer monitor flashed a blue screen and the file folder named “memory” was empty. The dream recording device was broken and all data have disappeared without a trace.
A gleam of light flashed in Lucien’s dark eyes. He rebooted the device and quickly typed some words. A map of the city popped out. A red dot appeared in the old address of closed Ultima Bioresearch Institute.
(In chapter 16 we learn that if people leave Lucien’s dream world, they lose all memory of what happened in that dream. That’s why Yōurán forgot the latter parts of chapter 16. But Lucien has a device to record the lost memories so he could later retrieve them. At this stage I think Lucien figured out that he had memories with Yōurán in a different universe(chapter 1-18 world) and tried to use this device to see them. But any clues that could lead to memories of Yōurán are cut off. Like in chapter 20 when Yōurán found out that the pictures she took with Kiki vanished from her phone.)
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I stood at the front of the deserted Institute building and bit my lips.
I couldn’t believe that I had managed to escape from Ares’s grasp the last time I came here, but my sore body reminded me of what I did.
Lucien: Queen, by itself, is the height of natural evolution. If humans are the product of nature’s creation, Queen is a creation that ‘cannot exist.’
Lucien’s words from that day kept coming back to me, and how his eyes looked so deep and cold as he said that.
So I decided to take a risk. I intentionally leaked the information on the internet that a confidential file concerning people with special genes was discovered in the old buildings of Ultima Bioresearch.
Now, I was at the door of the research building. I took a deep breath.
Yōurán: He has to come, right? He knows what I am…
As I said to myself I opened the door, but before I could step in someone pulled me inside with an ice-like grip. The door slammed shut.
It was too dark to see who had dragged me in. But from the way they grabbed my wrists so tight I could tell they were not friendly. I instinctively tried to kick and fight my way out.
Yōurán: …Lucien? Is that you?
I didn’t know if I felt afraid, or something else when I heard his voice. Lucien soon let go of my wrists.
He was wearing black and standing in the darkness. Like the last time I met him here, I could feel coldness that made me hesitant to reach him.
Yōurán: I suppose you want to know why I came here, right?
Lucien smiled at my interruption, as if he was amused that I had seen him through.
Lucien: I will gladly hear your explanation.
came here because I missed you.
Reason kept me from saying what I really wanted to say.
Yōurán: I want to know why you’re here.
Lucien: Maybe letting you go free last time was a mistake.
As he said that, he slowly went closer to me.
Yōurán: I’m the one who leaked that information in the internet. Your coming here was my doing!
Lucien: That was you? Why would you do that?
Yōurán: Because I want to know what it means to be Queen in this world.
I looked at Lucien pointedly. His eyes seemed to hold mockery and contempt. Did he think that I was being ridiculous? I knew that I should get used to him looking at me like that, but it still hurt so much…
I stepped closer to him and met his gaze squarely.
Yōurán: I want to find out the truth, no matter how many hardships I have to go through.
This is not the first time I said this to you, Lucien. Don’t you remember?
(She’s talking about chapter 13)
Lucien: Do you think you can face the truth, even when it will hurt you mortally
His words brought back memories from a long time ago.
Lucien: And what if the truth shakes your entire being and tears you apart? Will you still choose the truth?
Yōurán: To face the truth, one must also face pain and suffering. I will not run away from them. Someone very important to me taught me that. And he told me he would accompany me along the way.
(In chapter 13, Lucien gave her two choices. To live a safe, tranquil life being protected and not knowing the truth, or to seek out the truth no matter how cruel it would be. Yōurán chose the truth and he said he would accompany her until the end - the reveal of him being Ares.)
I looked at Lucien as I said that. I wanted to know how he would react but also, was afraid of what he would say.
Something flashed in his eyes, but soon his gaze returned to the usual coldness.
Lucien: Only a fool would believe those words. He was deceiving himself and you by saying that.
I felt like something snapped in two in my heart.
Yōurán: You’re wrong. At least… at the time he said that, he wanted to be with me.
Lucien: Do you believe that?
Yōurán: I’ve had doubts, but I still believe him.
Lucien silently looked at me like he was amazed. After a short silence he laughed quietly.
Lucien: You are more impressive than I thought. It seems that I have underestimated you, Queen.
From the window I could see snow falling in the sunset. The wind from outside became colder and I shivered. Lucien didn’t miss my tiny movement and he wordlessly went to the window to block out the chill wind.
Lucien: I don’t want my enemy to fall down because she catches a cold. We are still contemplating the idea of cooperating with you.
Yōurán: Don’t worry. I will not fall down.
I glanced sideways at the wall. It seemed as if some sixth sense was telling me to look there. The wall was filled with grime and dust showing how old this building was.
Lucien: This is from the Corinthians. It means that the truth is projected into the hearts of men through a glass lens. It’s distorted, blurry, and one-dimensional.
I suddenly felt dizzy. What happened to the words written on the wall? How could they disappear without a trace?
Yōurán: There used to be some writing on this wall here, remember? We saw it together the last time we came here!
A little bit excited, I tugged at Lucien’s sleeves. He didn’t push me away, but he didn’t answer me either. His emotionless eyes told me that he had no idea what I was talking about.
I immediately pulled my hand away from him.
Lucien: What was it then? You said that there used to be some writing here. What was it?
Yōurán: “Through a glass darkly.”
I whispered the words. My head started to hurt. Lucien stared hard at the empty wall and then frowned.
Lucien: It’s a bible verse, nothing special. Except…
Yōurán: Did you remember something?
Lucien: If that verse really used to be here, who wrote that on this wall? Or what I really want to know is…
Lucien hesitated and his eyes looking at me became more intense.
Lucien: Why did you say that we saw it together “the last time we’ve been here”? Our only meeting in this building happened only a few days ago. Shall I remind you what happened at that day?
(It’s interesting that Yōurán thinks of chapter 13 while Lucien thinks of strangling her in chapter 21. This Lucien is not the Lucien from chapter 1-18.)
Lucien approached me briskly and I stepped back. My back reached the hard wall and there was nowhere for me to escape. His eyes turned sinister, like he was about to hunt a feeble prey.
There were a lot of things I wanted to say to him. But I doubted that it would work. After a short hesitation, I finally opened my mouth.
Yōurán: I told you. I have someone who’s very important to me. I came here with that person.
Lucien seemed unsatisfied with my evading answer and he continued to look at me with displeasure.
Yōurán: You look quite a lot like him, so for a second, I… mistook you for him.
I pretended to be calm as I said that, but my heart kept beating wildly.
Lucien froze for a moment, then his eyes flashed like a sharp knife. He closed the distance between us and grabbed my wrist tightly. I jerked my hand away, but he only grabbed it tighter.
For a few seconds we confronted each other like that, both sides unwilling to back off.
Suddenly, his hands gripping my wrist loosened.
Lucien: Why would I be angry at you?
His expression told me that he was being sincere. He really seemed to be puzzled at his reaction.
(omg I like this part. Lucien was feeling jealous of the other Lucien! And he doesn’t know that what he’s feeling is jealousy!)
Yōurán: If you’re not, then fine. I don’t want to create any misunderstandings. Right now, we are not even in a cooperative relationship.
Lucien: I agree. Where is the dream experiment data?
Suddenly, a blinding white light impaired our visions. I saw traces of tension in Lucien’s frown.
Lucien went outside and stood still in the snow.
His face turned menacing as he stared at the unwelcome guest approaching. I watched them hiding by the window. He was facing a few people. One of them had grisly scars on his face.
A white barrier surrounded them, and I could hear Lucien’s voice.
??: Long time no see, Ares.
They were from Black Swan. Did they come here because of the information I leaked? Would Lucien be in danger? Fear swept over me and I tiptoed to the front door to get a closer look.
Hades: You beat me to it. Once again, you showed that you are not to be underestimated. If we could work together…
Lucien; Don’t be absurd. I already turned down your offer and I have no intention of changing my mind.
(Poor Hades. He was rejected by Ares in chapter 16 and he’s being rejected here too.)
I couldn’t see Lucien’s face but his voice sounded extremely menacing. The face of the other man became sour and his false smile hardened.
Hades: Then let’s get down to business. Do you have the special genetics file?
Lucien’s answer seemed to enrage him even more.
Hades: Let’s not be too difficult here. Ares, you’re a smart person. You gotta know that my goals and your goals are not entirely contradictory.
Hades: Hand me the data, or cooperate with me.
Lucien: Do you think you are in a position to bargain with me?
Hades: If not, I have no choice but to get rid of you.
He raised his hand and suddenly a swirl of snowstorm swarmed over Lucien. Lucien stood still and waved his right hand. Ice pillars came out from the ground and shattered the snowy attack.
Hades: Exceptional work, Ares. But this is not over yet.
His face with the heinous scar reflected in the moonlight and became etched to my vision. Suddenly, I felt a gigantic shock in my head and everything became dark.
Falling down into abyss, scent of blood, Lucien whispering in my ear…
Lucien: Silly girl…. I didn’t lie to you… I will not sacrifice someone important to me.
His broken words poured into my head. I felt like I was suffocating.
(She finally recovered her lost memories from chapter 16)
In the distance I heard a gunshot and I came back to reality.
I opened the door and ran outside. Lucien must have heard me since he turned around to face me.
As he saw me running toward him I saw in his eyes surprise, wrath and a fleeting glimpse of intense ecstasy.
Yōurán: Are you okay? Are you hurt?
Lucien shoved my hand away.
Lucien: I’m fine. You ignored my warnings as always.
Yōurán: I followed my instinct and it brought me here. Someone taught me to trust my instincts when there’s danger.
The corner of his mouth went up a little bit.
Lucien: Tell him he’s wrong.
(Tell him yourself. She’s talking about you.)
With that Lucien dragged me behind him and protected me. A ray of white light just barely missed my shoulder. Fury was in his eyes and his smile turned sinister, as if determined to finish the opponent.
Huge snowflakes erupted out from his gloved hands, turned into piercing ice knives and shot forward. I could smell blood in the air.
I could feel someone coming for an attack from Lucien’s blind spot.
Without hesitation I pushed Lucien away from harm. A sharp blade grazed my cheek. At that second, I saw a look of shock in his eyes reflected on the surface of the icy fragments.
Another burst of blinding light forced me to close my eyes. When I opened them again, we were the only people there.
Lucien: It’s all right now.
I wondered if I was dreaming when I heard him gently talking to me like before. But when I looked at him there was anger in his eyes and I stiffened.
The cut on my cheek throbbed and I couldn’t suppress a grimace. Lucien raised his hand toward me then after a second thought, he put it back down again. Then he cleared his throat and avoided my eyes.
Lucien: Since you used such an unusual method to call me out here, I suppose you already made up your mind to deal with possible injuries. But… you didn’t fail in surprising me. Your powers are much stronger than I thought. My expectations weren’t futile.
Lucien: But you should know that, when the real danger comes, the values that you believe in might make you be in more danger. Next time, you won’t be so lucky.
Yōurán: I saved you in the end, though, didn’t I?
Lucien: ……Why? Why did you save me? And I’ve been wanting to ask you before… who in the world are you?
His each word became etched to my heart. I looked at my reflection in his eyes.
Yōurán: I thought you already knew. I’m Queen.
Yōurán: Shouldn’t you thank me for saving you?
Lucien: Shouldn’t you answer my question first?
I pretended not to hear him.
Yōurán: You owed me this time, so don’t forget to pay me back next time we meet. Then I will answer your question.
Lucien: Why should I trust you?
Yōurán: Pinky swear, then.
My unconscious action driven out from habit startled both of us.
(In chapter 13, Lucien and Yōurán made a pinky swear to fly kites together before the spring was over… which he didn’t get to keep.)
It seemed like nothing had changed between us, but everything was at a new starting point now.
Lucien lightly laughed at my childish behavior. My cheeks turned red and I put my hand down and made to leave.
Lucien: I thought you said pinky swear.
And you didn’t even keep that promise that you made long ago.
Lucien: Alright. I promise. Don’t forget to answer my question the next time we meet.
I turned around and walked away as if I was unfazed by what happened. I was afraid that my feelings bubbling up inside would burst out if I stayed any longer.
Lucien stared at her with amusement in his eyes…and some other sentiment.
Lucien: I look forward to seeing you again.
As she went further away from him, the beautiful colors faded and the world turned back to gray. It somehow reminded him of the dream he had forgotten a long time ago.
Lucien shook his head trying to keep his thoughts clear. But no matter now hard he tried he kept thinking about her face, her eyes, her looks of sadness. How she seemed to miss someone when she was looking at him.
Without knowing why, anger welled up inside him. He had no idea that this would affect him like this. He felt like a mariner roaming in the deep sea even though he knew his destination.
(Lucien being jealous of himself again.)
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When I was far away from the research institute I sighed.
Yōurán: Lucien, don’t you remember who I am? It’s me, Yōurán, who always used to pester you with silly chatter, wait for your stories every night, who learned from you to see the wider world…. who always chose to get closer to you even when you warned me away…
Next time we meet, I hope it’s spring. People will fly kites in this year too.
My memories of him were warm in my heart, giving me courage to encounter him with my back straight and my head held high.
It’s okay. Even when on my own, I can keep our promise by flying kites by myself.
One person held two people’s memories, so I was sure that I could face what’s to come with a braver heart.
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Lucien is the one who said “Love can lead people into traps. I’ll never let emotions stand in my way again.”
It seems that Lucien from winter Loveland City is going to fall into this trap too.
