Bruised.

It's Ashleigh. Not Ash or any other fucking ridiculous nickname you come up with.

[ashleighstiltner]

ki-rhee:

From the tone of your voice, I guess…not.

Wow, smart.

[kennedysalvatore]

I appreciate the blessing, oddly enough. I know you’re not, but I figured the offer should be on the table. It sounds corny, but I truly hope that this… isn’t just a fluke, and that things will go back to the way they were every time we speak now.

[ashleighstiltner]

I won't need it, but thanks. I guess we'll see huh?

[ki-rhee-blog]

That’s not a very nice thing to do. 

[ashleighstiltner]

Do you think I care?

[ashleighstiltner]

If one more person tries complains about being back at school to me, I'm going to whack them with a bat. Fucking deal with it.

[kennedysalvatore]

I understood what you meant. I think I have to say this is probably better. And really, it’s all because of Xavier. I’m probably too young to assume he’s my soulmate, or the love of my life, but I kind of do anyway. She can still hold him over my head, which is why I want to get him away from here. Just a little bit longer…. Ah, listen. I really appreciate you… doing this. Talking to me. If you ever need anything, anything at all, I’m here for you.

[ashleighstiltner]

Well you have my blessing to take him away, his room could actually be of use to me then. Yeah, well, I'm not a talking person. Anyway, I wouldn't have anything to talk about and I don't usually need to much so I don't think that'll happen. But, you're welcome or whatever. 

[walcottc]

I don’t really get the comparison, but I do work at Bulid-A-Bear, which I guess is close enough?

[ashleighstiltner]

Point proven. 

... Build-A-Bear? You're fucking joking. 

[ms-moretz]

Chloe Moretz for Flaunt Magazine

[kennedysalvatore]

Don’t count your chickens before they hatch. That’s the phrase. I guess I did. No, I know why you act the way you do Ashleigh. Because that was me. Perhaps it still is a little. You don’t want to let anyone in, to show them what haunts you, so you make sure they have no desire to get in. It’s what I did. Xavier was really the first one I let in, and I’m a lot happier now, but also I ended up getting hurt like this. Right now, while it’s fresh, I can’t tell if it was worse being alone, or having people who can let me down.

[ashleighstiltner]

Same effect. [Ashleigh felt an uncomfortable feeling in stomach as it felt like someone just ripped her blanket off, but, strangely, she didn't mind it being Kennedy. She at least knew to an extent what having parents like hers were and she knew what it was like to be her, or close to it.] I'm sure you'll figure it out, I mean you have all the time in the world - there's not much that bitch can hold over your head. Plus, you can escape it in less than six months. 

[ms-moretz]

Photoshoots in 2014

[kennedysalvatore]

That’s a world I can’t even imagine. The me as prom queen part, I mean. I’ve never cared about popularity, or having the highest friend count. But I put a lot of faith in those I do choose to trust, so I only hope they didn’t do this to me. I don’t mind being part of the ones that people don’t see. Do you?

[ashleighstiltner]

Yeah, don't count your chickens or whatever the fuck they say. Do I? You're not dumb Kennedy - you already know the answer to that. People might think I'm angry and want everyone's attention because I'm fucked up or something along those lines - but I'll bet you everything that's all they know about me. But like I said, you're not dumb.

[walcottc]

That was…a very creative thing to say. I’ve never heard that one before. You could be a writer or something.

[ashleighstiltner]

What can I say, your company is easy inspiration. Yeah, and maybe you'd be able to play Barney or some other fucking stupid kids show TV star because you're about as dumb as the lot of them.

[darciewhitfield-deactivated2016]

"Pink Sugar smells exactly like that: a huge cotton candy blast upon first spray. It’s intensely sweet, as if someone made cotton candy out of strawberry Starbursts.”

Ashleigh (ashleighstiltner),

I’m so happy that I got you as my Secret Santa. I got you one of my favourite perfume, though nearly every single perfume at Sephora is my favourite, this is certainly one of the top ten. Firstly, because it’s pink but mostly because it smells like cotton candy! Which makes this all the more perfect gift because the only time we’ve spoken it was about candy. I hope you will love it as much as I do.Happy Holiday!

Darcie ♥

[kennedysalvatore]

Ashleigh,

I hope this isn’t overstepping my boundaries or anything, but I was in the bookstore the other day and saw this and thought it was so lovely and rustic and unique. Admittedly, I wanted to buy it for myself but my mom once told me that buying a new journal before you finish your current one is bad luck.

Anyway, I thought this journal should go to someone I knew because I really fell in love with it and wanted to give it to someone. I completely understand if you don’t want it or have no purpose for it, but I really appreciate you being there for me when everything went down, and I thought this would be a nice token of appreciation.

Just do me a favor and if you hate it, just give it back okay? I might cry if it ends up in a garbage can.

Merry Christmas and all that jazz.

Kennedy

[ashleighstiltner]

Dear Cade,

I hate Christmas and we've never met but I'm guessing if we did I'd probably hate you as well and I think it's fucking stupid we have to buy things for people around the school, let alone people we don't know. But, since we have to do it I thought I'd embrace it in the classic Christmas cheer I'm known for. I looked in the cheap stores and I couldn't find anything that really screamed 'Christmas' to me, so I did some research online and foud the perfect thing. Did you know Metallica sell their own Christmas merch? It comes with a jumper and baubles and everything. 

Your Secret Fucking Santa, Ashleigh

[walcottc]

Now that we’re here, though, we may as well struggle through this together.

[ashleighstiltner]

I would rather spend it bashing my head in with a frozen turkey than with you.

[kennedysalvatore]

I call people out on their stupid bullshit all the time. I’m always so honest, and to find out that there are people being fake with me after I make the effort… it’s no wonder I didn’t talk to anyone for so long. That’s what I did, but apparently nobody else is smart enough to do that. People like us, we get typecasted, Ashleigh. It doesn’t matter how much we change. Everyone will always remember us for who we used to be.

[ashleighstiltner]

Of course we are. If there was a town where people cared actually gave a shit about one another enough to actually look at everyone around them rather than the people in the spotlight, then people would probably make me go to therapy and you'd be prom queen. But it's not like that - never will be, and some of us just have to deal with it. 

[walcottc]

Oh, oops, if I knew that I never would have initiated this conversation.

[ashleighstiltner]

No shit.