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collected thoughts

[sheiskindasweet]

[guessillalwaysbethisway]

Grocery lists I collected when I was a cashier

[prettylittleplace]

Fairy Glen, Scotland

[anasternie]

here, there, and everywhere

[nemfrog]

Leaves of elm, maple and oak. The National encyclopedia. v. 10. 1923.

Internet Archive

[ashroe]

So many big life changes coming up, pretty sacred about it.

Also, hello. I’ve not been here for many years now. About to mini blog often, like the good ‘ol days.

[angelicxi]

          IMAO KEINEN           kacho gafu, 1891

[shakespearesdaughters]

February kind of feeling

[dailyrothko]

[dailyrothko]

Mark Rothko, Untitled, 1960

© Kate Rothko Prizel and Christopher Rothko

[ashroe]

I want us to be together without bothering about ourselves- to be really together because we are together, as if it were a phenomenon, not a thing we have to maintain by our own effort.

D.H. Lawrence

[ashroe]

[ashroe]

The heart is, after all, a muscular organ. And like all muscles, it has to be trained to be strong. It will be bruised by anger, hurt and fear. But it will also be stronger when it loves.

And I can’t believe how big my heart expanded, when I see your beautiful smile.

[ashroe]

I fell in love. I fell deeply in love. And you were not ready to love me, and you wanted me to let you go.

Your name is Daniel. You are a wonderful tall and lanky guy, with hair so crazy and eyes so beautiful. I find solace in inhaling your scent, I feel grounded by your voice. I love that that you speak softly to your mother, I love that you make space for your friends and family, I love that you let me depend on you. 

Farewell, sayang. I will love you for a very long time. 

[btsaudge-deactivated20220717]

Fix You ~ Bangtan (Cold Play cover, MTV Unplugged)

[ashroe]

I guess I like you; A little more than I’m prepared to; But it’s not something I can undo; Guess I’ll just have to follow through.

[ashroe]

New Moon in Aquarius. I set my intention and prayed sincerely, for my journey in the next 3 years at least.

[ashroe]

The heart is, after all, a muscular organ. And like all muscles, it has to be trained to be strong. It will be bruised by anger, hurt and fear. But it will also be stronger when it loves.

And I can’t believe how big my heart expanded, when I see your beautiful smile.

[ashroe]

What happens when I ‘feel’:

I get a headache, the bad kind. The kind that makes me want to vomit. Then the pain spreads to my neck and my shoulders, then to my back. Then to my gut, and in my gut is where I feel it the most. It’s like someone punched me, and then something broke and starts spreading. From the gut, it moves to my arms and my limbs. I cannot speak, but I can cry. And I’ll cry, and that makes my head hurt even more.

I don’t think this is anxiety (that usually comes with the inability to breathe), it’s just a feeling of being overwhelmed. I’m not joking when I say feeling is deeply and painfully uncomfortable for me. It’s very tiring and confusing.