help me.

[ashamedheritage]

okay, so if… IF

IF

( the word ‘if’ makes no sense now )

credence is a dumbledore, then he is not the sibling of albus, because i just can’t accept the forcing of this change, but i like what the wiki is implying and this blog will go with that IIIIFFFFFFF this is the case then he is a cousin of albus, son of honoria.

there.

that’s where we stand.

[ashamedheritage]

okay, so if... IF

IF

( the word ‘if’ makes no sense now )

credence is a dumbledore, then he is not the sibling of albus, because i just can’t accept the forcing of this change, but i like what the wiki is implying and this blog will go with that IIIIFFFFFFF this is the case then he is a cousin of albus, son of honoria.

there.

that’s where we stand.

[stranger-in-naples]

[billy-crudup]

Percival Graves and Credence Barebone + eye contact

[ashamedheritage]

sorry for being quiet, i am active behind the scenes as i’m trying to plot with people!

[alystar00]

Credence: How’s the most beautiful person in the world doing?

Nagini: I don’t know, how are you, Credence?

Credence: *voice cracking and holding back tears* I’m fine

[ashamedheritage]

PERCIVAL .

        exhaustion.    dealing with half of the aurors in his division proved to be exhausting,  the work they had to do in the past few days seeming to only increase with each passing.    which meant more paperwork for them and even more for him,  keeping him to his desk when he felt he had other,  better,  things to be doing.    it had been a while since he was last confined to his office like this,  and it seemed he had forgotten how draining being stationary was.    his day ended later than usual and his briefcase was a bit heavier,  weighted with extra files he would have to go through at some point.    sitting down on the couch,  percival tried relaxing and forgetting,  for the moment,  that he had brought more work home than he wanted to.    it was only when he felt two hands brushing his hair back from behind that he was finally able to relax, leaning into the touch and closing his eyes.    “    you have healing hands,  did you know that??    ”

      ┆ @ashamedheritage​. ┆

For the time being he mostly sticks to staying in Percival’s home or if he goes outside then he does it with the exact intent of visiting Tina and Queenie. He doesn’t like to linger out in the open, he feels eyes are on him, he’s that poor boy, or that abomination. All his life he wanted to be seen, loved and appreciated, how sad it is that right now he would rather be invisible again. But the few people he feels close to help with his recovery a lot, aiding him in finding himself, gaining confidence and getting his abilities under control. One of the most important part of his life is happy though, the man who noticed him first, who helped him and guided him is here, the true him and he’s healthy again. He still finds it a miracle after seeing the state he was in at first, but he couldn’t be happier. It bloomed bit by bit, seeing him often and talking to him for hours, not knowing if in his heart he felt the same. Perhaps at first Credence felt grateful and had a fascination for someone who seemed unreachable, but that gap slowly closed and sealed shut all together.

Now he lived there, with him and although his days were somewhat lonely, he always looked forward to Percival coming home, showering him with love and care, giving back for all the good he received. With time he wants to step out of the shadows, hold his head high and become an auror, the way Tina and Percival were, doing good, fighting the good fight. But right now, brushing his fingers through Percival’s hair was enough and he smiles softly at the compliment.

“   I doubt that’s part of my   talent...   “     Destruction seemed to come more naturally, even if that wasn’t his choice, rather circumstances formed him in such a devastating way. But to hear Percival say it, it still meant the world.     “   But   IF IT HELPS YOU,   then it was already   worth it.   “     Slowly he leans down and presses a kiss to the top of his head.      “   How was your day?   “

[ashamedheritage]

please read   where i stand in terms of the development of the second film,   and like this if you’d like to plot something!

[ashamedheritage]

please read   where i stand in terms of the development of the second film,   and like this if you’d like to plot something!

[ashamedheritage]

just so people know where i stand with this whole film, let’s finally let it all out

       - MAJOR SPOILERS AHEAD -

in general, i think i had a massive issue with a large chunk of the story missing between the two films and therefore apparently jkr decided that she can just twist the characters as if the first film never existed and she doesn’t have to explain to us shit… queenie hurt me a lot like what the hell, but credence was equally bad if not worse.

he is nothing but a tool in here, drifting from place to place with no personality of his own. we have tiny snippets but… who the hell is he supposed to be? i do feel very strongly about his journey, i have never been physically abused, but i was in a mentally abusive relationship for a very long time that broke me down completely so watching credence’s journey, i couldn’t have been more upset with the idea that he’ll run back to his abuser like that… yes, i know he wore a different face, and technically credence was nothing but a tiny wisp in the air when grindelwald was revealed, but he must have been conscious, otherwise how would he got out of there? so surely he witnessed the reveal!

that man manipulated him, used him and when he thought credence no longer served a purpose he hit him! he hit him just like his adoptive mother did! credence was so furious with him he wreaked insane havoc in new york! and now he sees him and has no urge to lash out to try and destroy him when he went after that assassin guy with insane ferocity after he killed his only link??? he would actually let grindelwald touch him, embrace him?????

there is no way i’m going to accept that. this blog is canon divergent because i will not accept him falling back in the hands of his abuser.

so i will have two different variations for film 2 verses:

ONE)  i have had my version of the continuation of the first film, where injured credence follows tina and queenie home as them being the only two people who ever showed genuine care for him, especially tina, so he would slip through a crack in the door or window and slowly heal there until he can make his presence known.

or, TWO)  credence somehow recovers on his own and does join the circus in search of his identity, BUT he will not engage in grindelwald in any way other than trying to rip his head off, and once he sees tina, he’d be likelier to try and seek her help. anyone else BUT the man who already lied to him and manipulated him. 

[ashamedheritage]

please read   where i stand in terms of the development of the second film,   and like this if you’d like to plot something!

[letaker-deactivated20190812]

i    look    just    like    my    mother  .      i    guess    i    do    carry    her    tenderness    well  .  we    have    the    same    eyes  ,    because    we    are    both    exhausted  .      and    the    hands  ,    we    share    the    same    wilting    fingers  .    but    that    rage  …     my    mother    doesn’t    wear    her    anger  .    my    rage    is    the    one    thing    i    get    from    my    father  .        /      private  &  selective  leta  lestrange  .    penned  by  rose  .  

©

[ashamedheritage]

just so people know where i stand with this whole film, let’s finally let it all out

       - MAJOR SPOILERS AHEAD -

in general, i think i had a massive issue with a large chunk of the story missing between the two films and therefore apparently jkr decided that she can just twist the characters as if the first film never existed and she doesn’t have to explain to us shit... queenie hurt me a lot like what the hell, but credence was equally bad if not worse.

he is nothing but a tool in here, drifting from place to place with no personality of his own. we have tiny snippets but... who the hell is he supposed to be? i do feel very strongly about his journey, i have never been physically abused, but i was in a mentally abusive relationship for a very long time that broke me down completely so watching credence’s journey, i couldn’t have been more upset with the idea that he’ll run back to his abuser like that... yes, i know he wore a different face, and technically credence was nothing but a tiny wisp in the air when grindelwald was revealed, but he must have been conscious, otherwise how would he got out of there? so surely he witnessed the reveal!

that man manipulated him, used him and when he thought credence no longer served a purpose he hit him! he hit him just like his adoptive mother did! credence was so furious with him he wreaked insane havoc in new york! and now he sees him and has no urge to lash out to try and destroy him when he went after that assassin guy with insane ferocity after he killed his only link??? he would actually let grindelwald touch him, embrace him?????

there is no way i’m going to accept that. this blog is canon divergent because i will not accept him falling back in the hands of his abuser.

so i will have two different variations for film 2 verses:

ONE)  i have had my version of the continuation of the first film, where injured credence follows tina and queenie home as them being the only two people who ever showed genuine care for him, especially tina, so he would slip through a crack in the door or window and slowly heal there until he can make his presence known.

or, TWO)  credence somehow recovers on his own and does join the circus in search of his identity, BUT he will not engage in grindelwald in any way other than trying to rip his head off, and once he sees tina, he’d be likelier to try and seek her help. anyone else BUT the man who already lied to him and manipulated him. 

[ashamedheritage]

Part broken - part whole,   YOU BEGIN AGAIN .

[ashamedheritage]

i am still yet to rant about this second film, but i was out for most of today so... tomorrow i will.

[ashamedheritage]

❝ there’s absolutely nothing wrong with you. ❞

It’s hard to believe those words. Nothing? Truly nothing? No one else is capable of this, what he can do only caused harm and suffering, to him and everyone else around him. What he can do have only made people fear him, hate him or want to use him. Only a handful of people showed care, guided him in a way so he was not completely lost, so he had an inkling that he was more than just a monster, and he was one of them, at least before his likeness was used as a tool against him. That in itself seemed like another proof that something is definitely wrong with him. Even those who don’t wish him harm have been hurt because of him.

He wants to say all those things, but rather chooses to just nod slowly. His pain and anger doesn’t lie with him, partly, it lies with himself still, the teachers who taught him to hate himself for what and who he is have done a very good job. But his anger equally lies with those who implanted those ideas in his mind. But with Graves, the last thing he wants to do is argue, so he simply nods.

“   If you say so.   “

@directaur  |  HUNDRED RANDOM STARTERS ( ACCEPTING. )

[actualarchive]

a hundred random starters 

below are starters based on/inspired by various sources. change the genders as you see fit ;)

❝ why do you keep lying to me? ❞

❝ have you ever considered the idea that maybe, this world doesn’t revolve around you & your problems? ❞

❝ love is love is love is love. ❞

❝ marriage is an absurd arrangement. one is sold as a fifteen-year-old child and makes a vow one does not understand and then regrets for thirty years or more, and which one can never undo again. ❞

❝ why are you crying this time? ❞

❝ you will never escape. ❞

❝ this isn’t what I wanted! ❞

❝ everything has its consequences. ❞

❝ this face bears the mission of heaven. ❞

❝ no, you shall dismantle the house of lies, but build the temple of the divine. ❞

❝ one copper coin for a bowl of noodles! ❞

❝ that one has the heart of a lion. ❞

❝ I needed to be summoned. ❞

❝ there’s no reason for this hostility! I come in peace. ❞

❝ they died screaming. ❞

❝ why fight anymore? what’s the point of fighting against destiny? ❞

❝ how long have you known? ❞

❝ I can only speak for myself. ❞

❝ the law can be changed. ❞

❝ are you sure you’re not pregnant? ❞

❝ your child is adorable! ❞

❝ you gave him a riddle for his birthday? ❞

❝ you have no fucking right to treat me this way. ❞

❝ your ambition blinds you. ❞

❝ he adores you. ❞

❝ I feel like I should be shocked that you two had sex there, but I’m not anymore. ❞

❝ she’s going to kill you. ❞

❝ have you ever tried the cakes? they’re actually quite delicious. ❞

❝ you’ll need to be punished. ❞

❝ you should learn to lie better. ❞

❝ sometimes I wonder if you’re real. ❞

❝ I will take back what is mine & kill anyone who stands in my way. ❞

❝ then kill me. ❞

❝ there’s no such thing as love. there is only lust. ❞

❝ you’re selfish. you never think about anyone but yourself. ❞

❝ i’m sorry, but they’re gone. ❞

❝ death is just another adventure. ❞

❝ stop! ❞

❝ let them watch. ❞

❝ you have no shame, do you? ❞

❝ I can’t believe we’re talking about this right now. ❞

❝ I need advice. sex advice. ❞

❝ alright, tell me the truth, is he good in bed? ❞

❝ she is the best thing in my life. ❞

❝ you love him? ❞

❝ do you love me at all? ❞

❝ do you believe in soul mates? ❞

❝ please, you have to believe me. I didn’t kill anyone! ❞

❝ history is written by the victorious. ❞

❝ at least she has a heart! you have none. ❞

❝ isn’t it more important that they told you? ❞

❝ the king is displeased. ❞

❝ long live your majesty! ❞

❝ can you stop talking for just one moment & listen to me? ❞

❝ no matter how hard I try, they just won’t stay dead. ❞

❝ he’s a gold digger. he’ll screw anyone & marry them as long as they have money. ❞

❝ o! how sweet love must be! ❞

❝ do you really think that? ❞

❝ quick, you need to hide before they see you! ❞

❝ you taught me to never trust anyone. ❞

❝ this is extreme, even for you. ❞

❝ you guys were pretty loud last night. I guess it was good? ❞

❝ that wasn’t an apology & you know it. ❞

❝ are you a virgin? ❞

❝ I’m married. ❞

❝ best thing I ever did was marrying you. ❞

❝ red roses won’t erase the fact that you broke my heart. ❞

❝ stop taking all the ice cream! ❞

❝ has anyone told you that you’re sort of a little bitch? ❞

❝ it’s deep dish pizza. ❞

❝ do you want to fight for your land back or not? ❞

❝ I never realized how much of a coward you are. ❞

❝ there’s nothing worse than someone who isn’t willing to try new things. ❞

❝ haven’t you ever wanted to escape? to leave this place & explore the world? ❞

❝ i think you’ve had enough to drink. ❞

❝ your ancestors would be ashamed if they saw you. ❞

❝ one of the dolls is missing! ❞

❝ are we going to die here? ❞

❝ well looks like we’ve found ourselves in a bit of a dilemma. ❞

❝ I am no longer a child! ❞

❝ the baby won’t stop crying! i don’t know what to do anymore! ❞

❝ what if something happens to them? ❞

❝ once upon a time, I gave a damn about what people thought about me. ❞

❝ if he can get away with this, then so can i! ❞

❝ the dark shall come & take everything you love from you. ❞

❝ it’s the same story over & over again. you’d think people would know better by now. ❞

❝ there’s absolutely nothing wrong with you. ❞

❝ you are what is wrong with this world. ❞

❝ shattered dreams can drive anyone mad. ❞

❝ I am a phoenix. burn me & I shall return, rising from the ashes. ❞

❝ this is my home. ❞

❝ home is where the heart is, where you feel safe & warm & loved. ❞

❝ running away has never solved a damn thing! ❞

❝ fuck me. ❞

❝ oh the things I’d do to you if we were alone. ❞

❝ stop, he’s not here, remember? he’s gone & he can’t hurt you anymore. ❞

❝ your husband/wife – is he/she good to you? ❞

❝ stop & think a moment, you have to stay & rest. there’s a child who needs you now, you can’t just run & be a fucking idiot. ❞

❝ once, I drank a whole bottle by myself. ❞

❝ what do I want? I want to kiss you a thousand times before undressing you & kissing every bit of your flesh a thousand more times. ❞