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[ask-starbucks-dva]

if you really want to give me more shit theres my main and my rwby rp blog so you can go bother me there

[ask-starbucks-dva]

whatever. i turned off asks here, ill turn it off on the rest of my blogs tomorrow and start collecting the rps i want to save so i can delete these blogs and be done with it. i want to be friends with everyone here, but not if youre gonna sit here trying to justify what you did to people i care about. 

[ask-starbucks-dva]

fine whatever yall isolated someone just because you didnt want to be friends with them even though they were extremely kind and didnt do shit to deserve that

but what about my friend?? firebugs mun wasnt isolated until they said they didnt want their muse to forgive a muse that caused them physical and psychological trauma. no mun and especially no muse is obligated to like your poorly written oc and yet thats how people fuckin felt because if you didnt like her youd get treated like shit

[ask-starbucks-dva]

like i dont give a fuck abt how yall treated me anymore i care about how the people i love were fuckin treated

[ask-starbucks-dva]

I ignored Nick because I couldn’t care less about him and I wasn’t interested in making friends. He wasn’t on my radar. You need to accept that it wasn’t this evil concentrated plot. You can call it ‘isolating and forcing out’ but the reality is nobody cares. It’s that simple and benign. Nobody is owed my attention just because they’re alive. You have an unpleasant, demanding and self centred personality. So that’s why I didn’t want anything to do with you either. Your bratty replies are proof.

yall didnt even give him a chance. i had to fuckin comfort him on his birthday bc no one could so much as say “happy birthday” to him. but then his muse has one breakdown and suddenly yall care about his existence because apparently one breakdown is worse than all the other shit yall did. 

[ask-starbucks-dva]

You reject literally anything people say even when you’re wrong so what’s the point in saying anything? people give you earnest reasons and you just disregard, say OKAY BUT, and totally invalidate everything said to you. That has certainly never changed. I can’t wait until tomorrow to see what new excuse you have not to delete and just leave.

sounds to me like yall KNOW its bullshit that my fiance got ignored over NOTHING and my friend got ignored over not liking someones fuckin oc

[ask-starbucks-dva]

People sometimes don’t like other people and that is 100% valid. If the negative aspects outweigh the positive aspects of friendship with someone than you owe nobody an explanation or justification for cutting that out of your social circle. Sometimes people will just not be friends with a person just because they aren’t interested in that and are happy with the friends they have. Also 100% valid and demanding reasons and explanations doesn’t te people they made the wrong choice. The opposite.

okay but that doesnt give yall the right to totally isolate nick the way you did and also like...firebugs mun was included up until they said their muse wouldn’t forgive their abuser and thats...awfully fishy looking

[ask-starbucks-dva]

im gonna close my ask box this time tomorrow but i want to know what yall had against nick and what yall had against firebugs mun bc from what ive seen they were just pushed away and isolated for no reason but if theres more to the story i want to know.

[ask-starbucks-dva]

Look. Im done here. When i get home, im going to look through my archives for rps i want to save. Im going to close my ask box on all my rw blogs, get what rps i want to save, and then delete. If you wanna talk or whatever else for any reason, my main is @happyeffect my new rp blog is @poisonicecreamcone and my discord is neowo#0879

Just understand these things im still upset about:

The main thing is the fact that firebugs mun and nick never got any apologies for being isolated. I dont even know which one being ignored is more bs: nick for no reason, or firebugs for their muse not forgiving their abuser

No one admitting that hey, my friends were in the wrong too and shouldnt have treated you that way

And the fact that i just...never TRULY got a chance to show ive changed. I was ignored. Constantly. Talked over and pushed aside. It stung like hell because i just wanted to have yall as friends again

Theres other stuff but honestly? Theyre so small i cant even be bothered

Ill start taking care of things once im home and stuff.

[ask-starbucks-dva]

OMG you really had the need to post that about your rwby gang LOL COOL nobody cares, just have fun with them i dunno what you were trying to accomplish with that

Showing yall how simple being a nice person is lol

[ask-starbucks-dva]

also can you just delete please. it will make everyone including yourself happier. you cant keep accounts for archives if you truly wanna forget all this

I want to have my rps archived bc i like lookinh at my own writing to see how its changed

[ask-starbucks-dva]

yeah mr 'i let it go', that's why youre posting here

I have though! What i havent let go of isA) people still treating me like shitB) no one admitting their friends were in the wrong too C) the fact that neither firebugs mun nor nick never got an apologyESPECIALLY c bc there was no reason to treat them the way yall did

[ask-starbucks-dva]

RW isnt what you are describing, and for a long time you were a happy part of the community and made friends. Your own refusal to let drama go and learn how to let go and move on is what created this entire current situation. Be careful about throwing stones at the people who claimed you loved just so you can perform for your new rp community as a victim.

i let it go and forgave everyone involved. yall were the ones still holding things against me. yall are the ones that did shit like...getting mad at me for saying “hey this person has treated me really poorly” (which, to this day, NO ONE but two people have acknowledged).

it really is what im describing. its exactly what im describing 

yall ignored my fiance constantly, tried to make everyone feel obligated for not only them but their muses to like a frankly not very well written oc (the abuse cop out was terrible, flat out), isolated people who didnt like her or didnt want their muses to forgive her (see firebug), constantly ignored peoples requests for certain plots and things to stop (the fucking torture rp, the suicidal and dying muses, making sexual jokes AS PEOPLE ARE ASKING FOR THEM TO STOP), and set up a terrible double standard (me talking about someone behind their back=horrible evil bad people talking about me behind my back? a-ok! also the fact that nick’s muse had a mild breakdown and he was told he was going to far but not well...i could name like 5 examples just off the top of my head) 

and then you acted like you were giving me another chance but completely ignored me and shut me out no matter how hard i tried to get close to yall again.

but hey whatever yall can do yalls thing, ill be in a group of people that appreciate me and appreciate my muse and actually treat me with some form of kindness

[ask-starbucks-dva]

its amazing how much nicer the rwby rp community is than this one all because of such a small couple of things-they listen to and appreciate everyone. they talk to me and rp with me and comfort me when im down, i had someone tell me like five times in a row that im their fave neo rper in the community when i mentioned being insecure about my writing last night.

 and they drop stuff when someone is uncomfortable with the topic because they want everyone to be happy and comfortable regardless of their personal feelings. AND they uphold everyone to the same standard instead of telling someone not to do something and then turning around and doing the same thing, or letting their friends do the same. 

[ask-starbucks-dva]

Like yeah what i did was wrong but yall are sitting her sending anon hate and deadnaming me

[ask-starbucks-dva]

Lmao nice @ the person that just sent me a message using my deadname yall are such good fucking people arent you

[morinokunikara]

People from my old rp group say that i cared too much abt what fictional characters do as if i didnt get someone dm'ing me saying “your characters cant say anything bad about my character defending a child murderer” or like a fuckin 19 year old didnt guilt trip us for our characters saying negative shit about said child fuckin murderer