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some guy. mid 20s.

[artirov]

The Torn-Up Road | weirdcest

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summary:

“You know,” you mutter and lean back on your hands, looking up at Dean. His face is upside-down like this. He tilts his head, listening. “Ted’s from ‘round here.”

season: pre-series

words: 5,256

tags: codependency; weirdcest; recreational drug use; underage: smoking, drinking, drug use; eating disorders; obsessive behavior; suicidal thoughts; identity issues; slow burn; serial killers; abuse

[artirov]

[ read chapter 2 here ]

“You asked about Dahmer. Before,” you breathe out, trying to press Dean’s hand closer. “He was eighteen when he started killing. How old were you?”

season: pre-series

current total: 12,158 words

[cyxoi-chert]

[artirov]

not but that's the torn up road in a nutshell i guess. how very unfortunate

[according2thelore]

dean who pretends to be gluttonous to hide the fact there’s an endless black hole in his center that can’t desire anything and sam who pretends to be self-restrained and ascetic to hide the fact he has an endless black hole in his center that craves and craves and craves ✨

[fruitlessfangs]

“Dean’s siren being a man means he’s bisexual.” “No, Dean’s siren being a man means he wants to fuck his brother.” Stop fighting. Dean’s siren being a man means that he’s bisexual and he wants to fuck his brother.

[whiskeycherrypie]

Sam and Dean talking about each other requested by @zmediaoutlet

[24x81]

young writers in fandom will never understand the audacity we all had to be writing gratuitous smut on the shared family computer like your dad wouldn't click through to your untitled folder. i once printed my wincest smut out on my family printer and took it to school to edit and my mom found it when she was cleaning out my backpack. do any of you understand the lightning speed with which i had to in real time save myself. i don't think I did but at least she didn't ask any more questions

[24x81]

you don't understand the struggle, the hours put in typing that shit out in Microsoft word. listening to the same 4 songs you downloaded off limewire. printing it and smuggling it out of your house to edit between class. all of you, just typing away on your phones and personal iPads or laptops... I was drafting insane plots and terrible porn in a bright red duotang during my free time in ELA scrunched right over my desk so no one could see me scribble out the word cock

[zonedallthewayout]

Oh no poor cecil,how will our favorite carlos fix this

[inter-state80]

s1 is so beautifully gorgeously claustrophobic and you can feel the tension between these, like, very intimate close-up shots and tightly blocked scenes and then all the wide panouts to the open road and the car and the endless sky and it's like. okay. two brothers driving down the road together living out of motel rooms and duffel bags and sleeping in the back of their car. but then there's the the unending expanse of the interstate and a blue sky that stretches on forever. they're so wrapped up in their little world even though they're hurtling onward through the country, gas station to dive bar to pool hall. high exposure washes out half the scenes and the high contrast lightning obscures their faces half the time and everything is just so intimate and boxed in and magnetic. two boys in a motel room over and over again. my god.

[maryannwinchester]

Canon Sam and Dean meeting alternate reality Priest!Dean who always carries (what they assume) is a bible around & when they need help from him he starts working on a ritual only to smirk while looking directly at canon Sam when invoking his god “forgive me, brother, for I have sinned”.

Boy King of Hell Sam shows up.

Canon Dean and Sam failed to notice that wasn’t a Bible it was Sam’s own journal.

[johnwinchesterofficial]

my two oldest sons aren’t allowed to go to college anymore (too dangerous). what should i spend the college fund on now?

bullets, beers, and babes

renting a secret storage locker to protect the things i actually care about

life size dead wife body pillow

journaling supplies

apology gifts for bobby

it’s the back-up burner phone budget

carefully and purposefully distressed jeans #bluecollar

bullets again

completely refurbishing an oversized pick up truck for monster hunting

something practical like…. groceries? or day care? i guess?

sending my secret third son to college

finally purchasing a headstone for my dead wife’s grave

Voting ended onMay 14

[colourinverse]

I'm sorry but the POINT is that Dean wasn't good at raising sam.

Sam is salty about this ofc, which is why he gives Dean so much shit about not being good with kids even when he is actually great with them. the idea is that Dean Winchester, while being his brother's primary caretaker at most times, was still a borderline (canonically?) abused child. He made fun of Sam the way older brothers do, he got annoyed of Sam, he'd leave Sam to go "out."

He didn't do a good job at teaching Sam valuable things like "sharing is caring" or whatever but he kept Sam alive. He remembers that part of his childhood, which is why Sam is literally the most precious thing he has. Sam, on the other hand, remembers growing up with his jerk brother and an absent father instead of all the things dean had to do to keep him alive ((proved in the early flashback with the shtriga)), which is why he's so keen on just leaving.

None of their faults btw they love eachother to pieces but Sam didn't have the best childhood and Dean had no choice but to leave his behind.

[rewatching-sam-and-dean]

Ugh! Thank you!

All of this “Sam is kind because Deann raised him, but John raised Dean,” shit drives me crazy.

Sam tries to be better, is more understanding and tries to communicate (at first) in spite of how he was raised, just as much, if not more than because of how he was raised.

It’s not Dean’s fault that he couldn’t be a true parent to Sam because it was impossible for him to do so. And Sam didn’t not have a good childhood, either.

[jinkieswouldyoulookatthis]

Exactly. Dean was only 4 years older than Sam. There is no way that he was going to be good at parenting Sam. And, most importantly, a parentified sibling is still a sibling, not a parent. Dean is, was, and always will be Sam's big brother. That is Dean's role.

[nomettesbizzareadventure]

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[not-supernatural]

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[dean-ness]

[deanwincesterinmascara]

not to rehash the conversation but even fucking john and sam and being attracted to other men dean would never ever ever ever consider himself queer

[deanwincesterinmascara]

based on raw numbers in a sex work full house of wincest world dean may have slept with more men than women but that has nothing to do with his sexuality and I love that for him

[girlsonbrotherwife]

the first samdean kiss after sam left stanford would’ve been after the benders, with dean kissing sam’s forehead because sam is still kind of shaking from being kept in a cage and the adrenaline from needed to run from the police again, and his mouth is just right there and already open, and it gets desperate really, really fast

i don’t think they ever bring it up again or even acknowledge it until after john’s death

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