I'm in love with my bestie in every way and just I understand poets and artists and musicians
I understand Orpheus and Patroclus and Eurydice and Achilles and love poems and gay ships and devastating love songs and heart wrenching love stories and Pax and Clay and Captain Cold and Discord and Kris and Susie and dancing and rhythm and how colors are more vibrant around her and how my heart calms just seeing her and how she feels like home
I understand why people say they would do anything for the person they love most i understand why Achilles lost his mind losing Patroclus and why Eurydice fell in love with a boy who made her feel alive
I understand the heartache of a widow and the thrill of being reunited and the stillness of looking at your lover while they do something mundane
I want to hold her close and keep her safe and i understand the fear of loss
I long to kiss her and hear her voice and i understand why lockets exist
I want to be near her always and i know i'll tear the world apart if anything stops her from being who she wants to be and i understand more viscerally than ever why activists fight for gay rights
I cant imagine a world where she could be hurt by the very fact that i love her
I look at myself and see how damaged i am and i understand the fear of being seen of being vulnerable
But i also see the world so much clearer around her and i would gladly risk my fear for the sake of being close to her
I want simply to be near her and care for her and show her i love her with small things
I want to carry her around and kiss her on the forehead randomly and dance in the kitchen and build her things and create for her
I want to show her how much she inspires me
I want to show my love and be loved in return
I cherish the safety i feel with her and i understand why couples call each other endearing names
I want to call her love, my love, and my heart, and honey, and sweetheart, and doll, and sugar, and darlin, and anything that comes to mind
I would love to hear her call me anything i think id melt on the spot
I want to be weak for her
I already am but i want her to know it
I want her to see what she does to my heart and to be proud
I want her to be happy and i want to make her smile